who said i wouldn't be there..?

this song is about a girl who gives all of her love away and leaves none for herself...

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lyrics:
Who said I wouldn't be there
I'ma stay with you all week if you leave me alone for the weekend
Baby, I still need my me time
Making up money and time that I lost
You try finding yourself in the meantime
That just ain't something you do
Your love ain't selfish, you pass it along
So you leave your passion exhausted
That feeling you give me is something I'm fond of
But this is beyond us
Well, this is beyond me
Pressure is on me to give what you give me
When I just don't got that to give ya
Leaving was never an option but baby
Just don't make me make a decision
You need a grip cuz we losing touch
I'm at my limit, it isn't enough
Why you got bugs all inside of your stomach
This love shit is getting me sick to my gut
All that I do isn't making the cut
The butterflies died, that's a butterfly knife
I still gotta find what I love in my life
So I ain't finna die for the love of my life
But who said I wouldn't be there
I'ma stay with you all week if you leave me alone for the weekend
Baby, I still need my me time
Making up money and time that I lost
You try finding yourself in the meantime
That just ain't something you do
That just ain't something you do, do
I found your heart
It's barely beating
Your veins are bleeding
We can
Wake up, go out
Baby, we can hang
Wake up, go out
Go out with a bang
Make up, aroma
Just like an open flame
Wake up, go out
Go out with a bang
Who said I wouldn't be there
I'ma be with you all week if you leave me alone for the weekend
Who said I wouldn't be there
I'ma be with you all week, just leave me alone for the weekend
The weekend

rose gold

tarin.

PRECEDING THE LONG ANTICIPATED RELEASE OF J. COLE'S "THE OFFSEASON," MATREAH TAKES THE CLASSIC "TALE OF 2 CITIEZ" BEAT PREVIOUSLY REMIXED BY KENDRICK LAMAR AND HE PAINTS A MURAL WITH IT. ENJOY AND LISTEN ON YOUTUBE FOR THE LYRICS.

LYRICS
ay fuck the industry these rappers manufactured, marketed, bought and sold (body and soul)
deceptive with their flesh but my sensors detect the clones
a tumor grow in the shadow an d length of kendricks control
but conception of this professions when this problem was born
army of oddities honest all of yall look like fair carnies, but this isnt fair hardly
a bar for every snare, my thoughts are trapped in prison
ayo my problems make me all your favorite rapper isnt
ay what i mean is i am opposite my opposition
and for them to want a match with me is fucking masochism
ay take it back when i slit my wrist as a little kid, cause misery is company
6 of my friends were misfits, 6 of them needed a hospital  6 of them were admitted
all because of genetics and some cause parents dismissed them, let me state that i miss them
yet i state inflential their wicked ways led me quick astray from innocence and happier days,
that is to say i think we differ in the paths that we take, i know some people play with needles
but there's no vaccination from the sickness 

we don't fuck with fake or faux or fabricated,
human that display of your hubris get you eradicated
mucus, my spit is mutinous, foolish to fool with i,
my drool is enough solution to liquefy humankind
medusa, move frugally when deciding to use your sight
for if you look at me cross, then you will get crucified
and i have no look alikes, so better you look alive,
and best that you look away from me, lest you should lose your life
and better yet, leg it, messi, or let it get messy, exit the premises  
before i set my m67 atop the mezzanine
powerful the hands with a rocket launcher
the rapidfire flow comparable to a concertstopper
i know you heard me
legend says a second excellent emcee is destined to persevere to the precipice just as death gives his second kiss 
eye at the dying lantern 
did i mention the cancer?
pray to god he don't answer
pray to god he don't answer

TALE OF 2 CITIEZ FREESTYLE

A introspective piece about my dealings with mental health and its relationship to my music. Triumphant and vulnerable, this is one I've worked on and wanted to share for a long time.

DIFFERENT/LIMITLESS

BROKEN BELIEF

still numb in my dreams

things look up and i smile and thank the universe
instagram @matreahthegod

lyrics:
chaos turned Chameleon
My pallete turn from gray
Seen her face turn bright vermillion
My whip look like meringue
Ay Matreah how you dealing
I'm actually dealing great
I been floating catching feelings
Just to watch em drift away
Lime stars on the ceiling
I'm vibing in my space
On the line with my mama,
I'm boutta drive outta state
My mind on some commas,
to commandeer where lll head
I see the prophecy wrote,
I white it out and I change
I write my fate it says 

Well i thought it so i guess it oughta be 
i’m beyond the fallen soldier that i thought i’d be 
I can get some weird looks, i’m an oddity 
People see no hero cause they never read the prophecy 

Menace to these meanass, guess my meanings my mistakes i made  
i can’t stand to watch the play-by-play, i watch it fade away 
i can’t handle having all these hacks i rather hack it off, 
i can’t go outside, im way too hot, i take my jacket off  	

if i turn my back, it's OK if you follow me
Itd be a shame to abandon each other 
when usually fear is the reason we leave
but i have your back so just stay at my side
and the rest is a trip, we can journey together
the laughter and hardships both strengthen our bond.
and if I do not die with you still on my mind
then I don't know if I was even alive
And if I do not die with you still on my mind
Then I don't know if I was even alive
I will walk to the threshold of living and death
and hand in hand pass through to the other side 

And I have known love throughout my whole life
And i hope there's love still within your life

i asked the sun to shine

ig: @matreahthereedflute
I've got a swordfish for a loan shark. hear the panic when they- see the metal flash 💥
and they're screaming like it's Go-Karts
Squealing down the boulevard, this drill it sounds like Mozart 🔫
burn it down and make my LP sound like Linkin Park, let's go!
running with the jewels, that armored Benz replaced the metro 🚌




SWORDFISH_2

this is something I wrote about the beautiful surrender of love, and the pain and vulnerability that comes around too

flasks//nightskys

drunk meditation 77mph (dont let me drive away)

its just a vent it got some mac miller vibes on that hook. ive been loving playing with vocal stacks. i love you if you love me fr.

ig: matreahthedisrobed

lyrics:
my dreams are plans of a castle built
Don’t let it get too factual
These walls are too collapsible,
Your love don’t get a pass for it
Cough up for real you asthmatic,
Or give me lonely passages
Sick of the law of averages
Sick of friendships with asterisks  
Sick of the law the batters me, dont you dare tell the crooks where im cooking should they soon ask for me. Tell em you’re looking  
Tell em I’m looking  
Damn it I’m crooked, confessions are wicked,  
Hope gods forgetful as his kid, hope yall dont remember this shit
Still cycles steady combat at me, peddle poetic elements sell me off your catastrophe
Figure up all the tax, am I distressing you mentally?
life is hard brass, get sick of witnessing that
I see the way words stab, I seen a friend throw jabs
I seen my mommas dad turn out like my dads dad.
I seen my heroes turn bad. I seen the woman desert
I see my loved ones been hurt. See lately I been reserved.
 
AND MAYBE ITS JUST THIS BLUNT IN MY MOUTH 
MAYBE ITS JUST THE SUN IN MY EYES


See it’s a little bit of both, I don’t have nothing to boast. When I’m drinking, it’s alone, who I’m sposed to give a toast to, love. 


What if the world lost its mountain or sky? What if a girl lost the brilliance behind?
What if a boy lost his hands and his sight? His effort, his try?

See I been separating myself from others cause how I felt was awkward, didnt fit, so I isolated myself from OTHERS
Like im like im, 
Like i thought that i was doing something
Life is better with some others
I just wanna be left alone sometimes, but other times, its best that I try to keep up. cause i cant keep up with myself, myself
somethings burning my mind

Silent 1800

late night vibes cause i'm "2up" hahaha i could sleep im sure ig: matreahthedisrobed
lyrics: too up, homie raise the two up
fighting for my life, never had to raise the tool up
but ain’t been tulips, it aint even been cool shit 
sit with all this pain, dont even know what to do with
Still we gotta be too up, when you’re up, is it too up?
What we do, what we do it for? These are only our human forms.
Everything I done I had done it for another.
I don’t even wanna pop out for the summer.

Thinking if I showed up to your city, you’d be on that shit
Sold that little golden chevy, aint a thing was wrong with it
It gave me a million miles of motion, making songs to it
 Im drawn to it
Drawing this shit, I’mma map it right out and market it
Im up, you cant get me
I aint get out the city, Imma bring out the city straight wit me
 With a white girl and she drink pink whitney
We get lifted, now it’s you, girl
I done got me too much, down this liquor, now it’s you girl																										
too up, homie raise the two up
fighting for my life, never had to raise the tool up
but ain’t been tulips, it aint even been cool shit 
sit with all this pain, dont even know what to do with
Still we gotta be too up, when you’re up, is it too up?
What we do, what we do it for? These are only our human forms.
Everything I done I had done it for another.
I don’t even wanna get up see my brother,
I dont wanna Pop out for the summer.

You dont vibe out for nothing
I was thinking maybe I’m ugly
You don’t wanna get up with me baby girl cause I’m a loser
Still we strike it up like it’s nothing
I was thinking maybe that’s something
Send it up to Jesus, I’m 2up like a g6
I’m 2up, like who need me
Seeing stars like anemic
I just wanna get rich and leave all this shit behind
If you aint got love for me then how are you someone I can sit behind
You wanna get lit, dont tempt me
I make it hit same way you met me

						
							
too up, homie raise the two up
fighting for my life, never had to raise the tool up
but ain’t been tulips, it aint even been cool shit 
sit with all this pain, dont even know what to do with
Still we gotta be too up, when you’re up, is it too up?
What we do, what we do it for? These are only our human forms.
Everything I done I had done it for another.
I don’t even wanna get up do a damn thing

Another track from a session at Fatal Studios lol Maybe my favorite.
lyrics:
oh so you gon run away when you got way more to say
and you say that its the best for you, oh you dont wanna stay
whats next: another home, another state, another day unstable
can't sit still, you're unable, what a fun label
i just sit and scroll and read them texts
i been wondering whats next for you
your memory in my chest screaming whats left baby
shoulda kept my love kept to me, got a little taste of my recipe
i made it special, i cant correct you
you know, always got chronic in that bowl
i look like sonic skipping them hoes
somewhat in debt to you, i def could prove: aint deaf to your delights
more destitute
its best to prove that yes i seek your light
i need your fight
i need one night
i need them eyes
i know im right
i need a rise
got someone around, i need them around
i know i ran around and lied
its best to prove whats left of me is righteous
and i need me and you, it's tightknit
watching you go straight psycho, knowing i like it

pray for the sadists, i aint aim for domination
pray for my soul, pray for control
i aint mean to hit these hoes up
its all fate, i aint mean it baby
pray for our nation, pray for grace
that we reclaim it
i been tripping bout it
hurt my chick about it
gave my whole ass heart, had it ripped up out it
so you really bout it with me bitch, i doubt it
big ups, bitch i deal with mistrust
too many plates, bitch its mixed up
i been big stuck
reach to the lord, help me lift up
lift my mind up, bless my eyesight huh
god or women, whats the difference
both gave me wisdom, gave me riches
both was by my side when my mind had got twisted
running winded
whats the difference for me
god and women, whats the difference
heard you got something mindblowing for me
somethings going for me
little jezebel watch it sent straight to hell
lucky for me these losers get the L, illusions get dispelled
blowing memories with the shells
watching your energy get repelled
bitch you my enemy, thats how it felt
man i fell down my knees and i knelt to you

God and Women (Vita Sanguis) (prod. by Fatal Studios)

lightspeed

love!

aeluna

p.s.

biking thru the city alone at night, head full of noise, lights blurring past like thoughts i can’t slow down. pressure heavy but the wind feels like escape

we can skip all the small talk. why make small goals in a small town?

Get Down!

get down!

follow me :) 
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www.youtube.com/channel/UC_7eWUEKrYYNPrms1MQxQqw

hello people reading this description. my name is matreah and this song took many, many hours to improve to a condition i thought was releasable... producing is new to me and the two songs officially released on spotify sound much better to me since they were produced by the very talented lord rogue. maybe we will work again in the future, but for now... it will be a long learning process to create the high quality music i would like to... 
in the meantime, i am so sick of waiting for perfection, of worrying of what people may think when as long as i've been doing this, i've had friends and supporters the entire way, no matter what my music sounded like... i am ready to create for those who believe in me.
i will be curbing my anxieties towards releasing music. 
i will quit making excuses and delays and finally really pursue what i love.
i hope you can believe in me.

here are the lyrics :)
faithful in my luck but i fucked up
can't save my face
wasteful, throw my fate away
how i hate my ways

dreaming of a world where i'm no person but a concept
sentences were set in stone, somewhere they are unsaid
different dimensions, unsettled is my destiny
fixed fate unsettling, mister mixed messaging
muddy is the mix, i fucking miss when things were simple
tryna keep it all together in the borders of my stencil
unsteady is the pencil, unready still to lay it down
scared to put the ring on, i hope my baby stays around

faithful in my luck but i fucked up
can't save my face
wasteful, throw my fate away
how i hate my ways

willing to put all i have left into this music
met death, he gave me drive, i guess i better use it
running from the reaper off the roof into the ether
writing with a ruger, let it blast through your speakers
let me in your veins, real pain from the source
like rain, well of course, i came like a force
written, this is ruthless, i am vicious with my voice
why the fuck you being choosy? i ain't giving you the choice but to listen
hard for me to listen, noises in my head
transcribe into paper till destroyed is the lead
i'm the void in this dark place
boy with the sword with the point like a sharkfang
tore through the flesh
my red ink bled, it's a freak fest
bleeding in the darkness thinking maybe i could meet death
i feel thoughtless, how i'm sposed to think less?
baby i bleed often, tell me, how much blood could be left?

faithful

someone told me that people notice persistence!
beat: www.youtube.com/watch?v=mkVKEx3JR…ist=RDmkVKEx3JRgM
lyrics:
i don't take shit till i make sure the shelf lifes held tight and it looks feels sounds smells right
i used to blow smoke on that lil bike
now they inhale what expels from my tailpipe
might sound sick what i write
just ailments from these pills im prescribed
could use some help with my mind
and i've tried but you can't spell ill without i
so enter my wintertime state of my mind
exemplify everything wrong
write everything down
cause everything's song
and don't waste light
turn everything off
dare do i say i terrify
may i clarify? care if i talk?
let me paint the picture
i am quick on the draw
went from a steam to a bullet trained
letting it off
now it's a crime scene
sidewalk riddled in chalk
you wanna find me?
check behind my eyes. i pilot blindly
a body with a limp in its walk
i'm like a zombie
killing every tick of the clock
i did it timely
everything i plot with these rhyme schemes
i don't feel shit motherfucker don't try me
can't buy gas, still i blast yeah
i'mma buy a tank the day a record label signs me
i transcend traditional lifestyles
though the way i live is so low
you will find no curtains left open
you will find no sun in my home
you will find no shoes by my doormat
you will find no friends at my door
i will find no rest when i sleep
nor peace when I rest unless rest in peace
is etched in the gravestone death set for me
accept what you've sown, there's much left to reap
you will find no life in my garden
this is the life of an artist
drown inside the depths of perception
nothing's ever close as it seems
fulfillment of this message im sketching
im left to accept it's just out of reach
less than perfection, let's dead the meaning
left with the visions, obsessed with the end
these death premonitions
embed in my head like lead ammunition
m m medic my medicine every morning, it was getting repetitive,
the morning was death, but the night was a skeleton
it's hellish, I was tryna get to sleep off the sedatives.
and you did say life was delicate.
Hell, hell, yeah
I can see the devil in myself yeah
i am whom the bell does toll for
what cost should ya sell ones soul for
Hell, hell,
Sirens, flames, violence, rain, tyrants,
Pain, silence,
Silence,
Pain, silence

shadow command

Local artist from Manchester, TN with a devotion to hip-hop, rap, and poetry.

Matreah

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