Enter Myself


I want to enter myself
I want to dig deep below the surface of my skin,
putting my fingers into the bloody pool
is how I want my purification to begin.

I want to walk inside myself
I want to spray graffiti along the subways of my brain,
these long, winding roads to nothing
have rendered me insane.

I want to swim inside myself
I want to feel the thickness of my blood,
the weight of it, the pull of it, weigh me down
in this self-made androgynous mess
it is time for me to drown.

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"Enter Myself" Poem

Friendship A Necessary Pain

Track about struggling to get support on release from the mental health hospital system, and being heavily abused while in it.

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Mental Hospital

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NAS TYPE BEAT ' FORBIDDEN CITY'

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Earl Sweatshirt Type Beat 'PROBLEMS'

PREVIEW - 'Leaving'

Track about struggling once out of the abusive mental health system.

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PREVIEW- Blinded In The Darkness

Track about pushing people away before they can get too close to hurt you.

ive been standing in the rain with a mind aching full of pain
I feel numb and I feel dumb  and I feel hurt yet again
well my life just does a circle yeah my life just stays the same
boring boring mundane always saturated in the  pain
well connecting, refelcting, projecting always strained
been alone all my life and now i'll be alone yet again
i was hacking at my wrists  all my life ive been rejected
never good enough, my  scars always show refelcting
uncoveered in the light 
ive always hidden hidden  out of sight
every day laying alone no missus its a fright
well  im grateful for everything youve ever done for me
coming from my heart and soul with sincerity
 sorry  for the things I said the things I did the lies I told
but now my apology is more than likely just getting old
I’m sorry for being me and that’ all I can say
U got too close to me and I just pushed u away

PREVIEW- Pushing You Away

Track about being kept down deliberately by the evil NHS mental health services. Subscribe to stand up for better mental health services in the UK! Don't be told by crisis teams to just 'relax' ! #wedeservebetter

MUSIC VIDEO

Breathe (2016)

Dark disturbing rap song about feeling worthless and wanting to sell my soul to the devil.   influenced by cage, sadistik and early nas. This is just a preview, the song is not fully finished yet. if you like this why not subscribe for more music like this and to also stand up for mental health awareness! #mentalhealthawareness

LYRICS
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I woke up this morning with fucking 
tears in my eyes 
The depression hits like a brick but still 
 I I try to rise
I hate what ive become I feel numb I feel  undone
Im Often on the run always falling 
Numb
Theres Hatred in my viens  because shit  
just hasn’t changed
Blaming others 
 Pushing u away its just the same
Because Everything around me is shining, bright lights remind me
Running from the police clocks chiming
devil 
smiling
sick of this darling
everything is frightening 
I just don’t need reminding
A part of me wants to give in to this fight alone
Find my body in the back of an ambulance, wiped out, comatose
I cant do anything right  it feels like im just getting worse
I feel tormented by a demon, dragged down by a curse

Reborn
Someone save me
Undo this mess hazy
Put my body on display and sell me, sekll me baby
Put my body on display and sell my soul to the devil




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Musician.Author. Artist. Inspirer.
Never give up!

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Michelle Torez