I’m pouring 4s I’m pouring Texas
these thoughts of you are getting real infectious
we devil danced in the back of a Lexus
and we’ve been connecting like it’s a game of Tetris

she only texts me when it’s late or when she’s been off the wine
got missed calls on my cellphone but please don’t hit my line
I’ve been sad up in my room I just feel way too confined
she’s really uncaring I’ll take it as a sign

40s all up in my piss
Kelly Green and I make her my bitch
got Vetements on my kicks
she doesn’t know my name but we kiss
I got the aimbot I don’t miss
dressed up in black like a witch
off of a downer I glitch
thought you were cool but you switched

I just spilt ash on my jeans
I’ve been nodding like a pheen
you’re looking goofy like a meme
I get the racks up it’s C.R.E.A.M
your music sounds like it’s a joke
you’ve been addicted to the cope
say you get money but you’re broke
fill my blunt up with some coke

It’s not that serious I feel like I’m J-Lo
I’ve been antisocial I might just have to lay low
she’s uninvolved I don’t want her in my iPhone
sick of games I’d just rather be on my own

don't hit my line ft. diegointhedark (ddertbag)

evil spirits in my hallway
shadows in my room 
i've been locked away so long
it just feels like a tomb
and i'm seeing all these visions 
but i cannot move
everytime i'm by my lone 
i just tend to think of u 
i just relapsed for a second i can soothe
i do not like when im sober 
cuz i can't run from the truth
yeah i can't run from the truth

the drugs make me feel some bliss
i've been tryna hold on i'll burn straight thru this zip
life feels like a cycle, throw me up in the abyss
i was with her and she bit up on my lip

you know i'll take the blame please just put it all up on me
you said i wasn't problem but i might have to disagree
when im off of the m's i just get to be free
i've been hurting myself i split blood on my tees

take the blame ft. slidetomycrib (meta)

https://soundcloud.com/erdo
https://soundcloud.com/terastic

no matter what i do there's someone better than me
wither me down to my bones you can throw me to sea
she just lives up in my dreams i wish you'd talk 2 me
i just dropped a couple meds inside a boba tea

we intertwined so briefly 
now im on my own wishing that you kept me
i hate myself there's no one to accept me 
seeing you with other people hate how it effects me

i shouldn't care i wish i didn't
wanna keep my head low wanna keep myself hidden
and all of these thoughts they feel like a prison 
i only get them out over these rhythms

move a box like a piston
do this for myself don't care if they listen
its been awhile hate the distance
got some downers in my system

got what i wished for no one wants 2 talk 2 me
coping with materialism go on shopping sprees
hate what going thru and how my lifes been going
i've been rlly going thru it hope that its not showing

no matter what i do there's someone better than me
wither me down to my bones you can throw me to sea
she just lives up in my dreams i wish you'd talk 2 me
i just dropped a couple meds inside a boba tea

we intertwined so briefly 
now im on my own wishing that you kept me
i hate myself there's no one to accept me 
seeing you with other people hate how it effects me

better than me (erdo + tera) *djswagnasty33*

https://soundcloud.com/sshinju
https://soundcloud.com/toricore_404

clear my head lookin at the sky I’ve been burning gs 
I just shipped another pack I pray to god it don’t get seized 
I been getting colder it feels like I might freeze 
I’ve been up in Dallas I’m pouring Texas tea

omg 
smoking reefer like it’s jazz in New Orleans 
you’ll see me at the top do that shit by any means 
I can’t even fw you if you switch on the team

I’ve been doing better then I was before
I just pulled a shorty she looks like Hayley from Paramore
I got ppl taking shit but I don’t rlly even care 
 vetements on my body that’s the shit I wear

two pills in the cup
blunt wrap indica
no lungs they’re gone 
kill myself for the fun
It’s me and mercy in the cut
fake weed yeah it’s all in my lungs
two bills just to go to the club
geeked up yea I’m not having fun 
What you mean when you say that
what I spent on my shoes, you save that
I’m an og and they hate that

omg ft. bbg tori (shinju)

https://soundcloud.com/diegointhedark
https://soundcloud.com/viinssoo

i walk round my city with a pack up on me
i've been way too damn anxious so im blowing gs
and that boy is a weirdo so i can't fw him
bro we are not the same bitch you are my antonym

i got new swag on my body
control c bitch they copy 
i've been punching in this verse bitch i feel like im rocky
this shit my fav hobby
i just get the cash fr you just do it hardly

shes acting creepy like she's poppy
doing drugs up in a party
just downed another 40
i've been smoking up like im marley
she played with me like atari 
i jus poured a line in my starry
wanna tell my liver sorry :/

i get the bag
me n diego we popping some tags
i don't need protection cuz i keep a gun with a mag
i can't keep you around if you showing to many bloody flags
rlly hope i go up cuz rn life feels like a drag

diego:
visit uur mom nn i gave her dick 
GLE imma throw it fifth 
they bitin me thts a cardinal sin 
cardinal bit , 
cardinal bite ,, , 
run down n im taking your life 
blow bags ion look at the price 
cnt blow racks bitch u broke get em rite  
wit a furry bitch pull the bands out n her tail wag 
i dropped 3k on this bullet belt n im still gonna let my denim sag 
buy a jaguar w the white guts
i dnt care if it makes my parents mad 
bitch im eating good 
uu look starving lik somebody hit him w the fanum tax 
n they say my music hard as fuck just lik a soulsborne game 
talking shit im upping pole get printed on a gildan blank 
ok 
crawl out the drain 
my bro dying off drank 
Radahn ima hold the stars n put em in silver chains

antonym ft diegointhedark (vinso)

https://soundcloud.com/prodkirian

queer eye for the straight guy bitch I’m lookin good 
╰(*´︶`*)╯
he jus wanna b me ik you wish you could 
I got ppl talking shit I feel misunderstood 

really took a fake perc I hope that I die (^-^)
I’m in love with downers I pretend I’m not alive
only thing I’m really good at is trauma dumping in this mic 
why tf u hating?? ik it’s outta spite ✌︎('ω')✌︎

I can’t fw liars I can’t fw envy
I can’t trust a soul I’ve been sick of being friendly (￣^￣)ゞ
chillin with my new shorty she touches me gently 
bitch I got muh own swag ion dress real trendy 

ima push this music until the day that I end
I’m rlly getting money bro bro why u play pretend?? ^_−☆
I’ve been smoking good gas I like to ascend 
I’ve been way 2 stubborn I can’t even make amends 

been going thru it u can’t even see it 
jus shipped in a pack I rlly need it ♪(๑ᴖ◡ᴖ๑)♪
I’ve been isolating like a reject
I think about life and I reflect (〃ω〃)

I’ve been popping blues
bitch im out in Dallas I’ve been sipping screw 
bitch I got cecilie bahnsen on my shoes o(･x･)/
she said she liked my fit I like her tattoos 

queer eye for the straight guy bitch I’m lookin good 
╰(*´︶`*)╯
he jus wanna b me ik you wish you could 
I got ppl talking shit I feel misunderstood 

really took a fake perc I hope that I die (^-^)
I’m in love with downers I pretend I’m not alive
only thing I’m really good at is trauma dumping in this mic 
why tf u hating?? ik it’s outta spite ✌︎('ω')✌︎

queer eye 4 the straight guy (kirian)

https://soundcloud.com/lazerdim700
https://soundcloud.com/mental

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lazer dim 700 - timeout (mercyyy + mental)

https://soundcloud.com/chewy

it's a gloomy day i've been walkin thru the mud
i saw it in their face i could catch your bluff
and my thoughts r getting loud ill keep it a buck

smoking on the pack to balance on my adhd 
i rlly spaz out i feel like i make people leave
back of the bus wondering if u thought of me?
like a year or two past now im making it reak

cuz i couldn't stop blowing on the jane
geeked out my body i feel like im duwap kaine
dealing with bipolar sum ppl called me a psycho :/
but i wanna wear a mask in public like im micheal -_-
(im talking abt michael myers)

i've been smoking in bed but im still scared of fire
got some memories that changed me miss how i was prior 
i keep fucking up you would think im a new hire
some ppl they conspire

it's a gloomy day i've been walkin thru the mud
i saw it in their face i could catch your bluff
and my thoughts r getting loud ill keep it a buck

gloomy day (heroine)

https://soundcloud.com/crowlyyy
https://soundcloud.com/fvckriv

lyrics soon

paypal ft. crowlyyy + riv (mercyyy)

https://soundcloud.com/hiseph
https://soundcloud.com/makemeapromise
https://soundcloud.com/seanpotter

feeling ill ft. seph (surgeon + seanpotter597)

https://soundcloud.com/loveismisery

legs wrapped around my waist i miss the rhythm 
going chest 2 chest our heart raced like a polyrhythm
fuckin hate going asleep cuz im always getting visions 
she said she loved me while we were changing positions

i'll wither away can you call the mortician?
they act like morrissey in '92
we were up in some hotels i miss the old you
my room feels just like a cell im just tryna keep my cool

i feel like im ian curtis at the end
got attachment issues i think i'll lose all my friends
hate how i treat my life like a long bender
i can hear the void calling i wanna surrender
burn me down like ember

wish it all didn't ring a bell
i don't wanna be conscious please let me fucking go
i feel just like im dante i took a trip thru hell
the only thing that it did 2 me was strip away my hope

okay i got these fucking issues i wish that i could cope 
i've been beaten down but ima give it all until i croak
sometimes i think of u but i feel better when i smoke
i don't know if i miss u or it's just the emotions that you provoke

legs wrapped around my waist i miss the rhythm 
going chest 2 chest our heart raced like a polyrhythm
fuckin hate going asleep cuz im always getting visions 
she said she loved me while we were changing positions

i'll wither away can you call the mortician?
they act like morrissey in '92
we were up in some hotels i miss the old you
my room feels just like a cell im just tryna keep my cool

rhythm (kyoa)

ion bite :/ (mercyyy)

https://soundcloud.com/chewy

my psychosis been getting worse I've been trapped up in my room
I've been fighting daily battles hope I make it to June 
ion wanna wake up I've been sleeping past noon
hope there's someone out there for me wanna give someone the moon

till then I'm scraping all this dirt up off my shoe 
they say you gotta love yourself before anyone can love you
but I'm walking thru my life I've learned that ts isn't true 
cuz I've loved and I've lost but every time I still grew 

still some ppl left me with rage and it makes me feel ill
sometimes i want to take it out act like jennifer hills
this trauma has me up in loops I just wish i could heal
I've been tortured by my thoughts i can't even tell what's real 

I woke up vomiting I just feel so awful
I'm a slave to vices wish I didn't love the bottle 
I keep getting older I'll turn into a fossil 
I fucking hate my own body I feel like a model 

need unconditional love I need it in my life 
I need someone to hold me and say it will be alright 
wanna look into your eyes and have it wash away my spite 
till then I'm crying in my pillow just to feel better at night

my psychosis been getting worse I've been trapped up in my room
I've been fighting daily battles hope I make it to June 
ion wanna wake up I've been sleeping past noon
hope there's someone out there for me wanna give someone the moon

till then I'm scraping all this dirt up off my shoe 
they say you gotta love yourself before anyone can love you
but I'm walking thru my life I've learned that ts isn't true 
cuz I've loved and I've lost but every time I still grew

wanna make it 2 june (heroine)

https://soundcloud.com/diegointhedark

u miss yo bros 
then dig em up 
bodies dropping 
yo gang on the floor go pick em up 
scars up on my wrist 
in middle school i used 2 lick my blood
pussy thinkin tht they different 
brobro uain 1of1
i know tht i’m craZy 
its crazy yea
lil bro died he trna play me
cant make this up 
i got phenibut wit x inside a rover truck
i need chips n dior pockets 
i cnnot give up 

walking wit a limp 
45 on my hip 
walked into his trap 
like his dad uah bitch
n we made em strip 
walk eem down 
he ah lick
quali in my cup 
stupid hoe this ain triss

diegointhedark - .45 (mercyyy)

prod me

(about some1 who hurt me in the past)

remember crying in the bathroom i was punching at the stalls
i know what you did our eyes met in the hall
i know im expendable you proved
you don't deserve my heart all you did was use it 

if i saw how you looked at him i'd wanna go blind
she says hates it when guys act too kind 
i wish i let myself out of this bind
hope you thought of me when he was fucking you from behind

i don't know why
why you like hurting me 
why you like hurting me 
why you like hurting me 

i don't know why
why you like hurting me 
why you like hurting me 
why you like hurting me

why do u hurt me (mercyyy)

i say i wanna get better i'm sick of my hypocrisy
nobody fucking cares but it feels like they're all mocking me
i'm in your possession call me your name with an apostrophe
white snot with blood ion wanna explain 

i can see their disdain 
you jus struck a chord i can still hear it sustain 
i hate all these fucking drugs i jus wish i could abstain 
i'm scared of the afterlife something i can't ascertain

savant syndrome i got one thing that i'm good for 
looking in the mirror i'm the person that i abhor
don't shoot yourself I've been fighting all my thoughts it's a damn war
you gave me a living death now waking up has been a chore 

you jus got a castle i was torn up in your moat
i hate myself more with everything i do to fucking cope 
i feel like im crazy looking back at things i wrote
i feel like sayori i pray i don't end up on a rope 

i cried to this sample hope I've worthy to be using it 
you lit me with gas n fire i'm so used to all your fibs 
I've been chasing spyro I've been fucking losing it 
grabbed a fuckin knife but i'm way too scared to forfeit 

i told the dare officer i wouldn't do drugs when i'm older 
wish i kept that promise cuz when i break it i get colder 
you can tell i got crazy jus by the way I've been living 
you left me up in hell i got things that i'm reliving 

unreliable narrator can't tell if it's better or for worse
cuz my brain's shielding me from things that really fucking hurt 
if it were up to me they would pay for every skin cell that died 
i saw the same pits i was held i was crucified

i say i wanna get better i'm sick of my hypocrisy
nobody fucking cares but it feels like they're all mocking me
i'm in your possession call me your name with an apostrophe
white snot with blood ion wanna explain 

i can see their disdain 
you jus struck a chord i can still hear it sustain 
i hate all these fucking drugs i jus wish i could abstain 
i'm scared of the afterlife something i can't ascertain

savant syndrome i got one thing that i'm good for 
looking in the mirror i'm the person that i abhor
don't shoot yourself I've been fighting all my thoughts it's a damn war
you gave me a living death now waking up has been a chore 

don't shoot yourself I've been fighting all my thoughts it's a damn war
don't shoot yourself I've been fighting all my thoughts it's a damn war
don't shoot yourself I've been fighting all my thoughts it's a damn war

don’t shoot urself (mercyyy)

she's so pretty i jus luv her eye contact
you stay in my mind i jus rlly think you're perfect
saw her pupils dilate ik it's real
spending time with you cuz i like the way you make me feel

i can feel it in my heart
ik this is jus the start
i don't wanna b apart
hoping that you stay
i feel worse when you're away
i feel worse when you're not here
won't u stick by me my dear

hope you stick by me 
hope you stick by me 
i can't run from this feeling i see u up in my dreamz
won't you be my player 2 hoping we can be a team
i've been singing from my soul every word i rlly mean

u got on sum pretty makeup
feels better when i wake up
i rlly wanna make-out
wanna stay up in your heart
i hope i stand out 
date idea's up inside my phone notes i got it planned out

i've been up in all this light'
your skin it glows it's rlly bright 
you make me feel alright 
u help me on cold nights

i think that you're really fine
i'm praying you can be mine
don't wanna waste all my time

she's so pretty i jus luv her eye contact
you stay in my mind i jus rlly think you're perfect
saw her pupils dilate ik it's real
spending time with you cuz i like the way you make me feel

i can feel it in my heart
ik this is jus the start
i don't wanna b apart
hoping that you stay
i feel worse when you're away
i feel worse when you're not here
won't u stick by me my dear

hope (heroz)

lucina - lay down (mercyyy)

she been stalking me feel like a lolcow
I've been losing myself ion know how
these boys kleptomaniacs taking my damn sound

i was low but now i'm manic bitch im up
yuh fuck fred durst but I've been still breaking stuff
and that boy got an ego please stop acting like ur tough
and my shawty made of sugar she's been like a power puff

they asked me how i was doing bitch i'm lovely
hope by when im dead all these people will just know me
traumatizing shit up in my life like it's live leak
got some things i lost don't know where my mind be

ion know were my mind is
i hope i can find it
prophetic dreams been tripping me out like a psych
I've been on my lone i jus really miss my sidekick
I've been awake for days i feel like im nauseous

kleptomaniac (heroine)

sample: https://soundcloud.com/corbinsrevenge/falling-down-ft-swan-lingo

look into my eyes u can tell i'm empty
i was steady journaling crying at my entries
hunt me like an animal you can take the bounty

u were sucking on my blood hurt me gently
post-traumatic stress all these memories they harm me
i was doing substances wasting parts of my 20s
thinking that they know me i wish somebody listened

i'm not a cunt im a person
when i skip my meds my issues really tend to worsen
it was late night i'm telling myself i'm a burden
i hope you see punishment but i'm rlly not certain

i got agoraphobia i cannot leave the house
i'm a disappointment i cannot make nobody proud
i tend to flinch every time i hear a loud sound
i fuckin husk don't recognize who i am now

keep my head down i jus rlly wanna run
I've been stuck in place I've been feeling stunned
scared of consciousness i wish i could b done
but i'm too pussy to play around with a gun

look into my eyes u can tell i'm empty
i was steady journaling crying at my entries
hunt me like an animal you can take the bounty

u were sucking on my blood hurt me gently
post-traumatic stress all these memories they harm me
i was doing substances wasting parts of my 20s
thinking that they know me i wish somebody listened

thinking that they know me i wish somebody listened
thinking that they know me i wish somebody listened

crying @ my journal (mercyyy)

I was at the edge of my reality I’m dancing cross the border 
pics of you up in my room I feel like a hoarder yeah I think im just a hoarder
I think you’ll be proud to know that I’m trying to stay sober
Glue up in my chair I’m scared to start working
I just lapsed after 4 months can’t stop the hurting 
It’s my inner child that’s been some thing that I’m learning
I just wanna future love I’m sick of fucking yearning
My lungs been twisted up like a stupid yarn
You can take all of me I don’t think that I need my arms
shoving down my feelings I wish that I could mourn
I got battle scars I pray that I’m fucking worn
my old bag smells like weed and liquor I had 2 hide it
bad thoughts running through my mind 
got cigs I need 2 light them 
Running from snakes like I’m a Pisces
You’re nothing like me
You’re nothing like me

I was at the edge of my reality I’m dancing cross the border 
pics of you up in my room I feel like a hoarder yeah I think im just a hoarder
I think you’ll be proud to know that I’m trying to stay sober

pisces (mercyyy)

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/6FkRigpUrr2EUAhDYR3iLo?si=y8MFzN0YToa7i3CKm9qNSg

gir music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LFhECA-3NZ4&ab_channel=mercyyy


tracklist 

-gir (mercyyy + seph) 
-blu ray (mercyyy + kyoa)
-two nine (mercyyy)
-trustafarian (mercyyy)
-life keeps passing me (mercyyy)
-i like breakup songs (mercyyy + thr6x + mental)
-rainey st (mercyyy + s1ninja)
-el paso (mercyyy + surgeon)
-u left me in autumn (mercyyy)
-wanna restart (mercyyy + arrant)

midi sonata EP

https://soundcloud.com/easton-rager

i got demons that persist
got sum things i can't resist
thc still in meh pee
pray 2 god i need bliss

i jus wish you'd let me be
i hate that i feel like dis

got sum things i wanna quit
204 up on my fit
i feel pretty like a bitch
yeah i'm her favorite mess

insomniac i need some rest
i've been burning on some milds 
lit a fire like im ness

feel the rubble i feel wrecked
its a gamble like a bet
yeah i hate being upset
yeah i hate that i feel pressed 

dissociation i'm not there
i'm still blowing on some squares
yeah i wish that life was fair 
yeah i wish that life was fair 

i've been up like a star 
feel like my life is bizarre
i don't like that i got scars
i've been trying to survive
hate that i need my soul revived
i got issues ion mind 
trying not to feel behind 

got sum things i wanna quit
204 up on my fit
i feel pretty like a bitch
yeah i'm her favorite mess

insomniac i need some rest
i've been burning on some milds 
lit a fire like im ness

20471120 (easton)

https://soundcloud.com/cw4

i was 14 burning jane alive
i had sex with a ghost ion know why i survived
eyes i forgot the color of have been staring in my mind
i still got your molecules i think we have a bind

i've been in a rut
ion wanna fuck
i just want your love
i can feel the rot
i can feel the mold
think im getting old

i feel like im lost
i feel like im lost
i feel like im lost

hi my name is pete she still calls me mercyyy

mask with spikes on my face it's been hurting
my friends r lost souls they've been tweaking off the drugs
praying that i don't relapse i just need a hug
envy others with my purpose i jus got some muck
bad things happening to me im running out of luck

and i miss feeling loved

molecules (cwta)

been decomposing I just burn all of these newports
I’ll be your animal use me for the blood sports 
poison me for fun give the antidote when you’re bored
I don’t wanna stop till I get what I asked for 

tar in my lungs I still taste all of this asphalt
I’ve been working way too hard I pray that I get results 
missing screws up in my brain I swear that I’m not completed
walking zombie I think I’ve been defeated 

Deja vu yeah my memories on repeat
yeah they repeat I’m up on the concrete 
I’ve been bleeding out wish that I could keep it discreet 
wanna disappear I don’t think that they need me 

living in your grasp I wish I could be free
I got some ghouls in my room that they can’t see 
that they can’t see 
that they can’t see 
that they can’t see 
that they can’t see

running out of options I pray that I don’t stay up in this spot 
I know I’m not awful but I think I fuck up a lot 
hate my recollection I think that I hate this fuckin plot
hate the person I’ve become I’ve been feeling lost 

been decomposing I just burn all of these newports
I’ll be your animal use me for the blood sports 
poison me for fun give the antidote when you’re bored
I don’t wanna stop till I get what I asked for 

tar in my lungs I still taste all of this asphalt
I’ve been working way too hard I pray that I get results 
missing screws up in my brain I swear that I’m not completed
walking zombie I think I’ve been defeated

blood sports (DB808 + bonxpf)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5kbP11WbAOY&ab_channel=mercyyy

she cut my flesh with a lil blade
tryna go up i take my meds with gatorade 
yeah our souls tied i remember when we would lay
moonlit skies we would hold each other through the night

a glowing path for each other 
you would make me high sometimes i miss the summer 
looking back at pics i miss the shutter 
im an anxious fuck i get it from my mother 

my people hold it down for me Tyshawn that's my brother 
the stars holding secrets
im down but they can't peep it
i want the love i think that i need it
we are blowing up each others phone i think we are both needy

i think i'm a pest i stay where the weeds be
praying up to the sky sometimes i need meaning
i crave tranquilly
i need some stability
im doubting my abilities

you live in my cortex
you've been giving pre-text
i'm living in a vortex
i'm living with some hurt
wipe my scars with dirt
you're my Courtney love 
i feel like im kurt   

she cut my flesh with a lil blade
tryna go up i take my meds with gatorade 
yeah our souls tied i remember when we would lay
moonlit skies we would hold each other through the night

cut meh (mercyyy + xangang)

Sample - Midwest Pen Pals - Movies like Juno

monotony is my existence 
time keeps marching forward I hate the persistence 
saw us kissing in my camera roll im jus a tool
ripped each other up in pieces I know that im cruel
I miss the sunny days I feel like abandoned pools

rlly tried to drown myself
I deserve to rot I don’t want the mental help
wounded dog baby please just put me down
we were dancing to the night sky 
you looked pretty in your gown

pathetic wish I didn’t think about it
hope the pieces of myself connect but I just highly doubt it 
wanna lose my memory I just think that it’s been shrouded 
wanna call u love I jus wanna shout it

all these situationships never matter
I was coping with this groupie we were up smoking shatter
n her ex called
baby im sorry you cried
we’re both broken people she said she wanted to just (die)

now I’m sober that was awhile ago
everything feels so potent all these highs n lows 
I avoid relationships cuz I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go 
pray you let me grow

I pray you let me grow 
I pray you let me grow
I pray you let me grow
I’m a piece of shit that’s something that we both know 

monotony is my existence 
time keeps marching forward I hate the persistence 
saw us kissing in my camera roll im jus a tool
ripped each other up in pieces I know that im cruel
I miss the sunny days I feel like abandoned pools

monotony (mercyyy)

Prod me 
Sample: Joji -She’s so nice

parts of you up in my room ur coke split on the carpet
you ate me alive I could tell that you’re starving 
cigs kissing on my skin I’ve been harming
I’m a piece of shit guess I’ll live as your target 

wasted my life away for a bottle
between the bars I hope I do not call her
scared of connection but I wanna be coddled
I feel so used I cannot even recall her

I think I’m worrying my therapist 
keep some narcan in my room cuz my brother he off of it
since I popped out the womb I think I’ve been off a bit
I’m chillin with Virgil think I’m living in the pits

every time I think of you I feel like a burden 
unreliable narrator can’t tell what’s certain 
you can take my soul away use me like a virgin
I think I need help S.O.S I’ve been hurting 

I think I need help S.O.S
I feel like I’m stressed I just grew another ulcer
Sisyphus I’ve been pushing the same boulders 
kinda miss the days you’d cry up on my shoulder 

parts of you up in my room ur coke split on the carpet
you ate me alive I could tell that you’re starving 
cigs kissing on my skin I’ve been harming
I’m a piece of shit guess I’ll live as your target

u ate me alive `✦ ˑ ִֶ 𓂃⊹✩°｡⋆⸜ ☁︎

she just treats me like I’m pretty but she cannot text me back
looking down at my phone I’m wondering what I lack
Ion don’t really like to sleep I’ve been caring some slack
got some panic attacks 
kinda miss your contact 
kinda miss what we had

negative self talk that’s my ritual
looking behind a cigarette it’s habitual 
living feelings that I wish were reciprocal
I jus live in my head I’m delusional

yeah I’m crazy
I think that I’m lazy 
I’ve been making art I jus want them to pay me 
I was off the K 
done wasting my life away 
I’m tryna change up my ways 
I’m tryna change up my life
my thoughts get scary in the night 
I miss looking at your eyes 
I just want to feel alright 
I just want to feel alright 

but I can’t 
I got ash up on my pants
I got ash up on my soul
praying that I can be whole
sometimes I wish I was whole
I really wish you made me whole

ritual (myhandsfeelnumb + mercyyy)

i'm pondering what happens when we die
i can feel the light i jus think i might restart
kinda think its rlly scary cuz I've been used to the dark
all these ppl grow apart I've been coping with some darts

we were making out with terpenes cuddling up in the park
got some people i miss honey i know im not smart
pray my future beloved still likes me even with these marks 
fucking hate my empathy wish i didn't have a heart

i'm used to the poison baby im used to the noise  
i'm used to the poison baby use me like ur toy
i'm used to the poison i hate all of this noise
i'm used to the poison baby im used to the noise  

i'm used to the venom 
got blood stains on my denim 
got blood stains on my garments
i think i miss ur apartment
i think i'm starting to miss me
they tend dismiss me 
my body has been hurting 
my actions are concerning

ruined my life with the bottle but i miss the drunkenness
monsters in my head i got mental sickness 
looking back at my life i feel like a witness
pray i don't go out like Whitney
wish some1 would stick with me 

i'm pondering what happens when we die
i can feel the light i jus think i might restart
kinda think its rlly scary cuz I've been used to the dark
all these ppl grow apart I've been coping with some darts

fucking hate my empathy wish i didn't have a heart
fucking hate my empathy wish i didn't have a heart


mercyyy

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