staring the celling ft. depression

Yeah I’m throwing up the peace sign
Everything is alright
I just wanna climb to the top but I’m scared of heights
Nobody knows my bad side
Like maybe I’m the bad guy
I’m looking in my mind I don’t talk about the shit I find

I don’t know what I should do
Conflicted but who isn’t
I second guess myself and I don’t know who I should to listen to
Because I relapsed on the thought of missing you
One day I’ll fill the gap you left like a missing tooth
I need to eat more
I need to sleep more
But if I have a dream about you I don’t wanna see more
Cause when I wake up everything is different
That’s with a capital because the way that it all shifted

Yeah I’m throwing up the peace sign
Everything is alright
I just wanna climb to the top but I’m scared of heights
Nobody knows my bad side
Like maybe I’m the bad guy
I’m looking in my mind I don’t talk about the shit I find

Yeah I try my best to move on
L eave it in the past until the time I write a new song
Maybe in the future I will have a different topic
I'll probably just write about all the things I do wrong
I know that I could make bad decisions to help distract me
But if I take it there I might be never coming back see
I don’t wanna live that lifestyle
Sometimes my life feels like someone speeding
And I’m stuck up in the back seat

a peace sign a day keeps toxic people away (prod. eric godlow)

I know yeah, I know 
I know I ain’t perfect you ain’t gotta tell me baby 
I already know this 
All this negativity making me lose focus 
Should’ve seen the signs yeah it could’ve been avoided 
I know that 

You don’t wanna be with me cause you wanna be with him 
But can he take you places that you ain’t never been 
Yeah That you Ain’t never been 

But you gotta admit that this is bullshit 
If this is what you want then ill say okay 
Cause I don’t wanna  fight I feel so drain 
Smoke a pound a day
Hope the pain just go away but 
But it don’t 
I don’t wanna do this no more 
Living really feeling like a chore
I don’t wanna do this any more  I don’t wanna do this I don’t wanna do this anymore 

I been skipping showers 
Thinking bout you through the hours
Circling like I’m the long hand on the clock 
You got power over 
Me and I can’t shake it 
When you still calling me baby 
Yeah you say it to my face 
And then you’re gone 

Changing places to get away with you 
You’re toxic I’m nauseous I don’t what to do 
Yeah you text me goodnight 
Right before you said your phone died
But I know you went with him to spend the night

you gotta admit that this is bullshit 
If this is what you want then ill say okay 
Cause I don’t wanna  fight I feel so drain 
Drink like every day 
Hope the pain just go away but 
But it don’t 
I don’t wanna do this no more 
Living really feeling like a chore
And I want this to work out so badly
But I know its over and done 
I don’t wanna do this any more  I don’t wanna do this I don’t wanna do this anymore

this is bs.

Snøw, Laeland & Skinny Atlas - this is bs.

i’m either numb or i feel way too much
i’ve come to terms who i am and how it’s just my luck
i always hated change i hate it worse involving breaking up
when i can feel i gotta front
i’m always acting tough
i’m missing all the days with not a worry in the world
cause now i’m in a daze just tryna make some sense of it
as soon as i climb out i fall into a deeper pit of darkness 
leaving me to wonder if i never found my way out
would i be missed

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

why do i feel like this
anxiety has got a hold on me it’s got a tight grip
my fist striking the concrete while on night shift
so many people but i still don’t know where i fit
i don’t wanna work a normal job 
i got dreams i could reach if i carry on
i have days when i feel like i could be on top
but then most of the other days i hate every single song

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

why do good people have to go through bad things
why do people like you more when you have a little fame
why do people have advice for you when they are not the same
why can i not explain the reason that i have this pain
i don’t know if it’s cause and effect
i don’t know if it’s something that i’m bound with to my death
all i know is that half the time i feel like i am dead
and the other half anticipate for when it comes again

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

i'm either numb or i feel way too much (prod. cloud cadet)

First ever collab I have done and I would say it went really well! 
Special thank you to https://soundcloud.com/powfu for doing this with me, make sure you also check out his other stuff because he's extremely talented. 

Thank you everyone who listens, I appreciate it so much <3

a friend in you. (korou. x powfu)

Shoutout to Powfu for making this track possible <3
Also the bootleg boy for releasing this track exclusively.
Follow them
https://soundcloud.com/powfu
https://soundcloud.com/dabootlegboy

Chorus
Ever since the day u left
My days feel cold
Ice is stuck inside my chest
Never warm inside my home

Ever since the day u left
My days feel cold
Looks like winter with my breath
u melt away the snow

Verse
Remembering summer times
Showing up at your house
Remembering summer nights
When me and u would sneak out

Remembering fast food dates
Share our food and one straw
Thinking bout what you would say
I can’t believe your gone

Rap
Sipping on some ice tea
Spill it on my white t
Hoping this won’t be a bad day 
But it might be

Walking home from school
Feel the rain falling faintly
When I turn around I see the 
Storm clouds chase me

Great
Just another usual day
I can never figure out
Why my life’s so strange

Bought a bottle of black
To wash away my pain
But the mark that u left
Is already a stain

S P O T I F Y

Teqkoi x Powfu - You Melt Away The Snow

Love Is A Curse

lyrics:

i hope you find yourself on the way
for real. i know you try hard
i kno you try your best
just to get thru the day
and baby i just hope you know
I care so much of everything you say
i guess you need some time to clear your head
just know its all good, you can have
your space. so i just wanna say
 
just feel it
just take it nice and slow
i dont mind
i'll wait on you
its alright
sometimes i feel alone
i'll just think of you
 
but i'll just think a
million times of every single moment
we'll be posted on the sofa phone
u say you love me and you show it
im lonely but your
arms are like my second home
i miss the moment when your name
pops on my telephone
its hard to sleep when you're away
im upset. in my head im a mess
i'll be fine. dont stress about me
i just want the best for you
so dont forget about me
not just even one time
i know one day we'll
be together let the sun shine
 
just feel it
just take it nice and slow
i dont mind
i'll wait on you
its alright
sometimes i feel alone
i'll just think of you

I'll Wait On You (prod. fantom)

Nuxe
https://soundcloud.com/nuxemusic
https://www.instagram.com/nuxe_beats/
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/nuxe/1405898815
https://open.spotify.com/artist/5Sq2960LCdGIniRjmbmT6G?si=pAfivNNFRRWx_HQfdqi38A

Zaini
https://soundcloud.com/cheyenne-zaini
https://twitter.com/CheyenneZaini
https://www.instagram.com/zainibeats/
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1MF873qFvGywvDUQbldyMH?si=hcUBaiMbRuex-3wHr3AqQQ

b o b b i e !
https://www.instagram.com/b.o.b.b.i.e/
https://twitter.com/bobbiethebee
https://open.spotify.com/artist/4BwLII5AjVfeskF0uvIHfq?si=_mUitIPGSWOzhKikF0yAiw

Nuxe & Zaini - Like U (feat. b o b b i e !)

Follow @powfu cause he's awesome <3
Song by Thomas Reid and Powfu
prod. by Thomas Reid

Lyrics:
Thomas Reid:
If I could
Then I would
Hide in your blue eyes
Hide in your blue eyes
If I could
Then I would
Hide in your blue eyes
Hide in your blue eyes

Drove you home last night
You’re on my mind
I hope you think of me sometimes
Cause you’re all I ever think of, dear
I’m sober for today
Life melts away
Inside your eyes I wanna stay
Forever
Learning how our hearts work, dear

If I could
Then I would
Hide in your blue eyes
Hide in your blue eyes
If I could
Then I would
Hide in your blue eyes
Hide in your blue eyes

Powfu:
Hide in your blue eyes
I just wanna hide with you
I just wanna jump in your blue eyes
I don't wanna fight with you
Every single time I see you
My heart is beating up fast
Even so close you're flawless
Wish I had more time
With you so I keep stallin'
Eyes like yours are the ones I dream of
Ocean blue
Inside this cold dark room

Thomas Reid:
If I could
Then I would
Hide in your blue eyes
Hide in your blue eyes
If I could
Then I would
Hide in your blue eyes
Hide in your blue eyes

Hide in Your Blue Eyes

Spotify

Thomas Reid & Powfu - Hide In Your Blue Eyes

be sure to follow @user-514229272 (emily blair) !!!!

on spotify!!

quarantined from my love (feat. emily blair)(prod. pleasedontgo)

Much love to the fam @rxseboy and @ivrii for creating this with me <33

Lyrics:

Ivri:
I want your eyes
on a silver plate
And your lungs
Don't hesitate to breathe
I will absorb you
Watch the bugs as they swarm you
I only adore you
I will absorb you

Despise me
Despise me
Despise me
Despise me
Just a tip from the dead sequioa tree
I'm sorry
I think so violently

Thomas Reid:
Our lips met and it felt like a snake bite
I wonder if you miss me late alone in the nighttime
The earth rotates and your love runs past me
You threw my heart away, I’ll pick it up if you ask me

Now I’m falling falling
But I’m never calling
Even though I want to
You were my home to run to
But this home is broken
God, wish I could focus
Memories we share now embers burned above us in the air

Rxseboy:
Turned to a mockery
What do you want from me?
Body on top of me
Can you get off of me
Hate your reflection like I hate myself
And I hate my reflection I was I was somebody else
You look at me like I'm something you need
I think that you're into making me bleed
I see bones, I see daggers all pointed at me
Fell the pain while you torturing
Gouge out my dreams

I don't get intimate
Vibe getting sinister
I run away like a cold-hearted criminal
All these subliminals go to my conscience
I'm falling deeper is this what you wanted?
(Yes)
Is this what you wanted?
Memories haunt me
That's why I'm cautious
I let my gaurd down
You took advantage
Evil inside you I don't understand it.

Despise Me

Thomas Reid x Rxseboy x Ivri - Despise Me

i want you to be happy, more than i want you...

Discover:
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/0dcxj82ddksd6tDDcJgbqo?si=QMsf5S2ARwKhiBlAWVjJNQ
Twitter: https://twitter.com/thomasreidmusic
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thomasreidmusic/

I'll Always Love You

4 A.m. Kicked U Out of My House (Prod. CapsCtrl)

thank you for the love, i hope yall like these :) please check out "nayl" because he did a lot for these.

spotify!

depression and me (with colarbear)

lover boy (prod. citrusgastank)

if we were ghosts would u love me on the other side :,(

Merch:
https://teespring.com/stores/thomasreidmusic

Discover iriasona:
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/7o2QXtvtOFZmaQVPnyVStf?si=hgJPD1rlSY6y6OBmCNL6lA
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/iriasona/

Discover Thomas Reid:
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/0dcxj82dd…2ARwKhiBlAWVjJNQ
Twitter: twitter.com/thomasreidmusic
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thomasreidmusic/

Spotify <3

the other side (feat. iriasona) (prod. yusei)

if our love was a castle

STREAM/SPOTIFY

Skinny Atlas, Laeland & oc - if our love was a castle

prod. nogfgoodnight
feat. @feelingmysorrow

sample from 'Dear John'

a classic lofi track <3

we won the war but i lost you | w sorrow (nogfgoodnight)

Weight On My Shoulders

Spotify: https://ampl.ink/ZDJ12
Visuals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e0QY1usesI4

Artist:
@thomasreidmusic

Producer:
@prodbyhypx

Lyrics:
haven't felt alive in a long time
no, i haven't felt alive in a long time
palm trees blowing in the wind
too afraid to let you in
cause i haven't felt alive in a long time

i know your lying here
whisperin' to me
but my mind's away
i'm reminiscing, please
hold me tighter till
i feel something spark
all the walls that i put up have left me in the dark
oh baby, it's my fault
i hope you understand
smile and play it cool but you know it's just a mask
that i'll wear all night
until the morning comes
oh god, i'm feelin numb

haven't felt alive in a long time
no, i haven't felt alive in a long time
palm trees blowing in the wind
too afraid to let you in
cause i haven't felt alive in a long time
countin the days before you let me go
am i breathin'?
i don't think i know
countin the days before you let me go
oooohhhh

countin' the days before i cut and run
stayin' inside, haven't seen the sun 
countin' the days before i cut and run
ooooohhhhh

because i haven't felt alive in a long time
no, i haven't felt alive in a long time
palm trees blowing in the wind
too afraid to let you in
cause i haven't felt alive in a long time

staring the celling ft. depression

mindy