Jesus christ why are you SO good at this?!

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Hi everyone!!! Sorry I haven't posted in so long but you know the drill! 

I started this song in 2018, and it's gone through dozens of overhauls in both the lyrics and music. The song kind of grew with me until it turned into this, and I could finally say what I've been wanting to say with it. 

The point of this song is that you never really stop working on yourself. It's about getting better at navigating the depths of despair and finding a way out faster than you could before. This one specially goes out to those who aren't at their first rodeo.  I really hope you like it. 


CREDITS:
Music and lyrics by Crusher
Accordion by Dmitry Karev
Mix/Mastering by darkbluecat @darkbluecat
MV by Angela M Chong
MV text by Starry-P

special thanks to NEUTROGIC!

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Lyrics:



La la la dee da dee da
La la la dee da dee da






The day of a funeral
The mourners dressed in black
They came to say their piece and go
No, they're not looking back

I was the first to arrive
and the last one to leave
time ticked on without me 
while I waded through the grief






I'm drowning in my goodbyes
when I start to realize
I'm not quite sure who died
Until a chill runs up my spine

Six feet under,
and now I start to wonder
if for all this time,
perhaps the funeral was mine...





I know I can't be mad,
but I'm absolutely livid!
To think that I was dead...!
When I thought that I was living...!!

Just take me as I am,
A memory so vivid...
and savor all the parts you can, 
Cuz no one mourns the wicked!

La da da da dee da da
Absolutely livid!

La da da da dee da da
A memory so vivid...

No one mourns the wicked!




Here lies our dearly beloved, 
who suffered a lack of common sense
And though we'll miss her,
The best thing to do here is let the dead rest






This is the part where the real work starts,
Where I reap what I've sown, and own up 
When the harvest begins,
Let it wash away my sins 

Never tilled a field with seeds to grow
Never watered, weeded, picked or eaten
Anything of my own, on my own,
But I know I've got to

Tend to the ends I loosened over time,
And put out the bridges I set on fire, 
That's right, it's gonna take a while
to clean up the mess I left behind, cuz

This is the part where the real work starts,
the real work starts, the real work starts,
Where I reap what I've sown and own up, 
and pay what I owe






If after all this time,
You find I'm all but timid
Bear in mind that turning tides
could leave an ocean winded

My heart will only grow with me,
Who owes to mend it
and as seasons come and go, 
Living on becomes the ending

I know I shouldn't laugh,
but it's hard not to do
The shallow grave my temple claimed...
...was just the hole I dug myself into

Just take me as I am,
A memory so vivid...
and then savor all the parts you can, cuz
No one mourns the wicked!

We all could use some mending!
Living on becomes the ending!
A memory so vivid...
No one mourns the wicked!

No one mourns the wicked...

Wicked (feat. Eleanor Forte)

Marionette

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(English) Waltz Of Malice (Kikuo) - Jayn

ratatouille
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♫ Lyrics ♫ 
https://bit.ly/2xVgHqB

(Based on the translation by BerrySubs!)

Rats Died english ver. 【Oktavia】ラットが死んだ

knew it already fine, misery inside
at myself, i would laugh, fallen down behind
but i don’t know a thing, love or losing, see?
so i threw to the side any human in me

if i live a lie of shallow words and empty replies
then what am i?

hitting walls of a stage that i couldn’t break
then it stuck in my head, gotta run away
playing out like a scene, posing every lead
near the end of the show, waiting in the wing, see?

run to front stage, you’re all actors anyway, no one to watch, 
you’re all part of the play

there’s no one inside me
there’s no one that’s hiding
always been me, empty, a body but nobody here to see

so hurry up and bite down whoever you found
game over, give it up now
mayday, a double agent
struggling over love and discontent

and here i wait for something to twist the plot dramatically again

oh you too yes yes so take a deep breath
you know how this’ll all end
head shot, we took it too far
but if you aim, go for the heart
we’re pulling at the boundary, unseen
a curtain dyed in black soon came to be

 and knowing that those eyes are watching...

broke it all with a touch if i do recall
hiding all of the shame, all i did was fall
we were young, never bound by a single sin
til before we could see, we were monsters in skin

but even if i had tried to move on, why can’t i leave my past?

“considering it’s you, better give up soon”
“cuz no matter what you do, you will always lose”
and then i was alone way before i knew
blocking every little thought that i couldn’t sit through

all they want now is safety from what’s around
waiting for help but never learning how

i don’t wanna think now
i’ll play dumb anyhow
always been me, empty, a body but nobody here to see

so standing at the front line and maybe this time
i’ll be there with a flag high
outmatched but easygoing
never gonna need a script with me  

and here i keep them burning to twist the plot dramatically again

oh you too yes yes so take a deep breath
swear that you’ll see me again
one chance is all i have now
and so i better make it count
climatic ending, come see
the final act, i’m shaken to my knees

yet crying and lonely

the world that i locked out is nowhere to find
the people who mocked me are gone from my sight
emotions and feelings are useless to keep
the tears that had fallen were not mine to weep

the kindness and warmth, i can’t feel them at all
the hands that are offered, i’m scared that i’ll fall
the hole dug inside me can’t hold any love
instead, you can see me break down from above

hey, remember when you saw that they were nearing their end?
and you looked like you were laughing at the pain they were in
but what did you see? oh really what could it be
well, take a breath ‘cuz you’ll need it, so c’mon
 
saying always been me, empty, a body but nobody here to see
 
so hurry up and bite down whoever you found
game over, give it up now
mayday, a double agent
struggling over love and discontent

and here i wait for something to twist the plot dramatically again

oh you too yes yes so take a deep breath
you know how this’ll all end
head shot, we took it too far
but if you aim, go for the heart
we’re pulling at the boundary, unseen
a curtain dyed in black soon came to be

and knowing that those eyes are watching...

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lyrics by JubyPhonic
original song by Eve

eve | dramaturgy | english cover

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"Diving in, I'm reaching for the core of a nuclear reactor..."
#Meltdown #KagamineRIn #Lollia #Vocaloid

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Art by Veto
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Original music by Iroha(Sasaki)
Original vocal by Kagamine Rin
Original lyrics by kuma(alfred)

LYRICS
These city lights, they paralyze a chilly night 
As I breathe in a clear starry sky

It’s 2 AM, with tired eyes I reflect on my past
The world is moving fast
 
This scorching pain that I bury inside
Would make more sense if I had a reason to find
The fuel that burns to keep me alive
But if they were nothing but lies I wouldn’t mind

I have a dream where I strangle you with both of my hands
That afternoon light shining bright through my weary mind
And with a smile I finally snap your paper thin neck

So satisfied so silent my tears fill my eyes

Diving in, I’m reaching for the core of a nuclear reactor
I wanna melt away all these useless memories into a blue eternity

Giving in, I’m reaching for the core of a nuclear reactor
For I want nothing more than to rest eternally
Maybe I’ll be doing something right

Alone and stale above my crumbled window pane
I hear footsteps climbing up the stairs

The clouds, they pass and shrivel as they overcast
And flooding here and everywhere

I see the twilight is showering light
The burning sun is crying a ruby red dye

As if I’m languidly melting tonight
And bit by bit my world slowly just dies

I have a dream where I strangle you with both of my hands
That early spring, curtains fluttering trace a fragrant breeze
And as your words, like the lips spoke from spill out in vain
And foaming out like bubbles, they float from your mouth

Diving in, I’m reaching for the core of a nuclear reactor
I wanna melt away all these useless memories into a blue eternity

Giving in, I’m reaching for the core of a nuclear reactor
For I want nothing more than to rest eternally
Like those nights when I slept peacefully

A TV host, the second hand is ticking slow in my memory
So faint I hear it echo; A crowd of voices growing old
Repeating on and on until it swallows me whole

Allegro, agitate
Make the ringing stop before I go insane
Allegro, agitate
Make the ringing stop before I go insane
 
I had a nightmare where the whole world vanished before my eyes
Wake up alone consumed by the darkness of the night
And as I reach out my heartbeat leaps and I cannot breathe
No, I cannot I can’t go on like this no more...
 
Diving in, I’m reaching for the core of a nuclear reactor
I wanna melt away and all these useless memories and finally rest in peace tonight.

Giving in, I’ll leave this world for good
Because I am so very sure

That when the morning comes
The peace of mind I’ve been hoping for will finally come true

That's where I need to be
My perfect world...

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Lollia - Meltdown - English Cover

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✻ Lyrics ✻ (Feel free to use!)

It’s been decided, it has been from the start
When you first tainted my lonely beating heart
Escaping from your gaping mouth, standing proud and true yu
A lovely, a lovely, psychogram to you 

“C’mon and show your face to me
There isn’t any need to hide from me!”
It stings, but only just a bit
“Why are you acting cold to me?
Just give it up, I’m everything you need”
It stings, but only just a bit

Drowning in a tidal wave darkened in words
Every little move I made only gave me hurt
I get it, oh I get it
Your love should be enough for me to live
So give me all you have to give

Hey, I really like you, oh
You’re amazing you know? 
I want you to myself
If not me, then who would it be?
Did you want anybody else?

I’m not afraid, so tell me dear
Everything that you say’s conjecture anyway
But if you don’t tell me honestly
Then don’t need you away :-)

Your footsteps brought on a heavy sense of fear
Come tie me up or I might escape from here
You aren’t allowed to leave a drop, eat it through and though
A lovely, a lovely, psychogram for you

“Are you around? Where are you now? 
When are you coming home? Reply me now!”
It stings, but only just a bit
“Don’t lie to me, or it might come to haunt your sleeping body with a kiss”
It stings, but only just a bit

“Sorry” is enough of an apology
And soon enough we’re back to laughing until we’re in tears
But don’t you make me worry, I’ll only let you do this to me once
This sad goodbye is almost done

Hey, I really like you, see?
In my dreams, you and me, were happy as can be
Please don’t run away from me again
I’ll protect you until the end

These figures getting in the way
One by one, disappear - I’ll make them go away
Everything I do is for you
Everyone else can go away

Hey, I really like you, oh
You’re amazing you know? 
I want you to myself
If not me, then who would it be?
Did you want anybody else?

I’m not afraid, so tell me dear
Everything that you say’s conjecture anyway
You never were gonna tell me were you dear?
In that case, you can rot away

I’m not afraid, so tell me dear
I’ll never let you go, my dear...

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