LONG FALL MASTER

i’m scared of the dark while i’m outside
our clothes were off and still our bodies lied 
about…

what were we doing? 
what were you doing? 
was it genuine? 

stay in 30 degrees while i start baptizing  
i liked their eyes on me until i wish i didnt. 
i could just be your proud sin 
you could be my last beginning. 
i gave you countless confessions 
and all you gave me was nothing. 

still scared of the dark when im outside. 
listen for coyotes, keep quiet
subtle things always seem to bite me
you’ll forever have teeth

i watch the pool and think about drowning
it’s not that i wanna stay sad
it just keeps happening 



[ Produced by Fear of Making Out ]

Dipping (Sped Up)

tell me a lie
i’ll fly towards it 
i’ll be your bird 
consume your stale words

coming to terms 
that you’re two dimensional 
most of the time
but when you metamorphosize … 

im fucked im feeling my body pulses
i grow wings and learn how to float 
and i’m right in front of you
ready to choke 
on whatever you’ll give me 
i’ll feed on 
whatever your willing 

then you’re gone again
already gone again 

this is more than my anxious attachment
you’re disorganized with your heart 
and 
you fall behind
you fall short

coming 2 terms / mourning dove (raw) demo

watch an angel seep into my skin
it’s a blue testament: allowing people in 
but trust is a crushed menthol between my lips
we broke up and you called my best friend crying

show your love to anyone but me 
anytime you’re wrecked you just leave behind debris

it was a lie, that entire summer
started with “i just sent you a letter”
then  you flew…


[ Studio help by Sari Jordan ]

Blue Testament (Studio) Demo

hand on his face
like he’s bored with me
interpret his body
like it’s got everything 
       2 do with me

Hand on His Face (demo)

his face is a fly on the wall of my back
he kissed me
really kissed me
until our bodies consolidate to flesh
when we’re in bed
he looks at me and says 
“this feels different” 
insecure / at ease
insecurities 
insecure / at ease 
insecurities 
at ease

Insecure / At Ease (demo)

i’m scared of the dark while i’m outside
our clothes were off and still our bodies lie
about…

what were we doing? 
what were you doing? 
was it genuine? 

stay in 30 degrees while i start baptizing  
i liked their eyes on me until i wish i didnt. 
i could just be your proud sin 
you could be my last beginning. 
i gave you countless confessions 
and all you gave me was nothing. 

still scared of the dark when im outside. 
listen for coyotes, keep quiet
subtle things always seem to bite me
you’ll forever have teeth

i watch the pool and think about drowning
it’s not that i wanna stay sad
it just keeps happening 

[ Produced by Fear of Marking Out ]

Dipping

your pupils 
can’t escape your iris 
don’t know if your brown eyes are black
believed all your lies 
loved you til i got sick
¿ was it easy for you to never commit ?
my therapist
says i’m a masochist
you gave me bruises 
i’ll admit 
here we go again
lovers disguised as friends 
here we go again
a love that you’ll pretend
a love that you’ll pretend

the color of your eyes meant something (demo)

the first time 
we spent time together
we examined the space
between pain and pleasure
and you told me all your secrets
within our first five minutes

the next day i saw your long sleeves
your outfit had a new meaning
and i started sweating
you put on a sweatshirt
and said it’s better to forget me 
better to forget me 

we went to the park to listen to water
you had framed shadows on your eyes
to cover the scars of your mistakes
i’m not blaming you
please make it out of your sorrows
i know i would feel pain when we got close
but i don’t regret getting close 
i just hope where you are
you’re feeling less cold
you’re feeling less cold

the space between Pain + Pleasure

a warped cherub 
offering demos + b-sides

Mary Violet

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