what simon said and didn't say

lyrics:
started out like a game and I thought “hey, maybe i can play along”
i’d been through hell but thought it might be time to just move on
said "you can trust me" and he told me i was "pretty cool"
but there he goes again backpedaling and breaking all his rules
you break all your fucking rules.

well simon says it's not his fault and i'll try to believe him
i’m breathing deep and trying hard to stay composed
simon says don't speak, don't feel, don't think about it, don't tell anyone
i just look at the floor and think "maybe i'm better off alone"
you liked me better when we were alone

so buy me a drink with your cheeks all pink and you won't say what you really mean
we're so uninspired we're sick and tired and if I could I would just go home and sleep

everything ends, i know, but that don’t make it easy
i tried to trust again but now i feel so dumb
you cry into my chest and say you wish that you could feel it
my hands start shaking, vision blurs, eventually i’ll just feel numb
now everything is numb

so we’ll kiss in your car but won’t go far, the engine’s fucked up just like your mind
i don't wanna be me if the doc agrees that the sadness is just a symptom of being alive
i'll let you cut me open, take it all, but you’ll never be satisfied
you say i’m different but inside i know i’m just another that you’ll leave behind

i’m not your manic pixie dream girl
i’m never gonna be your dream girl
i’m not your manic pixie dream girl
i'm never gonna be your dream

so tell me i'm fine that it happens all the time and there's people out there with problems worse than mine
get your degree in hypocrisy, i won't do this every motherfucking time
to you it's just a game, it's all the same, but i won't follow blindly anymore
what simon didn't say spoke volumes, and the nothing's not something that i'll fall for.

Medicate and Ashley