song based off the poem from "10 things i hate bout you" 

[Verse 1]
I hate the fucking way you talk to me,
the stupid way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you steal my keys,
and drive my car like you don’t care.
I hate your big dumb combat boots,
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.

[Pre-Chorus]
I hate the way you’re always right,
I hate it when you fucking lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
and worse—when you make me cry.

[Chorus]
I hate it when you’re not around,
I hate the silence when you don’t call.
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you—
not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all.

[Verse 2]
I hate the way you look at me,
like you can see straight through my walls.
I hate the way you break me down,
and act like it’s nothing at all.
I hate the mess you leave behind,
the fire you fucking start inside.
I hate that every time you’re gone,
I’m choking on my pride.

[Pre-Chorus]
I hate the way you’re always right,
I hate it when you fucking lie.
I hate the way you make me laugh,
and worse—when you make me cry.

[Chorus]
I hate it when you’re not around,
I hate the silence when you don’t call.
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you—
not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all.

[Bridge]
Hate’s just another word I scream,
to cover up this fucked-up dream.
If love’s a war then I’ve been beat—
you win, you win, you win.

[Final Chorus / Outro]
I hate it when you’re not around,
I hate the silence when you don’t call.
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you—
not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all.

Not Even At All

[Verse]
It's not the flutter wings inside my chest
Not the dizzy highs that never let me rest
It's the ache
The pull
The breaking chain
Sometimes love's not butterflies
It's pain

[Verse 2]
You held my hand
It burned
It stung
Words like razors
Songs unsung
In the silence
I felt the refrain
Sometimes love's not butterflies
It's pain

[Chorus]
Oh it hurts
But I don't let go
A twisted love that still makes me glow
Through the fire
Through the rain
Sometimes love's not butterflies
It's pain

[Verse 3]
Late at night
I hear the sound
Of a fragile heart that’s breaking down
Yet I stay
I can’t explain
Sometimes love's not butterflies
It's pain

[Bridge]
The bitter truth
The sweetest lie
The way you leave
The way I try
Tangled threads in a lover’s domain
Sometimes love's not butterflies
It's pain

[Chorus]
Oh it hurts
But I don't let go
A twisted love that still makes me glow
Through the fire
Through the rain
Sometimes love's not butterflies
It's pain

Butterflies of Pain

[Verse]
You told me all your secrets late at night
How your heart once danced in their spotlight
Now their eyes are burning into mine
And I can't escape this tangled line

[Verse 2]
I never asked for this messy game
But their smile keeps calling my name
Your silence cuts deeper than a knife
I wish I could undo this strife

[Chorus]
I’m not trying to steal the place you stood
But they see me in ways I never understood
Now you look at me like I’m a thief in disguise
I swear I’d trade their gaze for your trust in my eyes

[Verse 3]
You say the air feels colder now I’m near
Like I’ve erased the bond you held so dear
But the truth is
I miss us more each day
While they’re the reason we drift away

[Bridge]
It’s a twisted triangle I didn’t choose
Caught in a battle where we both lose
I’d give it all to bring us back in time
When your laughter was the only thing on my mind

[Chorus]
I’m not trying to steal the place you stood
But they see me in ways I never understood
Now you look at me like I’m a thief in disguise
I swear I’d trade their gaze for your trust in my eyes

Your Trust in My Eyes

[Verse]
I didn’t mean to cross the line
It’s true
But hearts don’t wait for permission
Do they do
Now you’re looking at me with that cold stare
Like I’m the reason for your despair

[Pre-Chorus]
I swear I never meant to play this game
But love showed up and called my name
Now I’m caught between the past and now
Trying to figure out the why and how

[Chorus]
I’m supposed to be your friend
Not your foe
But these feelings
They’ve got a mind of their own
I never asked for this
I swear it’s real
Why’d I have to go and catch these feels

[Verse 2]
Your silence cuts deeper than your words
I’m drowning in guilt
Your pain unheard
I didn’t want to be the villain in your tale
But love doesn’t care if it’s fair or frail

[Bridge]
If I could rewind
I’d hit reset
Erase the moment that we met
But hearts are messy
They’re not polite
Now I’m stuck in this endless fight

[Chorus]
I’m supposed to be your friend
Not your foe
But these feelings
They’ve got a mind of their own
I never asked for this
I swear it’s real
Why’d I have to go and catch these feels

Caught Wrong Feelings

[Verse]
I saw the way you lit the room up bright
A fire flickered in those eyes like night
Unspoken words I thought I’d never say
You’re the risk I’m scared to face today

[Pre-Chorus]
But they used to love you now they call you a ghost
I’m tangled in a past that’s turned so morose
What’s the price of a heart with a hidden scar
Am I breaking a bond if I’m reaching too far

[Chorus]
Caught in the crossfire where hearts collide
Torn between loyalty and the rush I can’t hide
They’ve turned bitter but you’ve turned so sweet
Love's a battleground where no one retreats

[Verse 2]
They say you’re a storm with a disastrous trail
Every word they whisper
A cautionary tale
But every thundercloud breaks into rain
And maybe you're the calm after the pain

[Pre-Chorus]
But they drew the line now it’s etched in stone
I chase the echoes of feelings my heart’s not alone
Would they cast me out if they knew the truth
I’m a thief of a spark
Oh the irony’s cruel

[Chorus]
Caught in the crossfire where hearts collide
Torn between loyalty and the rush I can’t hide
They’ve turned bitter but you’ve turned so sweet
Love's a battleground where no one retreats

Crossfire

[Verse]
I was your shadow in the sunlight glow
Followed you where your laughter would go
But now my heart’s a crime scene floor
Caught in feelings I can’t ignore

[Verse 2]
You smile and I feel the crash inside
A tidal wave I just can’t hide
You’re the moon I’ll never touch
I’m breaking down
It’s all too much

[Chorus]
I’m supposed to be your friend
Not a villain
But my heart don’t listen
It’s spillin’
Why’d I go and let these feelings grow
You’re not mine
You’re not mine
I know

[Verse 3]
Your voice
It’s a song I can’t unhear
Every word cuts sharp and clear
You’re a flame I can’t embrace
Yet I keep chasing your ghostly trace

[Bridge]
Caught between the lines of what’s right
But my heart rebels every night
You were never mine
And I knew
But I’m stuck in this storm of you

[Chorus]
I’m supposed to be your friend
Not a villain
But my heart don’t listen
It’s spillin’
Why’d I go and let these feelings grow
You’re not mine
You’re not mine
I know

Thief in Disguise

A song dedicated to my beautiful Grandma </3 - Ill miss u greatly


(Verse 1)
Eighty-four years, a life well done,
a mother, a friend, God’s faithful one.
She raised four children, saw love multiply,
grandkids and great-grandkids by her side.

(Pre-Chorus)
Though her memory faded, her spirit stayed strong,
her love was a river that carried us along.

(Chorus)
Her light lives on, in the stories we tell,
in the laughter and love that we knew so well.
Even when her mind forgot, her heart never did,
we’ll carry her name, we’ll honor her gift.
Her light lives on… her light lives on.

(Verse 2)
I still see her waiting in that car rider line,
smiling so wide, making ordinary shine.
Every ride home, every laugh, every song,
she taught us with love what it means to belong.

(Pre-Chorus)
And when the night came, God whispered her near,
said, “Child, I remember—come rest with Me here.”

(Chorus)
Her light lives on, in the stories we tell,
in the laughter and love that we knew so well.
Even when her mind forgot, her heart never did,
we’ll carry her name, we’ll honor her gift.
Her light lives on… her light lives on.

(Bridge)
Heaven holds her, whole and free,
and one sweet day we’ll meet and see—
her smile again, her gentle hands,
welcomed home in the promised land.

(Final Chorus)
Her light lives on, in the stories we tell,
in the family she built, in the faith she held.
Even when her memory slipped, her soul stayed strong,
and in our hearts forever…
her light lives on.


Her Light Lives On

(intro)
ayo Joseph… yeah, THIS one’s for you.
hope your car stereo blow when you play this, pussy. (BOOM!)
rest in piss, bitch.

(verse 1)
Joseph broke, bitch in a sedan,
grown-ass age, no grown-ass plan.
MOD Pizza king? nah, minimum wage,
flippin’ dough daily, still stuck on the page.

dumb-ass face like a Walmart extra,
should’ve been swallowed — life been better. (I wish!)
hair to your shoulders, no rockstar glow,
stoned-ass clown with nowhere to go.

six-hundred rig, you flexin’ weak,
no soap, no wash, clothes stink for weeks. (stank!)
call that ambition? nah, that’s a joke, (HA-HA-HA!)
Joseph the punchline every time you spoke. (Joke!)

(hook)
FUCK Joseph, broke and clueless,
tiny-dick brain, whole life useless.
talk real loud but you choke on mic,
car-livin’, weed-smokin’, waste of a life.

FUCK Joseph, pizza-clown hoe,
future’s as empty as your bank notes.
you ain’t shit, never gon’ be,
cry harder, bitch — this your eulogy. (boom!)

(verse 2)
“you won’t get it,” weak-ass line,
nah lil’ bitch, you just behind.
excuse on excuse, that’s all you spit,
no goals, no drive, no hustle, no grit. (bitch!)

mad when called out, crybaby cute,
built like a toddler in grease-stained boots.
sleep past noon, can’t pay no rent,
Joseph the meaning of irrelevant.

Olive gave years, you gave dead air, (sad!)
selfish lil’ bum who don’t even care.
weed your religion, ambition’s a myth,
the only thing high ‘bout you is the hit.

(hook)
FUCK Joseph, broke and clueless,
tiny-dick brain, whole life useless.
talk real loud but you choke on mic,
car-livin’, weed-smokin’, waste of a life.

FUCK Joseph, pizza-clown hoe,
future’s as empty as your bank notes.
you ain’t shit, never gon’ be,
cry harder, bitch — this your eulogy.

(verse 3 — killshot)
Joseph dick small like his brain — microscopic, (tiny!)
Olive carried dead weight, side project.
four years wasted, dragging him down,
you ain’t a man, you a bum-ass clown.

think you deep ‘cause you smoke all night, (nah!)
dumb as your rig and twice the price. (bitch!)
die broke, high, and alone in your car,
dreamin’ success you ain’t reachin’ by far.

so here’s the send-off, loud and clear:
Joseph, YOU the problem, that’s why you here. (facts!)
mirror don’t lie — hate what you see,
broke-ass, selfish wannabe.

yeah Joseph… (yeahhh)
go roll another blunt, cry in your car, bitch. (skrrt!)
when I find you, I’ma BEAT your stank ass, bitch.
REST IN PISS. (BOOM! BOOM! BOOM!)

Joeph's a Bitch

(Intro- Spoken)
fizzy veins, sugar shots, i’m fucked up alive,
neon tongue kissin’ midnight, chaos overdrive.
bitch, i’m wired, bitch, i’m lit,
fuck your rules, we run this shit. (Yeah we do bitch(

(Verse 1)
plastic cups stacked, glitter in the ashtray, (oh pretty!)
vodka in my dew, fucked sideways on the halfway.
spray paint halos light up downtown,
saints of the night, we don’t fuckin’ calm down. (HAHAHA)

(Pre-Chorus)
no kings, no rules, just thunder and flame, (burn!)
bitches all chantin’, remember the name.
try to step to me? i’ll fuckin’ ruin your shit,
every sin’s a hymn when the crowd ignites,
our slutville anthem burns all fuckin’ night. (BITCH)

(Build / Hype Line)
pop that can, let it overflow,
neon dreams in the stereo.

(Chorus)
wired on booze, fucked-up decisions, (HELL YEAH!)
neon lights blur into wild collisions.
laughin’ too loud, we own the night,
girls gone feral ‘til the morning light. (FUCK!)

(Verse 2)
shots taste like freedom, backseat sins,
fuck the cops, and fuck your friends. (I like him!)
this is girl life, messy and divine,
piss in the alley, still lookin’ fine. (Hot as SHIT!)

(Build / Hype Line)
pop that can, let it overflow,
neon dreams in the stereo.

(Final Chorus)
wired on booze, fucked-up decisions,
neon lights blur into wild collisions. (watch out!)
laughin’ too loud, we own the night,
girls gone feral ‘til the morning light.(HAHA)

(Outro – unhinged chaos)
girlies only, no fuckers inside, (NOPE)
wasted as hell, we’re holy tonight.
spray paint halos, downtown crown,
slutville forever—we don’t calm down. (NEVER)
fuck with me? I'll BEAT YOUR FUCKING ASS,
YOU FUCKING BITCH
YOU FUCKING PUSSY
YOU FUCKING CUNT AND HAG
FUCK YOU!!

Wired

(intro- spoken)
ay, ay, ay! (woo! bitch!)
grey hoodies, pretty faces, yeah we untouchable—
let’s fucking gooo. (ayy! turn up!)

(verse 1)
me and my girlies lookin’ flawless in our grey hoodies, (yass bitch!)
pop the booze, pop the vibes, snatchin’ all the goodies. (cha-ching!)
outta town quick, ain’t no slowin’ this shit, (skrrt skrrt!)
see you tomorrow? nah, we don’t do the basic shit. (hell yeah!)

(pre-chorus)
we gettin’ litty, we gettin’ fucked up, (turn up!)
bass hittin’ heavy, make the haters wake the fuck up. (wake up!)
laughin’ loud, yeah the block feel our energy, (bitch!)
this crew don’t stop, we run shit endlessly. (woo! ayy!)

(chorus)
let’s get drunk, let’s get litty, (aye! aye!)
whole squad wildin’, runnin’ the city. (fucking run it!)
hands in the air, no shame, no pity, (raise ’em!)
bad bitch era, party ’til the sunrise pretty. (fuck yeah!)

(verse 2)
called out sick, can’t face that day, (skrrt!)
but the memories hit harder than the rent i pay. (woo! bitch!)
hungover laughs, vodka drippin’ off my wrist, (clink clink!)
grey hoodie queens, can’t nobody top this shit. (ayy! yass!)

selfies flashing, we the main event, (snap snap!)
cups up high, giving zero fucks, no consent. (fuck ’em!)
if you’re not with us, move the fuck away, (bye bitch!)
we own this town, we do it our way, always. (period!)

(pre-chorus)
we gettin’ litty, we gettin’ fucked up, (turn the bass!)
bass shake walls, everybody wake the fuck up. (wake the fuck up!)
neighbors hatin’? let ’em talk, let ’em scream, (let ’em!)
we make our own rules, we live the dream. (dream team!)

(chorus)
let’s get drunk, let’s get litty, (ayy! woo!)
whole squad wildin’, runnin’ the city. (fucking city!)
hands in the air, no shame, no pity, (hands up!)
bad bitch era, party ’til the sunrise pretty. (fuckin’ yes!)

(bridge)
boss blowin’ up my phone? tell ’em “fuck off, i’m busy,” (bye bitch!)
jeans glittered, hair on point, mood ridiculous, dizzy. (ayy!)
spilled drinks, smashed phones, zero regrets, (no regrets!)
life’s a party, we untouchable, place your bets. (hell yeah!)

(outro)
grey hoodies, pretty faces, chaos soldiers, (woo woo!)
music loud, life louder, hearts bolder. (turn it up!)
see you never, yeah that’s the damn plan, (ayy!)
bad bitch era, catch us if you fucking can. (catch us! bitch!)

zero fucks given

[Verse 1- spoken]
You pulled up like a bootleg Marlboro ad (GROSS!)
Black truck, fake drawl, and a Bass Pro cap straight off the clearance rack
“Real men don’t cheat,” you once said with pride
Then unzipped your jeans behind my back to lie (WHAT THE FUCK)

[Pre-Chorus]
You said I was crazy, yeah, babe—I agree
Crazy for dating a Walmart-ass Johnny Lee (YIKES!) 

[Chorus]
Hope your truck catches fire on your way to her place
And you crash through the gate with that dumb FUCKING face (BITCH)
Tell your mama she raised a manchild, no father
The only thing real was how bad you were in bed, don't bother
Go ahead and blame me for your shame
But i left your ass now you are feeling the pain (HAHAHA) 

[Verse 2]
Your mama called me “too loud,” said I had no class (MHMM)
But she raised a boy who can’t wipe his own ass
Said I’d ruin your life—well, guess what? I did (BITCH)
Now your ego’s deflated like your daddy issues, kid! 


[Pre-Chorus]
You swore you were different. God, what a lie (SHEESH)
Just another ex in a bargain-bin disguise. (CHEAP HAHA)

[Chorus]
Hope your truck catches fire on your way to her place
And you crash through the gate with that dumb FUCKING face (BITCH)
Tell your mama she raised a manchild, no father
The only thing real was how bad you were in bed, don't bother (NO THANKS)
Go ahead and blame me for your shame
But i left your ass now you are feeling the pain (HAHAHA) 

[Bridge]
I should’ve known when you cried during Fast & Furious (PUSSY!)
That you’d cheat like a loser and blame it on curious 
You’re the kind of guy who thinks gaslighting’s cute
With a three-inch ego and knockoff boots (HAHA)

[Breakdown – Screamed or Spit]
Hope she cheats on you with someone hotter
Hope she calls you “bro” and sleeps with your father (OH DADDY)
Hope your truck catches fire on your way to her place
And you crash through the gate with that dumb FUCKING face (BITCH)

[Final Chorus- screamed spoken aggressive]
Hope your truck catches fire and you melt inside (DIE CUNT)
Like all your dumb dreams and that truck you drive
Tell your mama I said thanks for the laughs
But the cowboy she raised is just fucking trash (FUCK YOU)
And if you ever write me some weak-ass song
I’ll reply with a diss track eight minutes long

(yeahhhh) FUCK YOU BITCH
GO FUCK YOURSELF PUSSY (HAHA)

ex in a bargain-bin disguise

I write the lyrics and let Ai sing cuz i cant worth shi so here we are. (mostly ment to be an archive)

Not Even At All

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