interlude
produced by @oakscreen <3
additional production by me

[lyrics]

forever affection
im bad at accepting
keep taking a breath in
keep making my head spin

get lost in the tension
follow your directions
your heart as a weapon
u know im defensless

baby i know that u dont care about me
im all alone theres nobody around me
am i dead or just sleeping soundly
ill never get how you ever found me

eyes blue but your head is cloudy
i too dont want to be lousy
i dont think that i can live without you
baby could u ever live without me

i feel so tender (without me)
you hold me tight (without me)
like burning embers (without me)
youre full of light (could u ever live without me)
always remember (without me)
the way youre like (without me)
could write a letter (without me)
youre the love of my life <3

act like im happy
im good at pretending
im in the backseat
and my journeys ending
baby my last (heart) beat
it wont be depressing
cause ill take it gladly
and i can accept it

vanish (oakscreen)

@kuraiiii

[lyrics]
i had to lose something to find myself
had nobody else just had myself
i need time to focus on my health
cause honestly i ain't been feeling well

if u wanna talk im only a whisper away
i could let out all the things that i wanted to say
i could tell u everything tell u that u'd b okay
you'd be okay
i dont even know why they love me
baby i think that ur lovely
u can fall ill catch u trust me
tell me why i need u more than ever

tell me why i need u more than ever
tell me why i need u more than ever
tell me why i need u more than ever
tell me why i need u more than ever

loseitall (kurai)

@blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

https://open.spotify.com/album/5dkyRFb1yJPEI0MDEtQi8v?si=7obS22PkQE-X6LH4oxsTHA

after you feat. blxty

scene (maknae & waifu)

@mental 

i couldnt hide when i fall
you're like winter suprised at the cold
i could never be fine all alone
i try my best not to cry when you're home

i wouldnt lie cause im better than that
tired all the time im just letting it pass
even after everything im still glad
twisting my heart think im getting attached

im feeling things ive never felt before
if u were far away to reach u i would teleport
i found the meaning but idk what u said it for
i would do anything that i had to

make u feel okay
u wont ever feel the same
my feelings couldnt be erased
if i tried
so i wont try

https://open.spotify.com/track/2nL40bqG6Cix9hlw9HXnu3?si=5747a5924eaf4c36

attached (mental)

@blxty
@1yugenn

i feel like im better alone
is something wrong with me?
i feel like im turning into
what i don't want to be
tell me everything is alright
i need your honesty
tell me everything will be fine
just keep reminding me that

just be honest, do u hate me?
its all that im thinking bout lately
everyday feel like im going crazy
pushed me to the edge yea u made me
wanna talk ima let it out
all these thoughts inside my head need to get them out
im not happy when you're not around
not a smile its an upside down frown

i hate when i see that you're down
you know when i keep to myself
i cry but im hiding the sound
its a lie coming out of my mouth

honesty (blxty yugen)

everything by me @mental

[lyrics]

i just wanna vanish
when everybody leaves i feel so panicked
you do the same to me
i couldnt manage if it were up to me
its doing damage i lost too much hp

theres a hole in my heart
theres a hole in yours too
getting close to the stars
theyre warm just like you

dont want this to be over
thinking makes me cry
looking hard i need closure
i cant sleep at night
if you wanna be my friend
you could help me - open up
leave me when you're done
swear im close to giving up

id pretend
if u wanted i could play it cool
tell me what u want me for
ur who i adore
and its nothing new

closure (mental)

everything by me @mental

[lyrics]
you couldnt tell me that u dont
feel the same way
u know ur perfect
u know ur perfect

u couldnt lie i know it hurts
when you fake it
i swear ur perfect
ur f*cking perfect

i cant try my best
sometimes we dont fall apart at night (:
i wanna vanish from your eyes
touch my arm relax my mind
i know its hard but its alright
you just have to give it time
anything is possible
you dont believe it close your eyes

and ill show u
anything u want
no matter what the cost is
id even sell my heart
id even be forgotten
we dont have to stop
i swear to god and promise
but that wont keep me falling

every day is way too much
i cant fall in and out of love
everything u tell me punches
me i feel it in a rush
i dont wanna feel your touch
tell me something make it up
tell me that u hate my guts
try my hardest not to blush

*letting it all out*

skylight

produced by @kuraiiii

[lyrics]

moving effortlessly
its so serene
you're the hope i need
so just keep holding me
i can never listen
its controlling me
i want our souls to meet

i can try my best to keep it inside
every day feels like im living a lie
keep a smile on the inside i cry
i was running but i wanted to hide

bad thoughts in my head im sick
no other feeling like it
you're my medicine
im just tryna be enlightened
but i dont wanna keep on fighting
new day another L
im tired of crying

i feel your presence and it pulls me in
dont have my heart right in your hands but you're controlling it
really i just wanna go home again
(dont have my heart right in your hands but you're controlling it)

[@7serene]

keep it inside (kurai)

prod me @mental

@kairo6k
@mitsooya
@blxty

https://open.spotify.com/track/437O0RBtvtzqE4U5OtPv7Z?si=e641fde85d4f4777

friends feat. kairo, mitsu, blxty (mental)

care feat. 8485 (lilac)

feels like its luck that i met u,, so idk how ill live without Uu :<
@sanriorose
@lil4c

https://open.spotify.com/track/615H5I2U2RVL5Wrl1XSojr?si=-WkeVha0QTGSr8sfvo0wDw

luck feat. dolly (lilac)

adore (odel & mariette)

gone

weakness

@4amxx

https://lyricallemonade.com/p/better-mental

better (4am)

@blackwinterwells

for my friends

[lyrics]
it feels like a waste of time
im so tired i don't wanna go outside
they tell me it's not as bad but i still hate my life
and i guess it could be worse but that don't make me smile
make me smile

i think that you're perfect in ur own way
i avoid the things that make me okay
you tell me im stupid "thats what they say"
you get kind of angry i stay away

ive always been wrong but i think im in the right here
know ur not alone, if u need someone im right here
i been down for way 2 long, but u helped me get my mind clear
i just wanna go, but ur still up in my nightmares

yeah i tried to be ok, but it always ends up bad
shouldve known that you were fake when u stabbed me in the back
but i think i'll be okay, i can never go back
can u look me in the face can u tell me (tell me)

smile (mental & wells)

@blxty
@15elias

[mental]
you broke my heart its bleeding out
i cry for help i scream and shout
i need ur love i need it now
u broke me all my walls torn down
rip me apart im shattered
make me think i never mattered
i cant deal with all this damage
burn me turn me into ashes

[blxty]
going back to my patterns
im falling in
if u told i mattered
would it b pretend
feel like dolly
tell her that she still miss me
she don't miss me she only miss blxty

lets see how far all these drugs will get me
2d only see the part where u leave
its crazy how everyone wanna be me now
covered up in blood feel like a hound

[mental]
they all wanna be me
i wish i was someone else
live my life on repeat
secrets i can never tell
everybody leaves me
i know that u will as well
i know u dont need me
moving onto someone else
look up at the stars
fall into ur arms im safe
broke into my heart
everything is falling into (place)

shattered feat. blxty (elias & mental)

micro-edits & mixing by grandee

@angelus7k
@gnde
@blackwinterwells

monster feat. angelus & grandee (blackwinterwells)

https://open.spotify.com/track/30qOE3LSUCmV2ImcHJzjFF?si=m8xQlUZvRem3OTc2BMHoew

@kuraiiii
@176s

[lyrics]
im stressed u help me calm down
still i cant let my guard down
my heart always gets knocked down
so i keep it in lockdown

u make me calm down (you make me believe in me)
im still in lockdown tho
cant let my guard down (you make me believe in myself)
cause u might knock me down

free me
take me away
love, u
cant say the same
im trapped
inside my brain
hate almost
every day

u make me feel a lil bit better
when im down and under the weather
i can come to u for attention
hope u know u hold me together

protect (kurai & waifu)

ignored (kurai & winter)

@sanriorose
prod me

(mental)
i hope u dont hate me
lotta words that i'll never let escape me
oh oh
yea u drive me crazy
made a bag spend a rack on the daily
oh oh
everyday im having bad thoughts
everyday im tryna get lost
everyday i get so pissed off
everyday they told me kick rocks
everyday i try to get up
everyday i wanna fall off
everyday i try to bring up
that ur not the one that i want

i get too defensive i kno it
hurt cant show it
eyes wide open
second chance but ik im bout 2 blow it
in the background treat me like a token
im not saying sorry
i dont got a reason
tell me that ur lyin
dont even wanna believe it
sillyteam yaa its our season
lookin at my opps yea i gotta get even

(dolly)
treat me like a dummy but u kno i need it
butterflies all in my tummy i hope u dont see it
n i saw u running i guess im the reason
n u learned it from me gotta watch what im teaching
every day i have a bad day
i feel like a dead man walking
i did what i did its ok
u treat it like it was nothing
u did what u did its ok
i treat it like it was nothing
i jus wanted it all the same
ur lying if u say u want me

[@1sillyteam]

repeat feat. dolly (mental)

@twikipedia

@prodelxnce
@kuraiiii
@vinsoignatius

mental

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