All my friends hate me, and I know that they don’t but I feel that way around the clock

Think that I’m fine but I move on when I know I’m not

The one time I find smb who understands the way I feel it’s smb who I ain’t got no contact with

from/to d

i deleted the ep this song was about 
prod me :

(lyrics)
can you imagine what it’s like to make art 
but you don’t like what you make
can you imagine what it’s like to make art 
but you don’t like what you make
no you don't like what you make

ever since i met you i hope i don’t forget you
i’ll change my fucking life if it means you’ll stay the night
every song i make is an attempt to make you mine
every song i make is an attempt to change your mind x2

drill some inspiration
in my heart im losing patience 
everyday i write a song
but my voice sings it wrong x2

what’s the point of making songs
if my friends never sing along 
and girlfriend gets mad at me
dont think of this as tragedy
and i can’t really promise you I’ll be right here forever
my heart is in your sweater
i promise it gets better

what its like to make art

prod @siouxxie

@rouri404
@lucybound
@k0a
@funeral
@vaeo-music
@polar333
@1maxime

hazmat (siouxxie)

Credits:||
@hereisalden

Data Log:||
>i dont think that ill ever even find my way
>step 200 paces

pain +aldn

fuck december, shout out my friends
guitar by ttthou 

I fear that i’m not too good at music
and its frustrating because I have eyes on me at all times

I get a little power and I might abuse it
so I do better, at the bottom, you understand why I try?
I try too hard at everything put a camera on me
and 
watch me switch from the boy I was about 5s ago

I try too little at everything that matters
like when you put hot water on cold glass

wallflower clip

if you told me a couple things what would It be?
if I could read into your mind what would I see?
back to a time where we were doing shit that mattered 
right before I dropped the ball and then it shattered
 
and 

do you remember when you asked if I would drink?
at 5am picking your orders up from peets 
i dont think you owe like anything to me,
I just keep thinking bout shit I shouldnt think 

a big fan of your new friends and your blue hair
we didnt get a prom though call it loose ends 
like do I want a girlfriend or a bestfriend
like do I want a front seat when the world ends 

like do I want a small break or to give up
or do I wanna chest pass 
or to mean something to you
I never mean nothing to you

and would you try to stay up to see the moon fall?
i’m the biggest faker, take my mask off
I wrote a couple few songs, but they’re all wrong
I try to turn my shortcomes into someones

how I’m scared to live and both die?
I aint never brawled but i’ll go fight
something in the stars make me feel right

https://www.instagram.com/52_jd/

fighters

better luck next time 22
production by @dltzk 

im such a pussy
think that im fine but i move on when i know im not
all my friends hate me
and i know that they don’t but i feel that way around the clock
no i don’t wanna talk
to you the least of all
ignoring all of your calls 

im on the brink
all the sudden can’t think of a thing to say 
my mind it sinks
i got so many obstacles that i can’t seem to get out my way
i need you gone
i need you out of my life
i don’t wanna come home
id rather live in the night

think that I’d rather live in a lie
i won’t open my eyes
i know i won’t suffice 
to anything of value in my life
im surprised that im even alive

i want you to know
that you can escape all your lows

i want you to know
that i’ve conquered my lonely road

all my friends hate me

Midwxst - Heart

daylily (cover)

distraction prod 31sentinel + alisynn

MIDWXST - ONE OF A KIND

mixed & mastered by me
prod @silokilledthis

words
i dont think im good at love
but maybe i just never loved someone enough
to the point where i feel comfortable
without you im not functional
dont know when our time will come but just know ill be punctual
cus' i know it feels everytime someone casts doubt
ive been there before ive even had my own head down
cus' nothing ever works :/
i know you still miss me 
and wear all of my shirts
and that shit hurts

two wrongs know that still dont make a right
but i still cant get your image out my mind
tried to make a song bout' you
to get you out of my head
but i still see your bracelet by the side of my bed

never thought this is how we end
got each other blocked 
we cant even be friends
couldnt latch on any longer
tired of playing pretend
tried to see your perspective
but you're fucking up my lens
we all fuck up
we all make mistakes
but that doesnt mean 
that my love was fake 
dont know what pleases you
what will it take?
to get your name and your face out my brain
she wanna hit my phone up whenever im in town
i had to hell her i cant hang with you not around
your friends cus' their not good for me 
yeah i know that now
really thought you were the one but i guess shit just dont work out.


but thats just how it goes
fuck up once and problems always gonna erode
thought we'd be together on this narrow road
broke up i dont think thats how the movie goes

two wrongs know that still dont make a right
but i still cant get your image out my mind
tried to make a song bout' you
to get you out of my head
but i still see your bracelet by the side of my bed

two rights prod silo

prod @janeremover

flaws and mistakes
we’re not human 
give me time and i’ll change
there’s some days that i hate
shit that i can’t control like acne on my face

and problems that come with my skin and my race
so many suicide notes i threw away
cus I ain’t ever wanna be a burden
people say they care for me
don’t know that shit for certain
anymore

if i didn’t text her
then I wouldn’t get a text back
but i should expect that now
cus’ friends are forever or that’s what they say
then so why my all my friends end up hurting me?
i screamed out for help while you dug out my grave
i hate the last thing that I saw was your face
and you tossed our memories and my corpse away
and nailed down my coffin to make sure I stayed

maybe finally i can finally get time to myself
got my finger on the trigger if i shoot i’ll kill the old me
i’ve been tryna move on but slowly
and yeah i may avoid home, it’s lonely :(
don’t feel like myself feel like a phony
(x2)

flaws + mistakes

fuck it me type beat one hundred emoji
producer: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCDzimQcJtXnx7Tvhvb-iqdg

midwxst type beat

refrain / decide

midwxst - Under Your Breath (prod. Escape + Pooka + Jdolla)

"Goodbye forever Sandy. I loved you so much, tried so hard. Now I hate you." 

prod. dead yami

all my friends hate me

midwxst

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