always feels good to listen to those real audios after that mood is gone

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like im running a rat race
imma kill myself so im coming in last place
why you lookin at me with your eyes in a bad way
its already autumn, i waited, ive matched my days
on my shoulders, too much weight
nothing left for me here anways
its already autumn, but im okay
with knowing ill be dead by valentines day

how is it already october

no morning wood ever again w mesmerizing

lock the door i cut my wrist im a murder activist
im a bloodshed advocate im a killing champion
get the fuck away from me i should fucking stab you hun
you say that im crazy but thats only when i grab the gun

tear your body all apart i just wanna keep your heart
in a bottle or a jar turn you to a bathbomb
different pills inside my nose perc an oxy i suppose
vicodin or adderall drivin with my alcohol

spotify

murder champ #winning

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
prod both of us as always

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later: 
slow down 
shut up 
take a picture of us 
watch her driving away
leaving nothing but dust

i know 
you dont 
really like to pretend 

you love me so let me go
??

me: 
im sorry
you know me
you expect way too much, again

you're going
still coping
i cant live my life without u in

so she'll go
on her own
and find someone else to make her smile

it makes me sick when i think of what we said
so many words i regret, but cant forget

pictures of us

jaydes - sloth (slowed)

w/ @six-days-after-christmas

like a deer in headlights 
when i saw your face i froze in fear 
ran back home in hopes that 
all the thoughts i had would dissapear 
thinking bout ur face while sitting sippin on some shitty beer
lay in bed dreaming that maybe one day 
youd be near 

monday wasnt good at all 
walking past you in the hall 
i saw you with your friends 
laughing and joking  at someones expense i 
didnt know them 
but im glad it wasnt me 
cus im hoping 
maybe i can talk to you at least

i cant get any closer 
my friends told me walk up but i dont even know her
i havent had this feeling in a while itold her
i know how it endsmaybe try when we're older 

cuz its i hate you and you hate me
your lifes a little more private but i'll still see 
cuz if ur all i need you're all i'd be
but i cant see that much from here i'll just see u in my sleep

deer in headlights

https://open.spotify.com/track/0SKdUlTOSMovvyC7eeZBfR?si=d85f034962354a27

prod me

i am so
so in love with u
try not to overdo
wont stick to u like glue
nothin matters
when u are in my arms
my heart shatters
if i am left to dance

slowly i see
the walls r closing in on me
no matter the story i tell
u'll always be a part of me
not much time before
my bones are crushed to dust
either by these walls or
ur looks of disgust

u say im awful
but so are u
so are u
so are u
can we just say goodbye
one last time
one last time
one last time

dancing alone

https://open.spotify.com/track/777OdHEessMH3T3q20KdMC?si=a0db4adad676429d

prod me

it hasnt been the same lately
i think u like him more than me baby
im so indoctrinated
my thoughts aint been the same since

u stabbed me in my back
and left me here to bleed
im cryin out my spleen
more blood than can be seen

never the same

https://open.spotify.com/track/5ZIIE80NheRzoIBzmo18dU?si=f78fc6c0ed884726

@melodyx_o cover
prod me

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont know why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarrayed
and i cannot feel okay like
i dont have like any power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarrassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed my shitty mood
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

jisatsu girl (自殺) (cover)

it's what you do

lyrics:

(Eric Cartman)
Mistvale I honestly don't get how anybody like you
like your so fucking stupid and you just need to fucking die

(Mistvale)
You can cry yourself to sleep
and I don't really care
because you hurted me

You thought this love was lust
I knew it from the very first time
You never had a heart
So that's why you took mine

You can go away
you don't have to live today

they don't gotta know(4x)

Can you tell me how you know
I wanna kill you
take you body out to the cabin
and make a meal out you
and make a mean out of you

You can cry yourself to sleep
and I don't really care
because you hurted me

You thought this love was lust
I knew it from the very first time
You never had a heart
So that's why you took mine(2x)

I honestly want you to kill yourself

produced by me

can’t pass the time, youre in my dreams
and now i know ill never sleep
do i stay and try to fix it all for her
I’m such a joke because I know that I’ll get hurt 

I know you’re sleeping
hold me tight I can’t see 
you in my dreams
you in my dreams
love me simply
hold me right I know you
can’t feel happy
can’t feel happy

so I’ll sing my songs
will you sing along
will you sing along
but you can’t

I know you’re sleeping
hold me tight I can’t see 
you in my dreams
you in my dreams
love me simply
hold me right I know you
can’t feel happy
can’t feel happy

i know youre sleeping

im secretly a ghost - ive been feeling lost

the good never win

its you
I want you 
its only you 
its you 
that I need...

I honestly want you to kill yourself

Mistvale

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