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I’m falling asleep
While you’re yelling at me
What got me fired turned me cold

I’m falling from the top
But the bottom fell right through
Don’t want to be another rock in my shoe

Trying not to tread on my empty soul
By the drop you should tell
I can move 

Falling asleep 
When you’re yelling at me
It’s just my signature move

(2021)

signature move

(I need a pick to be honest but)

Jesus 
why the fuck did you think it would be so easy
Take a breath and then another 
Then stop breathing 
And try it all again

Jesus 
How many times do I have to come and save you
This isn’t something that’s happened once
But daily

Jesus
Help me because there’s no fucking explanation
For all I do I just end up hated
I try it all again

Jesus
Level up I ready to defeat the demons
Colorful skies always just awaken 
Angles in the night

Jesus
All of my defenses are failing ain’t it funny
Was my course into the sun 
Not sailing
I sail away

(2021)

jesus

I judge you for a living
It’s how I survive
Please don’t blame me
I’m from the 4th dimension
 I support my wife

I shouldn’t be thriving
While you’re in harsher environments
With confinement and I know you’re surviving
Despite my ignorance 
But tonight I vow to let you go
The 3rd dimension is about motion 
So into my sea I will throw you
I hope you swim and I hope you sink

There is so much more about you
And your Galaxy everything supports you
And the systems under which I stole you
Aren’t requirements for your survival

I know I shouldn’t be thriving
While you’re in harsher environments
Confinement and everything I know
Is telling me that you’re surviving
Despite my ignorance despite my intelligence
Tonight I will let you go
3rd dimension’s about motion
And into our sea I will throw you
There is so much about you
And if you sink or if you swim
The Galaxy, everything support you
The systems under which I stole you
Aren’t requirements for your survival 
Please don’t blame me
I’m from the 4th dimension
This is how I support my wife and my baby
I judge you for a living 
Almost make a million

I shouldn’t be thriving
And this is why I will make you go

(2021)

from the angels

go ahead and call me unprovoked
I'm ready with a reason and a written note
I'll be reeling from our last little anecdote
You don't really want the smoke

you gave me the pieces back
you told me the weed was wack
in the 70's the treat was slack
and now you can't put the pieces back

I have experience with this
you can't dismiss me 
when I'm the one who quits

your kingdom has no king does it
little princess thinks she's next
your kingdom has no king does it
little princes thinks she's next

it takes a village when someone passes
a life from the house to the masses
it takes a village when someone passes
a life from the house to the masses

go ahead and call me unprovoked
I'm ready with a reason and a written note
and now you can't put the pieces back

your kingdom has no king

A cheeky mix of a song which will not appear on the final "studio" album; "Nowhere to go now".

Taken from last year's demo sessions at Dungeon Studios, Lancaster, and mixed into shape by legendary producer @user-36337209 - better known as 8Moon this piece is an exclusive for our @SoundCloud army!

Nowhere to go now (DEMO) Dungeon Studios REMIXED BY 8Moon

you made me count how many people would be there when I died
and I think that's shit
I want you to count how many will be there with you when you decide to live
And this ain't no pissing contest but we both know that I drink more
We may not be together but I'm sure as hell I'd go back in time 
to be sure WE NEVER MET

You love all your angles bc all you do is triangulate against me
And it's not the flex you think to make women call me names

There's a high road
but you don't smoke
and you can't drive
So I'll take it
And I know a good joke
but I just blocked you
so I guess I don't (anymore!)

(written 2023)

this album is not called fearless

jokes

you do a really good job of telling the truth
so that when you do lie I don't know that you do
and I'm caught up in this cycle 
like every single night so far

saying horrible things at the top of your lungs
and you really do think you're the hero among us
I'm begging you to stop but you're already drunk
on making me cry when I wake up

the verbal attacks don't make you cool
it's a literal tirade if I don't follow your rules
which are different for me than they are for you
typical you to be unspeakably cruel

yea you rule
yea you rule

you rule

I might
Think I'm winning the fight
Because you're running away
And I'm the holding the knife
..On the wrong side
The blood on my hands
Is actually mine

Because I'm a killer
A stone cold villain yeah
Run you down
Thinking I'm winning

You might have all my pieces
I sacrifice them for the win
This ain't black and white though
Because I'm the one bleeding

killer

You moved on
While I was moving so fast, love
And I stayed young
And you grew old, older with her

I said I'll catch up with you
In the next lap, though
You were through and you went home
And I was still on the track

And again I'm nineteen
And I can't find myself home
Because I crashed every car I own into a wall

And suddenly
Suddenly we are 30 and I am still lost
It's all relative until they decide you're not
It's all relative until you're not

I was moving fast
And I fell apart when it couldn't last
Driving back into an everlong
You grew older while I stayed young

it's all relative

the amount of times you've hung up on me
I would say you're hung up on me
but let's not go down that street
it's always one-way
I always use metaphors because I don't really have the words
so I will use theirs but I'll never take yours
I will never take your word

I Hate You More
it's off my chest now get off of my porch
back down the steps that you wore down
every time that you left then came back around
I Hate You More
I'm not losing this one, bet
I'm kicking you outta of my head
you never paid your rent, you're no victim
you're just evicted

they say the 3rd time's a charm
but you got strikes instead
tell me what the fuck is up with that
the gall that you must have
to still come back swinging -
you're out of your mind
now get out of mine!
you got the last word for the last time
and now we're out of breath
so I'll use my last

I Hate You More

right now around 5 it gets dark outside
who can we thank for saving time
looking around everything is dark
and I can't remember where we parked
hold my hand until we get to the car please

sometimes when I move through the night
there's a spotlight on everybody but me
it's alright I can learn to dance in the dark
('til everybody's watching)
somehow when the sun goes down
and the lights go out
everybody leaves now
I can't let you go, no I can't let you go
but I can let you down

and do you want to dance with me
even when it means no one can see

it's after the movie we came to see at 3
and I would usually ask you to have a bite with me
but I know you're going to ask me to drop you off at home
and for the first time I'm going to drive home alone

I can let you down

I'm breaking dishes
in absentee negligence
and it's hurting my finances
I guess it's paper plates and Dixie cups now
'til I get out

been talking nonsense
and losing all my confidence
I can't keep fighting this
I just gotta figure it out

and they say you can't just run away
and by the way go break your leg
Rome wasn't built in a day
(and you light up the stage)
and they say you can't just run away
and by the way go break your leg
you still got bills to pay
sounds like they want me to stay

I'm losing my friends again
like I've been losing all my bets
can't keep up with the half of them
I'm too dumb to play what they play

boxes packed with everything
I didn't break but it just seems
like I've got the half of me left
if walls could talk then they'd pray

breaking dishes

I've got a heart made of reds
and a head full of blues
I can probably sing all of your favorite tunes
I can talk a big game and walk just the same
I can run a thousand miles and then run them again

I can tell you the plot
before the film has been shot
teaching you the lessons
all before you forgot them
I can jump from the sky
and I'll always be fine
I can tell you the time
but I can't tell you why

I can never ever ever have you
you have me, so why oh why can't I too?
I'm at the gate, I'm never late so why are you?
I have to wait, but why do I have to?

I've got a heart made of reds 
but not the kind that you smoke
got a head full of blues
but that's just what you took
I can sing your favorite tunes if you had any taste at all
I'm moving in but you have no fucking room

big game, bigger than you
a thousand miles to run away from you

(written 2023)

I can never have you

we're joking and laughing and you're keeping track 
of the time that I talk and it pulls me apart
and sometimes you're all I have
you call me weak for that

the conversion must fit within
unreasonable hidden constraints that you have
and I go through the motions like paying your tax
and I hope that you know that you never give back

and we're joking and we're laughing for hours on end
I'm feeling warm again
we're back on track
and we're safely colliding
safely confiding
really we're trying
and then you're lying
I'm crying I'm lying
and inside you're over it
and I'm feeing worn again
you're filming reactions to your mean distractions
and showing them off to your friends

you make me feel like a Bad Friend

(written 2024)

Bad Friend

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DEMO EP'S 4 U:

“even the birds are gone”
___
"this album is not called fearless"
___
“vulnerable”
___
“sing shit into an unplugged mic”
___
"11:11"
___
“ask me how I know”
___
"i deserved better"
___
“invisible monsters”
___
“from the inside”
___
“you know it was fun”
___
"stories"
___
"moves"
___
"fluorescent green"
___
"demo"
___
"unnamed"
___
“2021”
___
“icarus”
___
"mountains"
___
"midnight snack"
___
"back on my bullshit"
___
"next up"
___
“fire”
___
“songs to build cars to”
___
"EMPIRE"

just a few demo EP’s to bump
by
janyewest productions;

okbye

jesus

mercury

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