I CANT BLAME EM

Lyrics:
2 am in the night,
I was walking outside,
Sum didn’t seem right,
I had a feeling inside,
Hoodie on 
Hand in my pocket,
I’m gripping that knife,
And I was ready to fight,
Said I was ready tonight

Took a turn down an alleyway avoiding the cops,
Was no pavement on the shit,
just bunch of loose rocks,
I had my dough in my socks,
And the weed at the spot,
And I was heading to the block,
All Sweaty and hot,

That’s when I heard a noise
I thought I’d never hear, 
The devil on my shoulder he was talking in my ear, 
Running down the side my cheek It was a tear,
He Told me lil homie you should do it right here,

So I grabbed the fucking blade and put it to my neck, 
I thought for a moment what this could effect,
Like imagine if my momma saw me lying here dead,
Never said goodbye man that shit would fuck with her head,

I was pondering upon the situation, 
Depression,
Is killing myself, the only thing that could take it, 
away from me, 

That’s when I saw that lil light, 
Sum glowin in the night, 
So lowered down my knife, 

I started walking back, 
And thinking bout the blessings that I have, 
I’m so fortunate I have a mom and dad, 
Some of my homies moms done passed away, 
Now They lay inside a grave, 
Day after day, 

Yeah

Everybody got they problems everybody got they thing, 
Some that they hate something that they always bring, 
With em wherever they go, 
But you gotta let them go,
I’m tryna let you know,
That yo life’s worth living, 
The devil used to tell me that my life I should give em, 
Instead I made some music I was coping with the rhythm, 
Every time I rapped I would clear up my vision, 
Trust me if you going the same you victim, 
Of your own mind, 
So clear that shit, 
And Please don’t take you life, 
Yeah It’s not worth it,
You gotta find purpose, 
And fulfill that shit, yeah 
Watch yo life,
Turn to bliss...

Now and then I know, 
That everyone can’t see it all,
but I can, 
Promise that you’ll make it,

Reflecting on the choice now I know that I was right,
I can’t believe I ever thought to end my own life, 

There so much love in this world you gotta search for it, 
Open up your doors like a search warrant...
Let the love come through, 
Right inside you, 
Let your people take care when you feelin so blue, 
You not alone in your situation
Not too long ago, I was in the same  position, 
Hating myself, 
While fighting the devil, 
While tryna put my life back together,
I promise you it’s gonna get better, 
I promise you gon see some better days,
Your life is like book you just gotta turn the page,

But what if the clouds never fade,
And the rain goes on, 
Don’t know how long I can hide away,
And if this storm don’t ever pass on, 
How will I,
Ever know that it will ever be ok, 
And There’s no point in being afraid,
Cuz everybody knows, 
NOTHING EVER STAYS
 #STAYSTRONG
Produced by: Benson

More Than Rap

NOTHING EVER STAYS (feat. Lauryn Kovacs) (Prod. Benson)

*Seventeen year old was arrested after police witnessed a drug deal,
police found a loaded semi-automatic handgun, suspected cocaine and money*

Ride around,
Roll up,
Right now,
Cops out,
Left right,
Right now,
Quiet down...

Cops outside,
And they said he gotta gun,
Boy you better run,
This the fucking life that you chose
When you thought this shit was fun,
Now you gotta run, 

Why you think that the life that you chose so cool,
Posting on the 'Gram just to show them whatchu do,
Started selling drugs when you shoulda been in school,
Now you gotta problem and you don’t know what to do,
Boy gotta run now,
Put that fucking gun down,
Cops outside and they looking for the blood now,
People pointing fingers and they saying you the one now,

Does yo momma even know whatchu doing for a living,
You sell dope smoke crack and now you syrup sipping,
Tell me when you let yo mind go missing,
Tell your momma why you let your life go missing 

Cops outside,
And they said he gotta gun,
Boy you better run,
This the fucking life that you chose when you thought this shit was fun,
Now you gotta run...

Ride around,
Roll up,
Right now,
Cops out,
Left right,
Right now,
Quiet down,
Quiet now,

You ain’t gotta sell drugs to be the man,
Follow your dreams and follow your plan,
Put down the weed and put down the xan's 
Reach for the stars and you’ll never land,

I been through the same pain, 
But I never did the same thing,
I was tempted by the devil on the same thing,
Ever since my name change I’ve been on a different brain wave,
And I chose to go a safe way,
Now look where that got me, 
You just gotta copy, 
You just gotta follow in my steps too,
I heard you making music that’s a good tool,
To escape from the life and find life,
Cuz your life’s like a light and boy it ain’t bright,
But it could be...
You just gotta flip the switch,
Flip the switch and start giving a shit,

Cops outside,
And they said he gotta gun,
Now you gotta run,
This the fucking life that you chose
When you thought this shit was fun,
Now you  go-
Now you gotta run...

Cops outside,
And they said he gotta gun,
Cops outside,
And they said he gotta gun,
Cops outside,
And they said he got-

Cops outside,
And they said he gotta gun,
Now you gotta run,
This the life that you chose
When you thought this shit was fun,
Now you gotta run...

Cops outside and they lookin' for the blood
Cops outside and they lookin' for the blood
Better run, better run...
Run, run, run, run home
Yeah
Better run home baby...
Better run home baby...

MATTEO ORNATO

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