🕊 🦋✝︎
hello again,

hope this finds u well
and in good health,

the world soon returns to 
harmony
x

alone again
i lost a friend
i cant pretend
i lost another friend

dont know where she went

we were just lying in bed

i had my hand in your hand

or did you forget
(did u forget my love?)

now what do i say?

and where do i stay?

and who do i call?

noone at all.

i thought that youd stay

thought u would stay
i thought you would stay

all this time i thought u would stay
after alll the time that we spent
after all the girls that i left
behind for you love

and all this time i thought you would stay 
thought that you would stay right here
now im missing you in my bed
miss you with your head in my hand

i miss you so
i miss you so
i miss you i know
just thought you should know

love dont let go
i said love dont let go
thats how it goes 
baby you cant let go
just hold me close
❤︎
.
mastered by @sadhectorr
.

❤︎❤︎❤︎(@l☯︎n3)again_❤︎❤︎❤︎(prod>LUCi)❤︎❤︎❤︎

hb christopherhector :::::)
prod. LUCi

days that seem to fade away
but i cant watch you fade away
again
not again

i found someone to kiss me 
just to show me what im missing 
all again
just to pretend

but i am not in love with her
i try to keep my distance
as a friend 
just a friend

the faces seem to fade away
i try to drink and fade away 
again
all again

i sense my head is weary
from all of this pretending

fake smiles
to cheer me up

fake love
is just a rush

looking for my resting place
looking for a place i can call
home

i dont even wanna stay 
away
from you

looking for my resting place
looking for a place i can call 
home 

tryna search for the answers
im still gone
ill never know

let me take your heart ft sadhector

@raury - bunny cover < 3
just like u 
ill be fine

yd u lie

dont think that you couldnt hate me x

prod. the beautiful @tiredeyes 

now on spotify ::x
https://open.spotify.com/track/3is0U5k2JH7K02hpS4Rpd6?si=ZyzcEZGXTxWT20UmdNGdPA
Baby are u ok
Baby are u ok

You been quiet
For the whole day

i been crying
In the hallway

Raindrops
On the window 
Pane

these days I forget
To say

how much I need
My space

I disappear while you dreaming
Cigarettes while you sleeping

Its no change in the weekend
While she dancing im bleeding

you aint happy I see it

bloodstains on the dance floor

where we used to hold hands tho
fuck I let my feelings go

Id rather let you go
Then have to let you know

u the girl of my dreams
but u cant be with me

no its better If u leave
You dont really wanna
Know me
You just wanna hold me
Down

If u really knew
me
You would try to lose me 
Now

i love you too 
But fuck imma fool

you think I love you
But I think I use you

dont give me trust
I dont wanna abuse you

Its all a rush
Till somebody gets hurt

love over lust
baby that would be perfect

I dont believe I can 
See it workout

eyes on my dreams
And my head in the clouds

dont wanna say what im
feeling
Out loud

I only pray that im
Making you proud

Dont think that you can save me

dont think that you couldn't hate me

Its okay
you can hate me

Imma be okay b x

its okay, u can hate me x (prod. sadeiz)

s/out selena gomez
prod. LUCI

i remember how I used to love you
i remember how I used to trust you
Thinking of the day when I lost you
now im all alone In bedroom

lately Im not feeling like I used to
this is not a feeling that Im used to
Everyday a struggle just to get through
i might take a couple to forget you

I might take another to forget your face
turn my day to a haze
all these days are the same
All these pills are the same
find my mind in space
All this pain dont go away
all this pain dont go away

all these pills are the same
i might take a couple to forget you

im missing you so much
dont want to think of us
im sick of fuckn up
i think I think too much
I take too many drugs
Can’t help it im in love
I think I took too much
cant help it im in love

all these pills are the same

u make me unwell,
bad health :::/

@sadxhector
prod. @AIRAVATA

s/out @chronicshnxman for mastering <3

Im rolling In my bedroom
im trying to forget you
I dont wanna love you anymore
I dont wanna love you anymore

i told my friends that im in a better place last week
Now im rolling up and drinking like I was last week
always thought that you were gon be nothing without me
now im down to feeling like im nothing without you

Dont know what I amount to
guess I still be falling
If its with or without you

I dont wanna love u anymore
anymore

Damn that pussy tangled 
Monster inc like randle
ino you can’t handle
Even if you want to
never that I want you
Not like  supposed to
I feel like I used you
You make me unwell
Bad health
Everyone can hear you 
She got a big mouth
can I just be see through
I just wanna hide myself
I thought that I found some help
you just made me hate myself 
Always seem to hate myself
Can you tell ive had enough
Can you tell ive given up
Fairy lights and xanny bars
I left you without regards 
cant admit it wasn’t love
xx

with or without u x ft sadhectorr

i dont think u know
i lost my soul ....

prod. highself


I hate that u caused this
And I made it worse
i hate that I gave you
My blessing it hurts

I changed my mind
Turned blessing to curse
My message to you is a message of hate

I hate u for making me feel this way
I hate that I told u to go right ahead
I hate that i had to be the bigger man

I wish I could harm u 
I wish I could hurt u
u lied
i forgave you
u tried
Too hard
To make
It all work
u tried 
too hard
dont change 
what u did

Why I forgave you
is why I hate you

fuck i digress and
Why this is painful

I hate that u caused this
And I made it worse
(i made it worse)
i hate that I gave you
My blessing it hurts
(fuck it hurts)

I changed my mind
Turned blessing to curse
(blessing to curse)
I changed my mind
Turned blessing to curse
(turn blessing to curse)

Want you to know
That it wasn’t okay

I dont think u know what 
U do doesn’t change

you showed you feared me
Rather than cared

Take your self pity
And say what u meant

I want you to know
That it wasn’t okay

Dont think u know what 
U do doesn’t change

you showed you feared me
Rather than cared

Take your self pity
And say what u meant

Say what u meant

Fuck your self pity 
just say what u meant

I dont think u know
what u do
doesnt change
what u did

what u did

i dont think u know
i lost my soul
when
you told me,
i had to let her go

i know
i told 
you
i was
fine
but
fuck
 it all
i lost 
my 
mind

its 
all your fault
and
its all mine
i know
i cant 
rewind 
this time

xx

blessing // to curse

this is my remedy xx
prod. @chronicshnxman
</3

I heard that your settled down
That you found a guy and 
Your happy now
I heard that your dreams came
True
Guess he gave you things 
I didn’t give to you

i know this much
I was in love
I fucked it up
More times than once
Its all on me
You were the best thing
I ever had
Now im regretting
All that I said

These days
You’ll find me 
Stuck in my head

i play back
Every night 
That we spent

Baby If I 
Could take it all back

Please dont forget
Me 
I beg

I got couple pills for the pain
but it dont go away
I been steady feeling the same
Always feeling this way

No change in up in my brain
Nightmares up in my head
remember what you said
before you left me here

I got a couple girls in messages
i feel ashamed
I dont really wanna message them
Its not the same
its not the same
how could I love them when I abuse myself
I dont really wanna love nobody else
i been taking all these drugs to find myself
i stay searching for a rush outside myself

still I cant find the love that I need
fuck all these faces fake smiling at me
say I look fine but you lying to me
see through my eyes fuck im trying to breathe

This is my remedy
Sitting in silence
This is my therapy
dont catch me crying

i know this much
I fucked it up
i was in love
i was in love
Its all on me
You were the best thing
I ever had
Now im regretting
All that I did

I know this much i 
fucked it up i know
drugs on drugs for me
thats my recipe

This is my remedy
Sitting in silence
This is my therapy
dont catch me crying

i cannot breathe ive been hurt
and these demons are lurking
these pills are not working im feeling the same
pictures of you stay awake in my brain
i think about you it makes me insane
makes me insane
x

best thing i ever had xx prod. chronic shnxman

@bornasprey xx
this one for the daydreamers xx
prod.bleach

i dont wanna smoke another cigarette today,
i just wanna fade,
i just wanna feel sane,
all these fuckin faces,
but they all look the same,
all these fuckin fakes,
don't speak my name,

tell me all your problems,
maybe i could solve them,
going through the motions,
floating in the ocean,
tell me something real,
fore i crash at the wheel,
i aint mad at you no,
baby i just wanna feel,
feel sad when you call,
cause you tell me all ur dreams,
all the things that you lost,
baby i just wanna help,
i dont care about myself,
i dont care about my health,
baby i just wanna feel shit,
tell me something real,
shit

yea,
walkin real slow in the nighttime,
cold touch beware of my lifeline,
dont get attached imma die soon,
cold body glimmer in the new moon,
walk real slow to forget time,
weight of my world falling in line,
i can see my life decay this time,
always painted red with my wrist white,

dont forget my name when im famous,
no arrogance when i say this,
i been off the drugs everyday since,
u left me alone its that basic,
xx

luci x preyxo - i just wanna fade, i just wanna feel sane :'''

💜💜💜
on spotify  ::)
open.spotify.com/album/5trJbf5liE…lER02qoM6zHpKEwg
youtube playlist -
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJpJhE8PeybrKrUGiA89cA5-h4LXI6RCn

i should really probably go to bed 🌙

Dontleavemyside Xxxx'

💔 💔for the broken hearted valentines💔 💔
@nvrsft🌙🌙🌙🌙
@chronicshnxman
i dont think that u can change me :::''''
prod. Kcaaz

madeforme x chronic shnxman

<3 <3 <3
;;;;;''''''''
loveluci
inwonderland
comng soon

prod.youngtaylor

idontreallywannaknow

dazed and confused""💫💫💫
it leaves haze::💫💫💫💫
in my room;💫💫💫💫
i dont like to sleep :::💫💫
all i like to do is💫💫💫💫
wake up::::)💖💖💖

shewasfallliiingoutoftouch::::*****"""""xxxxxx

🌻ɪɴ ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀʟᴀɴᴅ🌻
2soonbbbxx
prod. LUCi

Dazed 
confused
She was falling out of touch
I was
Using 
Too much

Falling
Harder
I could hold her heart in my hand

watch the sun rise
never looked her in her eyes 
Till the sun turned white
Then we drew the curtains wide
I could hold u once or twice
drew the curtains shut
vampires in my bed room
Running out of luck
Running out of money
But this feeling way too funny
Theres j something in the honey
In the drink and if I sleep I might j miss it
In a blink I see  u
Hey
You
lying
In my bedroom
should I of told you
Everything?

gave u my heart
no wedding ring
Gave u my dreams
told u everything

I was never thinking
No pretend
i was never thinking

:::""*

I was steady sinking
Meet u at the bottom

Days that I get lost in
smoking on a coffin

Waiting for the end

I was checking all my options
Waiting for the one
But she never seem to come
never seem 
to make me love
Only make me numb

I dont feel in my bones
But I feel It in my lungs
Fcking to my favorite songs
shit
 Im sorry 
making love

  I j fell apart cause
This life never ends
Hide from my friends
Ill lie once again now
Someone let me in
Need something to pretend
im All alone again

let me out

forgive my sins
Im trying to repent
im Trying to forget
with Every little breath
with Every little breath

DAZED, CONFUSED

::::*****
xxxxxx""""
::)
love luci

Shes heaven sent
But loves to sin
I guess its why I love
To sit and watch
her grin it makes me feel
A little bit of something 
Lost a while ago
The days were slow
And hard to bear
And now i hear her voice
again but only 
when Im silent

staring at my eyelids
Watching stars
And future lives
I might of loved
If I was just a little smarter
If I thought a little harder
I dont know
its alll a blur
And now I feel 
the bubble burst
And now it hurts
I guess im all alone 
again

I know this feeling 
all too well
Its an old 
familiar smell
Its fuckn hell
Its fuckn prison
Shes an angel
im a sinner

Pull me close and tell me sweetly
That u never want to hurt me
hold my throat and fuckn jump
Tell me softly that u love me
I will only look away 
If u cant hold me in your gaze
i will only feel the pain
If u let go of my hand

HEAVEN SENT XXX

::::*****
xxxxxx""""
::)
love luci

prod. luci x shnxman

lost again
If I pretend
Its all
 a dream
Would u pretend
with me
And light a fire
To everything
To everyone
And everything that we love






baby i was all choked up
id say anything
to make You blush
wait untill we fall in love
or Wait until you meet someone
Maybe we could lay here
Wait until the world ends
ill be with u till the sun dies
watching from the sidelines

i was tryna mend my soul
she was never one to know
She never one notice
I was tryna mend my soul
this hearts colder
now
u left me down
but ill
make it 
out
will make you
proud
i dont
lie
to you
anymore
no
believe me
i know
its hard

I thought that I could trust you
I thought that I could trust myself
But I'm not alright
The doctor prescribed me some pills for suicide
What the fuck is my life?
I'm weak but I feel like I'm alright
I know it's my mental just playing denial
I'm moving too fast with a sticker that says I'm fragile
I know we can work if I just said what's up
I know I can work if I just killed myself
I know that forever I'll be feeling pain
Cause life isn't funny - it's sick - it's a game
I know we can work if we just said what's up
Cept I guess I'll just put some more drugs in my cup
I guess
I guess I'm alright
Because I'm lost
Again
If I pretend
It's all a dream
Would pretend with me 
And light
A fire
To everything
And everyone 
That we loved
xx
::"""

ALL CHOKED UP X CHRONIC SHNXMAN

::::*****
xxxxxx""""
::)
love luci

I dont see ur face when lights go down 
No more
lately baby I dont feel tired oh no
I been steady flying off to mars 
w my bros
fuck it up I do not know where to go
Take me home

Tell me when the dreams turn to nightmares
Ill be on the ceiling with my eyes red


Tell me if u need ill be right there
ill be free to bleed if u lie here




is it the same to you?
cause Its all the same to me
cope with pain just to see
Fuck are you talking to me

make my night

Make my nose bleed
fuck do u want from me
said its all a dream
its all in my head

make my nose bleed
fuck do u need
From me

is it the same to you?
cause Its all the same to me
cope with pain just to see
Fuck are you talking to me
make my eyes bleed
fuck do u need from me
its all a dream to me

ITSALLTHESAMETOME (PROD. PREYXO X NOPHONEENKI)

::::*****
xxxxxx""""
::)
love luci

prod.luci

I lied to her again
wait
wild when 
im pretending
i cannot be fake
no
i always said that...

leaving

broken mirrors
i 
cant be feeling
like
i need you
i need you
i cant feel a 
way
i cant
love the
same
i cant love the same
:::"""
way i used to
and i am using u
i am losing u

USING U FT CIX50

@hxritee
do u feel me
do u hear me
do u love me
do u fear me
can u see me
can u love me
can u want me
can u free me?

prod. grossgodmag

tape otw
w @Hxritee :::))
xxxxxxxxxxxx 
💜💀💜💀💜💀💜💀💜💀

SIIP SLOWLY X HXRITEE 💜

Wokeup At The End Of Another Day (Prod. 𝔰𝔞𝔡𝔢𝔦𝔷)

Take My Hand (Prod. 𝔰𝔞𝔡𝔢𝔦𝔷)

Wakeup To Find My Hearts Gone (Prod. 𝔰𝔞𝔡𝔢𝔦𝔷)

Drift Away (Prod. 𝔰𝔞𝔡𝔢𝔦𝔷)

Wakeup In A Dream (Prod. 𝔰𝔞𝔡𝔢𝔦𝔷)

wake up freestyle go back to sleep

@dub-a-1
if i suffer im a martyr
if i love u im a loner
xxxx

Haze Never Leaves 🧡[Prod. DUB A]

give or take a couple seconds of my day
i stay
debating in my mind up in my head

thinking bout j what u said, through the night through the day through the week,
you dont know? you dont know? i barely sleep, 
its okay, its okay its not your fault,
dont u worry bout what i cant control,
dont u worry bout what u cant
nono
dont u worry bout it no no 
no more

give or take🤝(prod. 𝔰𝔞𝔡𝔢𝔦𝔷)

fallingthroughthecracks x sadhectorr (prod. flowty)

im going home

i lied to myself for too long

i know rn, u cant tell ft. sadhectorr

im so sad these days

leave me alone, its for the better ft. cix50, hxritee

my addictions make me weak

i resign my ego, i dont fear death and i dont fear life, i am free from desire, therefore i am free, in solace x☯️

LUCi

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