I had to try this track and I think it deserved a soulful R&B smooth mood.
Think I achieved this. 
                             RAW
Lyrics song by Sas 

Oh 
Do you often think
I could have done this, 
Or that?, 
If only I took this path,
Instead of that path?

I know I do.
Constantly.
How, 
The years have gone by, 
and 
What have I ? 
What have I Achieved , 
in that, 
Time? 
Accomplished.

What a waste,
My life has been, 
What a waste.
The years have, 
Flown by 
And what have I ,
Really done? 

People may say ,
think, 
For that, 
I’m sure of.
Sas, you are 
Married, 
Healthy ( if only they truly knew )
A Son, ( I can’t have any of my own )
Mum still with you ,
Still, a, 
Sister ( nieces and nephew ) .
So why Sas, 
Why are you still lonely
And feel like this. ?

Well, it’s like this ..
I wanted more for me .
I wanted more for my family .
I wanted to give them ,
More. 
I wanted to do more, 
For others. Help them , 
Financially, and be, 
Financially better off. 
Instead of my sister offering,
To help me ( why should she ? ) ( really why ?)

But, I, 
Lost my home .
I had to sell it, 
Due to my first violent marriage .
Lost money .
Owed money .
Had to bankrupt myself.
That Broke me .

Friends, 
Not many left. 
I Lost many, because of 
The sadness in my eyes .
Some took advantage of 
My situation ,
And went in for the kill .
Sometimes I feel I deserved it.
I did some wrongs, 
That heart of mine , ( man if I ) 
Could rip it out, 
For loving, for caring, for giving ,
Too much of me, then I would have ,
Done it. 

Lets not talk about other ,
Body part here. 
Part of my body ( guys you know what I’m talking about ) , that at times,
Ruled the logic in me. ( when my gut warned otherwise ) 

People may say 
Do, think, 
I’m sure of this. 
Sas, you are 
Married,  ( yes ) 
Healthy ( if only they truly knew )
A Son, ( can’t have any of my own ).
Mum still with me. 
Sister ( nieces and nephew ) .
Why are you still lonely?
A Broken man, 
And feel like this, Sas.

Why Sas.?

I wanted to be, 
A fighter, 
A superstar of the world, 
The money, the fame, the adulation ( yeah ).
Of course it wouldn’t bought me, 
Ultimate happiness, but
I wouldn’t have cared, 
If my body was broken ( is already now, so what would have been different )
A busted face ( got plenty of broken noses In the past) 
Nothing that plastic surgery didn’t fix 
Crippled joints ( already getting there ), 
But I wouldn’t have cared. 

To have had the confidence 
In myself and not hate myself.
To have my own 
School.
Teaching kids ( young ) ,
To have the belief 
In themselves.
To love themselves .
To Keep off the drinking , 
The drug abuse to their bodies, 
Instead of growing up
A mess like me, 
Sas.

So of course, 
I feel ,
Like my life ,
Has been such a
A waste.
What a complete 
Fuck up it’s been. 
What a waste. 

Happiness outwardly 
Trying to smile ( fake ).
Everything is alright, 
but, 

Torment inside .
What a fucking mess. ( sorry for the language ), but track is finishing

What_A_Waste ( Extended Soul R&B Sas mix)

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