Friday (Not Thinking About You) - Live Version

Back Before You Know It (demo)

Wrote this song in May 2022. This is a very rough demo of me playing it on keys.

Lyrics:
verse 1:
you're scared of nothing 
and I'm scared "of everything", you said
you can't say that the thunder woke you up 
you were already awake 
and you weren't even there 
no, you weren't even here

chorus:
it's so easy to say
that you're not afraid of storms 
when you've never seen the rain 
and it's so easy to say 
that I should talk to god
nobody taught me how to pray
you didn't teach me how to pray 
you didn't teach me how to pray 

verse 2:
oh he made you so strong
but he took your sight 
who taught you how to love oh so wrong?
you only love me when I fight 
you only love me when I fight
you only trust me when I'm right 

chorus:
it's so easy to say
that you're not afraid of storms 
when you've never seen the rain 
and it's too easy to say 
that I should talk to god
nobody taught me how to pray
you didn't teach me how to pray 
you didn't teach me how to pray 

bridge: 
bunch of screaming 

verse:
I was never afraid of thunder 
and I've never feared the night 
but now everytime I close my eyes I see her
she will never leave my sight
she'll always stay here by my side 
you could have stayed here by my side

chorus:
it's so easy to say
that you're not afraid of storms 
when you've never seen the rain 
and it's too easy to say 
that I should talk to god
nobody taught me how to pray
you didn't teach me how to pray 
you could have taught me how to pray

outro:
it's so easy to say
that you're not afraid of storms 
when you've never seen the rain

May Thunderstorms (voice memo)

sometimes you fall in love with someone who will never love you back. and sometimes, it's not enough for either of you to step away. you're cruel without knowing, but are you really?

lyrics if you're interested

verse 1:
in the lobby of our friend’s place
the house is full 
but we’re alone 
standing in front of the mirror 
you’re behind me
your hands flirt with my collarbones
adjusting my tie 
that i pretend i can’t knot
i guess i’m just dumber around you
you could strangle me on the spot
bet you’d enjoy that too

pre-chorus:
happened all in my head 
you made me a dreamer 
everything that you said 
and i made you a liar 

chorus: 
this can't be the best love can do 
you're cruel without knowing but i let you 
a sad game you're playing 
but it takes two 
a sad game you're playing 
but i play too

verse 2: 
my skin was yours to kiss 
you could have 
ripped it with your teeth 
and i would have thanked you 
but you did worse 
touch my hands 
let them linger 
carve my face 
with your fingers 
turn me on to let me down 
pull me in and watch me drown

pre-chorus:
happened all in my head 
you made me a dreamer 
everything that you said 
and i made you a liar 

chorus: 
this can't be the best love can do 
you're cruel without knowing but i let you 
a sad game you're playing 
but it takes two 
a sad game you're playing 
but i play too


Cruel Without Knowing (Live)

VERSE
cold to touch
blue and fragile
I'm like a dutch
porcelain tile
and still somehow
I'm the one you want 

VERSE
did not crush
in a while
i’ve loved too much
those who were volatile 
i love to rush
my blood don’t run nonchalant

VERSE
I'm not used to being shown affection 
I'm not sure I'm worth your attention 
I'm just scared that none of it is true 

VERSE
And I've met boys
who've put on the same act 
and kissed the girl 
and then take it all back 
and their pretty words 
dug holes in me the whole way through 

REFRAIN
I stay naive 
because I have to

CHORUS
you're the sun, trace the lines of my back 
find the places I've kept in the dark 
you're late. do you know I've been waiting for you?

give me light and I send/shine it all back 
I'll keep some for me so you know that I am
trying to do my best too

REFRAIN
I stay naive 
because I want to

BRIDGE
watching the sunrise 
let it reach my eyes 
it's beautiful

burn through my iris 
allow me to notice 
for a moment 
how beautiful you are 

CHORUS
you're the sun, trace the lines of my back 
find the places I've kept in the dark 
you're late. do you know I've been waiting for you

give me light and I send/shine it all back 
I'll keep some for me so you know that I am
trying to do my best too

REFRAIN
I stay naive 
because I choose you


Dutch Porcelain Tile

VERSE
here we are at the end of the road
i never thought we’d get here so fast
and here you are with my heart in your hands 
ready to give it back 
like it was never yours to begin with 

PRE CHORUS
the weight on your shoulders’s been mine 
for too long but 
i’ll be fine if i let it go 

CHORUS
if i let you go 
what is left of me 
if i let go
am i saying goodbye 

VERSE
draw the curtains
and the hero goes home 
takes off her armor 
and her chainmail alone 

who’s the saviour
when there’s no one to save 
what do i do now 

CHORUS
if i let you go 
what is left of me 
if i let go
am i saying goodbye 
 
if i let you go
and you don’t need me
anymore 
does a part of me die 

BRIDGE
maybe i need someone to need me 
maybe i need someone to need me 
maybe i need someone to need me

The Saviour

VERSE 
I'm both hands in the kitchen sink 
you're patching the wounds on my back 
using the stuff that don't sting 
you're the only one who cares like that 

wash away your sins with soap 
the room smells like blood and lemon 
I'll throw away my ripped up clothes 
And put the knife back in the drawers

CHORUS
I'll be ready to give it back 
clean and stainless 
the moment you ask 

VERSE 
give it time and give it rest
soon enough I'll come around 
you said that  you're doing your best 
and who am I to let you down

I protect you from your own mind 
cause you don't really know better 
what else can I be but kind 
when that's what keeps me in power 

CHORUS
I'll be ready to give it back 
clean and painless 
the moment you ask 

BRIDGE
you're lying again and I let you 
does it only matter if I catch you 
you're trying again so I choose you 
Will it only stop if I say so 

CHORUS
I'll be ready to take you back 
mean and shameless
the moment you ask


Safi

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