I'll pull myself out of my route but is UNCLEAR HOW

[+production, vocals, mix + master by Maxine Faith Noelle] 🌾
+ additional guitars + featuring jauntsen (@jauntsen)

🌾LYRICS🌾

[myth valley]
separate anxiety
I cant even fucking sleep
constantly waiting on inevitability to call
cause where you even wanted me
I cant even fucking think
my words are rotting down now I'm running from it all 

she was a bastard
don't talk about it
I got the answer to all your problems
never know to hand it over to you at all
cause you're never gonna solve it
and I know its a little over your head
and you know that I'm falling into your hands
I'm breaking fast and I don't know if I can take it
cause right now all I'm feeling is

separate anxiety
I cant even fucking sleep
constantly waiting on inevitability to call
cause where you even wanted me
I cant even fucking think
my words are rotting down now I'm running from it all

[@jauntsen]
I don't wanna talk
put the problems to the side
call me what you want when you look me in the eyes 
am I a distraction
you want be out your life but I cannot make it happen
it's only getting worse

[myth valley]
she was a bastard
don't talk about it
I got the answer to all your problems
never know to hand it over to you at all
cause you're never gonna solve it
and I know its a little over your head
and you know that I'm falling into your hands
I'm breaking fast and I don't know if I can take it
cause right now all I'm feeling is

[@jauntsen]
separation anxiety, let it define me
I wish I was better on my own
I just need you beside me but you're letting it go
and I won't ever forget that
she's all you've got so let it go
where will she end up one day
it's inevitable
I'm breaking down so fast I don't know if I can take it
cause right now all I'm feeling is

[myth valley]
separate anxiety
I cant even fucking sleep
constantly waiting on inevitability to call

(do you even fucking know?)
(where are you)
(I love the cycle)

inevitable

inevitable [with jauntsen]

goodbye 2023
prod & mix by me, master by @ryptage

LYRICS:

(I’m self-aware now)

Keep it easy, keep it simple
Don’t fuck up the key, fight your convoluted impulse
Numbers in the green, if you do it right they triple
But you’ll never be the stone to make the water ripple

Oh my god, why’d I look at the analytics again
Now I’ve killed my self-esteem and left its blood all on my hands
Hide away in my music scared that no one understands
I’m as soulless as a pop star can get

I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now
Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year
How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out
I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how
x2

(I-I-I-I) I could look up rabies and consider reading scripture
Stuffing up emotions like I hibernate in winter
Seasonal depression turned to annual prescription
One click away, Google search “bipolar symptoms”

Am I better than a ghost without a man to haunt
Cuz I’m really feeling useless like a Smash Bros taunt
Crashing in the wall on my train of thought
Now I’m drifting round in outer space and I can’t say I feel distraught

I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now
Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year
How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out
I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how
x2

And I know things are exactly the same as before
But at least it’s a correctable mistake
And I know it’s not enough to awake in a cold sweat on the floor
Cuz dreams are the worst when you’re awake

I pulled another all-nighter (I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now)
This one no different from the rest (Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year)
Cuz every time I think I’ve figured it out, and I’m put to the test  (How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out)
I end up back in my bed again (I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how)

I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now
Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year
How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out
I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how

Selfaware

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production + vocals + mix & master by Maxine Faith Noelle (@mythvalley)

[Intro]
(Hey guys, Chex maniac 9- here to uh... 999 9 thou- and 99)
(To test out a new microphone I just got for my vlogs)
(Hopefully you'll be able to uhh- alot of the- woops- hear in more detail)
(Sorry that's another feature on the microphone..)
(-be able to hear alot of the new features um... uh.. and uh)

[Verse 1]
Tell me why I never fucking get it
It never gets through  My thick fucking skull
(yea... my- my skull. my thick fucking skull dude)
It gets a little bit harder
It gets a little bit harder

I dropped the ball again
No need for ending it
Is it even fucking worth anymore

[Chorus]
Ten times too much
You always use me as a crutch
How many times do I gotta tell you its not my fault
One time its enough
Your vices call you and you never know to give it up
Getting rid of all your luck

[Verse 2]
Take a breath and recollect
Cause I'm not who you wanna talk to
Did something get you on the wrong side of the bed
Check your worth and count your money
I'm not ever gonna call you
Cause it gets a little bit harder
Cause it gets a little bit stuck up

Cause it gets a little bit stuck up
Cause it gets a little bit harder
Cause it gets a little bit stuck up
Cause it gets a little bit harder

[Chorus]
Ten times too much
You always use me as a crutch
How many times do I gotta tell you its not my fault
One time its enough
Your vices call you and you never know to give it up
Getting rid of all your luck

(are you really that dense?)

Ten times too much
You always use me as a crutch
How many times do I gotta tell you its not my fault
One time its enough
Your vices call you and you never know to give it up
Getting rid of all your luck

(It's not really just a bunch of- it's a hall of illusion- woah- okay.. woah- okay)

ten times too much

Dec 1st

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/july10/dear-koko-feat-aras-moon

Holdin’on my breath,
Something that i can’t do
You’re gonna ruin my head
Frozen I can’t move
I’m on the internet browsing, 
Browsing for your insta
I’m gonna ruin my head,
I’m gonna ruin my- 
Uh

I can be the one I’m on it
I can get you things
Running for your love 
I’m running like im sonic
I can get you rings
That’s a promise
I just gotta find you again (Find you uh)
I just gotta find you again

Pictures of you on my phone from 2021
I don’t wanna seem that creepy but I’m stuck to you I’m stunned 
I gotta find you again  
gotta find you again   
I just needa find you again
Pictures of you on my phone from 2021
I don’t wanna seem that creepy but I’m stuck to you I’m stunned 
I gotta find you again  
find you again   
find you again

I hope that I find you
Looking through the bayou
Just tryna be by you
 by you 
 by you
I don’t wanna wait no
I give you my soul
Saw you yesterday uh
In my camera roll

I never knew your location
So I just sat in the night 
I saw you glow from a distance
I overlooked and lost sight
Hypnotized when I see ya
My subconscious idea
That was you and
Just when I need a re-up
You grow on me like chia
It’s super-human
 


subtle wit the way i
 approach every word i say to u
 ur so diffy from the usual 
every interaction is extraordinary
 oh look it's our anniversary
 babe don't you understand that we are meant to be 
apple of my eye like it's the giving tree
we been soul mates through every century 
like oooh
 i don't wanna sulk this pain
 i'm sorry if i hesitate 
and i don't know if you feel the same
 babe i know it's lame 
puzzling my mind can you solve this riddle
 i'm in love with you how do i keep this civil 
yeah you jumping through hoops so i can keep this dribble
 when i'm close to you i feel so invincible

I won’t give up finding you
I know beggars never choose
But I’d pick you over them
Over a thousand times
When the sky isn’t as blue 
When the water turns to glue
Only when I’m close to you
I’d live a thousand lives

And if I never find you was am i supposed to do 
Cause nothing feels the same when I’m not close to you

Don’t Don’t 
Don't ask how I’ve been
I’ve been tryna figure out
Why its worse than it seems
Fell in love with a concept 
I rather be unconscious
Than fall for a screen

I just hope that I find you again

Holdin’ on my breath,
Something that i can’t do 
You’re gonna ruin my head
Frozen I can’t move
I’m on the internet browsing, 
Browsing for your insta
I’m gonna ruin my head,
I’m gonna ruin my- 
Uh

I can be the one I’m on it
I can get you things
Running for your love 
I’m running like im sonic
I can get you rings
That’s a promise
I just gotta find you again (Find you uh)
I just gotta find you again

Cocoa scented candle that I saw inside your background 
I light it and pretend that it’s your presence when i lie down
Cocoa scented candle that I saw inside your background 
I light it and pretend that it’s your presence when i lie down

dear koko,

dear koko, ft. aras moon

og song - https://soundcloud.com/yazida-essia/dazzled?si=6f40841b42cd4f52a3e5ed4e4225c574&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing 
prod. kiki @prodkbl + urs truly

dazzled - yazida + ashsocozy [KBL] (jersey club rmx)

guitar and prod: me

feat: ajstbh [https://on.soundcloud.com/PhM4A]

lyrics: 

theres dead flower petals
dancing round my room
they’re from the bouquet 
that I never gave you
maybe its too soon
to tell anything
but what do I do, with this left over ring?
I put it in the box where I keep your things
out of sight, out of mind
oh the bell that rings
if your tired of me, take a nap
lose your feelings, find them
those words you said
have no meaning behind them

one day at a time, no hand to hold
as the winters getting colder
wish you were here
lay my head, on your shoulder

I thought I watched you die (I thought I watched you die)
till I 
I heard your voice in the water
and I'd never run quite as far

did you die with the flowers? 
pretty lies, turned sour
all these nights cut deep
watch life through memories

I still can't shake those arms I called home
I still can't place those words I swallowed 
they tear at my chest,
my only regret
that I couldn't follow you 
hollowed and torn into pieces

you're so divine 

with all of the strings that you're pulling, 
I find it harder to breathe
I can't control my emotions 
when your face is all that I see

I thought autumn lost the leaves
beauty lost the blueprint
running through the trees
following the footprints

I thought I watched you die 
till I heard your breath in the water
and I'd never run quite as far
all of the places, that I couldn't be, 
the silence was tearing me apart 

why did you leave, where did you run to
you make me sick, I'll still say I love you

Breathe! W Ajstbh

first single from the album!!
https://open.spotify.com/album/6u6B6CLu0oZCI7H0VidfBH?si=msrTEMHRQE-_Cf_JCT5lvQ

these things are what you make of them

Lyrics:

it's fine that chu wanna hate me
go ahead do whatever you think you need
spit it out what you're dyin to say
even if its gonna tear me up n' make my heart bleed
had a 'lil glow up dropped me so fast
didn't wanna burst your bubble but chu ain't all that
got an ego well that's too bad
once you've burnt all your bridges don't go askin' me to call back

wear your heart on your sleeve... so obvious
might as well get it tattoed on your face
now your true colors showin'... obnoxious
shoulda known all along you're the one to blame
gotta find a way to shut you out
cuz you're done livin' rent free in my head
but the damage is perminent
scars on my wrists, but i still can't feel anything

it's fine that chu wanna hate me
go ahead do whatever you think you need
spit it out what you're dyin to say
even if its gonna tear me up n' make my heart bleed
had a 'lil glow up dropped me so fast
didn't wanna burst your bubble but chu ain't all that
got an ego well that's too bad
once you've burnt all your bridges don't go askin' me to call back

Heartbl33d

Out now on streaming: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/simonm/settle

"you will never get what you want"
Originally recorded in 2021

settle

@chriad vs @blissom

chriad:
hold on for me
i know you’re feeling down
if only i knew just what to say 
to take take all of your pain
i’d say it all until i’ve ran out of breath 

i wanna help you how you help me
but i know that it’s not easy when your words won’t come out 
whenever you need me
i wanna be the one that you can trust with your doubts

blissom:
trust me
im trying to break free
from chains that have dragged me all my life
and i dont know
how obvious it is
but i dont know where id be without you

SLEEPY TAPES VS is a compilation album that took place feb 2 - feb 16 2024 with cover art by @8bitfrog on twitter. thank you everyone who participated
discord.gg/blissom

chriad vs blissom - when your words wont come out

damn this bitch stuck as fuck /:

prod, mixed, & mastered by @colecalico
epic guitars by @dezforman + @soutjay
absolute angels for putting up with me :*

enjoy my 2nd ever song

lyrics:
when i see
a dead body
i think of you
don't usually
think of nobody
look what you've turned me to
(can you see what i see?)

obsessive little girl
get some sleep
take your meds today
it’s all in your head
don't you know
he don't reciprocate 

i'm stuck
so what
shut up
i can do what i want
i'm stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck
stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck 
stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck 
stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck 
(i'm sticking, i'm sticking, i'm stuck)

signs
watching the clock
2:22 time to fess up
(breathe me in)
i must admit
you were pretty permanent 
bouts of uncertainty
you can be certain that
tether got a hold on me
you can be sure of that

bind my hands
string me up
nail me to the cross
devil doing dance
i can't sleep no more
thanks a lot
turn me to a song
(what would you do, would you keep on sleeping?)
in between the lines
(7 missed calls in the night)
hostages
(i'm bleeding out)
the problem is
i thought you’d fade but you were pretty permanent

i'm stuck
so what
get fucked
and leave me alone
i'm stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck
stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck
stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck
stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck

never did i think that
you wouldn’t be right here
i'm waging a war, lets go back to before 
i'm sticking, i'm sticking, i'm stuck
you know i'm not the type to
get so hung up
you could glue me down if you want
i'm sticking, i'm sticking, i'm 

stuck

#!? #embarrassing

Selfaware

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