Frustrations exist, and
It's hard for me to explain
Why exactly it's like eating sand; 
I just feel drained. 

Studying for what? 
I know all the right answers, 
I know I should be grateful, but
I just can't lower my standards. 

I want to enjoy what I study, 
There's no point otherwise. 
Perhaps it's my conscious that is muddied, 
Maybe I need to compromise. 

Self-reflection is a scary thing, 
Something we all try to avoid, 
But I'm tired of all the stinging
Ways when I could have life enjoyed. 

I don't want to be here, 
But I'd be miserable anywhere else, 
I know I'm not alone in this, we're
in this together, not just myself. 

So maybe I need to relax a little,
Go take a hike or something fun. 
Give myself an acquittal, 
Maybe some needed time in the sun. 

My time here has been tough, 
I miss my girlfriend a lot, 
But I'll see her soon enough, 
For now I need to do the things I ought. 

Like figuring out what next to do, 
When all I have is everything I need.
Though I have things I need seen through, 
Like getting that college degree. 

For now, yeah, I'll be fine-
I won't like it, but I'll survive. 
Maybe with some help divine, 
My motivation will be revived. 

Prayer would be nice right now, 
I certainly wouldn't mind, 
It's about time I go to bed, how
I wrote this so late, I'm blind.

Frustrations

Imperfect people: witness his perfection,
His glory, his love- to those he has elected,
To be called his own, to be made his sons, 
For this Christ died: to make you undone. 

That God in Heaven would be glorified
By me a sinner, now sanctified,
Is beyond my ability to express emotion,
That he would die for me a whore? Devotion. 

Devotion at Winona Lake, Indiana

Self-Righteous Culture Wars at Winona Lake, Indiana

Reformed by soteriology
Lazy eschatologically
I don't care about church polity 
More concerned with hermeneutic quality

I find tradition so comically
Overlooking scripture illogically 
Holding on to verses obviously
Written analogically

I can't help but think philosophically
About the theological mess correspondingly 
Connected to excess baggage so regrettably
Carried by believers ideologically 

Human pomposity
In spite of God-given generosity 
Doctrines of grace ignored so methodically
In the name of theological reciprocity 

Body of Christ anatomically 
Disfigured by man-centered theology
Applying humanist morality
To scripture- a travesty

Mason Whitaker