The debut collab EP for Meemaw Boyz, initially recorded in 2021

Produced by Lilidentitycrisis

Mixed and mastered by Jonny Yucca

Triflin' Ass Hoe

lyrics

[maesk]
this state I'm in concerning
the story’s say i’m learning
but the double fire in my chest says otherwise while burning

hidden leaf is purging
these questions got me turning
but the truth is i can change the way u see it with my right use of my wording

love i don’t deserve it
a different shaded person
how am i supposed to think with foreign substances, i'm hurting

but this pressure, i keep working
i keep pushing for a purpose
wish someone could just understand and close the fucking curtains

[decks]

lately i don’t think i feel quite like me anymore
open up a door
close another three or four
i’ve been pushing to be better but its hard to cure
both my eyes are sore
you’re the one i can’t ignore
hard to cement my status as a graduate
i told you once i’d heard of it
i won’t be unlearning it
spar with the gray light painting you a pacifist
if its how it is
say it like you’re meaning it

if you’d embrace it like i know you could
we’d have a chance, maybe we aren’t the only ones
i need a break, love, odds are only ten to one
i know its all but done, but you’re the setting sun
if you’d embrace it like i know you could
we’d have a chance, maybe we aren’t the only ones
i need a break, love, odds are only ten to one
i know its all but done, but you’re the setting sun

[maesk]

wrapped around my wounds but i am heartless
healed in your view theres not a scar left
baby if the clouds had lightened up i would've parted
just trust you'll remain inside my heart

nothing left to lose now for me 
but dear this is the last time you see
i can't do this anymore ok
baby would you please just look away

setting sun

setting sun ft decks (jolst x pekarot)

Lyrics coming soon 

We really hope you like this one,something different 

Shoutout to all the artists who are on this show them some love <333333

Hold your tongue ft whosvacant, sevenfeet, notcursed, brecken, kiddamo, notahero, vails(Wisssery)

i hate living this way.
lyrics
hate to choose between my sanity, or always being lonely
but both still make me crazy and theyll both just kill me slowly
so what am i to do, just live my life all by myself
or should i end it quick, but i dont want to go to hell

so maybe ill just hide away and stay inside my box
wont let anyone inside and i wont hear it if you knock
if you somehow make it in, ill just guide you back outside
then ill thank you for the visit, i dont need you, said im fine (then i cry)

i know thats no excuse, im just so tired at this point
cause nothing ever helps, like i wont even hit a joint
my younger self would hate me, i dont mean to disappoint
but nothing really changed, its been the same since i was a boy

i hate the way i work,, it always feels like somethings broken
"i wish that i was normal", swear that shit could be my slogan
i wish they understood i try my best, i just feel frozen
i swear it just gets hard now when so much of me has been stolen

i think i told my ex that i was fixed. "it went away"
but the truth is that i feel it still, the emptiness and pain
swear its probably been a year now, said it on this very day
i just hope i make it out alive. but i can only pray

its probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
its probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
its probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
its probably going to kill me
its probably gonna kill me

BPD pt 2 (prod kyotospeak)

Obsessed

sad chill video - https://youtu.be/pbtFXY4qOdI?si=pqJJT9yl-vUg4KsN
lyrics ⬇️
Its all over
lay me down
Let me go
You said to fly you out
well look where that went
yea yk where to meet at
backroads curvy but i like it when its like that
my heart hurt hurting but ik that it is my bad
way too far burning all the love that we had

running off adrenaline 
cuz i dont have the will to live
but maybe i could find it here
if me and you cluld try to repair it
losing all my friends again cuz
im having trouble fitting in but
take medicine
dont look back
had the sedatives in my bookbag
said to meet me at the crack in the road
tryna keep it on the low so you better be alone
keep in mind that i know ur gonna push back
intertwined with my feelings wear a numb mask
they confused how im doin what i do
i dont wanna lose i dont wanna feel the blues
im anxious but i dont give any clues
um who the hell are you i dont even think ur cool

its all over
lay me down
i wish i live my life sober
But instead i drown
but nevertheless ima come back around
yea try to impress everyone i pushed out

because i need you here 
and only god knows how much time i have left
i hate the mirror
Make me feel like im so sick
i need some bandages please
i fell really hard when i tripped
and i feel fine when i bleed
but with this one i might have to stitch it

yea and i could try my best to listen
i wont ever have full attention 
yea and when i feel alive i dont have a grin
yea i would rather cry when im really lit
yea do it all again til it all spin
watch the memories fade i dont feel like a kid
i dont wanna be this but i dont wanna be that
my whole life like a trick but got no treat in the bag

backroad adrenaline (yunnygoldz)

produced by lowtyde

huge shoutout to my brothers @guardinmusic and @swainesworld for providing some amazing verses

coverart by the lovely rose: https://twitter.com/rosebudpainting

mastered by @killzoltar

lyrics soon…

thanks for listening <3

barcade blues (feat guardin and swaine) [prod lowtyde]

Why the fuck I'm thinking 'bout you?
I'm still doin' fine without you
Why you in my head, it's not fair
And it's getting loud too

I won't check your TikTok
I won't check your VSCO
I won't check like nothin'
Cause I know just how that shit go

I'll be in my head, all night, all day
Like I just want a break from my brain
Go away

And it used to be a flash
Now it feels like it stays
And I want to escape
But I've tried every way

Molly, lean, percies, G
Acid, K2, flakka, speed
Molly, lean, percies, G
Acid, K2, flakka, speed
Molly, lean, percies, G
Acid, K2, flakka, speed
Molly, lean, percies, G
Acid, K2, flakka, speed

Dancing through the shadows
Of your long golden hair
Every beat's a heartbeat
That I still can't repair

Dancing through the shadows
Of your long golden hair
Every step I take
Is still haunted by your stare

How do I get away?
How do I get away?
How do I get away?
I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)
I'll cut my head off

I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)
I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)
I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)
I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)

I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)
I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)
I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)

(Yeah) (Uh) (Yeah)

I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)
I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)
I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)
I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)

I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)
I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)
I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)
I'll cut my head off
(Yeah)

WHY TF

Sick
I'm tired of losing, I sort through the wreckage
My hands keep on bruising
Sick
I'm so done with choosing, which vice I'm abusing
To get through the day, and I'm
Sick

I'm gonna make it out
I fucking swear, I fucking promise
Only one way to the top bitch
I could take my time to teach you
But I know you ain't gon' rock this
Only one thing on my mind
A couple months I'm out this block bitch

Every time I take a loss
I swear I get like five more wins
Ima stack it for myself
Ain't got no bitch, ain't got no kids
Ima keep it to myself after all the work I done did
Man I know I'd live a lonely life
Ever since I was a kid, huh

Sick
I'm tired of losing, I sort through the wreckage
My hands keep on bruising
Sick
I'm so done with choosing, which vice I'm abusing
To get through the day, and I'm
Sick

Know it's lonely at the top
But it's lonely at the bottom
All the same you gon' get rocked
I'm still sticking to my guns
It's laser focus, gotta lock in
Now my only friend my Ruger
'Cause I still can't find my Glock bitch

I know I got big talk
But I never plan on stopping
Ima get up out this bitch
First thing I do when that guap hit
When I'm highest in the building
Overlooking all that mob shit
Bitch I'm really gonna do this
Ain't just bars for this bop shit

Sick
I'm tired of losing, I sort through the wreckage
My hands keep on bruising
Sick
I'm so done with choosing, which vice I'm abusing
To get through the day, and I'm

Sick
Tired of losing, I sort through the wreckage
My hands keep on bruising
Sick
I'm so done with choosing, which vice I'm abusing
To get through the day, and I'm

Sick

Going To Win

you know i miss it but ill never get it back
i get along if i leave it in the past
what we had
its fucking sad

you know i miss it but ill never get it back
im still forgetting, so we only smoking gas
only gas
that my stash

smokin heavy, feel the weight, that aint no cap shit
countin digits, stackin bands like its my last-ditch
keep me stay distract, dont pay attention, movin fast bitch
give a fuck if i crashout cause i be batshit

they say they want the old me, but i want the old you
aint seen you in a minute now, ion even know you
aint feel nothin in a minute now, and i been cold too
winters comin up way its feelin so blue

i dont wanna think about you, i dont wanna see your face
i dont wanna hear from you if now youre in a different place
i dont have to worry it wont happen til the end of days
im the only one still thinkin bout the past and how much things have changed

how much things have changed
things have changed
how much things have changed
changed
changed

you know i miss it but ill never get it back
i get along if i leave it in the past
what we had
its fucking sad

you know i miss it but ill never get it back
im still forgetting, so we only smoking gas
only gas
that my stash

Things Have Changed

honored to have @foreignforest on this
hkfiftyone:
i feel so messed up, like im never right
swear im drained just from putting up a fight
i wont sleep but im tired, so i might
want to be up in the sky

if im real, i just want to stay alive
if i wake up in the morning, i survived
keep it pushing even if i dont know why
know there's something more to life

foreign forest:
my chest
feels like it's full of rocks sometimes
yes
i've been working on my mind
tests
all i ever seem to find is
stress
i don't wanna lose my mind yet

i'm so tired of living in the future
thinking i'll be good
but for now im just a loser
this is not "it"
lost my "present" in the sewer
gotta get it
but i don't know what i'm doing

what if i
have a different story i could
tell in time
though i didn't get it on the
very first try
at least i can say i tried

hkfiftyone:
i feel so messed up, like im never right
swear im drained just from putting up a fight
i wont sleep but im tired, so i might
want to be up in the sky

if im real, i just want to stay alive
if i wake up in the morning, i survived
keep it pushing even if i dont know why
know there's something more to life

im tryna get back up, i swear i try my best
but every time i fall, i feel it in my chest
and then my brain gets numb, so then i make a mess
its like i cant think straight, but you probably get it

hold on
i swear it's gonna be okay
been too long, but swear it wont stay
youre not alone, i know its lonely
youre all in my prayers

Sample from Julia's Message of Hope
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5rvhgvmABL0

"It's ok to be afraid, but I don't want you to give up. Because the thing about depression, is it lies. You know, you gotta fight to be here. Because it does get better, and all of these lies will eventually go away. You just have to hold on, 'cause it doesn't get to win. It doesn't get to take you. Because you're stronger than that, and you're worth more than that.
And it's possible."

Triflin' Ass Hoe

Meemaw Boyz

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