Lyrics by John Bonney
Vocals, acoustic guitars and bass by Allan Kilgour

I have to say
I'm uninspired
Beaten down
And always tired

I have to say
That when it rains
I don't run for cover
Or try to change

I wander lonely
In my mind
Ignoring all
The warning signs
But here I am
Once again
I do all this but
To what end?

If I work
My every day
Cast all aside
Out of my way

If I walk
As fast I can
Will it make me
A better man?

I wander lonely
In my mind
Ignoring all
The warning signs
And here I am
Once again
To do all this but
To what end?

What's it for
This daily grind
How did I
Fall behind
The clock still ticks
The world still turns
Regardless of
The money earned

I wander lonely
In my mind
Ignoring all
The warning signs
Cos here I am
Once again
To do all this but
To what end?

To What End

Written, performed and produced by Michael Heider, April 2015

Round and round
Going in circles again
What we found
The last time we took the reins
Had a sound to it
Like it might change us forever

Spin the wheel
We have a new dream to chase
Touch and feel
The very fabric of space
Let us reveal the truth
We seek in this grand endeavour

To explain
The nature of what we see
Ascertain
The last of our theories
And repaint the picture
Of the world we know

Turn the heat
Up to a trillion degrees
And repeat
Until we find the last piece
Of the puzzle, buried
In this tunnel down below

"Some secrets we're not meant to know.
Think of Pandora: Don't open up this box!
Try and tame your curiousity!"
 - But we don't know yet if it killed the cat or not!
Just hide back in your cave, old man!
I think it's save to say we're proceeding just as planned
Don't you worry, I can promise, we won't rip a hole into the land!

Spin the wheel
One more dream left to chase
Touch and feel
The very fabric of space
What's the deal with
This Underground Machine?

Underground Machine (Demo)

2025 - Project 03 - Demo 1

Written, performed and produced by Michael Heider, August 2015

Do you ever think about the wind?
The turbulence you cause with these wings of yours
And what about the ones left below
Trying hard not to let go
Hanging by a thread from these wings of yours

Leave all the dead weight behind
To help you in your fight against gravity
But if you were to lose control
Who'd be there to break your fall
Do you even realize the gravity?

Who made you King of the birds?
Who gave you permission to fly?
May these wings of yours
Make you fall out of the sky

Don't say you never have been warned
As you head towards the sun: "Watch your altitude"
But still you only start to believe
Once you find it hard to breathe
The air is getting thin at this altitude

The sky is the limit, oh King of the birds
For limits you never have cared
Now we see the first
Trails of smoke in the air

How does it feel to be King of the birds
When all of your flock have left for a world
Where the price to be paid for their wings
Won't include being burned

We look up to you, oh King of the birds
And gaze at these fiery wings
United we stand
Singing "Long live the King"

King Of The Birds

Written, performed and produced by Michael Heider, December 2015

I'm sorry for
These last few years
I wasn't home
Maybe another time

I took a break
I took my time
I left a note
And left you right here
Leave your message at the beep

I didn't call
I didn't write
And still I hear you sing

Just look at us
How far we've come
In seven years (in seven years)
The things we've seen
The things we've done
These seven years (yeah seven years)

I can't believe
How time has flown
Away with me...

It's been a while
Since we last met
I've missed you, dear
But something's different

You sure have changed
The girl next door
Is all grown up
So hard to recognize
I don't remember you this way

I may be wrong
But in my mind
I think I hear you sing

Just look at us
How far we've come
In seven years (in seven years)
The things we've seen
The things we've done
These seven years (yeah seven years)

But woaahh! 
One thing I'd like to know!
You tell me: Was it worth it?

You told me:
Don't grow up too fast
It's like you knew
But tell me:
How could I grow up
Without you?!

Just look at all
The things we've missed
In seven years...
It's been too long
Since we last kissed
Oh seven years...

Just look at us
How far we've come
In seven years (in seven years)
The things we've seen
The things we've done
These seven years (yeah seven years)

I can't believe
How time has flown
Away with me...

Seven Years

Written, performed and produced by Michael Heider, April 2016

I still remember
When I first saw you
Alone on the dance floor
The strangest feeling:
"Have we met before?"

There's no-one here we know
Together we're alone
That's how it all began
Amidst the thunder
You take my trembling hand 

Feels like a storm
Is coming our way
Wind is growing stronger
Come on let's be brave
And let it roll over us
No need to run away

We move as one
Under the city lights
I feel my heart skip a beat
When we embrace
Until our lips almost meet

You pull me close to you
What am I supposed to do?
But stare into your eyes
I see the fireworks
Or is it lightning in the sky?

We're facing the storm
So glad that we stayed
I've never felt stronger
And still so afraid
I can't move a finger
To make it go away
... Oh, please make it go away

Faster than the rain drops fall
I fell for you

And just like a storm
You blew me away
I wish I was stronger
I wish I had been brave
Now promise me:
Don't let me run away again

The storm has passed
And winds are calm
You truly swept
Right through my heart
I'm sorry I missed
What could have been
A perfect storm...

Imperfect Storm

Cover of James Hargreaves' song 'Barricade https://soundcloud.com/user-81345921/barricade-original-song


Barricade (Cover of original song by James Hargreaves)

Written, performed and produced by @rachel_debattista and Michael Heider, November 2016.
Our entry for the Love Song Competition at http://www.songwriter-forum-kitchen.com/


I didn't mean to hurt you
I never thought I'd need you
I hate to say I've missed you
I always knew that I loved you


I still see clear as day
The moment I first saw you
I loved the way that you are not who you used to be
A metamorphosis
Intoxicating vision
My good will is fading, darling, and then you hit me

Right into the heart
Right into the heart

And every time you’re near
I feel my heartbeat racing
I close my eyes and I’m back to where we used to be
Feels like a thousand years
Since our days got darker
And maybe that is one thing, that you ought to see

Look right in to my heart
Right into my heart

Down the aisle all in white
Keep the darkness inside
Two words that filled our hearts
You’ll forever be mine
I can’t wait
Until death do us part

I didn't mean to hurt you(I was going for the kill)
I never thought I'd need you (to be standing really still
I hate to say I've missed you (I was aiming slightly high)
I always knew that I loved you - until the day you die

Love Struck  - Rachel Debattista & Michael Heider (Duet)

Written, performed and produced by Michael Heider in 2012

Lyrics:

Man in black suit
Target in sight
This is the place
This is the night

Another job
Just hit and run
Taking a life
Can't be undone

Heavy and smooth
Weapon of choice
No need to hear
Suppress the noise

Good vantage point
Death from above
No backing out
The safety's off

He's a shadow, made of Kevlar
And he's in it for the thrill
So you'd better watch your aim and watch your back
'Cause he's a hard man to kill

Ready to strike
Raise up my arm
No witness left
And no alarm

One eye is closed
My hands are still
Attention Now
Confirm the kill

There won't be time
To try again
Hold in my breath
Count down from ten

Aim for the heart
The perfect spot
No second chance
Just take the shot

In Her Majesty's employment
He can take a life at will
You can try to take him on but be advised
He is a hard man to kill

You've got your orders, I know
And you keep going although
Many better men have tried

You've got no time left to spare
And you still think you're prepared
But... are you prepared to die?

'Cause he's a hard man to kill

A Hard Man To Kill

Written, performed and produced by @rachel_debattista and Michael Heider, December 2019.
Our entry for the Collab Challenge at www.songwriter-forum-kitchen.com/

Close, yet far and in between
The lightning’s got me going
To a place I’ve never been or seen
 
Stay wherever it might take you
Wherever there’s a way
I promise it won’t interfere

Whoever’s standing will be known
And their reward is gonna show
And every moment that is gone
I say I will survive
And I can’t stand where I can't see
Cos everywhere will disappear
And I don’t know if it’s the end or just the start

Down the rabbit hole and out
To face a world unknown
Stumbling onto foreign lands

So take another leap of faith,
Though fear has left me shaking
I close my eyes and you are there

Whoever’s standing will be known
And their reward is gonna show
And every moment that is gone
I say I will survive
And I can’t stand where I can't see
Cos everywhere will disappear
And I don’t know if it’s the end or just the start

It’s bound to happen, worth a try
Am I the one who’s left behind?
Or is it now I’ll learn to fly and use my wings for the first time
A silhouette of unknown faces
Blurs my way and leaves no traces
Reaching out from the night sky
Escaping through the empty spaces on my mind

Whoever’s standing will be known
And their reward is gonna show
And every moment that is gone
I say I will survive
And I can’t stand where I can't see
Cos everywhere will disappear
And I don’t know (I don’t know…)

And I can’t stand where I can't see
Cos everywhere will disappear
And I don’t know if it’s the end or just the start
The start of something real

Breaking Ground - Rachel Debattista & Michael Heider

Written, performed and produced by @rachel_debattista and Michael Heider, March 2020.
Our entry for a Challenge at www.songwriter-forum-kitchen.com/

Hidden, mysteriously
Planning undoubtedly
Heading where no-one knows
And no-one dares to go

Living where no-one sees
Heading ahead of dreams
Leaving a tempting tone
Contemptuous and alone

Shooting all through the night
Winding along the roads
Fighting but never dies
Breaking out all the codes
Shooting all through the night
Moving in misty streets
And he just walks with the breeze

Witty and cunningly
Acting, surprisingly
Detailing every move
And never seems to lose

Blinded far away from sight
There is another meaning
Trembling in the shadows there is
A heart in need of healing
There is another world beyond 
The cover of the cape 
Will he ever thrive beyond
The fear of mistakes?

Shooting all through the night
Winding along the roads
Fighting but never dies
Breaking out all the codes
Shooting all through the night
Moving in misty streets
And he just walks with the breeze

Achilles - Rachel Debattista & Michael Heider

Lullaby (Demo)

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