Just a little something i did in the middle of the night.

4am thoughts (instrumental)

No Label Flexin Beat

Was messing around with samples i have and ended up with a lo-fi beat

before and now

Working progress...
I'm actually looking to collaborate with a female artist for this track.

when i see you (instrumental.short ver.)

i welcome you to my mind

Image
https://weheartit.com/entry/93474434

Lyrics:

(Verse 1)
It’s getting late, its the middle of the night
thinking about life while I’m sleep deprived
all these thoughts are eating me but they keep me alive
I keep staring at the ceiling while I lose sight
of where I’m at, demons keep whispering 
all these thoughts of you keep coming up and I keep listening
of what we could’a been, because the past I keep remembering
anxiety gets the best of me, this tension is really killing me
I spark one up, cigarette in my right hand 
blow into the air, don’t really give a damn
Pour myself a shot, alcohol in my left hand 
help me cope and relax but it’s kinda bland uh   
disheartened soul while I still try to smile
I fall in this emptiness I still get up and try
but I’m tired of this, I just want to disappear
go without a trace, no footprint


(Chorus)
I didn’t want this, I didn’t want this
oh all alone just myself tonight
leaving this world don’t feel so right
let me fight this, let me fight this
all by myself in this deadly fight
it’s so cold I just want to say goodnight


(Verse 2)
depression, struggling heavily for recognition
relations, I try to give myself a lot of distance
for instance there are days I don’t want see anybody
feeling like a burden towards everybody
I lay in bed thinking what the hell am i doing
this life of mine is full of negative opinions
i’m not good enough for anything thats all I hear
I sense that it could be the end is getting near, but 
fuck it i’ll fight it, see this opportunity
I don't care anymore because I see it more clearly
there’s always light at the end of the road
thats how I see it not what i’m being told
holding onto hope happiness is around the corner
even though as time goes by it fucking gets darker 
get out in to the light its time to face the world
A letter to myself be brave I meant it on every word

(Chorus)

MATTICUS