nothing you do will ever be good enough for you
and somebody’s talking, somebody’s laughing, someone you know
and you’re getting too old to care, and too old to change
but you do and you won’t
and you’re getting too old to care, and too old to change
but you do and you won’t

your head’s an island, every idea, every longing’s buried treasure
and the map is digital, all you gotta do is get in the stupid car
but you don’t like packing for trips or leaving the house
or driving on the highway
and you don’t have the money for a boat once you get to the shore
and you don’t know anyone with one

so you sit around smug saying it’s the future and there’s more than one way to do everything
and you read it all back to yourself and delete it
cause the metaphor’s hackneyed, and you could do better
but the metaphor’s accurate too, and you’re gonna die soon
or get too busy and tired and complacent and content or broken to go

nothing you do will ever be good enough for you
and someone is laughing, someone you know, but it’s none of your business what they do in their own homes
and you’re getting too old to care, and too old to change
but you do and you won’t
you’re too young to be defeated and too old to need help
but you might be and you probably are

nothing you do will ever be good enough for you
but it’s not your fault, so keep keeping on and be sad 
if you gotta be sad
and be hopeless and brave and be stupid but not stupid like rocking the boat till you flip it and everyone in it
be hopeless and brave be stupid but not stupid like you could before you had something to lose

Something To Lose

turbulence, the malcontent, and brevity
bartenders and driving over 70
oh no

roller coasters, overgrowth, high consciousness 
criticism festivals and gas station explosions
oh no

i’m afraid of everything, i’m afraid of everything

packing up and going on vacation
barking dogs, surprises, affectations
oh no

unexpected visitors, deep water
staying up and sleeping in, quicksand and affluence
oh, no

i’m afraid of everything, i’m afraid of everything
ease and entropy
mastery and mediocrity

getting left out, loud sounds, weddings and large crowds
what happens if it works out, being loved up and rundown 
what happens if it works out, what happens if it works out

Oh No

i am trying to be less, make some room in my head
i am trying to be quiet, slow it down, talk less
hold it close to the chest, tone it down, pay attention
make some room, in your head, be cool, talk less

i am trying to be less, counting syllables in my verses
i am trying to be right, trying to find a compromise
i am trying to be less, make some room in my head
slow it down, talk less, be cool, be interesting

i’ve been told more than once i’m too much
being told that once is too much

i am trying to be less, slow it down, pay attention
but i got voices, in my head
little ghosts, they’re only quiet when i’m singing
little ghosts, please be less, make some room in my head
little ghosts, please be sweet, talk less or say something interesting

i am trying to make space, trying to let go, have faith
but i got voices in my head
little ghosts with some strong opinions
hold them close to the chest
little ghosts, slow it down, talk less
be quiet, be cool, say less, listen

i’ve been told more than once i’m too much
being told that once is too much

i am trying to be less, i am trying to talk less
i am trying to be less, i am trying to be quiet

Little Ghosts

dear hiring team
I’m writing to you today
a beautiful summer day I might add
bit stormy and gray
but maybe you’re like me and you don’t mind it terribly
to express interest in your open position
I cannot tell you how excited I was to see you were hiring for this role.

It's exactly what I've been looking for all my life

at my current job
i do this exact same thing 
and i make the company lots of money
i know ‘cause when i started 
the CEO was driving a kia and couple months later he was driving a lexus
that’s gotta count for something
that’s gotta mean something 

i think i’m exactly who you’ve been looking for, i’m exactly who you’ve been looking for all your life

i’m a team player 
and i’m really good on the computer
i’m a quick learner and i speak quite a bit of spanish
si necesitas alguien que puede hacer eso
on your website i saw your core values are transparency
and integrity, well mine are too,

you’re exactly who i’ve been looking for

i’m free
weekdays before 5pm EST and would
love to speak with someone there about the 
position at your earliest convenience. 
i really need this
i mean you really need me

melissacarvermusic