Produced by Night
Written and performed by Mimi Ryel

lyrics:
In the void I wallow
Truth is, the truth is
Kinda hard to swallow
The truth is so ruthless
I stay comfy in my grotto
Starin at the walls
That outline all my sorrows

Reachin deep into my conscious
But the memories…are too painful to process
Oh well, oh well
no use in tryna stop it
this is my hell
as far as I can tell
I belong here
I get along here,
Years and years
of hiding, covering
Conditioned myself to find
The solace in suffering

Too much pain in recovery
I’m fine with suffering

(Remember)
(Reliving)

TRAUMA

Written, performed, and mixed by Mimi Ryel
Beat produced by Segador.

LYRICS:
Know that it's impractical
But oh it’s so magical
In a field of marigolds
Your pesticide poisons my soul
I still hold them to my nose
Smells much better than my roses
Illusions that you’re feeding me
Beautiful and misleading
So serene, 
And mean...

Sudden rain
Soil in disarray
It’s okay
Cause after all, this is your world baby
Just make a bouquet, you know my favorite
And change the sky from gray, a perfect painting 
And ill suppress the pain that I'm sustaining
That I’m sustaining (sustaining, sustaining)
That I'm sustaining

Know that it's impractical
But oh it’s so magical
In a field of marigolds 
Your pesticide poisons my soul

Oh it's getting hard to breathe
Your love hitting like nicotine
No oxygen into my brain
Is it me or you that’s this depraved?

Can't get enough of your pain
Following me to my grave
My grave

GARDENS (prod. by segador)

space girl by moonkiss (prod. tye first)

Produced by shvde
Written, performed, and mixed by Mimi Ryel

LYRICS:
I was once a girl
Hoping for a better world
A better world
But once I truly learned
Oh my little heart was hurt
Anxiety emerged

Preparing for the worst
The state of this earth
Fuck, if i think too hard
My stomach will tie up in knots
Light it up, and forget on the spot

Yes, this is what it’s really come to
All the nightmares about our future are coming true

I was once a girl
Hoping for a better world
A better world
How do we discern
A blessing from a wicked curse?
Is nirvana just deep in the dirt?

better world

Beat produced by shvde
Written, performed, and mixed by Mimi Ryel

LYRICS:
What happened babe?
Thought we both was on the right page
What happened, hey?
Was it something in the air that I couldn't quite gauge? 
Oh what’s happening?
So many thoughts running through my head
Like is the nigga dead?
Did he get what he wanted?
Things ain’t like what they started

Was it something I said?
‘Cause now

You don’t hit me on your phone
Hit me on your phone no more
Hit me on your phone
Hit me on your phone no more
Hit me on your phone
Still got some of your cologne

You don’t hit me on your phone
Hit me on your phone no more
Hit me on your phone
Hit me on your phone no more
Hit me on your phone
Nigga I know you been home

Written, performed, and mixed by Mimi Ryel
Beat produced by Zii-oh

LYRICS:
Oh
What a cold cruel world,
That we are forced to exist in
I get sick of existing
Sick of existing

Reality is haunting me
Is haunting me
Is haunting me
How could this be
The world that we-
Oh god it's haunting haunting me
Haunting me

Oh
Well now I have no options
But to stay locked into
This horror game
So lost and confused
And I play and play
Cause I won't turn to the noose
(Reality is haunting me)
No I won't turn to the noose
(How could this be the world that we-)
(Oh god it's haunting haunting me)
And if I do cut me loose
Oooo
(Haunting, haunting me)
Oooo

This can't be...
This-
This can't be the world
That we live in
Can't be...

the haunting

Beat produced by Segador
Mixed, written, and performed by Mimi Ryel

LYRICS:
What’s your poison?
Tell me, are you chosen?
To lead this life full of shame
To lead a life full of sorrow and pain?
Well I'm done denying your downfall
I'm done watching you tear you apart
Oh I am refusin this time
To idly watch your demise
To be a viewer in your suicide
If you wanna die, then alright¯\_(ツ)_/¯

But why?
Oh why?

What’s your poison?
What’s your poison?
You got such devotion
To that poison

Oh this is for your own good
Let you lean on me as many times as i could 
So, farewell
I'll see you in Sodom
You won’t hold my hand as you're hitting rock bottom
Letting go

POISON

Written, performed and mixed by Mimi Ryel
Produced by branwen

LYRICS:
I dont wanna feel anymore
Feel anymore
Feel anymore
I dont wanna feel anymore
Feel anymore
Feel anymore

Rolled another one
Now im lazy
My nigga hit me up
Goin crazy
Boy
My other lil nigga just played me
Oo I thought you was my baby

I dont wanna feel anymore
Feel anymore
Feel anymore
I dont wanna feel anymore
Feel anymore
Feel anymore

anymore

Written, performed, and mixed by Mimi Ryel
Produced by NOTURMOOD

LYRICS:
I'm so addicted to you
And everything you say
And do

I'm so addicted to you
And everything you say
And do

Baby
Let's keep this feelin, feelin
Baby 
Let's keep this feelin goin

I'm so connected to you
Doesn't matter what I say or do
I just keep runnin back to you

(Baby let's keep this feelin, feelin)
Keep on runnin back to you
(Baby let's keep this feelin goin)
I keep on runnin back to you
(Baby let's keep this feelin, feelin)
I'm so addicted to you
(Baby let's keep this feelin goin)
I keep on runnin
And runnin
Runnin

Keep on runnin back to you...

FEELIN

Written, performed, and mixed by Mimi Ryel
Beat produced by Night
LYRICS:
I am
Second guessing
Everything that you meant to me
I thought that you were heaven sent for me
I just had to be naive!
They thinkin Ima never leave
When I say I love you would you believe

I still do?
Cuz part of me’s attached to you
But if I start acting ration-lly
I wont manage to keep the peace
So I smile lovingly
Like baby we’re meant to be
But I know

[hook]
We simply won’t last
That’s my hypothesis
Trapped in this mirrored hall
Of broken promises
Your reflection
Becoming so ominous
Your misdirection
Is getting monotonous

[break]

Our fates decided, our fates decided
Our fates decided, our fate is decided
Whether you buy it, our fates decided
It's sealed in white, dont you try to deny it

[hook]
We won’t last
That’s my hypothesis
Trapped in this mirrored hall
Of broken promises
Your reflection
Becoming so ominous
Your misdirection
Is getting monotonous

We won't last
That’s my hypothesis
Our souls dont fit the mold
Of my metamorphosis
I cant keep runnin back
Break the glass, break the glass
No I cant keep coming back
Thru the glass, straight thru the glass
Thru the glass
Thru the glass
No we were never meant to last

hypothesis

Produced by jupiter
Written, performed, and mixed by Mimi Ryel

don't ask who hurt me

LYRICS:
Pour the liquor out
Say no more
Pour it out
Don't you say no more
Get your fuckin shit and move thru this door
I'm about 2 seconds
From gettin yo ass tore

You say too much
Then you use it as a crutch
Don't give a fuck
If you missin me, my touch
I hit my old nigga and we gonna fuck
The way you love me sucks
Now get out or duck

I hit my old nigga and we gonna fuck
The way you love me sucks
Now get out or duck
I'm about two seconds
From breakin that cup

Pour the liquor out, say no more
Pour it out,
Don't you say no more
Get your fuckin shit and go thru that door
I'm about 2 seconds
From gettin yo ass tore

You say too much
Then you use it as a crutch
Don't give a fuck
If you missin me, my touch
I hit my old nigga and we gonna fuck (HAHAHA)
The way you love me sucks
Now get out or duck

byebye

Produced by Yada
Written, performed and mixed by Mimi Ryel

Lyrics:
Whats in your mind
Well that’s confidential
Look in my eyes
Ain't it inferential 

What I am feeling is existential
Will I live to my full potential

Niggas gettin tight and it's making me nervous
If I gotta fight, Ima pull it with purpose
Walk thru the night and their heads are turning
Turned on that nigga, hope his heart is hurting
I get my lick back and I say that its worth it
You are not him, you are not deserving

I get my lick back and I say that its worth it
You are not him, you are not deserving
You are not him, you are not deserving

The whole worlds gone to shit
And we are living in it
I hold on to my dreams
Like my life’s dependent 
Im ripping at the seams
Nothing is as it seems
I cant feel any ease
Among their wicked deeds

crisis

Produced by kolji
Written, performed, and mixed by Mimi Ryel

LYRICS:
I dont wanna get up today
I think i would rather lay
No I dont wanna get up today
No sleep, couldnt shut off my brain

I think i wanna end myself
Grab the glock up off the shelf
Or maybe ill go down some pills
I dont belong, and ill die on that hill

die on that hill
Bae i need them pills
Go in for the kill
I dont feel real
U tell me to chill

get up

Produced by shvde
Written and performed by Mimi Ryel
Mixed by NunMajor

LYRICS:
I see what you are, dont think you ever would confess though
Stayed up countless nights to analyze your manifesto
If I count it right, I'll have a forecast on your next blow

It’s so predictable

For the next couple of days, it'll be sunny
Serve me soft, you know I love it gentle honey
Grab my guard, so when it storms I can't go runnin
You’ll be the only single shelter I can jump in

Jump in, jumpin, heart thumpin
You are the one that I trust in
Keep me safe from your destruction
Scared of thunder, you tell me I love it
I love it
Who am I becomin?
Who am I becomin?
I love it


stormy weather

Produced by painhunter x lvcien
Mixed by Aquamixedit
Written and performed by Mimi Ryel

LYRICS:
Looking at the sky
And it's all so senseless
Horrendous
And I'm so defenseless
I'm restless
From the evil that has infected
Everything we thought was protected

Another night of no sleep
The dread is linger-lingering
It's the darkness that I see
The unknown it triggers me

What do we know?
The truths never told

Ooooo

Looking at the sky
And it's all so senseless
Horrendous
And I'm so defenseless
I'm restless
From the evil that has infected
Everything we thought was protected

What do we know?
Deeper we go
The truth left untold

senseless

Produced by shvde
Mixed by Aquamixedit
Written and performed by Mimi Ryel

LYRICS:
And if I gotta take this road
All alone
Oh
Ima do it for sure

Savouring solitude already
Like a celebrity
So I might as well make it
Be lonely and paid and shit

You bitches better fucking hear me
When im screaming
I don't
Need no fuckin body
I'm what I embody

It was when the cards revealed to me
A hermit hurdlin
I knew
It was part of the journey
Won't let it deter me

And if I gotta take this road
All alone
Oh
Ima do it for sure
Ima do it for sure
Ooo

And if I gotta take this road
All alone
Oh
Ima do it for sure
Ima do it for sure

run away

taking things in a different direction :))

Produced by Nathandiorr
Mixed, written, and performed by Mimi Ryel

LYRICS:
Oh baby
My happiness starts with you
Oh baby
Come closer
Get into the groove

I feel desire
So im gonna get it
And baby I want you, want you, want you

I feel the fire
Flames higher
The heat of our bodies pressin pressin up against your chest 
when you’re undressin me

The question is
Are we forever and ever and ever?
It’s beckoning

We can’t pretend
Just love me forever and ever
However, whenever
Where do we begin
Are we together forever
Till the very end

And we keep on pressing pulling
Pushing pressing pulling pulling 
To the beat

And we keep on pressin pullin  
pushin pressin pressin 
To our heart beat 


Gotta keep on pressing pulling (We slide)
Pushing pressing pulling (Under the shiny disco lights)
To this little beat (We don’t)
(Quite say it but we feel its right)

And we we keep on pressing pulling (This time)
Pushing pressing pulling (Ima hold you like I’m fighting for my life)
To our heart beat (So tight)
(My body is all yours tonight)

Gotta keep on pressing pulling
Pushing pressing pulling
To this little beat
(Oh baby)

And we we keep on pressing pulling
Pushing pressing pulling
To our heart beat

Forever

prod. by @TylianMTB
just fuckin around and practicing my pen game. i had no idea what else to title it lol

LYRICS:
Just keep walkin
nigga swearin he got me but im knowin he be talkin
uh, uh
Im not a option
But I got a couple niggas; you act up you up for auction
Got em locked i
Let him hit it; now he slumped; Pussy on neurotoxin
This pussy toxic!
Its been a whole year n the goofy still cant get offa me!

Nigga go home
Im little but my ass fat; bout as big as the dimmadome
And my daddy doug dimmadome
He got a couple racks in his hat, lemme sit on em

Yeah I just shitted on em
and he paid me 20 bands just to shit on him
& he took me to the land, to lay some dick on him
think he the man but he suckin for a brick of sum

suckin for a brick of sum 😳
get to duckin when they comin w a stick to hunt u
niggas cappin like they love u when they barely want u
they say demons in low regions when they walk among u

listen,
im sick of that joe
I don’t give a fuck what you have, bitch yo essence broke
You act like I was after yo bag, boy yo duffle soaked
Nigga why are u so down bad, can u fuckin cope?
Like…can u fuckin cope??
These niggas need a therapist on foenem no fuckin joke
Gambino even called it, niggas creeping, ima stay woke
And if im caught fallin, ima block him, ima go rogue

Cuz bitch I aint Alicia keys
But ill rap over some string and keys
And ill do as I fuckin please
Aint no damn nigga controlling me

No damn nigga controlling me
Not even my father
Try to top me bitch ill blow u out the water
These niggas playas so I treat em like some fuckin fodder
He got no money, girl don’t even bother
My wrist is icy; heart colder than a whitewalker
Man get out my way, im tryna check out yo daughter 
Yeah I might like her
Rubbin that ass thru them jeans, yeah I might like her
Think I right swiped her
& if she eat it like she say she do, man I might wife her 
Man I love bein Black
How I don’t even rap but

detroit type beat

mrs. apathy

it happened again

mental apocalypse

death's door

where is your humanity?
you strip me of my vanity
escaping this calamity
but im held down by your tenacity

you say that im being dramatic
like im the one that’s problematic
how do I act when the shit is traumatic?

you traumatized me 

you poured up some liquor again
tiptoeing on eggshells just to prevent
the drainage of your drunk descent
it hits me when I least expect it

the shit you subjected me to
don’t see how it affected me you,
claim that I want you to be perfect
no, want you to be worth it oh

got a lot of alcohol
got a lot of holes in my wall
got a lot of painful reminders
even though you’re gone
like this song
ooo you did me so wrong

now I am all alone
pickin up the pieces of my soul
tryin to figure how how I can be whole
without you

Popular tracks by Mimi Ryel