untitled 11.01.2021

you are going the right way

the end is coming soon

i had a dream of a burning man
the man was me, I've never been a fan
I could kill every businessman
but that still won't help 'em understand
i had a dream of a burning man
then who is he, the one that I can't stand?
the man was me, I've never been a fan
the man was me, I've never been a fan
cause I get high when the fuck I want
I rather be alone and sip me fucking drunk
hand me the stamps, I had a phone and smashed it up
pathetic little loser writes these notes from dawn til dusk
you wonder why in such a place you can't go on
you live your life in such a waste you live it wrong
the price I pay is high but that's alright with me
I wish you'd live your life like you would die for me
but everything is so wrong
when I say you should die for me
this life is like a love song
and I want you to cry for me

burnin' man

taking acid on the train yeah suppose it'll be funny
i wander all alone and yet no place seems to want me
I'm right here
oh right here
all alone
(and that's okay people, move along)
my friends don't want to see me, 'cause they all think I'm an ass
a self-centered piece of shit who's only smoking grass
but i know that
I'm much more
than what they say
(haha, it's true! okay)
i often dream about the day my father left
left me in that big ol' house facing death
and you don't know
what that did
to your son
(but it really doesn't matter now, does it!)
i remember when my momma kicked me out of the house
all because my stepdad couldn't keep his mouth
and he told me
no one
wants me now
(at least he was right about something, hehe)
my therapist had told me I'm addicted to the booze,
drugs, women and that I have everything to lose
but i don't find
myself to 
be a winner
(shout out to my, now, ex-therapist!)
and i don't really mind all the things in my head
because i'd never trade this life for one i'd regret
even though
I'm right here
all alone

happy song

thought i had a little reason to be here
now i no longer think that is true
they say that what i take will kill me soon
and that's the reason why it feels so good
you handed me a paper with your name
but what was written would eventually change
you never saw someone looking so strange
and the ink stayed coursing through my veins
i have some pills in my pocket we could share
why you take em? said it's protective care
to hide away from a world that stares
never once has life been fair
thought i had a little reason to be here
now i no longer think that is true
they say that what i take will kill me soon
and that's the reason why it feels so good
i'll die alone like i was born
and to me that is good enough
i'll die alone like i was born
and to me that is good enough

god, his piss is purple!

once a day i get high, that's the moment i'm safe
turn my back to the world, whilst i'm hiding my face
used to letting her go, used to stop at her name
know you think of me like, being washed up in shame
but i'm no savior, not even for tonight
i love her like i used to
but i'm no savior, please keep that in mind
i love her like i used to
got my back against the wall, tend to look for escapes
wish that i had it all, lots of things seem so great
but the moment i fall, is the moment i break
have been staring at you, like you'll be causing the change
but i'm no savior, not even for tonight
i love her like i used to
but i'm no savior, please keep that in mind
i love her like i used to

demo

oh what’s your name
don’t you feel lost
when there’s no games
to be played
the drunken blond kid
makes his way to the stage
you made them pay
pay for all of your ways
oh you were just acting your age
i dreamt of the bottle
that you all once held
you laughed at my wobble
as i screamed out for help
if you’re feeling guilty
i’ll put the blame on myself
that’s how it goes
ever since i was 12
and oh my dear brothers
don’t you feel i’m yours too?
and oh my dear sisters
will you call when you’re blue?
cause i’ve been out looking
for something that’s new
a healthy replacement
for what these drugs do
and don’t tell our mother
she’s been crying all day
there’s no reception
when citing her prayers
and please don’t tell father
i am not coming back
it won’t be long
til there’s nothing left
oh my soul is crying
while my world stands still
for not having found love
that i can call real
and though i am dying
know my words never will
so know that i’m writing
as a means to be healed

my child, my darling child

well i blame the sun
the moon and the stars
the fact there's none
able to rid me of my heart
oh yes it's true
i also blame you
alone in my room
with nothing to do
love is the king
love is all
love now, 
that's all that i'm asking of you

let yourself fall down

the man yields his gun
and shoots my heart open
i'm glad to feel this way
i can see the man run
to the path he has chosen
i'm glad he found his way
is this all he's won
without a word being spoken
i'm glad he found his game
and now all is done
and all that it took was a token
to get life and give it away

suspect fled the scene (demo)

of course i get it
i'm not no fool
the heart weighs heavy
so what can i do
but to drink til the sun's up
and pray to the moon
and live in the past
where i can meet you
all days are the same
when spent in my room
yet somehow i feel 
that's the best thing to do

came home running around
running 'round crazy all of the time
said baby won't you miss this
once it's all gone there's no way to turn
are you ready to burn?
stay home getting down
getting down crazy all the time
said baby won't you miss this
cause once we both die
there's no way to turn
are you ready to burn?

the smell of burnt paper
and residue wine
a drop too many 
and you ask yourself why
you hold these illusions 
and hopes to the sky
for all the wrong reasons 
they keep you alive
walk into the store
greet the clerk as my friend
he doesn't look up
but hey it's nice to pretend
he's humming a tune
as i stare at his shelf
said: anything wrong?
yeah i need some help
yeah i need some help
i think i've lost myself
every hour that goes by
i think i turn into someone else
no escaping my head
only fragments of dread
so he looked up and said:
is there anything else?

burn burn burn burn...!!!!! (demo)

picture by: @hxllsxxnt

lyrics:

do i sit at home or do i call u
do i let go or do i hold u
i never thought i’d fall too
never thought i’d ever lose you

never wanted to hurt u
but baby know that i hurt too
i never meant to hurt u
but baby know that i'm hurt too

do i sit at home or do i call u
do i let go or do i hold u
i never thought i’d fall too
never thought i’d ever lose you

never wanted to hurt u
but baby know that i hurt too
i never meant to hurt u
but baby know that i'm hurt too

baby know that i'm hurt too
you were the one where i’d turn to
baby know that i hurt too
i would’ve done it different that’s what i swear u

hurt u [prod. khail]

lyrics:

there's only been silence since you have left
a frozen frame while i stare to death
broken hearts and shattered plans
empty beer cans, now you’re another man’s

to get up every morning, it feels so annoying
this pain in my chest got me mourning
i don’t want to fucking sleep, neither start recording
i just write about these tears that i’ve been holding

liquor fountains, trips abroad
too sad to go out and chill with the squad
it don’t matter no more, all the things I used to adore
the feeling’s so sore, my mind is all torn
i’m watching myself going down at the shore
i'm watching myself going down
fuck

i swear i know, i’m far from the best
yet i treated you better like any of the rest
better than your ex
i swear you had it all, but you were too curious about your next

i could jump off a cliff, roll another spliff
write another letter, but i swear this is it
i am suffering, i can’t lie
why the fuck did we had to say goodbye?

was i that bad? was i that sad?
weren’t you that glad? wasn’t i the best that you’ve had?
everything you said was complete deceit
now my trust is fucking obsolete

you had my love, which i only give to few
it’s like i’m just out of date, and you replaced me with that new
we’ll never expiate, cause i know i’d love you harder than any other dude

i could have loved u harder [prod. crcl]

produced by @whitecherrybeats
cover by @hxllsxxnt
lyric video: https://youtu.be/qtzDZ0lhbWE

are u happy now? [prod. WhiteCherryBeatz]

produced by førget

lyrics

will u stay
please come back

thats the thing i'll always miss
i became afraid to reminisce 
i'm okay look at my wrists
when i heard that u were dying
wish the doctors were now lying
water down my eyes i'm crying
water down my eyes i'm crying
hands in my hair at your funeral
wish i was there guess that i stay too juvenile
how can everything be just like usual
times we spent were beautiful
the thoughts of u up in my head stay irremovable

will u stay
please come back

don't know why u had to die
don't know why i sit alone and cry
all these problems and i rather hide
so i just look up at the sky
and i count all the lights
realise i'll never say goodbye

please come back

i miss u, come back [prod. førget]

featuring @rareakuma
produced by @sidwhiteisdead
mixed by @rareakuma

i'm sad, sad and drunk (sad and drunk)
i'm sad, where the blunts (where the blunts)
i'm sad, don't be blunt (don't be blunt)
i'm sad, good thing i'm drunk (good thing i'm drunk)

good thing i'm drunk i'm about to stunt
all my bitch wanna do is have fun
i jus' wanna party
i don't wanna think
and i want a 'rari
and my fucking drink
know that i'm not him but i can give u all the things
baby come on here life without u feels so grim
spending all my time alone missin yo touch on my skin
i don't want it to end here, i want it to begin

i'm sad, sad and drunk (sad and drunk)
i'm sad, where the blunts (where the blunts)
i'm sad, don't be blunt (don't be blunt)
i'm sad, good thing i'm drunk

@rareakuma

fuck out my face
people come and go
people come and go away
she cant look me in my eyes
i dont rlly wanna i dont rlly wanna die

i hate getting drunk so i face the sadness
i can’t handle love so i stay a savage the bad bitch
trust issues turn to madness
she told me she loved me so i started to panic and vanished
(im so sorry.)
put my self down on the mattress 
its a canvas
that i paint dark red till i see the blackness

i'm sad, sad and drunk (sad and drunk)
i'm sad, where the blunts (where the blunts)
i'm sad, don't be blunt (don't be blunt)
i'm sad, good thing i'm drunk

(sad and drunk)
(where the blunts)
(don't be blunt)

i'm sad, good thing i'm drunk ft. RARE AKUMA [prod. sid white]

suicide on my mind, but i survived.

produced by @prod_demi
artwork by @robby5k

SPEEDING

speeding (prod. demi)

produced by @prod_demi

lyrics:
all these bottles and i down all
all my demons yeah i drown all
they be praying on my downfall
they be praying on my downfall

i got a bag of weed next to me
i need a stack believe 
i want the bands with me 
count up a rack this eve
they shooting blanks at me
i want the plaques you see
i just need more and more and more til i got the bands on me
i just want money for gas
money for blow, money for bags
i’m on the low, bitch go and ask
don’t need to show, that i will attack
you do not know, what will happen if u fuck around with my craft
i want the snow, fame that will last
bitch i want anything, everything i’d ever ask
yeah, hey!
i wanna get to the loot (loot) 
you talking shit never do (do)
i took my shot now i shoot (shoot)
i’m aiming up for the hoops (hoops)
i’m always packed with the booze (booze)
i’m always stacking up blues (blues) 
i don’t know what else to do (do)
act like you know me but who really do?
and they praying on my downfall
this ain’t how it goes where the fuck that i’m from (i’m from)
and they praying on my downfall (downfall)
yeah they praying on my downfall (downfall)
pray on my demise but i will rise
from time to time
don’t be surprised
go against me, suicide
no afterlife, no pretty skies
i’m glowing up like city lights
i’m going up to dizzy heights
i’m showing love to this whole life
i am a winner, to say the least 
losing my inner, i feed it to beats
i am a sinner, i needed to be
cold as the winter, there’s evil in me
ice getting thinner, no reason to be
pockets get bigger, now people are here
the stronger the liquor, i need it to be
man in the mirror, i’m bleeding in here

all these bottles and i down all
all my demons yeah i drown all
they be praying on my downfall
they be praying on my downfall

downfall (prod. demi)

'pink hotel' by matt wxsted.
produced by @lzift
artwork by @robby5k

lyrics:

yeah i’m sorry
i can not be yours
baby maybe til the morning
yeah i’m sorry
yeah i’m sorry
this is not a cure
baby i’m still mourning
yeah i'm sorry
yeah i’m sorry
i can not be yours
baby maybe til the morning
yeah i’m sorry
yeah i’m sorry
this is not a cure
baby i’m still mourning

i can not be yours, i can - can not be yours
all i need are drugs, all i - all i need are drugs
can not get to work, can not- can not get to work
i don’t got no worth unless i’m runnin’ off a perc
you want that bling
you got your eyes on the ring
i can not show you a thing
baby i’m dying i’m lonely within
spending all my money from the show on drugs
i don’t wanna feel alive i just wanna feel the buzz
don’t got nothing to show you
why you act like i owe you
i don’t even fucking know you
why you act like i know you
baby i'm geekin
always lonely on the weekends
i can’t love nobody
i can’t trust nobody

yeah i’m sorry
i can not be yours
baby maybe til the morning
yeah i’m sorry
yeah i’m sorry
this is not a cure
baby i’m still mourning
yeah i'm sorry
yeah i’m sorry
i can not be yours
baby maybe til the morning
yeah i’m sorry
yeah i’m sorry
this is not a cure
baby i’m still mourning

i want a drink, i want a pill
i am on top of the world
i’m on the brink, i am so close
screamin when nobody hears
i can not think, mind is at loss
never have i felt so hurt
i’m seeing blood on my shirt
i tell her i’m just a flirt
i been drowning my whole life and it’s time to sink
raise the glass say cheers to this 
and all i fear is fear 
cus you won’t be here 
but i can not stay 
but that’s okay

i am sorry
(you know that i'm sorry)
i am sorry, yea
(you know that i'm sorry)
i am sorry, yea
(you know that i'm sorry)
i am sorry, yeah
(you know that i'm sorry)

yeah i’m sorry
i can not be yours
baby maybe til the morning
yeah i’m sorry
yeah i’m sorry
this is not a cure
baby i’m still mourning
yeah i'm sorry
yeah i’m sorry
i can not be yours
baby maybe til the morning
yeah i’m sorry
yeah i’m sorry
this is not a cure
baby i’m still mourning

Pink Hotel

pink hotel (prod. lzi ft)

'wasting' produced by @crclxx
cover image by sasha illegems

waste my time
waste my time
you've been running off 'round in my mind baby wasting my time
waste my time (wasting time)
lifting my feet off the ground i've been wasting my high (wasting time)
i know you feel it too
ain't no thing we could not do
i know you feel it too
when i'm wasting it with you

monsters up when the suns down (i)
enjoy the high, fear the come down (i)
smoke the pack til i shut down (i)
keep afloat but i've sunk down (you)
never know what i feel like (you)
don't know what's real life (you)
never knew what it feel like (you)
live the life til it feel right
back on the rug, yeah
the drugs been hittin way too hard
back on the rug, yeah
the drugs i took took me way too far
back at the plug, yeah
wondering where my shoes are
there ain't no going back
i think that we just went too far

waste my time
waste my time
you've been running off 'round in my mind baby wasting my time
waste my time (wasting time)
lifting my feet off the ground i've been wasting my high (wasting time)
i know you feel it too
ain't no thing we could not do
i know you feel it too
when i'm wasting it with you

waste my time, yeah
you've been running off 'round in my mind baby wasting my time
waste my time, yeah
lifting my feet off the ground i've been wasting my high

wasting (prod. crcl)

'awful nights' an album by matt wxsted

produced by lzi ft, kid mus, vnt, rare akuma & matt wxsted
featuring asaph sampa, lord.jvy & lzi ft
art design by crescanis & robby5K
mixed&mastered by matt wxsted

tiger blood (prod lzi ft)

'far from home' by matt wxsted

a thousand thoughts that cross my mind 
can’t get a grip think i lost mine
but i hope you know
yeah i hope you know
but i hope you know
yeah i hope you know
that i’m far from home
and with you i’m close
that i’m far from home
with you i’m close
can’t hide no more, 
i can’t fight
if things were different would you still be mine
i mean, i can’t lie 
i keep it all inside 
used to getting high on my own now
you said all i had to do was hold on
but baby i’m tired
baby i’m tired
but i hope you know
yeah i hope you know
but i hope you know
yeah i hope you know
that i’m far from home
and with you i’m close
that i’m far from home
with you i’m close

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