what you need (prod king theta)

prod RRAREBEAR 

Another night 

I am lonely walking home

I wonder why Im alone 

I feel cold 

I tell myself all my goals 

But I wonder if I’ll make them 

Or will death himself prevent them





And idk if I’m to blame 

Empty bottles crowd my place 

Empty feelings crowd my brain 

If there’s blue skys 

Why’s there rain 

Every meal tastes of gray 

How much longer with this pain 

How much longer in this place 

How much more do I have to take 



And I don’t want to feel this way 

put fake smiles on my face 

Ill wear knooses as my chains 

And keep knives tucked in my veins 

close my eyes to find escape 





And if I were to leave this place 

Would they care or waste my space 

Erase my face 

Erase my words 

Erase the existence I had in this world

I Was Walking Home From The Station When I Realized My Fate

prod king theta

I don’t want to feel myself
I day dream of someone else
Even my family thinks I’m crazy but I’ll never change myself
Smoking seven stars in my old car
Thinking of the past
And the pacts
That I
Made to
My friends
I forgot
But I’m sorry
I made them in the first place

I’m so sick of myself
But I don’t need help while
Having these meltdowns like nuclear silos
I try to lie low
It kills me to lie tho
Having these meltdowns like nuclear silos

I was once somebody’s something
But now I wake up to nothing
Plz just tell me one thing
Do my feelings mean nothing
Put new ink on my skin
To help happiness seep in
I got goose bumps on my skin
From fear I have within

Nuclear Silo

Last W33k (Prod Etherial)

You are listening to a boy sit in his room with recording equipment and to much time on his hands scream an moan into his mic

My grandpas wheelchair got a flat tire

Chicken noodle coup

I went shopping today and saw the Costco guys and they made fun of me

There’s no color in my world anymore 
The only time I see color is 
When blood poors from my face 
Because I disassociate while shaving 
Every meal I eat without you feels like I’m 
Chewing sand, it’s so devoid of flavor that 
Even my silava jumps 
My heart curls in my chest when I think of your smile because I’m reminded of how cold it’s become without your warmth. 
I challenge myself to get better everyday by taking a shower and putting on my shoes and going for a walk. But the sounds of the outside world all sound like violent reminders of how alone I am, without your voice echoing through out my day there’s no joy in being able to hear. 
The thunder of the trains going by as I stand closer to the edge drown out the thoughts and reminders of how pointless it all is and just for a moment as the thunder roars I feel peace but it too fades just like the feeling of warmth I once had and more and more I creep closer to the edge praying the thunder takes me to the clouds where I can finally find peace, closer to the sun where I can finally find warmth and closer to the stars so I can finally gaze upon your eyes just one more time. Because if nothing matters then why can’t this train be thunder why can’t the sun be your embrace and why can’t the stars be your eyes. The problem is you are more than my world. You’re everything. You’re the stars the sun the clouds the sky. You’re the only thing that made me understand the world because you were the only world I’ve ever had.

Marshcreek Road

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