open book

been splitting the music i've listened to lately between crushingly sad female musicians (phoebe bridgers, leith ross, dodie) and indifferent alt-rock bands.  hence, here's some coldplay.  hope you love it.

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lyrics:
i used to rule the world
seas would rise when i gave the word
now in the morning i sleep alone
sweep the streets i used to own

i used to roll the dice
feel the fear in my enemies' eyes
listen as the crowd would sing,
"now the old king is dead, long live the king"
one minute i held the key
next, the walls were closed on me
and i discovered that my castles stand
upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

i hear jerusalem bells a-ringin'
roman cavalry choirs are singin'
be my mirror, my sword and shield
my missionaries in a foreign field
for some reason i can't explain
once you go, there was never
never an honest word
that was when i ruled the world.

it was the wicked and wild wind
blew down the doors to let me in
shattered windows and the sound of drums
people couldn't believe what i'd become
and revolutionaries wait
for my head on a silver plate
just a puppet on a lonely string
oh, who would ever want to be king?

i hear jerusalem bells a-ringin'
roman cavalry choirs are singin'
be my mirror, my sword and shield
my missionaries in a foreign field
for some reason i can't explain
i know saint peter won't call my name
never an honest word
that was when i ruled the world.

i hear jerusalem bells a-ringin'
roman cavalry choirs are singin'
be my mirror, my sword and shield
my missionaries in a foreign field
for some reason i can't explain
i know saint peter won't call my name
never an honest word
that was when i ruled the world.

viva la vida (an acoustic cover)

i mentioned a video or two back that i've been listening to a pretty even mixture of rock and debilitatingly sad female singer songwriters.  i gave you coldplay, so here's some leith ross.  been loving this one lately.

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lyrics:
i know that i will love again
i'll meet someone and i'll make amends
i'm sure he'll be a gentleman
and i will be content.

i know that i will be fulfilled
see the world and pay my bills
have a drink and eat my fill
of dinners and free will

but if you come to me 
in my home with my three kids
if you asked me to leave- to be with you and split
well, i'd at least have to think about it

you never loved the same amount
you spent a week at my mother's house
and honest, i can tell you now
i love you more than my future spouse.

and if you come to me
when i've promised to commit
if you told me that you loved me and asked me for a kiss
well, i'd at least have to think about it

you are my achilles heel
the weakness only i can feel
i've been a liar and you've been a pill
but i'd still have to think about it.

things just won't be the same
i'm scared to death i'll scream your name
but still, there's not a thing i would change
and that's ok when i think about it.

i'd have to think about it (by leith ross - a cover/demo)

recently i became obsessed with this song, so i thought i'd do another rainy day quintuple layer harmony demo.  these are my favorite genre of videos to make because they are so relaxing.  i hope that as you enter into the best and coziest season of them all, this adds to the peace :)

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lyrics:
miss your hair
i like the way you stare into my eyes
most of the time

the way you touch me is like
the curse that can't be broken
but it hurts most of the time

and if there was a place that i had to choose
or a memory that fades that i cannot lose
if there was a place that i could call home
before i die, you oughta know
it'd be in your arms tonight

the green in your eyes are like
the leaves in the summer
and it changes with the weather

the pink in your cheeks
when you slightly lose your temper
makes me love you even more

and if there was a place that i had to choose
or a memory that fades that i cannot lose
if there was a place that i could call home
before i die, you oughta know
it'd be in your arms tonight
it'd be in your arms tonight
it'd be in your arms tonight
it'd be in your arms tonight

soren (by beabadoobee - a demo/cover)

this has been one of my favorite songs for the last 2 years. the combo of mature songwriting, religious and emotive motifs, & violin & french components create an engaging listening experience.

recording this cover, the lyrics, "so self-indulgent & self-referential / no audience could ever want you / you crave the applause yet hate the attention" stuck out to me. i hadn't noticed how often those lyrics apply to me. the guilt linked to putting yourself out there. confidence is required to share music with the world, & a persistent voice in my head (& i don't doubt in yours too) tells me that if i'm confident enough to ask for what i deserve i'm greedy, & if I'm not then i lack courage.

"where you go, i'm going, so jump and i'm jumping / since there is no me without you." if you agree to keep standing on whatever soapbox your soul longs to stand on, i will too. we'll always have that voice in our heads telling us that it's gluttonous to ask for significance. but maybe that significance is exactly what god made us for.

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lyrics:
achilles, achilles, achilles, come down
won't you get up off, get up off the roof?
you're scaring us & all of us, some of us love you
achilles, it's not much but there's proof.
you crazy cosmonaut, remember your virtue
redemption lies plainly in truth
just humour us, achilles, achilles, come down
won't you get up off, get up off the roof?

achilles, achilles, achilles, come down
won't you get up off, get up off the roof?
the self is not so weightless, not whole and unbroken
remember the pact of our youth
where you go, i'm going, so jump & i'm jumping
since there is no me without you
soldier on, achilles, achilles, come down
won't you get up off, get up off the roof?

loathe the way they light candles in rome
but love the sweet air of the votives
hurt & grieve but don't suffer alone
engage with the pain as a motive

today, of all days, see
how the most dangerous thing is to love
how you will heal and you'll rise above

achilles, achilles, achilles, jump now
you are absent of cause or excuse
so self-indulgent & self-referential
no audience could ever want you
you crave the applause yet hate the attention
then miss it, your act is a ruse
it is empty, achilles, so end it all now
it's a pointless resistance for you

achilles, achilles, just put down the bottle
don't listen to what you've consumed
it's chaos, confusion & wholly unworthy
of feeling & it's wholly untrue
you may feel no purpose nor a point for existence
it's all just conjecture & gloom
there may not be meaning, so find one and seize it
do not waste yourself on this roof

hear those bells ring deep in the soul
chiming away for a moment
feel your breath course frankly below
& see life as a worthy opponent

today, of all days, see
how the most dangerous thing is to love
how you will heal and you'll rise above
crowned by an overture bold and beyond
ah, it's more courageous to overcome

you want the acclaim, the mother of mothers
more poignant than fame or the taste of another
be real and just jump, you're worth more, achilles
you will not be more than a rat, so much more
you want my opinion, no one asked your opinion
you asked for my counsel, no one asked for your thoughts
be done with this now and get off the roof
can you hear me achilles? i'm talking to you
i'm talking to you
i'm talking to you
i'm talking to you
achilles, come down
achilles, come down

throw yourself into the unknown
with pace & a fury defiant
clothe yourself in beauty untold
& see life as a means to a triumph

today, of all days, see
how the most dangerous thing is to love
how you will heal and you'll rise above
crowned by an overture bold and beyond
ah, it's more courageous to overcome.

achilles come down (by gang of youths: an acoustic cover)

"if you never touch me" is a song for committing to the kind of love that is so emotionally intense and pure that you don't need physical touch to prove it.

when i got the idea for this song, i took inspiration from the perspective of the receiving end of "we'll never have s3x" by leith ross. i wanted to write something that's short but all-encompassing, a little repetitive, and with a steady pace but soft. idk what you think or if you can relate at all, but i think I did an ok job. here's to loving purely, intentionally, passionately, without strings attached.

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lyrics:
if you never touched me
if your fingers never grazed my skin
i would sleep just fine
staying solely on my side
knowing it’s your bed i’m resting in

if you never held me
if we never danced to end the day
i’d still put on a show
i’d rest easy ‘cause I know
that you delight in every move I make

if you never praised me
if the compliments stayed in your head
i’d still run out of breath
scream your name until my death
knowing that your love for me transcends

if you never kissed me
if you don’t initiate that haze
you’d still make me feel high
i’d neglect the flesh defied
knowing you can’t bear to part our gaze

if you never touched me
if that’s what you consciously omit
i’d like you all the more
of your love for me I'm sure
knowing that i mean much more than it

if you never touch me (an original demo)

i wrote "relent" about a year ago, during the summer of 2022. i've spoken about it a million times, but for those who don't know, i was in the thick of a season intensely plagued by anxiety.

anxiety is often an overall nervousness with no apparent cause, but my anxiety stemmed from a hyper-focus on potential health disasters. it was a vicious cycle: i'd be afraid i had cancer or a heart condition or what have you, and that anxiety would manifest in physical symptoms that only concerned me more.

i wrote an entire album about this anxiety journey, but "relent" specifically is about being conflicted as to whether i should pray that god would take away the physical symptoms of anxiety (that I thought were symptoms of something worse). i was afraid that if those physical symptoms persisted after prayer, i would have to grapple with the fact that god did not want to relieve me, and i would have to reconcile my suffering with the love of god i so passionately believe.

the operative thought processes in this song are inherently flawed, and it's important to me that i make that clear. but my goal as a songwriter is not to pretend that life is easy and to sing only of the better half of it. no, it's to acknowledge that we have feelings that counteract the way of the world sometimes. our feelings are not truth nor should they be our moral compass. but they need to be felt. hence, "relent."

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lyrics:
morning by morning i think i’ll choose love
two minutes in and i’m cowered; a mouse in a lion’s den
and then i pray; i sanction today
and i’ll be the beauty i see all around me
but still i am nursing the thing that’s inside
and will eat me alive

please make me better
but if you never
i couldn’t blame you
so maybe i will take it back
i’d rather suffer forever at my own expense
than ever admit you don’t love me enough to relent

i want to trust you to do what i will
it’s not in the cards i do not have the patience to get it
and bet on your love; on heaven above
resembling life here; the tiniest shred here
but maybe the twist in my stomach’s not you
it’s the fear that you’re gone

please make me better
but if you never
i couldn’t blame you
so maybe i will take it back
i’d rather suffer forever at my own expense
than ever admit you don’t love me enough to relent

i’m being brave but i’m crumbling here
won’t you save me? you’ve done it before
if it glorifies you that i be so ignored 
i might amount to nothing before heaven’s door

please make me better
but if you never
i couldn’t blame you
so maybe i will take it back
i’d rather suffer forever at my own expense
than ever admit you don’t love me enough to relent

relent (an acoustic original)

ok i know i've built a reputation for being instagram heavy, but lately i've really been enjoying the community i find on tiktok. everyone is super encouraging and supportive, and has great ideas, like a full cover of "the perfect pair" by beabadoobee. this just so happened to be my most listened to song in 2022, so i was more than happy to oblige. enjoy :)

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lyrics:
you ought to know that
i think we're one and the same
i don't think we could help it
no, i don't think we could help it
we don't talk much
guess 'cause nothing has changed
and i'm not sure i like it
and i'm so tired of fighting

if I told you, you know how to
go and break my heart in two
'cause i would anyways
we'd end up like always
you know me, you better show me
that you could say it to my face
'cause you know we're the same
there's worse things i can take

i know you hate it
when there's nothing to say
i'm not quite sure we'd fix it
guess we're so used to it
wish i had known this
from the beginning
we find it hard to work out
why we have all this doubt

if i told you, you know how to
go and break my heart in two
'cause i would anyways
we'd end up like always
you know me, you better show me
that you could say it to my face
'cause you know we're the same
there's worse things i can take

you know me, you better show me
that you could say it to my face
'cause you know we're the same
there's worse things i can take

the perfect pair (by beabadoobee: a demo/cover)

have you been missing the covers?? i played this song at one of my gigs recently, and someone approached me afterwards saying they tried to shazam it before realizing i was playing it live. i love getting to meet new people and bond over music with them at my gigs, so since this was a favorite, here's "as it was" :)

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lyrics:
holding me back
gravity's holding me back
i want you to hold out the palm of your hand
why don't we leave it at that?

nothing to say
when everything gets in the way
seems you cannot be replaced
and i'm the one who will stay, oh

in this world, it's just us
you know it's not the same as it was
in this world, it's just us
you know it's not the same as it was
as it was, as it was
you know it's not the same

answer the phone
"mia, you're no good alone
why are you sitting at home on the floor?
what kinda pills are you on?"

ringing the bell
and nobody's coming to help
your daddy lives by himself
he just wants to know that you're well, oh

in this world, it's just us
you know it's not the same as it was
in this world, it's just us
you know it's not the same as it was
as it was, as it was
you know it's not the same

go home, get ahead
lightspeed internet
i don't wanna talk about the way that it was
leave america
two kids follow her
i don't wanna talk about who's doing it first, hey

as it was, as it was
you know it's not the same as it was
as it was, as it was
as it was, as it was

as it was (by harry styles: an acoustic cover)

“fairytale” tells the story of what it’s like to be infatuated with the wrong person. To be blindly and naively in love, to realize he has the upper hand, and to fight your heart to maintain your sanity.

fairytale

lullaby

goodbye friend

doll

match

still working through some old recordings of live performances i did dating all the way back to october!! thank you for your patience while i get settled in nashville and reteach myself pro tools :) until then, so many people have told me they love hearing the songs off of "open book" (my ep, available everywhere) acoustic, so here's match from the songbird collective back in the fall!!

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match (an original - live from the songbird collective)

dandelion is a song for trying to make the world a better place and failing. we cannot be heroes in everything that we do; our world just isn't wired that way. but it is important to try and to continue to persist in love and intentionality. I hope this song can remind you that there is love that waits for you.

also i recorded another new one for you this week, but then i got so busy and had no time to edit. i'll get it to you next week. lots of love

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dandelion (original, acoustic)

i wrote bassett hound about a certain little crush i've got. if you can guess whom it's on, great, you've got pretty basic critical thinking skills! let's just say there's a reason i spelled the dog breed wrong ;) if any of you want to be a wingman hmu

also it was very fun to write this and include as many dog references as i could. there are a lot of homophones so i spelled them the way they immediately make sense for the lyrics on screen, but apply a little more of those basic critical thinking skills i know you have and you'll find them everywhere

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bassett hound (original, acoustic)

a lot of times i write songs to try to create a physical manifestation of my emotions, and i see a long life ahead for that immortalized feeling. when i wrote fancy shmancy free, it was not that; it was simply to write a song just to talk about some random stuff that'd happened that night. i didn't put too much effort into trying to make it eloquent or even good, but people have seemed to like it, and i've come to really like it too. here's my song about wishing i could be fancy shmancy free :)

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fancy shmancy free (acoustic, original)

there have been so many renditions of this song going around lately, some great and some less so. i thought i'd submit mine and hopefully, in your book, it falls in the former camp.

i got to take a solo weekend trip to london in march of 2024. i had been to london before, but never alone, and march 2, 2024 might be in the top ten days of my life. i've always known that london is my favorite city in the world, but on that day i was awake for 22 glorious hours to drink coffee, eat vegan donuts, shop, take in the architecture, sit and people watch, see sarah snook in the picture of dorian gray, and see cabaret for the first time. (adam melchor also put me on his guest list for his show with laufey that day, which was really the cherry on top.)

this show rocked me to my core. i was so impressed by the immersive elements, and felt sick to my stomach as i compared it to our modern day. this song has always been my favorite in the show (even as i saw it for the fourth time) because it is so clearly resonant of how the downfall of our societal morality can easily result in apathy, but it can kind of transcend that to be nihilism's theme song. i am not a nihilist in the slightest, but i love emcees that make it very clear that they do, in fact, care very much, but the circumstances they've found themselves in require them to shove that down.

i think a lot about the lyric, "if you kiss me, if we touch, warning's fair, i don't care very much." i am a romantic, and if someone kissed me, i would very much care. but i could imagine a world in which i'd lose the privilege of all-encompassing infatuation because that just can't be at the forefront when lives are on the line. that's schneider and schultz's story anyway. and it's terrifying and foreboding.

forgive me for rambling. i wrote this at 11 pm, can you tell? the eleventh hour- how ironic

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i don't care much (from cabaret, acoustic)

ok so i debated with myself a lot on whether i should post this song. i wrote it this week, and normally i like to sit on my songs alone for a while to contemplate what might be the public perception. there are some intense lyrics in here that i hope you'll take with a grain of salt, because as they say, songwriters ought to write what they're scared to say.

i've always been a romantic, and that's influenced my life to differing degrees, but i try not to let it cloud my vision. so often, in an effort not to idolize romance, i try to rid its influence on me entirely. but i've been overwhelmed by life this week, and starting to wonder how it will ever happen for me if i'm always building this wall in the name of maturity. after all, can you really find anything you're not looking for?

that's the reason i almost named this song protection shit lol, but the point of comparison line was the catalyst for this song so i had to lead with composure this time

anyway next week's video will be expletive-free. thanks for letting me make what i feel

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around when wes anderson's most recent movie, the phoenician scheme, came out, i had been wanting to go to the movie theater more than ever. i have a hard time justifying movie ticket prices though, so instead of going, i wrote this song about how i wished i could have gone on a date to the phoenician scheme for the memories and the free day out.

i did end up seeing the phoenician scheme, but i saw it with my best friend and paid for my ticket. one thing that remains true from the song though: i do not remember the plot. i do remember that michael cera had his transformation cliche moment though which was iconic

this song is a little weird because it has a beautiful chord progression and picking pattern, and the lyrics are a little lackluster. that's very contrary to my usual writing patterns!! but sometimes you just need to write a song and this is definitely one of those times

the phoenician scheme (original, acoustic)

i, like everyone else, had to have my sabrina carpenter phase when man's best friend came out. this is definitely the best song on the album and i don't think i'm alone in believing that. shoutout to my friend layne for playing this for me before i'd listened to the record. i listened to the song a million times and since recording this cover, i can't say I've listened since lol

nobody's son (by sabrina carpenter, acoustic)

ok so i have been listening to hippo campus for a long time, and when i listened to their ep "wasteland," it kind of went in one ear out the other. that is, until i heard "moonshine" again in one of my playlists two years later and fell in love with the intro. i accidentally let it play into "yippie ki yay" once and fell in love with that one even more. i get down to a lot of indie rock but you know i had to Phoebe-bridgers-ify this one. add a little remorse to this lone ranger's sob story :)

yippie ki yay (by hippo campus, acoustic)

i tried to reference this song with a friend recently and that's when i realized i'd never posted it for you!! i wrote this song in 2022, right at the beginning of the time of my life when my anxiety was at its peak. i had just started pursuing music and started to deal with debilitating bouts of hypochondria. this is what i like to call an insecure jam about that :)

(i'm doing much better now. i'm finding my rhythm with this music thing and learning to expect the unexpected. i also started taking zoloft. highly recommend)

death bed (original, acoustic)

i wrote this song last summer, right after i got home from the open book tour!! i had such dreams for all the songs i was going to write about it, and then i only wrote two- whoops. but this is a fun one about the little interactions i had driving around the pacific northwest. it was so fun to see so many people and so many ways of life in such a short amount of time to realize how big, and how small, our world really is. this song is a love letter to everyone everywhere, especially the people i will never meet :)

have a good life (original, acoustic)

i recorded a little cover of this and people seemed to like it, so here's "try" by pink in its entirety!! takes me back to living in chicago and listening to the radio in fourth grade

try (by pink, acoustic)

i actually cannot believe i haven't posted a full length video of this song yet. i wrote it a little over a year ago, when i got the inspiration to write a sad love song about little john. little john is a made-up fellow on social media who transforms closet-size spaces into livable apartments. little did you know, he has a reason to transform those crevices into comfort- a reason he might not be able to save even with all of the effort he can muster.

i love being dramatic!! and i love turning silly things into heart wrenching things!!

up and over (original, acoustic)

ok so i'm warning you, this one is kinda heavy. i wrote this song back in 2022 when my anxiety was at one of its highest points in my life, right before i got medicated for it (yay). the idea was the way i emotionally self-sabotage, in two respects. first, that i'll downplay how i feel in public and even in private to try to avoid accountability for my anxiety (that's actually within my genetics so that doesn't usually work). second, that i'll entertain the feelings of hopelessness or despair because they often inspire me to write better music. i wrote this song on my bass ukulele which gave it a really cool sound and kind of inspired me to think of myself as a king in a dungeon ruling over my anxiety, but being far too merciful to it. (i couldn't get my ukulele to tune correctly so i had to guitar it this round, sorry folks.)

lately i've been picking the songs i record to post based on the ones that come up in conversation with friends- i'll mention one of my songs and then realize i have no reference to show them lol. i was talking to my producer about writing on the bass uke but i never got a good recording of this one. but alsooo i filmed this like two weeks ago when i was getting pretty anxious again so it resonated with me. luckily i'm out of the woods as of today, but if you still find yourself there at least you can know you're not alone

thieves (original, acoustic)

i had a bunch of other content recorded to share with you, but i saw an early screening of wicked: for good on wednesday night, and with its release this weekend, my priorities shifted. i'd had the idea to combine i'm not that girl and ceilings a week or two ago, but after i saw the movie i realized that as long as you're mine at the beginning makes the story of ceilings so complete

you probably know how obsessed with broadway i am, and wicked was the first musical i ever saw on broadway, when i was nine years old with my dad. it's not my all-time favorite musical anymore, and i've only seen it four times (nothing compared to my nine moulin rouge viewings), but it holds a major part of my heart as the catalyst for this art medium that means so much to me. i feel like my interpretations of the songs and the story have changed as i've grown and helped me make sense of all sorts of questions and feelings i've had over the years. so how fitting to combine such a timeless couple of songs with an artist's that i endeavor to emulate in my own musical journey.

i'm writing this caption at 1 am on friday morning, and i have to be on a plane to new york at 9:30 am. i'm going to see more shows. and i couldn't leave you without this this weekend. i'm going to be sleepy but i'm going to be fulfilled and i hope this effort fulfills you too.

as long as you're mine x ceilings x i'm not that girl (acoustic)

i wrote cup of tea a few months back when i felt like i was failing every interaction i had with anyone. it was a few months after i'd moved to nashville, and as i was starting to establish some real friendships, i constantly felt like i was backtracking. everyone continued to treat me with kindness and eagerness, but i was my own worst critic.

this is one of those songs that serves as a stream of consciousness. i really wasn't a fan of it when i wrote it and i think even now that this song might not be for everyone. but then again, maybe i'm criticizing myself more than anyone else will. 

i take the metaphor really far but all of the food references can work for thanksgiving- i love a theme ;) 

also this upload is being completed at two in the morning on a weekday before i go to spend thanksgiving with family so if it's incoherent, sorry, that's two weeks in a row of late-night edits whoops

cup of tea (original, acoustic)

this song is in my top five favorites of all time. it is simply so beautiful, but the lyrics have also resonated with me in different ways at different times of my life. it was high time i put out my cover :)

the art of letting you go (by ewan j phillips, acoustic)

listen to my debut ep, "open book," now!!
creating a safe space for you to feel authentically and be better from it. psalm 139:12
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