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Complicated Love

I'm Sorry

Sad love song about dealing with the past with new love.

Another Chapter

Cover song originally performed by Benson Boone.

In The Stars

Song about being stabbed in the back by a childhood friend and losing the entire relationship over BS and not feeling like you can trust anyone else to be your friend.

You Were Never My Friend

Cover song originally performed by Alex Warren.
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Darling, handle me with care
Cover me in bubble wrap
I'm scared you really mean it
That you're never comin' back
See your bag right by the stairs
So I guess you already packed
Know I can't change your mind
But how could you just leave like that?

Oh-uh, oh-uh, oh-oh
Oh-uh, oh-uh, oh-oh
Oh-uh, oh-uh, oh-oh
I'm not ready to let you go, so

Just give me one more night
Hold me like you're still mine
Oh, love me for right now
Before you leave me
I know it's gonna hurt
Watching your footsteps turn
So, love me for right now
Before you leave me

Oh, oh
Oh, love me for right now
Before you leave me
Oh, oh
Oh, love me for right now

I'm so used to getting damaged
And you know I hate this part
So, I gotta take advantage
Of a fully-broken heart
Won't you stay a little longer
Even if it's all pretend?
And maybe by the mornin'
I'll be ready for the end

Oh-uh, oh-uh, oh-oh
Oh-uh, oh-uh, oh-oh
Oh-uh, oh-uh, oh-oh
I'm not ready to let you go, so

Just give me one more night
Hold me like you're still mine
Oh, love me for right now
Before you leave me
I know it's gonna hurt
Watching your footsteps turn
So, love me for right now
Before you leave me

Oh, oh
Oh, love me for right now
Before you leave me
Oh, oh
Oh, love me for right now

Whoa-oh, got one foot out the door
Whoa-oh, 'cause you don't need me anymore (oh-oh-oh)
Whoa-oh, got one foot out the door
Whoa-oh, 'cause you don't need me anymore

Just give me one more night
Hold me like you're still mine
Oh, love me for right now
Before you leave me
I know it's gonna hurt
Watching your footsteps turn
So, love me for right now
Before you leave me

Oh, oh
Oh, love me for right now
Before you leave me
Oh, oh
Oh-ooh, love me for right now

Before You Leave Me

Original song by Mileena Rayne.
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Sleep tight
Everything’s going to be alright
Don’t you cry
Don’t you cry

It’s 3am and I’m wide awake
Lying next to you
You have no clue what I’m about to do

I’ve tried to mend the pieces, tried to make them fit
But my issues run deep and I can’t commit
You’re better off without my restless soul
It’s time to let you go, it’s time to let you go
(It’s time to let you go)

You deserve something more than I can give
The way we love is no way to live
I want to see you happy, but it can’t be with me
Breaking your heart’s the only way you’ll leave

It kills me, it breaks me apart
You’ll always be the one who has my heart
I’ll never love again like I’ve loved you
And that’s why I’m going to do what I need to do

It’s the last thing I want to do
But this isn’t fair to you
It’s time to let you go
(It’s time to let you go)

The pain you’ll feel will slowly fade
When you find love again another day
It just won’t be with me

You deserve more than I can give
I love you, I know
But it’s time to let you go

Time To Let You Go

02.
This is my second song I've produced myself. It has simple lyrics and it gave me a lost-in-the-forest vibe when I was making it.
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I’m lost in the forest and the trees whisper to me
I can’t find my way, yet this is where I’m supposed to be
It’s getting dark and I can see eyes all around me
Isn’t somebody going to come and save me

I’m running, I’m running, I don’t know where to go
Get me out of here, I want to go home
I’m running, I’m running, I just want to be free
How did this happen to me

Ohhh, ohhh

I’m running, I’m running, I don’t know where to go
Get me out of here, I want to go home
I’m running, I’m running, I just want to be free
How did this happen to me

Ohhh, ohhh

I’m running, I’m running, I don’t know where to go
Get me out of here, I want to go home

Running Away

03.
Third song in my production journey. This song gave me cinematic, video game vibes. There are no lyrics, just the vocals which act as an instrument themselves in a way. It was fun to use one of my more ambient virtual instruments to help make this track. I have a lot to choose from but they all tend to have very distinct sounds you can't just use on any song. This was one of those times that instrument made sense and it gave it a nice background atmosphere sound.

Destiny

This was supposed to be part of my Complicated Love album, but I pulled it because it didn't sound like the other songs. I recently found this song again and decided to release it as a single.
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We were fire and rain, caught in the storm
Words we didn't mean left our heart’s torn
But I can't deny, when you walked away
A piece of me begged for you to stay

Can we hit rewind, go back in time
Back to a time when you called yourself mine
You’re my heartbeat, baby, I miss the sound
Can we find our way back and turn this around

Ooh, baby, where did we go wrong
We were perfect like a love song
Let’s take a breath, let’s take it slow
Let's find the love we used to know

Let’s embrace the winter and welcome the spring
Together we’ll face whatever life brings
Hold on to our promise, don’t let go
We can find the love we used to know

The silence between us,  louder than before,
Every night without you, I feel it even more,
Let's get back to loving, back to where we belong
Forget all the hurt, let's right all the wrongs

Ooh, baby, where did we go wrong
We were perfect like a love song
Let’s take a breath, let’s take it slow
Let's find the love we used to know

Let's light it up, let the past burn out
We'll rise from the ashes, I have no doubt
Baby, can't you see, it's you and me
Let's start again, like we were meant to be

Let's get back to loving, oh, oh, oh
Let's get back to loving
Take me into your hands, we’ll start slow
Together we’ll find the love we used to know

Ooh, baby, where did we go wrong
We were perfect like a love song
Let’s take a breath, let’s take it slow
Let's find the love we used to know

The Love We Used To Know

My millionth redo of Beautiful Things by Benson Boone.
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For a while there, it was rough
But lately, I've been doin' better
Than the last four cold Decembers
I recall

And I see my family every month
I found a man my parents love
He'll come and stay the night
And I think I might have it all

And I thank God every day
For the man He sent my way
But I know the things He gives me
He can take away

And I hold you every night
And that's a feeling I wanna get used to
But there's no one as terrified
As the one who stands to lose you

Oh, I hope I don't lose you
Mm

Please stay
I want you, I need you, oh God
Don't take
These beautiful things that I've got

Please stay
I want you, I need you, oh God
Don't take
These beautiful things that I've got

Oh-oh-oh-oh
Ooh
Please don't take

I found my mind, I'm feelin' sane
It's been a while, but I'm finding my faith
If everything's good and it's great
Why do I sit and wait 'til it's gone?

Oh, I'll tell ya, I know I've got enough
I've got peace and I've got love
But I'm up at night thinkin'
I just might lose it all

Please stay
I want you, I need you, oh God
Don't take
These beautiful things that I've got

Oh-oh-oh-oh
Ooh
Please stay
I want you, I need you, oh God
I need
These beautiful things that I've got

Beautiful Things - Piano

04.
My fourth song I've produced myself.
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Telling myself I won’t fall back
But I know that I’ll relapse
Tryna forget all about all the mistakes I’ve made

Self control is something we both lack
Two hearts can’t break free from the same track
Tied down by the mess we’ve made

There’s death in the darkness
I need to turn back now
But I know I can’t help myself

I need it and I fear it at the same time
This curse is a burden I wish wasn’t mine
I know this needs to be my last time
I wish I could say this was the last time

Ecstasy, wash over me
Ecstasy, set me free
I need you but I fear you at the same time

Telling myself this is the last time
Lord give me any strength you can find
I’m praying on my knees again

Only one to see through my web of lies
I’m reaching for your hand but it’s too high
It’s only me in the end

There’s death in the darkness
I’m trying to run from it
But in the end I always turn back

I need it and I fear it at the same time
This curse is a burden I wish wasn’t mine
I know this needs to be my last time
I wish I could say this was the last time

Ecstasy, wash over me
Ecstasy, set me free
I need you but I fear you at the same time

I can’t live without you
The rush and the pain too
I know this needs to be my last time
I wish I could say this was the last time

Ecstasy, wash over me
Ecstasy, set me free
I need you but I fear you at the same time

Ecstasy

Original song by Mileena Rayne.
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I don’t wanna sink down
I’m gonna surely drown
I don’t wanna sink down
I’m gonna surely drown

I’ve got all this weight on my shoulders
Little eyes looking up at me
I’ve got no role models
To show me how I’m supposed to be

Only one hand to reach out when I’m sinking down
But soon you’ll be gone and I’ll surely drown
What the Hell am I supposed to do
When you’re not around

I’m starting to think when people say
You’ll understand when you’re older is all a lie
Or maybe I didn’t get the memo
And I’m gonna struggle until the day I die
My only choice is to be strong and keep moving on
But who’s gonna catch me when I’m weak and falling down
Even the strongest need some rest
Truth is you can still fail after giving it your best

I don’t wanna sink down
I’m gonna surely drown
I don’t wanna sink down
I’m gonna surely drown

I’ve got all this weight on my shoulders
Little eyes looking up at me
I’ve got no role models
To show me how I’m supposed to be

Only one hand to reach out when I’m sinking down
But soon you’ll be gone and I’ll surely drown
What the Hell am I supposed to do
When you’re not around

I know I need to be strong
It’s all I can do to keep moving on
It’s one thing to tread water on your own
But now I’m not alone
If I cry out will someone come by
Pull me out of this ocean so I don’t surely die
Can I finally find a place to rest my eyes
Lie down on the solid ground under clear skies

I’ve got all this weight on my shoulders
Little eyes looking up at me

Only one hand to reach out when I’m sinking down
But soon you’ll be gone and I’ll surely drown

I’ve got all this weight on my shoulders
Little eyes looking up at me
I’ve got no role models
To show me how I’m supposed to be

Only one hand to reach out when I’m sinking down
But soon you’ll be gone and I’ll surely drown
What the Hell am I supposed to do
When you’re not around

I don’t wanna sink down
I’m gonna surely drown
I’m sinking down
I’m gonna drown

Sinking Down

Alternate version of Lost in the Shadow of Eden, original song by Mileena Rayne.
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I’m drowning in a sea of lies
I’m haunted by a ghost I try to hide
I’m tired of fighting this battle inside
I’ve tried to win, oh, believe me I’ve tried

Lord keep me, keep me from all evil (Oh, I’ve tried)
Lord keep me, as I travel down this road (Believe me, I’ve tried)

In the light of day I push you away
In the dark of night I give up the fight

Forgive me for I have sinned
I lost the war within
Fell from grace and stoked the flame
And now I pay with the pain
I gave in to the greed
Self sabotage is my special creed

Dancing on the edge where the Devil whispers to me
He promises to set me free
Like Eve, I’ve bitten more than I can see

Ignoring reality I’m too scared to face
I need to get out but this cycle’s hard to erase
I keep falling from grace

Every mistake I make I’m swallowing down the Devil’s lie
Eve’s own folly mirrored in my bloodshot eyes
The call into the dark is a lure I can't deny
A path of ruin, under a starless sky

I’m drowning in a sea of lies
I’m haunted by a ghost I try to hide
I’m tired of fighting this battle inside
I’ve tried to win, oh, believe me I’ve tried

Oh, I’ve tried
Believe me, I’ve tried

Echoes of Eve

05. Fifth song I've produced myself.
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I saw you in the stars
I wanted to know who you are
You were up there all alone
With the sins you had to atone
You thought you could runaway
But the suns up there 24 hours a day
The light’s too bright
Everything fades out to white

When will you come down from here
When will you come down from here

I don’t want to go anywhere without you
But it’s time to fall from the stars into the big blue
Are you coming with me or are you staying behind
If you stay and change your mind I’ll be hard to find

When will you come down from here
When will you come down from here

I saw you in the stars
I wanted to know who you are
You kept your story wrapped up tight
Keeping the truth from the light
Did you find what you were looking for
Do you regret letting me walk out the door
You seem pretty fine to me
It hurts but I guess I’ll just let you be

I didn’t want to go anywhere without you
But it was time to fall from the stars into the big blue
I guess you decided to stay behind
You stayed in the stars and I hope you got what you needed to find

When will you come down from here
When will you come down from here

I saw you in the stars
I wanted to know who you are
I guess I’ll never know
But sometimes that’s just how it goes
This is the part where I let you go
But I don’t want to let you go
Just so you know

When will you come down from here
When will you come down from here

Back To Earth

The sixth song I've produced myself.
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I’m standing here in the middle of the night
Talking with the shadows and trying to find some light
I tried to find peace in the quiet rain
But it washed away the parts of me I wish had stayed

I see people walking and they’re all the same
Hiding behind smiles that mask their pain
We’re all just actors in a worn-out play
Pretending we’re okay, but we’re wasting away

Where do I go when the lights burn out
When the walls close in and I’m filled with doubt
I’m reaching for something, but it’s never there
Lost in the silence, but nobody cares
I’m fading away, can’t you see
Where do I go when there’s nothing left of me
Where do I go...
When there’s nothing left...
Of me?

We’re all pretending that we’re doing fine
Carrying the weight of the burdens we can’t fully define
But behind every smile, there’s a secret kept
And behind every laugh, there’s a tear that’s wept

Tell me, how do you hear a broken heart
When the silence is louder than the tears that start
Tell me, where do you go when the world feels wrong
When the quiet’s too loud and you don’t belong

Where do I go when the lights burn out
When the walls close in and I’m filled with doubt
I’m reaching for something, but it’s never there
Lost in the silence, but nobody cares
I’m fading away, can’t you see
Where do I go when there’s nothing left of me
Where do I go...
When there’s nothing left...
Of me?

Drifting in a world that’s gone silent
I’m searching for the light but I can’t find it
I’ve been washed away and I’m left with what I can’t mend
Staring into the silence, calling it my friend

There was a time we would speak what we feel
But now no one will disturb what we’ve learned to conceal
The pain is loud, but I say nothing at all
Let the silence surround me and let the darkness fall

Lost In The Silence

Eighth song I've produced all myself!
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There’s a chapel on the hill where the lost find rest
Left my peace at the altar, heart beating in my chest
Your eyes pull me in, like a lullaby in blue I feel the weight you carry, though you hide it from view

I reach into the flame, hoping to find some light
But the shadows pull me closer, deep into the night
Your touch is like a chill, tracing down my spine
Binding me to sorrows that I’ve tried to leave behind

Woke up, and the fever felt like a wildfire
Called her name, it lingered like an old choir
Last night, I danced in circles with the ghosts unseen
Woke up, feeling lost in an empty dream

An empty dream, yeah, an empty dream
An empty dream, yeah, an empty dream
An empty dream, yeah, an empty dream
An empty dream, yeah, an empty dream

There’s a chapel on the hill where the echoes weep
Left my name at the door, traded dreams for sleep
I followed distant footsteps, but they faded away
Now the silence wraps around me, yeah, it’s here to stay

I’m reaching for the flame, trying to find my way
But the darkness pulls me under, I can’t break away
Woke up, felt like I was never really there
Never there, no, no, no, it was just a nightmare

Woke up, and the fever felt like a wildfire
Called her name, it lingered like an old choir
Last night, I danced in circles with the ghosts unseen
Woke up, feeling lost in an empty dream

An empty dream, yeah, an empty dream
An empty dream, yeah, an empty dream
An empty dream, yeah, an empty dream
An empty dream, yeah, an empty dream

I’m staring at the flame, searching for a sign
The shadows flicker back, saying you’re still mine
Your touch is like a chill, tracing paths to the unknown
In the silence of the dark, I’m bound to the stone

Woke up, yeah, heart’s beating like a war drum
Said her name, I don’t know where it came from
Trying to shake off demons, but they latch on tight
Tell myself it’s over, but there’s no end in sight

An Empty Dream

Ninth song I've produced myself.
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Wait
Please don’t go
Your love is the only warmth
That my cold heart has ever known
I could have treated you better
Yeah, I know
I can see that
Now that you’re 6 feet below

Time stands still
Yet the world moves on
And I’m trapped in the past
Where you now belong
You know, I still drive past
The spot where we used to meet
The place by the river
Hidden from the streets

I try to leave it all behind
But it’s clear
Every road I take
Brings me back here
The nights I hear your voice
It’s like a curse
And waking up alone in bed
Just makes it worse

Oh, it hurts so much
In a million little ways
You feel so near, but you’re so, so far
I’m looking up to you, while you’re looking down from the stars
And I know you can hear my cries
Wishing that I had been the one that had died
You were the better half of our whole
The heavens don’t understand what they stole 

I found that old note you left in my coat
The ink’s blurred, but your words still hold
I can’t read it, but I can’t let it go
It’s all I have left of a story that we wrote

When I close my eyes, you're beside me again
Talking about the future, like we did back then
But when I open them, reality hits me hard
I’m reaching out for your hand, but it’s too far

Oh, it hurts so much
In a million little ways
You feel so near, but you’re so, so far
I’m looking up to you, while you’re looking down from the stars
And I know you can hear my cries
Wishing that I had been the one that had died
You were the better half of our whole
The heavens don’t understand what they stole

Oh, they better know
I’ll never let go
Oh, they better know

Oh, they better know
That I’ll wait for you in another life
Because I’m never letting go

Oh, they better know
They took the better half of my soul
How could I possibly ever let go
Oh, they better know

Oh, it hurts so much
In a million little ways
You feel so near, but you’re so, so far
I’m looking up to you, while you’re looking down from the stars

They Better Know

Cover song originally by TALK.
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Your color's fading
'Cause I kept you waiting
It's a wild, wild world
And you're a wild, wild girl

Our sun's still shining
But it seems half the size
And it's a wild, wild world out here

Before my time runs out

What If I run away to Mars?
Would you find me in the stars?
Would you miss me in the end
If I run out of oxygen?
When I run away to Mars

I can't tell which way is home
I've been gone for so long
It's an empty world up here
I skip stones and wonder
How long 'til I'm discovered
It's a quiet life up here

Before my time runs out

What If I run away to Mars?
Would you find me in the stars?
Would you miss me in the end
If I run out of oxygen?
When I run away to Mars

Three, two, one, I miss you
I'm sorry, I got issues
 
What If I run away to Mars?
Would you find me in the stars?
Would you miss me in the end
If I run out of oxygen?
When I run away to Mars

Runaway To Mars

Cover song originally by Katy Perry.
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I knew you were
You were gonna come to me
And here you are
But you better choose carefully
'Cause I, I'm capable of anything
Of anything and everything

Make me your Aphrodite
Make me your one and only
But don't make me your enemy (enemy)
Your enemy (your enemy), your enemy

So you wanna play with magic?
Boy, you should know what you're fallin' for
Baby, do you dare to do this?
'Cause I'm comin' at you like a dark horse (hey)

Are you ready for, ready for (hey)
A perfect storm, perfect storm? (Hey, hey)
'Cause once you're mine, once you're mine (hey, hey, hey, hey)
(There's no goin' back)

Mark my words, this love will make you levitate
Like a bird, like a bird without a cage
But down to earth if you choose to walk away
Don't walk away (walk away)

It's in the palm of your hand now, baby
It's a yes or a no, no maybe
So just be sure before you give it all to me
All to me, give it all to me

So you wanna play with magic?
Boy, you should know what you're fallin' for
Baby, do you dare to do this?
'Cause I'm comin' at you like a dark horse (hey)

Are you ready for, ready for (hey)
A perfect storm, perfect storm? (Hey, hey)
'Cause once you're mine, once you're mine (hey, hey, hey, hey)
Yup (Trippy)
(There's no going back)

Uh, she's a beast (beast)
I call her Karma (come back)
She eat your heart out like Jeffrey Dahmer (woo)
Be careful, try not to lead her on
Shawty heart is on steroids
'Cause her love is so strong
You might fall in love when you meet her (meet her)
If you get the chance, you better keep her (keep her)
She's sweet as pie, but if you break her heart
She turn cold as a freezer (freezer)
That fairy tale ending with a knight in shining armor
She can be my Sleeping Beauty
I'm gon' put her in a coma (woo)
Damn, I think I love her
Shawty so bad, I'm sprung and I don't care
She ride me like a roller coaster
Turn the bedroom into a fair (a fair)
Her love is like a drug
I was tryna hit it and quit it
But lil' mama so dope
I messed around and got addicted

So you wanna play with magic?
Boy, you should know what you're fallin' for (you should know)
Baby, do you dare to do this?
'Cause I'm comin' at you like a dark horse (like a dark horse)
Are you ready for, ready for (ready for)
A perfect storm, perfect storm? (A perfect storm)
'Cause once you're mine, once you're mine (mine)
(There's no going back)

Dark Horse

Cover song originally by SLANDER and Dylan Matthew.
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Don't go tonight
Stay here one more time
Remind me what it's like
And let's fall in love one more time
I need you now by my side
It tears me up when you turn me down
I'm begging please, just stick around

I'm sorry, don't leave me, I want you here with me
I know that your love is gone
I can't breathe, I'm so weak, I know this isn't easy
Don't tell me that your love is gone
That your love is gone

Don't tell me that your love is gone
That your love is gone

I'm sorry, don't leave me, I want you here with me
I know that your love is gone
I can't breathe, I'm so weak, I know this isn't easy
Don't tell me that your love is gone
That your love is gone
That your love is gone, hmm

I can't breathe, I'm so weak, I know this isn't easy
Don't tell me that your love is gone
That your love is gone

Love Is Gone

Original song by Mileena Rayne.
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"They tell us to smile, to shine, to be what they need.
Our dreams, our fire—they dim them.
A woman's world, they say, is built in shadows, shaped by hands that never asked.
But deep within, we burn—wild, untamed, unseen."

She’s got that vacant stare, hiding behind her smile
Walking through the fire like it’s just another mile
Living like a wildfire, but it burns her to the ground
And I’m just watching, yeah, I’m just watching her drown
She’s acting like she’s got it, but you know it’s all for show
Walking through the flames like she’s never felt the cold
Acting like she’s strong, but you can see it in her face
And I’m just watching, yeah, from a hidden place

She’s hiding in the music, drowning out the pain
Forcing out fake laughs, lying about her name
She’s tangled up, tied down, feeling like she’s caught
Every night she tries to forget all the thing’s she’s lost
Dancing in a room full of people but she’s so alone
Searching for a comfort that she’s never known
She sees him in the distance, and she knows what’s on his mind
She’s gotta play the part, yeah, she’s running out of time

He’s got her on a string, yeah, he knows she’ll play along
Humming out the melody to every one of her songs
She moves like she’s a puppet, but she says she’s strong
Every night, she’s breaking down, yeah, she pretends he’s wrong
It’s like she prays, but nobody’s there to hear her cries
Counting down the minutes just to feel alive
She grew up too fast, now she’s numb inside 
But every night, she’s breaking down, yeah, she pretends she’s fine

"How many dreams have we traded for survival?
How many names have we erased just to fit their script?
They pull the strings, and we move, but this is not freedom.
It’s a cage with gilded bars, and a melody we did not choose.
But still, we fight, we dance, we endure—because we remember who we are."

She’s tangled in illusions, threads she can’t unwind
Chasing empty dreams, trying to leave this life behind
Living like she’s fearless, but she’s shaking every day
Haunted by the memories she tries to push away
She says she’s got control, but she’s barely getting by
Smiling like she means it, but it’s just another lie
She gives him what he wants, but inside she’s screaming “no”
And I’m just watching, yeah, as her cracks begin to show

He’s got her on a string, yeah, he knows she’ll play along
Humming out the melody to every one of her songs
She moves like she’s a puppet, but she says she’s strong
Every night, she’s breaking down, yeah, she pretends he’s wrong
It’s like she prays, but nobody’s there to hear her cries
Counting down the minutes just to feel alive
She grew up too fast, now she’s numb inside
But every night, she’s breaking down, yeah, she pretends she’s fine

"We are more than their stories, more than the roles they write for us.
The fire they fear cannot be extinguished.
We are the storm, the quiet resistance, the unbroken song.
And one day, this world will know us—not as puppets, but as the creators of our own freedom."

Echoes of the Unheard

Puppet

This song is dedicated to a dear friend who is going through a lot right now.
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To my dear friend
I’ve watched you struggle in ways words can’t describe
This letter isn’t to fix you or tell you what to do
I just want you to know you’re not alone
And you don’t have to say you’re sorry

The weight of your past keeps dragging you down
But you don’t have to face this road on your own
I can’t know the pain or the scars that you bear
But you’ve got so many friends that truly care

Every time you fall, I see the pain you try to hide
Like you’re ashamed to let us in, afraid of what we’ll find
But you don’t have to say the words—we’ve seen it all before
The nights you fought your demons and the mornings on the floor

You don’t have to say you’re sorry, we already know
You’re human, and you’re hurting—it’s okay to let it show
No, we don’t need your reasons—we just need you to stay
Whenever you fall, remember, tomorrow’s another day

We don’t need perfection; you don’t need to pretend
Your fight is a victory every time you begin again
You’re more than your struggle, you’re more than all the pain
So please, keep getting up, even if it means starting again

I know it’s hard when you lose your way
And I know it can be hard to find reasons to stay
But you’re stronger than you know by getting up every day
I know you thought you needed to but
Please, don’t think you have to say

You don’t have to say you’re sorry, we’ve known all along
You’re broken, but you’re trying, and that’s what makes you strong
No, we don’t need an explanation, we just need you to breathe
This world wouldn’t be the same if you were to leave

You don’t have to say you’re sorry, we already know
You’re human, and you’re hurting—it’s okay to let it show
No, we don’t need your reasons—we just need you to stay
Whenever you fall, remember, tomorrow’s another day


You Don't Have To Say You're Sorry

Original song by Mileena Rayne, based on true events.
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Sitting alone at the edges of the crowd
A story in his eyes, silent but loud
He spoke of a past love, their lives danced but never entwined

Life turned pages, they found others
Built their worlds with different lovers
If they knew what the future had to hold
If they knew, if only they knew

He'll always remember the one that got away
In our fleeting moment he found a way
To speak the words he never got to say

Hidden Angel in the night to free his soul
To mend the past, to make him whole
On that night I saw his soul fly
I was the last verse, his final goodbye

When we met it was a twist of fate
In my smile he saw her face
For that night I was his confidante
A stranger to comfort, a ghost to haunt

In our embrace he found reprieve
A moment to mourn, a moment to grieve
During that time she felt so near
In my eyes, in my smile, his love appeared

An echo of her grace, a fleeting shadow, a familiar face
An unfortunate fate, She’s the one that got away

He'll always remember the one that got away
In our fleeting moment, he found a way
To speak the words he never got to say
Hidden Angel in the night to free his soul
To mend the past, to make him whole, oh

He told of one rainy night, his world went quiet
Sadness boxed up, he could no longer fight it
His love’s laughter ceased, on that stormy bend
Too soon, too fast, an untimely end

Whole world shattered, unspoken words scattered, a silent scream
She was his one and only, his lost dream

But as dawn broke we knew it was time
With a final smile and a wave goodbye
He found closure under the morning sky
I was the messenger, a bearer of light

He'll always remember the one that got away
In our fleeting moment, he found a way
To speak the words he never got to say
On that night I saw his soul fly
I was the last verse, his final goodbye

His final goodbye

Final Goodbye

Dance Pop Version of Mileena Rayne's original song, Zeus.
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No mortal man, he's got that immortal vibe
Praying on my knees baby, I’ll be ya sacrifice
Losing my self-control, physique's a work of art
Every inch, a masterpiece, straight from Aphrodite's heart
Wanna trace every line, feel every curve
In your arms baby, you’re the love I deserve
Wanna dance in your sheets, feel your breath on my skin
Name carved in my stars, here our fate begins

God from Olympus, body pure heaven
Got me prayin' to the skies, twenty-four seven
Strong like Hercules, Zeus in his soul
Hold me down sky daddy and take control

His body my temple, I worship every night
Go deep like Poseiden, my tides reaching new heights
Wisdom like Athena, he knows just where to touch
My body his favorite book, read me slow, don’t rush
Want night to last forever, Eos please delay
Your lips are my ambrosia, I’m addicted in every way
Can’t shake this feeling, You’ve got me in a trance
My one and only, enthralled by your romance

Loyal like Hera, I’m your faithful slave
Treat me right baby, by your side is my place
I’ll be your good girl, my love will never stray
Take me in your hands now, conquer me your favorite way

Waging war in your bed, a siege in your sheets
Your passion like Ares, you can’t be beat
Yeah baby you’re my myth, yeah, you’re my legend
Created just for me, straight from Heaven
A fit so perfect, not meant for no one else
This veil of magick, Hecate been weaving spells
Take me to Elysium and set the world aflame
Destroy me like Troy and make me scream your name

God from Olympus, body pure heaven
Got me prayin' to the skies, twenty-four seven
Strong like Hercules, Zeus in his soul
Hold me down sky daddy and take control

I’m your little play thing, God you feel amazing
Put your hands around my neck until my vision hazy
Baby keep choking me until I feel my soul float
Slap me hard until I moan, then spit in my throat
Chain me up like Andromeda, I’ll do anything to please ya
Bend me over, spread me out, show me what that sword about
Your hand on my head, I willingly surrender
When it comes to submitting, I’mma repeat offenda

Loyal like Hera, I’m your faithful slave
Treat me right baby, by your side is my place
I’ll be your good girl, my love will never stray
Take me in your hands now, conquer me your favorite way

Opium in my veins, always craving your taste
Gone mad like Agave, your high I’ll always chase
Is this a dream, or have I gone crazy
I don’t care, Morpheus don’t wake me
Like Pandora I’m unleashed, I’ve gone wild
No going back now, I'm no longer mild
Other girls want you, yeah he’s my fine boo
But I’m not Hestia, I’ll fucking stab you

God from Olympus, body pure heaven
Got me prayin' to the skies, twenty-four seven
Strong like Hercules, Zeus in his soul
Hold me down sky daddy and take control

Hold me down sky daddy and take control

Hold me down sky daddy and take control

Zeus (Dance Pop Version)

Dance Pop Version of Mileena Rayne's original song, Lost In The Shadow of Eden.
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Racing through the night, on a path to nowhere
Living on the edge, pretending not to care
In the city's glow, a garden veiled in sin
Where shadows dance, and temptations begin

I’ll dance with the shadows, till my last breath
Riding the high, flirting with death
They say there’s hope, a chance to break free
Like Eve, I've bitten more than I can see

Maybe tomorrow, I’ll find my way
Or maybe this night, is where I’ll stay
The serpent's call, so clear in the dark
This shadow of Eden is tearing me apart

Dancing on the edge, where the wild things breathe
"Live fast, die young," the Devil whispers to me
Ignoring reality I'm too scared to face
I see the exit signs, but this cycle I can't erase

With every sip, I swallow down the serpent's lie
Eve's own folly mirrored in my bloodshot eyes
The serpent's call, a lure I can't deny
A path of ruin, under a starless sky

Friends find their way, or fade into the night
I'm left standing alone, lost to the fight
The serpent's voice, now a roar, I can't resist its call
In this garden of sin, I'm waiting for my fall

Maybe tomorrow, I’ll find my way
Or maybe this night, is where I’ll stay
The serpent's call, so clear in the dark
This shadow of Eden is tearing me apart

Maybe tomorrow, I’ll find my way
Or maybe this night, is where I’ll stay
The serpent's call, so clear in the dark
This shadow of Eden is tearing me apart

Visions of what could have been, what should be
Dreams like fallen leaves, beneath the lifeless tree
The serpent's venom, flowing through my veins
In the shadow of Eden, here I remain

Paradise gates sealed tight, I can’t break free
God, why have you forsaken me
I breathe my last breath, in the silence of dawn
The world moves on, but I'm forever gone

Paradise gates sealed tight, I can’t break free
God, why have you forsaken me
I breathe my last breath, in the silence of dawn
The world moves on, but I'm forever gone

Lost in the Shadow of Eden (Dance Pop Version)

Dance Pop Version of Mileena Rayne's original song, Final Goodbye. Based on true events.
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Sitting alone at the edges of the crowd
A story in his eyes, silent but loud
He spoke of a past love, their lives danced but never entwined

Life turned pages, they found others
Built their worlds with different lovers
If they knew what the future had to hold
If they knew, if only they knew

He'll always remember the one that got away
In our fleeting moment he found a way
To speak the words he never got to say

Hidden Angel in the night to free his soul
To mend the past, to make him whole
On that night I saw his soul fly
I was the last verse, his final goodbye

When we met it was a twist of fate
In my smile he saw her face
For that night I was his confidante
A stranger to comfort, a ghost to haunt

In our embrace he found reprieve
A moment to mourn, a moment to grieve
During that time she felt so near
In my eyes, in my smile, his love appeared

An echo of her grace, a fleeting shadow, a familiar face
An unfortunate fate, She’s the one that got away

He'll always remember the one that got away
In our fleeting moment, he found a way
To speak the words he never got to say
Hidden Angel in the night to free his soul
To mend the past, to make him whole, oh

He told of one rainy night, his world went quiet
Sadness boxed up, he could no longer fight it
His love’s laughter ceased, on that stormy bend
Too soon, too fast, an untimely end

Whole world shattered, unspoken words scattered, a silent scream
She was his one and only, his lost dream

But as dawn broke we knew it was time
With a final smile and a wave goodbye
He found closure under the morning sky
I was the messenger, a bearer of light

He'll always remember the one that got away
In our fleeting moment, he found a way
To speak the words he never got to say
On that night I saw his soul fly
I was the last verse, his final goodbye

His final goodbye

Final Goodbye (Dance Pop Version)

Original song by Mileena Rayne.
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Time runs away like the lake through our hands
We were just kids trying to make some plans
The songs we wrote still carry on in the breeze
Through the ripples of the lake and the sway of the trees
You’re a name on a page, a lullaby lost to time
But I hope you’re happy, and you’re doing just fine
Even if life’s taken us different ways
I’ll think of you on these quiet days

We’d sit on the dock, feet brushing the waves
Late July nights felt like endless days
You had that old guitar with the busted string
And we’d hum along to songs neither of us could sing
You’d keep the rhythm; I’d lose the beat
Under that cabin roof where the floorboards creaked
You’d talk through the night like the stars were your guide
And I’d drift to the rhythm of your lullabies

And I wonder, do you still play that tune
Does the night still remind you of a full July moon

Time runs away like the lake through our hands
We were just kids trying to make some plans
The songs we wrote still carry on in the breeze
Through the ripples of the lake and the sway of the trees
You’re a name on a page, a lullaby lost to time
But I hope you’re happy, and you’re doing just fine
Even if life’s taken us different ways
I’ll think of you on these quiet days

The water was cold, but we never cared
Laughing so loud when no one else was there
Your hair dripping wet, you’d say, “Let’s dive again”
And I’d hesitate before I gave in
We dreamed in the dark of the songs we’d write
Two broken kids chasing stars in the night
Your voice was steady; mine full of doubt
But you taught me what music was really about

We outgrew the summers and the cabin nights
Took separate roads under the same starlight
If I could go back, I’d hold on so tight
But the seasons move faster than we realize

And I wonder, do you still dream that way
Does the sound of the lake ever call your name
Do the stars still shine like the nights we knew
Or have they faded with time, like I did with you
You’re a verse in the sand that the waves erased
But the tide can’t wash away the dreams we chased
Though the years have replaced the songs we knew
I’ll still hum the melodies that came from you

Time slips away like the wind through the trees
But I’ll always hold onto these memories
The songs we wrote still carry on in the breeze
Through the ripples of the lake and the sway of the trees
You’re a name on a page, a lullaby lost to time
But I hope you’re happy, and you’re doing just fine
Even if life’s taken us different ways
I’ll think of you on these quiet days

And if the wind carries my voice your way
I hope it reminds you of those summer days
The lake might be quieter, the songs might be still
But I wish you the best, and I always will

At The Lakes

Cover song originally performed by Adele.
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I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now
I heard that your dreams came true
Guess she gave you things, I didn't give to you
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face
And that you'd be reminded that for me, it isn't over

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
"Don't forget me, " I beg
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised in a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face
And that you'd be reminded that for me, it isn't over

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
"Don't forget me, " I begged
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

Nothing compares, no worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
"Don't forget me, " I beg
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
"Don't forget me, " I begged
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

Someone Like You

Cover song originally performed by Adele.
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Take your eyes off of me so I can leave
I'm far too ashamed to do it with you watching me
This is never ending, we have been here before
But I can't stay this time, 'cause I don't love you anymore

Please, stay where you are
Don't come any closer
Don't try to change my mind
I'm being cruel to be kind

I can't love you in the dark
It feels like we're oceans apart
There is so much space between us
Baby, we're already defeated
Ay-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah
Everything changed me

You have given me something that I can't live without
You mustn't underestimate that when you are in doubt
But I don't want to carry on like everything is fine
The longer we ignore it, all the more that we will fight

Please, don't fall apart
I can't face your breaking heart
I'm trying to be brave
Stop asking me to stay

I can't love you in the dark
It feels like we're oceans apart
There is so much space between us
Baby, we're already defeated
Ay-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah
Everything changed me

We're not the only ones, I don't regret a thing
Every word I've said, you know I'll always mean
It is the world to me that you are in my life
But I want to live and not just survive

That's why I can't love you in the dark
It feels like we're oceans apart
There is so much space between us
Baby, we're already defeated
'Cause, ay-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah
Everything changed me

And I-I-I-I-I don't think you can save me

Love In The Dark

Original song by Mileena Rayne
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I know you mean every word you say,
You think giving me love will make me stay.
But I’m not lost, I’m not unsure, 
I just know I need something more.
You say you’ll wait, but I wish you wouldn’t,
Love me now like I know you couldn’t.
You swear you’ll break down my walls,
But they weren’t made to fall.

You keep hoping, but hope’s a blade,
Cuts you deep when things don’t change.
You keep swearing I’m worth the pain,
Like I’m someone who’d do the same.
You think if you give it time,
I’ll wake up wanting you to be mine.
But hearts don’t change just ‘cause you stay,
And love don’t grow when it’s forced that way.

Don’t wait for me, don’t waste your time (Don’t wait for me)
Love’s not enough if the timing ain’t right
You want forever, I need space (Don’t waste your time)
You’ll only lose yourself this way
Don’t hold on, don’t try to stay (Don’t hold on)
I won’t be yours just ‘cause you pray
Don’t wait for me, just walk away (Don’t try to stay)
Before I’m the one who makes you break

It’s not that I can’t, not that I won’t,
It’s just that right now, I already know.
Love ain’t something you can demand,
And I can’t give what I don’t understand.
You deserve more than open wounds,
More than someone who won’t choose you.
I know you want this, but I know the truth,
I can’t love you the way you do.

You keep hoping, but hope’s a blade,
Cuts you deep when things don’t change.
You keep swearing I’m worth the pain,
Like I’m someone who’d do the same.
You think if you give it time,
I’ll wake up wanting you to be mine.
But hearts don’t change just ‘cause you stay,
And love don’t grow when it’s forced that way.

Don’t wait for me, don’t waste your time (Don’t wait for me)
Love’s not enough if the timing ain’t right
You want forever, I need space (Don’t waste your time)
You’ll only lose yourself this way
Don’t hold on, don’t try to stay (Don’t hold on)
I won’t be yours just ‘cause you pray
Don’t wait for me, just walk away (Don’t try to stay)
Before I’m the one who makes you break

One day, maybe, I’ll look back and wish,
But I won’t lie, I can’t promise this.
If you stay, you’ll only bleed,
So please, for once, don’t wait for me.

Don’t wait for me, don’t waste your time (Don’t wait for me)
Love’s not enough if the timing ain’t right
You want forever, I need space (Don’t waste your time)
You’ll only lose yourself this way
Don’t hold on, don’t try to stay (Don’t hold on)
I won’t be yours just ‘cause you pray
Don’t wait for me, just walk away (Don’t try to stay)
Before I’m the one who makes you break

Don’t wait for me, don’t waste your time (Don’t wait for me)
Love’s not enough if the timing ain’t right
You want forever, I need space (Don’t waste your time)
You’ll only lose yourself this way
Let me go, don’t turn back (Just let me go)
You deserve more than a love like that
Don’t wait for me, don’t waste your time (Don’t turn back)
Find someone who can love you right

Don't Wait For Me

Listenin’ to my SoundCloud like it means somethin’
Scrollin’ through my life but you say nothin’
Knowing my highs and lows better than my own kin
Always watchin’

Now you kinda feel like a friend
In a weird way I hope this never ends
This dance is sick but we both play pretend
Like watching me break isn’t how you mend

I’m a rose blooming through the snow
Above the graves who never wanted me to grow
Why I’ll never know
They tried to bury all that I could be
But the frost couldn’t tame the flame in me
You hate to see

You think I don’t know when you circle back
Hiding behind names that you hijacked
Lurkin’ in the silence like it won’t show
But the envy in every click just lets me know

You won’t say a word, but you want the tea
Sippin’ my pain like it’s VIP
Funny how I became your favorite show
While you stay buried where you’ll never grow

I’m a rose blooming through the snow
Above the graves who never wanted me to grow
Why I’ll never know
They tried to bury all that I could be
But the frost couldn’t tame the flame in me
You hate to see

Oh, why can’t you just move on
Just move on

You watched my fire just to steal the heat
But never built a dream beneath your feet
Drowning in your jealousy you’re afraid will show
Now you’re six feet under, don’t you know

I’m a rose blooming through the snow
Above the graves who never wanted me to grow
Why I’ll never know
They tried to bury all that I could be
But the frost couldn’t tame the flame in me
You hate to see

Keep watching from your grave below
I’ll keep blooming through the snow
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Rose in the Snow

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Mileena Rayne is a talented songwriter from Minnesota, USA. Her upbringing was unconventional, as she spent most of her childhood being raised by her grandparents. During her teenage years, Mileena experienced a period of instability, moving between various homes before achieving independence at the young age of 16. Music has always been a constant in her life, providing an escape and a source of inspiration, giving her strength through challenging times.

Growing up surrounded by music, Mileena was fortunate to learn the piano, which became a foundation for her musical journey. She joined an orchestra, initially playing the viola before switching to the cello, and also learned to play the guitar while dabbling with the violin. With her life experiences shaping her lyrics as if they were entries from a personal journal, Mileena's songs capture the raw emotion and stories of her life, resonating deeply with listeners who connect with her authenticity.

Beyond her passion for music, Mileena is also the author of the Blood of the Wild Gods book series and is deeply committed to the healthcare industry. She currently works as a Registered Nurse and has over a decade of experience in long-term care, pharmaceutical research, and psychiatric care. A devoted mother to her two precious daughters, she balances her responsibilities with her creative pursuits, seamlessly weaving her passions into every aspect of her life.

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