Magic

For every child who’s been told they’re “too much” or “not enough”
This is the story of life in a world that won’t slow down.

A neurodivergent mind trying to survive the noise, the lights, the looks, the labels. Misunderstood by teachers. Isolated by classmates. Always one step behind, or three steps ahead, but never quite where the world expects.

Until one quiet moment, and in my case, the sound of a clarinet.
It didn’t fix everything, but it gave my chaos a rhythm, and my mind some space to breathe.
(It won’t be the answer for everyone, but it helped me begin to find my way.)

This track isn’t perfect, neither am I.
But it’s honest. And sometimes, that’s enough. 💙🎵🕊️

This track is for the kids who feel everything.
💙 For the ones masking to fit in.
💙 For the ones melting down inside.
💙 For the ones still searching for a safe place to just be.

You’re not broken. You’re brilliant.
And your rhythm matters. 🎵🕊️

****Lyrics****

They said, “Use your words,”
But mine don’t come when I need them
They said, “Pay attention,”
But I already was, just not the way they wanted
I don’t talk much in class
But my head never stops
I see things they don’t
And they call it “wrong”

It’s too loud, too bright, too fast
And I’m trying, I promise, I really am
But I don’t fit in their lesson plan
So they call me “difficult” again
I’m not broken, I’m not bad
I just need someone to understand
It’s too loud, too bright, too fast
And I’m doing the best I can

The lights flicker hard
And the questions come too quick
They say “just be normal”
But don’t say what that is
I like quiet corners
They call that “hiding”
But I call it breathing
When the noise keeps rising

It’s too loud, too bright, too fast
And I’m trying, I promise, I really am
But I don’t fit in their lesson plan
So they call me “difficult” again
I’m not broken, I’m not bad
I just need someone to understand
It’s too loud, too bright, too fast
And I’m doing the best I can

I wish they’d stop asking me why I’m like this
And just ask me what I need
They might find I’ve got answers
They’ve never even seen

Then one day they handed me a clarinet
Said, “Let’s see what happens”
And I did
I held it close
Like something that understood
One steady breath
And the chaos moved

It’s still loud, still bright, still fast
But I found a way to hold it back
Through every note I find my pace
In every sound, I carve some space
No, it didn’t fix everything
But it helped my heart to sing
It’s still loud, still bright, still fast
But now I know who I am

I am not naughty
I am not wrong
I just needed
My own kind of song
And if you’re someone who stands beside us
When the world feels too sharp to explain
Who waits through the silence
And stays through the strain
If you've helped us breathe
When the noise felt too wide
If you’ve shown us our value
Instead of making us hide
Then thank you
For seeing the spark
For hearing the thread
For loving us gently
When others just fled

🎵 Too Loud, Too Bright, Too Fast

MIDDLE AGE by NOVA J

[Vers 1]
Where’s the train, it’s rollin’
Oh, I missed my station 
There’s my mind, controllin’
Low on inspiration 

I’m not here to misbehave
I’ve got no more oats to sew
I’m damn near my middle age
You know how the story goes

[Pre Chorus]
And time goes fast
Time goes too fast

[Chorus]
And the world is changin’ (changin’)
Oh the world is changin’ fast
All these wars I’m waging (waging)
I don’t know if I will last

[Hook]
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end

[Vers 2]
Look around 
Looks like I missed the memo
Starin’ down
It’s a long hard fall below 

I’m too tired to keep on climbin’ 
But I’m too afraid to fall
I’ve worked hard for what is mine
And I’m so scared to lose it all 

[Pre Chorus]
And time goes fast
Time goes too fast

[Chorus]
And the world is changin’ (changin’)
Oh the world is changin’ fast
All these wars I’m waging (waging)
I don’t know if I will last

[Hook]
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end

[Bridge]
I know I somehow made it halfway
But there’s so much I don’t know
I know how scared I feel on some days
Is there any room to grow?
I don’t know (ooooh)
I just don’t know (ooooh)
I don’t know

[Outro]
I’m not here to misbehave
You know how the story goes
I’m damn near my middle age
But I’m praying I can grow
And time goes fast
Time goes too fast
And the world is changin’ (changin’)
Oh the world is changin’ fast
All these wars I’m waging (waging)
I don’t know if I will last
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end

MIDDLE AGE

Hi & welcome.
thx for visiting & listening to my music.

i jump between genres depending on my current mood, so don't wonder if you find some different and weird tunes 😂

I don’t create my songs with AI.
For me, every track has to grow through its own process, and that simply takes time. That’s where my soul flows into the music.

That doesn’t mean my songs are better or more sophisticated – I’d rather you form your own opinion.
As for vocals, I have to rely on loops, since illness keeps me from singing myself. Often, I discover a vocal line first and build the song around it. This means I sometimes have to compromise on the lyrics, so they don’t always mirror my personal outlook, mode of expression or poetry. Still, it’s important to me to share this truth.

Some various loops and most vocs from loopcloud.

All tracks composed, edited,
arranged, mixed @ mastered by J O R D I .
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I come from a musical family and was introduced to different instruments at an early age. The one that stuck with me were the drums. Various bands, gigs in small clubs. Even though, for lack of time, I didn’t actively make music for many years, music has always been one of the few constants in a turbulent life.

For the past few years, I’ve been seriously ill and slowly but surely on the home stretch. Since I can no longer play drums (I’m connected to a ventilator 24/7)
i started working with a DAW in 2024. It has become an important part of my life, my way of still creating something when my hands no longer can.

Here on SC there are so incredibly many amazing artists and people from all parts of the world … for me, it’s my universe. And the certainty that something is always possible, no matter how bad things get.

"In the midst of the deepest winter, I finally realized that within me lay an invincible summer…"
A. Camus


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STOP TRUMP ❗️

Michael - 2024