it's growing old 

i've been hearing this since before it grew cold

someone that i once loved told me that "you'll know it when it comes to you"

but it's been years since that telling, i don't know if it'll come true

if i could promise you that tomorrow everything will be okay

i'd do it in a heartbeat,

 i'd tell you anything to try to get you to stay

i didn't think that you would stop me

 and of course, i threw it all away



i've danced around my thoughts too much, i've learned to watch myself

fight all of my next moves, everything i'd do to stop you is useless,

i can't fight my demons if all they're gonna do is bring me back to how i lost you

i'm through falling

in and out of love, it's so appalling

i'm through falling

in and out of love


you can change your face, and your name, the way you cut your hair

you'll come back to haunt me and it's never fair

so i've got to stop myself, i've got to learn to let go

if not i'll never stop it's a cycle that i've always known

i've got to stop myself, i've got to learn to let go

i've got to stop myself, i've got to learn to let go

i've got to stop myself, it's a cycle that i've always known

i've got to stop myself, i've got to learn to let go

i've got to stop myself, i've got to learn to let go

i've got to stop myself, i've got to learn to let go

i've got to stop myself, it's a cycle that i've always known



if you're ever out there

promise me, eventually, you'll come back to where you left me

stranded in the dark, i'll spend forever calling

if you're ever out there

promise me, eventually, you'll come back to where you left me

stranded in the dark, i'll spend forever calling

this nothing will not stop me

if you're ever out there

promise me, eventually, you'll come back to where you left me

stranded in the dark, i'll spend forever calling

this nothing will not stop me

i'll spend forever calling

out your name

it's all the same

all the same (prod. jolst x recyclebin)

break me into pieces know it doesn't matter
i could say this until the ever after
my heart belongs to the ones i love
but i've always known that it's never enough
i don't have the strength to be a better person
you said to move on but there's nothing here on earth that can
break me from this spell
so you know i might as well
fall right into the patterns
my heart will just stay shattered
i don't think it matters
what i do so i might as well
fuck it all up
rebuilding from the ground up takes too long
i don't have the patience
don't know if i could make it
and if i can't change the past
i may as well not change at all
it doesn't work that way
no matter what i say
the earth stands still when i hear your call

spellbreaker (prod. death x neptune)

cry out and i hope that someone hears me
right now things are better, in theory
i don't know where things will go 
but i think that i could really use you near me

she said that she loved me and then disappeared
promise that you'll never leave - you'll always stay near
i struggle letting go of close memories
all these thoughts of you are all that i'll ever need

hold my heart in the palm of your hand
tear it in half like a card, i demand
that if i ever come close to forgetting you
you'll remind me, like you always do

chain of memories, always forgetting me
you never cared for me you were always remembering
times were better then, you never forget him
hard to live up to a paper thin memory
chain of memories, always forgetting me
you never cared for me you were always remembering
times were better then, you never forget him
hard to live up to a paper thin memory

chain of memories (prod. luvnotee)

it wasn't meant to be like this
i never really decided
the choice was made for me
you're not my enemy

break down like every other day
don't know what else there is to say
i never claimed to be perfect
but this was never gonna be worth it
never felt so comfortable
i can't be on my own

how was i supposed to know
 things were gonna end this way
i never wanted to let go
 but you didn't want to stay

i've torn myself apart at the seams
i never wanted to see it end like this
but i was never the problem
no i was gonna be gone when
you saw this for what it is

i was something for you to throw away
i was never meant to stay forever
the ground beneath me starts to cave
all i wanted was to be together

it wasn't meant to be like this (prod. shiteru)

there i go again
making the same mistakes as i did back then
when will it end?
i don't know the future but i hope it's better than
present state - i'm gonna fuck things up
never getting better, stuck in a rut

i don't look in the mirror and see myself
i'm starting to think i need some help

your eyes shine like a light in the nightfall  
deer in the headlights, swear that i won't fall
into your grasp again
free of the thoughts of you in my head

take me away from here
i think my faults are gonna tear me limb from limb
when will it end?
i look in the mirror and i swear i see the end

see the end (prod. lileffort)

you've got an ice cold heart and you're praying it won't shatter
you can talk your lungs out, baby it won't matter
i don't wanna hear your voice again
a lot of memories,, no i can't get rid of them

heartbreak in the evening, start again the next day
the way you disappear breaks my heart in all the right ways
don't start talking like you're ever gonna love me
i know it's all a game, don't act like this was something
you were gonna go through with, keeping up appearances
i thought that it was clear that none of this was real, and it's
not like you're attached, quit saying that you care for me
a million little lies and all of it means nothing

you've got an ice cold heart and you're praying it won't shatter
you can talk your lungs out, baby it won't matter
i've been dreaming of your voice again
a lot of memories,, why would i get rid of them?

disappear, leave me with nothing again
empty hands, it's not like you give a damn
about me or anything, you've always been so distant
there's a spark in your eyes, but i don't really miss it

heartbreak,, don't take too long before i fall again
in love or to my death,
with every waking breath
i come to realize the one thing
that my heart will break again

everasking (prod. moe191, swiftslash)

she's got a hold on me and she won't let go
she's got my heart and she doesn't even know
watch the things i love start to disappear
watching the end as the time draws near

loveless breaking
i don't even know the mess i'm making
hard to let it go when the end draws near
the worst of my decisions become so clear
promise me that you're gonna let my light fade
don't try to revive me
i don't think you believe in me
i don't want anyone to need me
it's so hard to see me

take my heart and don't let go
tear it into pieces, don't let me know
that the world around me is going to fade
i want to see it happen and not know what it means
second chance
i don't believe that would change me
i've seen the future
i've seen amazing
i don't deserve it
i'm imperfect
flawed in every way
i don't deserve another day

break me into pieces
to show that you don't need this
and let the flames consume me
i don't think you knew me
i am worthless
you don't deserve this
i am worthless
you don't deserve this

loveless breaking
i don't even know the mess i'm making
hard to let it go when the end draws near
the worst of my decisions become so clear
promise me that you're gonna let my light fade
don't try to revive me
i don't think you believe in me
i don't want anyone to need me
it's so hard to see me

mae, missing

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