different shade of red (demo)

I'm a crow in a cage, a crumpled page,
 A fruit that's getting mushy with age,
I'm hawthorn, blood borne, bad porn, over-worn,
Eating my part of a monthly wage.
I'm never late, always wait at least an hour just in case,
Too scared to miss the action-
Scared of a lot of things; black nights, bugs with wings, 
But won't give the satisfaction.
I'm not on trend, hard to mend,
Lung shatters, heart in tatters,
Fragile, hostile, senile, bad style,
Give me a dose of that self-love batter
What do you mean that you can't see me?
My edges are neon bulbed, blatent and flashy
I'm not well recieved- but a brilliant host
I'm not so in fashion but will awe you the most.

Megan Teece Round