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I’m falling asleep
While you’re yelling at me
What got me fired turned me cold

I’m falling from the top
But the bottom fell right through
Don’t want to be another rock in my shoe

Trying not to tread on my empty soul
By the drop you should tell
I can move 

Falling asleep 
When you’re yelling at me
It’s just my signature move

(2021)

signature move

When I feel perfect for everything
and they just come in and wreck my dreams
I’m looking off my balcony
And I see people smiling

I found a note from you
To mom when she went through this too
But why don’t I deserve the same from you

I was ignored
I was bullied
And I was torn down
Why can’t I get better
My friends don’t like me either

And I found a note from you
Where’s mine
I’m falling down too
In this life

I can’t think
And the folks they’re smiling
Sitting by the pool
Off my balcony
So close but so far
I feel like I’m gazing at the stars
I can see them but I cant be them
I can’t reach them
I’m trying

I wish I got the same love and support
But I was bullied and pushed down
And torn down to this

And I’m your fucking kid
I’m your kid
I’m your fucking kid
I’m your kid
I’m your only kid
And I’m your only fucking kid 

(2021)

dear dad

(I need a pick to be honest but)

Jesus 
why the fuck did you think it would be so easy
Take a breath and then another 
Then stop breathing 
And try it all again

Jesus 
How many times do I have to come and save you
This isn’t something that’s happened once
But daily

Jesus
Help me because there’s no fucking explanation
For all I do I just end up hated
I try it all again

Jesus
Level up I ready to defeat the demons
Colorful skies always just awaken 
Angles in the night

Jesus
All of my defenses are failing ain’t it funny
Was my course into the sun 
Not sailing
I sail away

(2021)

jesus

I judge you for a living
It’s how I survive
Please don’t blame me
I’m from the 4th dimension
 I support my wife

I shouldn’t be thriving
While you’re in harsher environments
With confinement and I know you’re surviving
Despite my ignorance 
But tonight I vow to let you go
The 3rd dimension is about motion 
So into my sea I will throw you
I hope you swim and I hope you sink

There is so much more about you
And your Galaxy everything supports you
And the systems under which I stole you
Aren’t requirements for your survival

I know I shouldn’t be thriving
While you’re in harsher environments
Confinement and everything I know
Is telling me that you’re surviving
Despite my ignorance despite my intelligence
Tonight I will let you go
3rd dimension’s about motion
And into our sea I will throw you
There is so much about you
And if you sink or if you swim
The Galaxy, everything support you
The systems under which I stole you
Aren’t requirements for your survival 
Please don’t blame me
I’m from the 4th dimension
This is how I support my wife and my baby
I judge you for a living 
Almost make a million

I shouldn’t be thriving
And this is why I will make you go

(2021)

from the angels

“I found my pick, and I’ve also tried to record this song 15 times so, prolly more than that. Definitely more.”

My new ringtone for you
It plays when you ring home 
Screen name blinkin
On my telephone
Logged on hours ago 
Now I gotta go
It’s a no show from you the whole week
The whole week…

But I’m good 
And I’m high
But I had a drink before 5 (oh no)
You ignore my tries
Am I the one
Am I the only one fighting 
Your opinion of me always flipping
From good to goodbye 
From good to goodbye

I’m good
I’m high
I had a drink a being before 5
You ignore my tries
Am I the one
Am I the only one fighting?
So what if I’m high?
Your opinion of me is flipping 
From good to goodbye 
From good to goodbye

(2021)

from good to goodbye

I want to say
It's really hard to get the right key
It's really hard to say the right thing in these damn songs
I'm about to be homeless
I couldn't get the right sound to come from my damn guitar
Fucking kill me!
Is just what I'd like to say every 2 minutes
Minutes doesn't even rhyme with anything
Fucking kill me already!
Because I can't write this song

Do I gotta be dying if I'm trying
And I fail all along...
Maybe it's suicide if I can't keep it together
If I can't keep it together
I can't even write this song
I can't even write this song
I can't think of any lyrics or I don't know
What even key I'm signing in and this is stupid
And it's nothing
The tempo is way off now
And now nobody's gonna listen
And I compare myself all the time
To what I wanted to be when I was 19
But that's not fair
It's not fair
It's not fair
It's not fair to me when I was 19...

And is it considered suicide
If I can't even get the words or timing right?
If I was so bad at this
I just literally have written like 15 fucking EPs
But I can't fucking sing the right words tonight

(2021)

i can't sing the right words tonight

I could write a whole symphony
About the car crash that tried to do me in
It would sound a whole like My Hit and Run
Off the album Out of my the Vein
And you probably think this crash was about you
40 mph couldn’t take me out
Walked away with a bruise and a rage fit
And no one to call about it
40 mph on the upper east side
Fresh green on the light 
I’m in the lane all the way to the right
40 mph couldn’t take me down
And then I’m cruising for a bruisin in a metal cage in a busy part of town
I was told by patrol
At least it wasn’t bloody
(At least there was no blood)
At least it wasn’t bloody

And I got out first
I followed Jesus to what I thought was a hearse
And this man he did not take his last breath
But we still stumbled to the curb like a walk of death 
And in an instant nobody was there
And I tried to scream
But it came out as a body shake and a where am I? 
I’m on the road that almost killed me
And he said I know I watched it in its entirety 
And I asked and he said his name was Matthew but that didn’t matter to me
I looked down and my legs bleeding and battered and he asked another man if he had served
He said no it’s just my masonry dog tags dangling at the intersection of Skillman and a road that almost killed me

(2021)

the walk of death

your kingdom has no king

No problem’s as hard as the one I tried to solve
No star is so far away
No dreams are as intense as the ones I have at night
Where I could fly all day and I’ll be out of sight
But I’ll be okay

Flying over Sydney
Flying over LA
Flying over everywhere you never took me
Flying over your head
Flying cuz you blew me off
Flying everywhere you’d never think to look

No problem’s as hard as the one I tried to solve
No star is so far away (come on)
No dreams are as intense as the ones I told you about no offense
Where I could fly all day and I’ll be out of sight
But I’ll be okay

(2021)

flying

bedroom indie pop specialist
here to ruin your day™️

DEMO EP'S 4 U:

“ask me how I know”
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"i deserved better"
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“invisible monsters”
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“from the inside”
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“you know it was fun”
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"stories"
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"moves"
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"fluorescent green"
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"demo"
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"unnamed"
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“2021”
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“icarus”
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"mountains"
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"midnight snack"
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"back on my bullshit"
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"next up"
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“fire”
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“songs to build cars to”
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"EMPIRE"

just a few demo EP’s to bump
by
janyewest productions;

okbye

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