Pet prod. ddertbAg

once this is over, what will we do

a real hero (protection prayer)

prod by me
ft. @blackwinterwells

ep coming may 19 ;)

Hate Me

hate me

hate me (feat. blackwinterwells)

<3

Tell me why I'm like this
Close up when I touch your body
Don't you think
That I'm better off dying?

Got too many questions
I will never answer
Try to stay afloat
But I keep on sinking faster

Close up
When I touch your body
Don't you think
That I'm better off dying?

Got too many questions
I will never answer
Try to stay afloat
But I keep on sinking faster

She told me to come over
I mean, why not?
Didn't hesitate
I mean, why would I?

I like to hear her talk
It was just fine
If that was the only thing
We did that night

Rest her head
On my chest
Didn't say a word
But it made me smile

No sleep
My eyes were blood shot
Think I kept you up
But you didn't mind

She told me to come over
I mean, why not?
Didn't hesitate
I mean, why would I?

I like to hear her talk
It was just fine
If that was the only thing
We did that night

Rest her head
On my chest
Didn't say a word
But it made me smile

No sleep
My eyes were blood shot
Think I kept you up
But you didn't mind

Right or wrong
I've been waiting for my turn
Don't know what I've got to do
But I'll get what I deserve

I spent so much time
To try and heal myself
I won't hurt you but
I've been so much worse

So tell me what
I need to tell myself
Don't know what you want
I've been trying to figure it out

Look at me
I'll tell you how it feels
Don't know if it's right
I've been trying to figure it out

(I've been trying to figure it out
I've been trying to figure it
I've been trying to figure it out
I've been trying to figure it)

Right or wrong
I've been waiting for my turn
Don't know what I've got to do
But I'll get what I deserve

I spent so much time
To try and heal myself
I won't hurt you but
I've been so much worse

So tell me what
I need to tell myself
Don't know what you want
I've been trying to figure it out

Look at me
I'll tell you how it feels
Don't know if it's right
I've been trying to figure it out

figure it out

ft @4ng311 
loving it is so hard
every time I try it pulls me apart 
voices whispering , don’t talk to me
the light doesn’t reach too far
heart is racing, can’t get myself out 
Jus tell me you’ll help now 
everything is falling down 
on us , and I can’t be trusted
all they do is talk but they don’t mean shit

I’ve waited for so long 
But the static won’t disappear
Running out of time
How did we end up here
Isn’t this everything I asked for
Im losing myself
But I keep wanting more
So addicting
I cant get enough of it
But its all in my head 
Breathe me
Don’t wanna lose this feeling
But I can’t stop spinning

 so addicted, laying here in my bed 
suffocating and I can’t get out my head
the locks too big
(loving it is so hard)
we jus won’t fit
everytime I try it pulls me apart
& I fall to the floor
make me want it more
you’re not new I’ve seen it all before

jus tell me you’ll help me
u could free me . .




[guitar by unlucky drums by me]

free me w/ kiyana(unlucky,me)

scrape the side (bigdog&with3r)

so tired.. l’ll let u go 
.. the me that u don’t know
look at the photograph, yea it’s still in my bag
it never stayed the same, ur heart u want it back? 
look & you’ll find me and the crow
he doesn’t let it snow
so tired, can’t hide it 
I’ll never be there for u
i make it come true, rip my face off ; brand new

say I’m gonna leave but u know I can’t 
can’t talk to me so u write it on my hand
nothing to see, it’s all a dream
i’m obsessed w u 
ur love in my bloodstream
i want something I can’t escape that makes me feel this way
before I put it in my pocket, I kiss it ; I lock it
blood medallion ; every step it swayyssszzZ

bloodmedallion.wav [nono g beats]

and i'm a cunt, yeah i despise you
got so many drugs in my system, that's how i do
i kept on going up, popped some more because i like to
i bleed out on the floor december long with or without you

okay, now shut up
hold your breath 'til you turn blue
fuck up every little thing
you'll do what i do

i saw death
in the room
all around you
and every time i do a line

i'm begging for another heart attack
and every time you kiss me i pray to god you love me less
and every time i fall asleep i hope i wake up dead
and every time i bleed i hope it empties out my chest

give me pain
it's all i know
you fuck me up
and i endorse it

i swallow up
these cures
and i treat my mind
like it's poison

i needed you
six months ago
six months too long
that's what caused it

and every second
drags for too long
my heart's gone
now i've lost it

give me pain
it's all i know
you fuck me up
and i endorse it

i swallow up
these cures
and i treat my mind
like it's poison

i needed you
six months ago
six months too long
that's what caused it

and every second
drags for too long
my heart's gone
now i've lost it

kill the lights turn the beat up
do you feel it?
just took 20mg
but i don't feel it

you won't believe me
'til i do it
go find me a body bag
and put me in it

alprazolam
safe haven
i just want to empty my head
oh, you don't get it

got brain fog
need sedation
you won't ever listen to me
who am i kidding?

give me pain
it's all i know
you fuck me up
and i endorse it

i swallow up
these cures
and i treat my mind
like it's poison

i needed you
six months ago
six months too long
that's what caused it

and every second
drags for too long
my heart's gone
now i've lost it

give me pain
it's all i know
you fuck me up
and i endorse it

i swallow up
these cures
and i treat my mind
like it's poison

i needed you
six months ago
six months too long
that's what caused it

and every second
drags for too long
my heart's gone
now i've lost it

december

december (ㆆ_ㆆ)

i don't get it
what are they saying?
'bout to pass out
think i got too faded

you don't know me
baby, i'm a stranger
i'll fall apart in your arms
i'm decaying

i fucking hate you
soon as i'm sober
don't come around, won't play it out
game over

it's been downhill
ever since october
i'll take these pills to drown it out
game over

i don't care oh i swear
didn't want to feel a thing but i felt it everywhere
and everytime i'm cut deep
i hope i bleed out on the dirt

never thought it would get this tough
guess i got what i deserved
i take these pills to shut me up
swallowed whole by the earth

i don't care oh i swear
didn't want to feel a thing but i felt it everywhere
and everytime i'm cut deep
i hope i bleed out on the dirt

never thought it would get this tough
guess i got what i deserved
i take these pills to shut me up
swallowed whole by the earth

i don't care oh i swear
didn't want to feel a thing but i felt it everywhere
and everytime i'm cut deep
i hope i bleed out on the dirt

never thought it would get this tough
guess i got what i deserved
i take these pills to shut me up
swallowed whole by the earth

i don't care oh i swear
didn't want to feel a thing but i felt it everywhere
and everytime i'm cut deep
i hope i bleed out on the dirt

never thought it would get this tough
guess i got what i deserved
i take these pills to shut me up
swallowed whole by the earth

cutdeep

cut deep ಥ_ಥ

unmixed, unmastered
@suriphilia
produced by emotegi

yeah im over it
tummy tuck ya life
hoodie over it
catch a butterfly
clip its wings
so its over with
suicidal doors
on my hearse yea it was a gift
you can have it right back bitch
im over it
yea im over it
tummy tuck ya life
hoodie over it
catch a butterfly 
clip its wings so its over with
suicidal doors
till it hurts 
it was just a kiss
you can have it right back bitch im over it

you do it like this
what the hell u waitin for
throw it like that
shut ya mouth and hit the floor
run that shit back 
drop that ass
body party like a body horror
my nose is bleeding bad
yeah baby can you break it more

breakcore she be doped up like a racehorse iono what u reaching for it aint yours
walk out walk out
ready get the wok out
you can get your shit wopped yeah bitch run it up

let go, going awol
why for, take me off your radar
suri pop yeah I drop
then i’m gone
what’s wrong
suri he so fake
he wouldn’t tell me his real name
i can never wait for the same you all look the same 
so you wanna play okay lame you got the last say 
she say she love me 
whatever that is 
do me a favor save that shit
suri pain 
yea i messed up all my chemicals anyways now it’s clear you don’t wanna make it work
have to say
yea you really know how to make it hurt
it’s not my fault 
that makes it worse 
10/10 i rated her i’m over it
get it back i’m not settling
though we could explore the worse parts of this heaven 
send back for it back for it 
hope you didn’t lack on it 
yeah uh not gonna lie you’re whack for this


for all my life
i never learned to cry
I watch you lie
do magic with the knife
can u catch it tween ur eyes
you're my catcher in the rye
but I don't really like to hate me
so im over it

figure it out

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