I made ‘Where I Am Now?’ in my spare bedroom during lockdown. It helped keep me focussed at a time I felt untethered from reality. Some songs were completed in a couple of hours while others went through several iterations. It seems to me that songs have their own timeline, some burst out fully formed, others need time to brew. I inevitably hit the ‘all is lost/this sounds like trash’ moment but my friends pulled me out.

Recorded & Produced - Mat Cammarano 
Additional Recording - Elliot Smith, Dan Carroll and Ryan Brennan
Performed by - Matt Shehan, James Shehan, Cobie Mason, Elliot Smith, Ryan Brennan, Leah Grant and Mat Cammarano 
Mixed - Andy Lawson 
Mastered - William Bowden 
Artwork - Shane Beam 

Big thanks to the Department of Culture and the Arts for the grant

Where Am I Now?

move into the foreground

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Performed - Mat Cammarano, Michael Savage, Matt Blom 
Recorded and Produced - Mat Cammarano and Andy Lawson 
Mixed - Andy Lawson 
Mastered - William Bowden 
Artwork - Nathanael Whale

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Somebody Else

Second EP from Perth songwriter-producer Camarano

Shadow calling is a metaphor for our real calling. Its shape is similar, its contours feel tantalizingly the same. But a shadow calling entails no real risk. If we fail, the consequences are meaningless to us.
The EP is about navigating your 20s, of self discovery and dancing with doubt. It's a reminder to continue creating. 

Performed - Mat Cammarano, Cobie Mason, Matt Shehan, James Shehan, Brad Green
Recorded and Produced - Mat Cammarano
Mixed - Andy Lawson 
Mastered - William Bowden 
Artwork - Shane Beam

Shadow Calling

holding me back
I can't put my finger on
what's holding me back?
in certain situations
I ain't myself
acting like a stranger
when I'm with you
nothing's holding me back

holding me back
there's something there between us
holding me back
so obvious I can almost see
the pile of crap
we kept under the rug
but when I speak true
nothing's holding me back

holding me back
the past's a puppeteer 
holding me back
driven by fear
when I am strong
I take hold of the wheel
the road is long
nothing's holding me back

holding me back
no nothing's ever my fault 
holding me back
I've made victimhood an artform
never forget
you are the star of the show
it plays in my head
nothing's holding me back

nothing's holding me back 

(nothing's) holding me back

intrusive thoughts of you
hit me like a bolt from the blue
intrusive thoughts of you
oh what I would do

to be alone
alone 
alone with you

intrusive thoughts of you
at inconvenient times
intrusive thoughts of you
in the shopping line

intrusive thoughts of you
burning hot as fire
intrusive thoughts of you
can't shake the desire

to be alone
alone 
alone with you

I don't trust myself

intrusive thoughts

just when I was getting on my feet
something comes and knocks me on my ass
I know nothing could ever keep me down
just like always
I'll turn it back around

just when I was feeling like myself
in comes a stranger, he's somebody else
I know ego is protection by design
each day I'm working to heal the kid inside

just when I feel like I'm getting nowhere
I take a look behind me and see what's over there
I know I can handle whatever comes my way
even if that something is just another day
even if that something is just another day

whatever comes my way

when it comes to matters of the heart
sometimes the right decision ain't the wisest one
you can use your brain and still be done

but there's another kind of wisdom
ancient in your gut
it get's louder the more you listen
never too late to start
somehow it knows

they don't teach you that at school
listen up, we know best, hey its easy follow the rules
here's a path that we've laid out for you

there's an abundance of resilience
handed down the family line
you can call it whenever you need it
it's always easy to find

somehow it knows

I'm unlearning 
layer by layer
strip it away

unlearning

you never know
when that day will come
when you lose someone you love

nah you never know when that day will come
but it comes for all of us

goodbye my friend
so long
still here
although
you're gone

some will live a life that's full
some are cut short in their prime
some fight on 'till the bitter end
some end things on their terms

goodbye my friend
so long
still here
although
you're gone

I thank my lucky stars
I was one to know you
saying goodbye is hard
cos I was one to know you

goodbye my friend
so long
still here
although
you're gone

I was one
I was one
I was one to know you

one to know you

there's a lot I could say
hanging heavy on my mind
when I open, up my mouth
it never comes out right

I've been biting my tongue
so often
it's caught between my teeth
I wanna be heard
I never learned
how to disagree

until it all came crashing down

my cup, overflows
been filling up for years
the thing, about resentment
it never disappears

since I was a kid
seeking attachment
assumed a certain role
as a good boy
as the eldest
always doing as I'm told

until it all came crashing down

I will get the words out
even if it kills me
I will get the words out
even if it kills me
I will get the words out
even if it kills me
I will get the words out
even if it kills me

before it all comes crashing down
before it all comes crashing down

until it all came crashing down

I have this dream
it keeps coming back to me
an alternate reality
I'm a DJ in Greece

I've grown my hair
wear a singlet everywhere
I am a millionaire
my house has those spiral stairs

turns out I'm the same

I play my songs
the whole club sings along
it's a party in babylon
we dance til the dawn

there I go
madrid, paris, tokyo
on the cover of rolling stone
surrounded but still alone

turns out I'm the same
with money and fame
turns out I'm the same
with money and fame

money and fame


money+fame

I've been holding myself back
gotta get out of the way
some days I'm my worst enemy
that's about to change

you are not your thoughts
they are just objects
of the mind
flow like water

wrong turns yes I've made few
some live rent free in my brain
they come to haunt me
in my dreams
that's about to change

you are not your past
there's no turning back
let it go 
flow like water

you are not your thoughts
they are just objects
of the mind
flow like water

I've been holding myself back
that's about to change

flow like water

when I met you
I was different in a lot of ways
forever changing
a stranger yesterday

there's a side that I try my best to hide
the darkest parts are hard to recognise
never thought that I could make it out alive

there's no turning back
no turning back

you can get
if you want it
but it comes at a cost
its a tradeoff
something gained 
something lost

find out what it is that you really want
something gotta give or it'll fall apart
remember you can never have it all at once

there's no turning back
no turning back
there's no turning back
no turning back

no turning
no turning back
but its never too late
to change your path

no turning back

when I slip into the background
like wally I can't be found
sights and sounds wash over me
when I move into the background

restless as a child
sprint the quarter mile
I could run or come undone
restless as a child

constantly stuck in motion
before my eyes time erasing

when I move into the background
never lost, Ive found
There is space to take a step
and move into the foreground

move into the foreground

Credits:
Mat Cammarano - Guitar, keys, vocals, programming
Michael Savage - Bass
Matt Blom - Drums
Andy Lawson / Debaser Studio - Record and Mix
Artwork - Nathanael Whale

Ashes

Produced/Performed/Recorded - Mat Cammarano 
Mixed - Andy Lawson 
Mastered - William Bowden 
Artwork - Nathanael Whale

Mortal Man

From Debut EP 'Somebody Else' (released 6.04.18)
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Performed - Mat Cammarano, Michael Savage, Matt Blom 
Recorded and Produced - Mat Cammarano and Andy Lawson 
Mixed - Andy Lawson 
Mastered - William Bowden 
Artwork - Nathanael Whale

Food for the Worms

Bloodlines

Guitar, vox, keys, percussion - Mat Cammarano 
Drums - Cobie Mason 
Bass - Matt Shehan 
Guitar - James Shehan 
Piano - Brad Green 
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Recorded + Produced - Mat Cammarano 
Mixed - Andy Lawson
Mastered - William Bowden

Table Mountain

Guitar, vox, synth, percussion - Mat Cammarano 
Drums - Cobie Mason 
Bass - Matt Shehan 
Guitar - James Shehan 
Piano - Brad Green 
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Recorded + Produced - Mat Cammarano 
Mixed - Andy Lawson
Mastered - William Bowden

When I Had Infinity

Performed - Mat Cammarano, Cobie Mason, Matt Shehan, James Shehan, Brad Green
Recorded and Produced - Mat Cammarano
Mixed - Andy Lawson 
Mastered - William Bowden 
Artwork - Shane Beam

All This Time

Heavy Recovery

Recorded & Produced - Mat Cammarano 
Drums - Elliot Smith
Mixed - Andy Lawson
Mastered - William Bowden
Artwork - Shane Beam

Pleasure/Pain

Holiday Inn

Written - Mat Cammarano & Bradley Green
Recorded & Produced - Mat Cammarano 
Additional Recording - Dan Carroll & Ryan Brennan
Performed - Mat Cammarano, James Shehan & Ryan Brennan
Mixed - Andy Lawson
Mastered - William Bowden
Artwork - Shane Beam

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