*No it’s not complete yet, something’s missing 😪

Spinning out with my mind in space
Tripping bout mistakes in the past I made
He came around, I think it’s fair that I believed
Everything that he said cause he swore to honesty

On the rise
Yeah it took my by surprise
Made me feel a certain high
You know I always try to see
The best in other people even if it ruins me

Times running low
Out of control
Left it all up to me
My mind is froze a choice or three

I can’t let go
I think he knows
Drown out the part of me
That says what I’m supposed to be

He’s got addiction
And I’m manic in my ways
If you stay or if you go you know
It almost a fair trade

He’s got addiction
And I’m manic in my ways
If you stay or if you go you know
It almost a fair trade

Said that you don’t know love maybe
That I can forgive felt it once all really
I’d bid you well but you won’t see me
And I know you know I know for once I’d see this clearly
Real? Well this is not
And your track record is talk
Pile up in unpaid debt and promises that you’ll forget

And I’ve been torn
It’s just as I said before
You deserved more

But now he’s got addiction
And I’m manic in my ways
If you stay or if you go you know
It almost a fair trade

He’s got addiction
And I’m manic in my ways
If you stay or if you go you know
It’s almost a fair trade

Manic (Original - Demo) [Beat by King 80 Industries]

Been mumbling stuttering it’s not typical of me 
It’s hard to start a line right when I talk about these things
& I’ve been running & stumbling trying to get away from me
I take my past where I go but I pick & choose different things

& I know that it seems I’m constantly chasing  change 
But when I stare at my reflection I see repeating phases
& when I break I tend to take it out on me
The traces left in my skin now I do internally 

Ah
I need time to think 
Ah 
I can’t be what I need to be
Without the time to breathe 

I tend to quit when I try & fail 
My drive for better somehow prevails
& I’ve realized that with each step ahead 
That I push too hard till I wish I was dead
& I see the future as if it’s now 
Think I run from my past but then replay it out
& I can’t accept help in ways that I need
Cause when I was young I was told that was weak 

Ah
I need time to think 
Ah 
I can’t be what I need to be
Without the time to breathe 

& I know that it seems I’m constantly chasing  change 
But when I stare at my reflection I see repeating phases
& when I break I tend to take it out on me
The traces left in my skin now I do internally

Breathe (Original - Demo) [Beat by Cold Melody]

The roughest demo I’ve ever had anyone record of me. Need to re-record with less autotune & all harmonies. 

Selfish (https://youtu.be/Clnw7n0NBok)

Do I want what I know leaves 
Playing out catch then release
You’re teaching me now to be selfish 

All I knew gave equally
But those like you will always reach 
You’re teaching me how to be selfish 

I was getting high everyday
To feel the lows in new ways 
& now they’re all the same
& I come around now & then 
To the place in my head that’s says I thought I’d be dead

I promise that I didn’t see ahead 
All this time that I’ve spent 
Breathing again & again & again
I’ll go again & pull me out
Every time that I drown, I’ll save me

In the quiet 
There’s a violence 
Fades to white noise
Cuts through silence
Carry on 
But I’m still tired 
It’s like fighting fire with fire 

I’ve been giving my all to myself 
I struggle with vices just as well 
There’s not a dream that you could sell
To derail me 

Do I want what I know leaves
Playing out catch then release
You’re teaching me to now be selfish 

All I knew gave equally
But those like you will always reach 
You’re teaching me how to be selfish 

& I know x4
That I’m full of life & I’ve only just began 
Got these highs & these lows & the grays & unknowns all wrapped up inside my head

In my dreams I do ascend 
Beyond the palms of your hands
& anything that took away from all that’s in me

All I knew gave equally
But those like you are just like thieves 
You taught me how to be selfish 

I only want what is for me
Through all I make I release
My masterpieces energy you stole from me 
You’re selfish
You were selfish 
Taught me to be selfish

Selfish (Original - Demo) [Beat by King 80 Industries]

There seems a space between a home & then my heart I’ve always found 
A tendency to feel alone even surrounded all around
Feeling weightless can be free until you roam so aimlessly you’d almost beg or even plead for an anchor like a need 
Wonder how I’m trying & climbing well all my 
All of my peaks & valleys measure out the same 

It didn’t change, didn’t let it change 
I have my heart beat all the same 
Despite the hurt & all that it cost 
& all of the days I begged it to stop 

It didn’t change, didn’t let it change 
I have my heart beat all the same 
Despite the cold & times I’ve been lost
& all of the years I begged it to stop 

Harmonize 

Everything I’ve ever loved has then become something I’ve lost 
Whether I’m here or there or gone my absence will be long forgot
It seems that every time I build right from the start it’s bound to soon become ruins 
& when my world goes up in flames there at the least I’m used to ashes around me

Still it won’t change, never to change 
I’ll have my heart beat all the same 
Despite the cold & all that I lost 
& all of the days I begged it to stop 

It didn’t change, didn’t let it change 
I have my heart beat all the same 
Despite the hurt & all that it cost 
& all of the years I begged it to stop 

Harmonize 

Well don’t they say the things that burn the brightest tend to fade the fastest 
See all the dreams & hopes from youth catch up to years & now they’re passing

Heart (Original - Recorded Via iPhone) [Seventeen Beats]

Capitulation heresy
Empty words doctrinal means
A stranger to scarcity can’t appreciate abundance 

Greed with wealth
Revenge and fame
Taking the world center stage 
But I’d relive all of the loss to know how much love means

Do you not know
I know some who know 
I know some who’ve seen the things I’ve seen 
But turn away complicity 

It’s breaking me 
The apathy 
It would’ve been me if were not for 
A blessing made and now today 
I feel a sliver of the pain 

All made of glass
And thinking that 
Debates hold any weight 
Empty and hollow 
You blindly follow 
Arrogance proclaimed your king 

Do you not know
I know some who know 
I know some who’ve seen the things I’ve seen 
Who love the most wholeheartedly

Arrogance (Original - Recorded Via iPhone) [boyfifty]

I’m wrapped in your arms 
You lighten the weight with the shoulders that 
I rely on 
I’m wrapped in your arms 
Take me away from the weight 
Of the world that I’ve lost

From dark to day 
It drags it on x3
Its the same old mistakes 
Carry on x3

When will it break
We’re on a loop 
The cycle unfolds
100 years brings nothing new

I’m wrapped in your arms 
You lighten the weight on the shoulders that 
I rely on 
I’m wrapped in your arms 
Take me away from the weight 
Of the world that I’ve lost

I’m wrapped in your arms 
You make me feel safe like a home that has only known peace 
I’m wrapped in your arms 
Take me away to the love
That the world has forgot

Arms (Original - Recorded Via iPhone) [boyfifty]

Faces
8 billion people with their faces
How could you not think there’s a divine 
Cause now we share home a heart and life

This is more than I thought I’d ever know x3
Only way this is ends is I’m out cold
Or you leave or one of us just dies
I’d prefer to go first cause this life

Would lose its touch 
And fade to gray
Cause I gave you my heart for to you stay
But if the worst has yet to come
At least I know I’ve loved enough 

Faces
8 billion people with their faces
How could you not think there’s a divine 
Cause now we share home a heart and life

I’ve had it all so you can break my heart now
I can close my eyes and take the fall down
Every time I think that it’s the end 
You remind me of what’s heaven sent 

All I ever wanted was a home 
A sanctuary of my own 

They could never love like us
Cause they could never grieve as much 
They can never gain enough 
Cause they have never loved like us 

They could never fight like us
Cause they have never lost like us 
They can never gain enough 
Cause they have never loved like us

Faces
8 billion people with their faces
How could you not think there’s a divine 
Cause now we share home a heart and life

I’ve had it all so you can break my heart now
I can close my eyes and take the fall down
Every time I think that it’s the end 
You remind me of what’s heaven sent 

They could never love like us
Cause they could never grieve as much 
They can never gain enough 
Cause they have never loved like us 

They could never fight like us
Cause they have never lost like us 
They can never gain enough 
Cause they have never loved like us

Faces (Original - Recorded Via iPhone) [boyfifty]

It seems that all liars now are all the drivers of the truth set in stone 
I’m seeing all the kings make the orphans and the mothers beg for refuge and hope 
It’s looking like the thieves are now considered blessed and wealth is from God alone 
The balance is disrupted the pressure pushing upward watch the world burn from home 

Do you feel my heart do you feel a weight
Do you feel the dread of what awaits
We are the last to know of now 
And when it all comes down 
What will you fight to save 
What will you pray to save 

It seems that all liars now are all the drivers of the truth set in stone 
I’m seeing all the kings cause the orphans and the mothers beg for refuge and hope 
It’s looking like the thieves are now considered blessed and wealth is from God alone 
The balance is disrupted the pressure pushing upward watch the world burn from home 

Will you show your soul do you feel a weight
Do you feel the end is what awaits
We are the last to know of now 
And when it all comes down 
What will you pray to save 

It seems that all liars now are all the drivers of the truth set in stone 
I’m seeing all the kings cause the orphans and the mothers beg for refuge and hope 
It’s looking like the thieves are now considered blessed and wealth is from God alone 
The balance is disrupted the pressure pushing upward watch the world burn from home
Watch the world burn from home
What will you pray to save 

Do you feel my heart do you feel a weight
Do you feel the dread of what awaits
Will you show your soul has it been displaced 
Do you feel the end is what awaits

Pray (Original - Recorded Via iPhone) [CVRNVTE]

I know it’s easy to disregard the meaning
When life breaks you down and it tears you up 
It’s hard to see the light 

In the right angle
You’ll be able
To know where to go
In time you will know 

I tend to quit when I try & I fail 
But my drive for better somehow it prevails
& I’ve realized that with each step ahead 
Its easy to push until burnout and stress 
If you think of the future as if it’s now 
Then consider the past but don’t replay it out
It’s okay to accept help in ways that you need
Let me invalidate if you’ve heard that it’s weak 

I know it’s easy to disregard the meaning
When life burns you down and it rips you up 
It’s hard to feel alright 

With the right angle
You’ll be able
To know where to go
In time you will know 

When your heart’s stable 
You’ll be able
To grow and feel more whole 
In time you will know 

I know it’s easy to disregard the meaning
When life drowns you out and it trips you up 
It’s hard to see the light

Mirra Claire

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