[In My Room]

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tCu2g4lD81E

With love,
John

Moon River - Audrey Hepburn // John OFA Rhee (Live)

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https://ffm.to/bleith 

cover art by noah greene https://temberl.in/

i'll be the first

pronounced "bləith, or blayeth"
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guess it's been a long time
i don't even know
nothing left but splintered bones
and broken hope
walking down the road
we grew up on
choking on the roses 
but they're grown and gone

inhaling erosion i'm sinking i'm floating that
solemn corrosion i'll swallow the hope and i'll 
hold onto something and someone will hear the 
implosion aeolian sediments blowing away

maybe i won't miss those white halls and those silos
and your wide eyes

(do you remember me?)

all the pain went when you kissed me
but it was back when i woke up
winters always warmer when you're with me
caught a cross to call my own
in the inverted lattice beneath
i was just trying to calm you down
'cause this summer i'll be sixteen 
and i still wonder how
covered in clovers and i’m six feet
under now five leaves aren't enough
this september i’ll be leaving
throw the photos on the ground i should have known
i should have known

slipping through the cracks i'm calling it back on you
shadows shifting elisions i'm still in your arms
cosmic collisions it's crumbling falling through
scaffold splitting derisions i'm sealing the hearth

inhaling erosion i'm sinking i'm floating that
solemn corrosion i'll swallow the hope and i'll 
hold onto something and someone will hear the 
implosion aeolian sediments blowing away

one to many times i let myself slide
resin in the hide and it's hopeless
summit through the sides i thought of better ties
brethren tiled the pine on a pulpit
covered in the sines i coveted the lies
nolled up on a lyre a forfeit
lauded once or twice a strath that lead the line
straffed it to your silage and sold it

if you'd just lie awake 
i won't shear no shame

save me 
break me
save me
chain me

all the pain went when you kissed me
but it was back when i woke up
winters always warmer when you're with me
caught a cross to call my own
in the inverted lattice beneath
i was just trying to calm you down
'cause this summer i'll be sixteen 
throw the photos on the ground i should have known
i should have known

guess it's been a long time
i don't even know
nothing left but splintered bones
and broken hope
walking down the road
we grew up on
choking on the roses 
but they're grown and gone

bleith

Where did I leave my past? Where did all those scars go? And why do I miss the pain and sorrow
It was silly, but where did all the innocent things go
How do those bitter pasts and memories that we all have affect those of us living in this time zone? What made themselves? Were the paths of choosing a junction correct?

I'm doing a lot of different things at different times. I learn from it and it's used as a springboard to grow myself. I'm a talker.
The important thing is, I can't think of a good memory in it.
I can't tell you that I've been very happy about my past life. I've had a moment of bliss, but a moment of bliss.

Maybe it's because I know so many things I shouldn't do, I feel like I'm growing as time goes by, but what should I do with this feeling of losing some of my self

Killing a part of myself, and I live my life in a new way every time.
I think everyone else will be the same as me, but I think the attitude of accepting this will be different.
Some people may feel proud of themselves for growing up like this, but inevitable changes may be an object of resentment and disgust to others.
I wanted to comfort myself in the hours when I had to, or had to, that change that I had to, that I had to.

I don't want to say I'm so sorry, but I just wanted to send a message that I've been living this life.
I thought that alone would give me strength for some reason.

과거를 어디에 두고 왔던걸까요. 그렇게 많던 상처들은 전부 어디로 사라진 걸까요. 그리고 그 고통과 슬픔을 저는 왜 그리워 하고 있는 걸까요
어리석기도 했지만 한없이 순수 했던 모습들은 전부 어디로 간 것일까요
모두들 가지고 있는 그 쓰라린 과거와 기억들은 현재 시간대에 살고 있는 우리들에게 어떤 영향력을 끼치고 있을까요? 무엇이 자기 자신을 만든 걸까요? 분기점을 선택 하며 나아갔던 그 길들은 옳았던 길이였을까요?

여러 시간대의 저는 꽤나 다른 모습들을 하고 있습니다. 그 안에서 배움을 얻으며 제 자신을 성장하기 위한 발판으로 사용되곤 합니다. 회자가 되곤 하죠.
중요한 것은, 그 안에서 좋았던 기억은 잘 생각이 나질 않는다는 것입니다.
자기연민인건지, 그동안의 삶이 그다지 행복 했다고는 말 하진 못 하겠네요. 한 순간의 불꽃과도 같던 소소한 행복은 뜨문뜨문 있었지만요.

하지 말아야 할 것들, 해야 할 것들을 너무 많이도 알아버린 탓인지, 시간이 지날 수록 성장 한다는 느낌은 들지만, 제 일부의 모습을 잃어버리는 듯한 이 감정은 어떻게 해야 하는 걸까요

제 자신의 일부를 죽이고, 저는 매번 새로운 모습으로 탈태하여 세상을 살아갑니다.
다른 이들도 저와 같을 것이라 생각하면서도, 이것을 받아들이는 태도는 제각각 다를 것이라고 생각합니다.
누군가에겐 이렇게 성장해 온 자신이 대견하다고 느껴질 수도 있겠지만, 어쩔 수 없는 변화는 누군가에겐 원망과 혐오의 대상이 될 수도 있을 겁니다.
해야만 하는, 혹은 어쩔 수 없는 그 변화, 죽었던 여러 시간대의 자신을 위로하고 싶었습니다.

나 이렇게 불쌍하다고 말하고 싶다기 보다는, 난 그저 이런 삶을 살아왔다는 메세지 만을 전달하고 싶었습니다.
그것 만으로도 왠지 힘이 될 것 같다는 생각이 들었습니다.

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Artwork from: http://www.freakingnews.com/Mona-Lisa-in-Double-Vision-Pictures-42617.asp

Var#1

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Var#4

Var!

Now with more tracks and improved audio! This is a little more than half of the Original Soundtrack to The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild. Excluded tracks include short sounds and jingles, repetitive tracks (like the different Blight Ganon battle themes which are all the same), tracks that include game audio as part of the song, and a few others that I feel do not contribute to the overall sound collection. Enjoy! (© Nintendo 2017) (I don't own the music.)

Field Battle

Credits

Composed by Oddman Jay
Arranged by Oddman Jay
Mixed by Oddman Jay
Mastered by Oddman Jay, 한철규
Lyrics by Oddman Jay
Album Cover Art by Oddman Jay, 김태훈

Lyrics

감정들이 쉽게 잊혀지는 이유는 뭘까
그냥 내가 멍청한 걸까
아님 내가 영리한 걸까

나의 불안함과 나의 아픔 모두 점점 흐릿해져 가
나의 설레임과 나의 기쁨 모두 점점 흐릿해져 가

상처조차 내게는 생생한 감정을 주지 못해
이렇게 죽어가는 걸까
아님 이게 살아가는 걸까
 
나의 불안함과 나의 아픔 모두 점점 흐릿해져 가
나의 설레임과 나의 기쁨 모두 점점 흐릿해져 가

그저 아이처럼 세상을 배우며
그저 아이처럼

나의 불안함과 나의 아픔 모두 다시 느끼고 싶어
나의 설레임과 나의 기쁨 모두 다시 느끼고 싶어

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