guitar by gitaris laperan
this is one of my fav songs i love u niki pls give me a kiss mwah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

la la lost you

la la lost u niki cover

piano by pianonest 
will i ever finish this?? probably not LOL

lose niki cover

writing this was very cathartic for 16 year old me

you used to be so sweet
so much so that i was blind
sugarcoated poison
and i ate up all of your lies
the words you'd articulate
just to manipulate me
shame on me

and you're a little older
so i thought you'd be mature
your gaze is growing colder
warming your hands to touch me more
you knew what you were doing
target locked and you pursued it
you pursued it

now i'm untouchable
you can't just come back no more
cause if you cared about me you wouldn't have crossed the line
now i'm untouchable
you can't just come back no more
and if you did, i'd shut you out, wouldn't give you the time

do you know my favorite movie?
did you ever bother to ask?
did you wanna meet my family?
did you give a damn about my past?
the answer's "no," and i should go
but you keep tugging on my sleeve
and i don't know how to be loved
i let you take my everything

i was 16 you were old enough to know better
now you want me cause youre lonely but did you forget her?
who i was back then, she died
i said "no," i fucking cried
but you didn't seem to care

now i'm untouchable
you can't just come back no more
cause if you cared about me you wouldn't have crossed the line
now i'm untouchable
you can't just come back no more
and if you did, i'd shut you out, wouldn't give you the time

untouchable (demo) (prod. moneo)

i wrote this when i was 16 don't judge plz

the grass is greener on the other side they said
we wouldve grown if u tried to water it
each and every color desaturated
taking off these rose colored lenses

u took half of my heart
and left me numb
then you had the nerve
to find someone

why do u get to be happy?
no its not fair
ure doing the things i begged u to do
the only difference is im not there
why do u get to move on
and live ur life?
the way i went thru hell
only to lose myself
i miss the way i used to smile

ure walking around with the new light of ur life
id say good for u but that would be a lie
and maybe im being bitter
cause im not doing better
i want u miserable and every day and every night

u took half of my heart
and left me numb
then u had the nerve
to find someone

why do u get to be happy?
no its not fair
ure doing the things i begged u to do
the only difference is im not there
why do u get to move on
and live ur life?
the way i went thru hell
only to lose myself
i miss the way i used to smile

half of my heart
left me numb
u had the nerve
to find someone

the way i used to smile

the way i used to smile (prod. eeryskies + phyllis)

im never releasing this kekekeke

every line i write is for u
I know that u listen still
i still feel for u
I know that we’re no good
but i can’t swallow that pill
if it’s not real to u

so baby let it burn
i like u when it hurts
ik u don’t deserve me
but i’ll take the worst of it

so baby let it burn
there’s poison in your words
ik u don’t deserve me
but i’ll take the worst of it

ik ik we just put on a show
and when the curtains close
we’re back at square
and baby ik
when i open my eyes
you’ll bid ur last goodbye
and now baby ur gone 

ur the devil dressed in prada
yet i can’t help but want u still
even if u make me make bad decisions
ur the fire and i’m water
yeah ur everything i’m against
baby could u please get out my head

so baby let it burn
i like u when it hurts
ik u don’t deserve me
but i’ll take the worst of it

so baby let it burn
there’s poison in your words
ik u don’t deserve me
but i’ll take the worst of it

ik ik we just put on a show
and when the curtains close
we’re back at square
and baby ik
when i open my eyes
you’ll bid ur last goodbye
and now baby ur gone

let it burn demo (prod. Loewfii)

lyrics

who's that in the background of your picture?
i never wanted to suspect you, cant help it

let me go through your iphone
what you doing alone?
as if these other girls will love you the same
you got me waiting at home
crying on your sofa
thinking that i'll never be enough for you to stay

i dont know why you changed
im running out of explanations
your excuses sound same
you take advantage of my kindness

i'm pathetic i'm reliant i know it well but im defiant
of my own brain my heart cant relate

still writing lines for you for our love story
still choosing you when you don't choose me
still holding on to what we could be

but for what?
for what?
for what?

iphone demo (prod. marco)

time slips away from us
and i don’t know what day it is
it doesn’t matter as long as i spend it with him
watch fire catch from the dust 
the horizon is looking endless
i never fall but oh

he tells me i’m, i’m beautiful
when i’m insecure, he reassures 
no reason or rhyme, he’s the one i adore
felt like i’ve been climbing up a landslide
but he opens every door for me

and i’m not talking chivalry
i’m just talking talking real shit
he knows almost everything 
but still he doesn’t judge me 
and baby this chemistry
cant find it nowhere else
in love with his mentality
need him all for myself

gentle disposition in the way he says my name
i can’t feel indifferent, im hooked by his gaze
no words to describe, no way to explain 
felt like i’ve been running for my whole life
but with him i can finally breathe 

he is my everything 
my favorite good morning
only phone that i wanna ring
the only gamble i’m all in
he is the gravity
keeping me grounded
i am falling 
he is the reason

good morning demo (marco)

as always written by yours truly. <3 wrote this song really impromptu after almost a year of not writing anything. my enunciation is not super clear so here are the lyrics!! the vibe is kind of feeling like you lost your shimmer to the person you love most, i was heavily inspired by garden by sza in the post-chorus.

[Verse 1]
Shake hands and make amends again
Always feels like a bargain
But I’m the only one who’s begging
Drawing boundaries in the sand

If you cross me, you know I throw a fit
Blame you for everything you did
And you’ll dodge and deflect
You’re afraid of feeling guilty


[Pre-Chorus]
So you’ll say that I’m not easy on you enough
And then you’ll say that I am doing way too much
Make a big deal when it’s easy
It’s not easy to be in love

How do you swim against the waves when the tides have changed?
They say that love is just a short distance from hate
But I’d do anything
Anything to make it go other way

[Chorus]
I know I’m not that special
Against the flowers I’m a petal
That’s bruised and fallen down
And I, I’m no longer novel
I’m yesterday’s papers
That were once sensational

[Verse 2]
Am I bad, or do I pick bad people?
An opponent, not an equal
I only bite when you attack
Don’t get defensive now

There was a time when you love me gently
But now, everything’s messy
You saw all of my ugly, my ugly

[Chorus]
And I, know I’m not that special
Against the flowers I’m a petal
That’s bruised and fallen down
And I, I’m no longer novel
I’m yesterday’s papers
That were once sensational


[Post-Chorus]
Only a matter of time
Until you find out who I am
Only a matter of time
Until you realize you can’t understand
Only a matter of time
Until you find out who I really am
Only a matter of time
Until you realize you could try, but you just can’t

Mindy Quynh

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