Original Release: 03-07-2002

Coverart Drawing + Photo by F. Sinclaire (cathodegaytube)

gravitas animi

what is it called when the nothing becomes something and the something overwhelms you

from dreams of stillbirth

getting up is a headache of its own

@pincode8485, @oakscreen

i did this in a couple hours it sounds cool i think!

purgatory (very loud version)

from gravitas animi.

inspired by @reserrvv <3 <3

the desire to run

i remixed dark magician cause wells birthday just passed so THAT MEASN THIS IS MY BRITHDAY GIFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY WELLSDAY (belated) i wish icould do songs faster

@blackwinterwells
@lil4c

darkkmagician (trance version)

(inspired by oneohtrix point never)
(s/o shigaraki tomura from mha in the cover art. i like him)

fear translates into anger.
anger into hate.

it's understandable,
but i fucking hate that it is. 

i want it?...
.
out of me.
.

from dreams of stillbirth

cont. https://soundcloud.com/metafract/rugged-road-to-peace

a hatred of justified misanthropy

thanks leroy for insp. s/o dariacore
@numb_ers

this was a quickie .

rotten (insane LFO version)

city of the white bird

@snowblowerr

i remixed this song by snow blower because i was sad. 

"why were you sad?" i fucked up with my best friend will the other day and today and it made me feel bad and i wanted to remix something somber to get my head off of things. hes so patient with me much as i can never really forgive myself to my own fault. i feel like i dont deserve him. i guess i do, id feel bad saying otherwise and hed feel even worse and i really want the best for him, idk. today's also his birthday. thats awesome. happy birthday i love you

(we bond regularly over shared love of sb's music so hehe)

art by mintymacaroni

supersawed thru the foams (prayer to will)

its about dissociating

inspired by oneohtrix point never & @neo_petal

from dreams of stillbirth

flight of the maladaptive

follow-up to chasm. s/o surasshu <3

the next anthology album is gonna be fucked. gonna be real with you

dive into the rift

main_menu(restored)

ultimatum of genesis

glassrock_forest(restored)

this is my new sound. i have decided

remix of https://soundcloud.com/emiexe/cool-30-second-thing-ill-never-finish go follow thjem their music is pretty great. i accidentally used the same lapis picture twice for this upload and another so i fixed the other one #true

cool 30 second thing emiexe made that i finished

huge @marshall4 tribute cause she told me how to do the drum bounce swing thing

I got yo number!

something completely fucking random but heavily inspired by homeswitcher thank you jane

+ cover art: https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/35794706

icee blue raspberry beat

said fuck it . we y2k now (well the last part isnt very y2k but it sounds cool)

@flooddubs , @blackwinterwells

+ cover art from Metalheart by Andreas Lindholm + Anders Ronnblom (August 2001)

glass cannon [metalheart version]

not like you, never was, it doesn't matter, it never did

you never get used to it

lets go (faster version)

I HAVE A FUCKING COLD AND MY NOSE KEEPS RUNNING here free wav file

(downloasd are on as of March 13, 2024 bcs HAHA!)

for all teh cats lol

after drinking gatorade blue u feel like this

i have been listening to a lot of hyperbounce lately so

i just felt like it

35 second thing being just 35 seconds left me so hungry but thanks for the food carbine u inspire me so much

@saycarbine, @c4rbine
@saoirsedream

through the bitterness... (longer version)

im just gonna tag it hyperbounce anyway who gives a fuck LUV U TIRESTIRES 

LISTEN TO SHADOWDOG

shedding fur (bouncy mini-version)

Daisuke Amaya I owe you my life. This is a remix of a remix but also listen to the original. I just felt like doing this. Its one of my best lol

moonsong (gateway version (bass version))

its funny this songs called dreampunk cause thats just a genre and the songs not even that its a trap beat and i coulda made it dreampunk cause i know how to make it but no. Big End Theory

@misogi

dreampunk (swangy version)

I WAS JUST WATCHING BFB WITH MY BOYFRIEND (happy valentines day lol) AND I HEARD "CULLEN HOUSE" IN EPISODE FOUR AND I WAS LIKE WHAT THE FUCK LIKE YELLING REALLY LOUD CAUSE IT SOUNDED SO BEAUTIFUL. SO I DOWNLOADED IT AND WITHIN 1h 30m I CRANKED THIS WHOLE THING OUT (IM SO SERIOUS)

i wish i knew who made the original its so pretty. the whole soundtrack is fucking cool. wow. id recommend BFB but im not finished with it i kinda stopped everything to remix this (lol sorry timmy i love u)

cullen house (euphoria version)

i had to that pad is fucking beautiful also 2 am upload Thog dont care

@cubenssi

highbooze (drums version)

random remix. sampled a song from when i was 16. went nuts. uploading this and slumbering. hopefully people listen LMFAO. idgaf i had fun. thog dont care

etterath

i made this out of nowhere because i wanted to show off my labbing skills in front of my crush.

its downtempo and is plunderphonic-y with the sample because he likes downtempo and plunderphonics so Lmfao i basically had to PLUS THAT SHITS FUN ANYWAY

i think about him a lot he is very nice and pretty and we have common ground a lot w brain struggles and stuff. im happy i met him even if like we dont make it "official" im ok w being friends cause like idk i want him to be happy vs me being all selfish like MINE!!! abt shit yfm. anyway this songs nice i COOKED lol

he drew the art and i filtered it all astroblur like Lmfao ok heres his blog

https://eye-of-enigmatic-thought.tumblr.com/

scarfasaurus moment

a bullet through the brain

uh. heard song. decided sample song. uh. Here We Are. you know the vibes. if you recognize whos on the cover art Pleabse Comment

@lilac @arideyes

paralyzed (bumpy version)

so this is just me kinda redoing an old song but with teh 2024 sauce and that means it,s gotta be hyperbounce (it couldve just been trap again but Meh.)

troubled! v2

this is already available on my bandcamp on Anthology Psii but i realized i never mirrored it here!

DOWNLOAD HERE

bipp (fighting game version)

it's been a while.
the anger is, watered down, but not repressed.
i have every right to be mad about,
everything. that's happened.
to me.

but i don't want to let it, rule over me.
it's not fair, it's not right.

it, was understandable. but it's not,
...right. it's not correct.

i need to be better than them.
i need to make the leap.

...sequel to https://soundcloud.com/metafract/huge-social-terror

a love of dying misanthropy

you made it so hard to reach you for me and him. 
why? 
did you forget what all we had???

i feel like you did. 
whatever. i never will. 
for worse. but for better, too. i guess.

(reupload frm anthology chi because i realized i never put it here wtf)

song about saturdays

bawled. pained.

3-6 AM
yesterday

yearning
nothing
choking
restless

feeling:
nothing
why

i should yearn
i dont
i know why
i wish it made no sense
it does
its justified

why?

mother should not hurt son
son should not want to hurt dad
dad should not threaten to kill son
son should not feel distant from mother
brother should not bully son
(...) should not overjudge son

i am the "son"
i am a pincushion
i have always been
i think i always will be

i can't miss them

i miss the old me (sleep aid)

23, black, it/its or she/her

tumblr diaspora soundcloud user (lmao) who uploads & reposts whatever the hell. 

apparently a lot of my music sounds videogame-esque so thats cool, i dig it.

astroblur

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