Constellations 
© McCall Erickson
photo via Oleh Slobodeniuk flickr (cc)

If there is an edge
I will want to move closer to it,
as close as I can without falling
into oblivion.

But I might
I might fall in.

If there is a chance
of fucking it up,
there’s a good chance
I’ll have to try it.

A risk, I’ll take it.
A rule, I’ll break it.
A line, I’ll cross it.

If there is a path
already paved,
I probably won’t walk it.

But if there is a night,
I will travel in its sky

and although it might be a vulnerable thing to do,
I will leave a trail of stardust for anyone who wants to see
all the places I got lost
traveled too far in the wrong direction
tried too hard for worn-out affection
fizzled and burned
a fallen star
a missed connection
a web of constellations

a zig here
a zag there

and all the other ways
that add up to me
always managing
to find my way
back to you.

Constellations

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How We Grow

"The most important thing to remember is this: To be ready at any moment to give up what you are for what you might become." ~ W.E.B. DuBois

A Better Me
words and music by McCall Erickson
www.mccallerickson.com

My heart has no words
my eyes have no tears left
my mind done gone crazy
went off and married my fears
now I'm standing here with nothing left to tell ya
I'm standing here with nothing to prove
I got nothing to prove

I tried so hard
to make you believe in me
I didn't know it then
but the believing's up to me
now I'm standing here with a fire in my belly
I'm standing here with a smile down to my toes

I'm brave when I have nothing to lose
I'm so beautiful when I make no excuse
So I'll move to the edge 
and I'll take that great leap
It doesn't matter if I fall
it's time to be 
a better me

Letting go
has not been easy
but I don't need you loving me
for who you think I should be
I'm standing here at the end of who I once was
not sure yet of who I will become

I'm feeling brave
I got nothing to lose
I'm feeling beautiful
without an excuse
so I'll move to the edge 
and I'll take that great leap
I don't care if I fall
it's time to be 
a better me

and I'm not looking for your easy answers
I don't need you to hold my hand
I just need some space
to be who I am

Chorus

A Better Me

A Rumi verse put to music

Birdwings

Your grief for what you've lost lifts a mirror
up to where you're bravely working.

Expecting the worst, you look, and instead,
here's the joyful face you've been wanting to see.

Your hand opens and closes and opens and closes.
If it were always a fist or always stretched open,
you would be paralyzed.

Your deepest presence is in every small contracting
and expanding
the two as beautifully balanced and coordinated 
as birdwings.


Birdwings (Rumi Poem)

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