what’s with the soft block
you know I take this personally
and I’ll record this song
I hope that you are
listening
and now my song drops
as fast as my will to be
anything at all

what’s with the soft block
you know I take this personally
won’t not record this song
I know that you are
listening 
and now my song drop
as fast as my will to be
anything at all 

what’s with the soft block 
you must want your name
in my my discography
but I’m the shock man here
I know you’re listening

2021

soft block

Once in a lifetime
You see the northern lights
Bright red energy
A vein across the sky 
Sometimes darkness is what we needed

have you seen the dark sky

demo

northern lights

moves

so what

Been crying for hours
But I can’t find my guitar
Behind all the boxes I packed and moved myself
shouldn’t be this hard

I’ve got a song in me so
I’ll sing it from the balcony
And I hope that 
That you hear it all somehow

You broke
You broke my
You broke
You broke my
You broke
You broke

I know that you hated when I sang
I know that you hated when I sent you anything
And I thought that meant you hated me
So I’ll write this song
Write this song you need

But I can’t find my damn guitar
I moved and packed a billion boxes
You don’t know how hard it is
To lose yourself moving a million times so far 
But I hope you know that you broke my 
That you broke

Being with you
I’d be with you for a billion years
If you hadn’t made me cry
A million tears
But it’s okay this time
You broke my -
It’s okay this time
because you broke 

(2021)

you broke

No time left for me
So I write down 5 things I see 
4 things I feel
Like miserably
3 things I can hear
Well, my name called thru intercoms
And the sun’s given up on the day
I smell it from miles away
My mouth has got that bad taste 

None of this has to do with
Why I had to come see you 
Never grounded myself but I’m trying
What the hell 

(2021)

stories

grounding myself

Don’t make me out as some kind influencer
Don’t make me out as some kind of manipulator
Because it’s boring
don’t make out with me
In a world where it doesn’t matter if I care about your name
Why would I even go around thinking
That you’d think the same 
I am just trying to get through
I am just trying to see -
How long can I get before I delete your name

So for the hundredth time
Let me sit around and complain
didn’t make it this time
Let me go around blaming everyone in my sight
This isn’t something I think about daily 
But this is something that you make fun of me all the time
And I’m not calling you baby 
Bc I got shot today and it’s your fault 
Just kidding

(2021)

problematic

influencer

Makeup done
Nails pressed
5 minutes early
In your favorite dress
Keep me pretty 
And my head empty
Is this all it takes
To impress

You’re a fan of me, fan of me
You hate me but love me
Makin me feel ugly
You stan me 
Call me enemy
You won’t date me
But It’s funny 
Bc you’re always watching

You’re a fan of me, fan of me 
Like a fan and the enemy
You hate me, you love me
Make me feel ugly
You stan me 
While calling me enemy 
Won’t date me
But it’s funny 
That you’re always watching me
 
(2021)

fanofme

“I found my pick, and I’ve also tried to record this song 15 times so, prolly more than that. Definitely more.”

My new ringtone for you
It plays when you ring home 
Screen name blinkin
On my telephone
Logged on hours ago 
Now I gotta go
It’s a no show from you the whole week
The whole week…

But I’m good 
And I’m high
But I had a drink before 5 (oh no)
You ignore my tries
Am I the one
Am I the only one fighting 
Your opinion of me always flipping
From good to goodbye 
From good to goodbye

I’m good
I’m high
I had a drink a being before 5
You ignore my tries
Am I the one
Am I the only one fighting?
So what if I’m high?
Your opinion of me is flipping 
From good to goodbye 
From good to goodbye

(2021)

inventory

from good to goodbye

I'm breaking dishes
in absentee negligence
and it's hurting my finances
I guess it's paper plates and Dixie cups now
'til I get out

been talking nonsense
and losing all my confidence
I can't keep fighting this
I just gotta figure it out

and they say you can't just run away
and by the way go break your leg
Rome wasn't built in a day
(and you light up the stage)
and they say you can't just run away
and by the way go break your leg
you still got bills to pay
sounds like they want me to stay

I'm losing my friends again
like I've been losing all my bets
can't keep up with the half of them
I'm too dumb to play what they play

boxes packed with everything
I didn't break but it just seems
like I've got the half of me left
if walls could talk then they'd pray

breaking dishes

I've got a heart made of reds
and a head full of blues
I can probably sing all of your favorite tunes
I can talk a big game and walk just the same
I can run a thousand miles and then run them again

I can tell you the plot
before the film has been shot
teaching you the lessons
all before you forgot them
I can jump from the sky
and I'll always be fine
I can tell you the time
but I can't tell you why

I can never ever ever have you
you have me, so why oh why can't I too?
I'm at the gate, I'm never late so why are you?
I have to wait, but why do I have to?

I've got a heart made of reds 
but not the kind that you smoke
got a head full of blues
but that's just what you took
I can sing your favorite tunes if you had any taste at all
I'm moving in but you have no fucking room

big game, bigger than you
a thousand miles to run away from you

(written 2023)

I can never have you

walkin around this big ol’ house
screamin secrets we can’t talk about 
giants help us stand to reach the top shelf
living large we sell ourself
only an hour we tell ourself

photobooth memories she cries in pain
evidence in her hands of a man in south padre
we harmonize to the cries
then she calms down again on nicotine

you can’t be sober
you can’t sing sober
you can’t write sober 
you can’t write sober 
you can’t write

cabin fever on a ranch
ennis you got us dancin in your hands
who woke up today
God I hear them say
GOD I hear them say

(written 2024)

recycled hell

ennis

There is no top shelf solution for this
There is no alternative Let’s call it what it is 
There is no fight left in me I cannot commit
I left a thousand years ago

I’m tired of the cruddy songs I can’t even sing along to my own shit I wrote before 
I can fit a thousand lies in between a couple rhymes and try to make you cry to 4 dumb chords 
The poetry is killin me I’m clingin to a middle C I’m copying everything I wrote
Let’s call it what it is again I’m careless to the fucking end 
Until I let go

And maybe in a couple years I won’t plug my fuckin ears every time Logic plays my track
If only in another life I could calm a wildfire-calculated angle of attack
So much for a five year plan stick it to the fuckin man I can’t remember damn amnesiac 
Drivin while I’m fuckin blind I’m losin my fuckin mind journeyin round a cul-de-sac

There is no top shelf solution for this
There is no alternative Let’s call it what it is 
There is no fight left in me I cannot commit
I left a thousand years ago

The poetry is killin me I’m clingin to a middle C I copy everything
Let’s call it what it is again I’m careless to the fuckin end -

(written 2025)

autopsy in real time

I don’t even recognize myself
What have I done what have I done
Always telling all these lies to myself
What have I done what have I done
I haven’t run away but there’s this distance
Bittersweet persistence 
I’m confused but I listen
I can’t confide in myself
What have I done what have I done

The beauty of your eyes I behold in my mind
What have you done what have you done 
Imprisoned there’s a barricade it serenades my mind
What have you done what have you done
I just can’t reach out and touch you
I just can’t reach out and touch you
Biting my hand before it reaches you
Biting my hand I’m biting my

I rummage through my memories like walls punched
Light comes in effortlessly like lines punched
But there is no laughter in the slaughter of grace
What have I done what have I done
Consequences in the trenches and we call it fate
What have I done what have I done

(written 2025)

what have I done

lemme

I would have been on the sidelines
Which you know bc I was once
I was there when nobody else was cheering your name
And the crowd we became friends
I would know it always ends
Now there’s nobody calling for me

You worked me up
You let me down
You ruined every single day of the summer
And you weren’t even there to blame 
You stood me up
You pushed me down
You ruined every single day of the summer
Now 7 months later I got no one to blame

And now we’ve got 1000 missed calls
And we’re crashing into walls
And all of them keep me away

You worked me up
You let me down and
You ruined every single day of my summer
And you weren’t even there to blame 
You stood me up
You pushed me down
You ruined every single day of my summer
Now 7 months later I got no one to blame

You worked me up
You let me down and
You ruined every single day of my summer
And you weren’t even there to blame 
You stood me up
You pushed me down
You ruined every single day of my summer
You weren’t even there to blame
I got no one to blame

(written 2022)
(recorded again 2025)

you ruined every single day of my summer

you ruined every single day of my summer (2025 version)

All of your heinous crimes
All planned out before it’s time to growl
You fish in shallow water
My Beast, your teeth are hallow

There’s no making it out
There’s no making it out alive
There’s no making it out
There’s no making it out of love

Baby, you had me at Hell

Normal boys break their toys
But no, no, no you put me on your shelf
Normal boys break their toys
But no, no, no you put me on your shelf

All of your heinous crimes
All planned out before it’s time to growl
You fish in waters shallow
My Beast, your teeth are hallow

Baby, you had me at Hell

(written 2025)

baby, you had me at hell

you synthesize conversations
my feet in the best positions
I can pace the Talladega in my M3 
you don’t question that
I’m conquering the bench 
you won’t let me consult the masses
But I’m answering the questions
so get your hand off the gear
I think I’ll take it from here

I can slow down to 30
You’re flirting with 23
Fuck you
I know my stuff too
universal energy 
isn’t as easy as it seems
I use Chat GPT
but Babe That Doesn’t Mean You Know More Than Me

this isn’t hard to grasp
keep your hands on the wheel’s all I can ask
do you think you can shoot the gap
not in your car babe you're lagging
you can’t pace the Talladega
right behind you I became a
better teammate I gave ya
all the best lines but you still can’t explain a
concept I could google the name of
your ego cannot sustain the 
state of your shit survey of 
our debate you no longer face
Because my degree can stay the 
Course you didn’t study
I can’t help it babe if you don’t agree
But our sun isn't dying 
No need to mark the calendar
It’s not a need babe but

I’m the solver
I’m the solver it’s me
I’m the solver it’s me

I can slow down to 30
You’re still flirting with 23
Fuck you
I know my stuff too
I can use Chat GPT
Doesn’t mean you know more than me
Doesn’t mean you know more than me
Doesn’t mean you know more than me

(written 2025)

chat gpt

my tears ricochet (cover)

Recorded a decade ago give me a break!

Pearl Jam's "Daughter" and Everclear's "Wonderful" 
mashup by Jayne Harper

Be nice -- I was shuffling 2 guitars and had a shitty recorder (my good one has a broken cord) 2012

Pearl Jam and Everclear MASHUP

thanks for having a minute
though my head ain’t clear
didn’t make an appointment
though I suppose that’s why I’m here

we read your book
now we’re lookin to you
and what your plan is
we’re your planet

we’re your planet
so what’s your plan again
thanks for having a minute
what’s your plan
were your planet
were you’re planet




why write a book
if you don't think anyone will follow you?
why write a whole book
if you don't think we'll reach out to you?

(2020)

next up

god Damn

It’s been about 3 years 
So tell me which comes first
Falling or falling in love

It’s been about 6 years now
Tell me which is worse 
Falling falling in love or
Never having to fall

It’s been about 10 years now
And I can’t remember
Falling or falling in love
Falling or falling in love
Falling or falling or falling 

When you’re fallin it’s cause you dared
To jump out from the clouds
I’m falling you brought me down
You grounded me
You brought me down
When you’re telling it’s because 

It’s been about 3 years
Now tell me why it’s better
To wake up alone 
When we said forevs

It’s been about 6 years
Tell me why it’s better to run
It’s always better to run

But now it’s been about 10 years
And I can’t remember why I’m falling
Why I was falling in love
I was falling in love

When you’re falling it’s because you dared
TO JUMP OUT FROM THE CLOUDS
I WAS FALLING 
you brought me down;

X Years

(written 2010, this version recorded 2021)

You’re a dream within a dream
And I can’t kick it out
The weight of the silence is taking me down
I wanna take your hand and
Make it all better somehow
In us I see a light
You know what I’m talking about

We’re falling
But we’re far from apart
So tell me how to
Get us back to the start
No lies no lies
I can take a hint 
I can give you a minute if you need
But in the future I see
no lies

here we are again fighting
like every single night
I can’t move a fuckin muscle 
‘Cause you’re so frightening
You take a stand 
I take a seat
You slap my hand
I stomp my feet
You’re leaving and I’m staying
There’s nothing I can say

mountains

no lies (2021 version)

i sing and i song and i write
1 woman show
here to ruin your day™️

DEMO EP'S 4 U:


"recycled hell"
___
“even the birds are gone”
___
"this album is not called fearless"
___
“vulnerable”
___
“sing shit into an unplugged mic”
___
"11:11"
___
“ask me how I know”
___
"i deserved better"
___
“invisible monsters”
___
“from the inside”
___
“you know it was fun”
___
"stories"
___
"moves"
___
"fluorescent green"
___
"demo"
___
"unnamed"
___
“2021”
___
“icarus”
___
"mountains"
___
"midnight snack"
___
"back on my bullshit"
___
"next up"
___
“fire”
___
“songs to build cars to”
___
"EMPIRE"
___

just a few demo EPs to bump
by:
janyewest productions;

okbye

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