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I took down my guard
And gave you my heart
Just to end up depressed
You tore me to pieces
And now that I’m bleeding
You still won’t confess? 
The way that you read me 
You played me so heavy
It’s like we were chess
The place that you hurt me
From being so thirsty
As deep as it gets, I mean

I just get lost in my head, I just wanted us but our lives were a mess in a bunch
So why did you tell me that I was the person you loved, if it wasn’t true 
Been writing these letters, addressed em to you
They’re written in blood but the color is blue like your face, when I’m saying this shit to your face, I’d assume 
I’m so done with you now, don’t call me or text me, it’s just too upsetting 
I don’t wanna hide in my room, in my bed, with my head under covers
I’d end up regretting it all wrong, which I don’t wanna do 
This is my soul on the page, opening up and its all on display
Hoping that someone will finally know me, and just wanna stay
And just wanna stay
I just wanna say 

I took down my guard
And gave you my heart
Just to end up depressed
You tore me to pieces
And now that I’m bleeding
You still won’t confess? 
The way that you read me 
You played me so heavy
It’s like we were chess
The place that you hurt me
From being so thirsty
As deep as it gets 

I was just thinking of you, and us
I just have no where to go, or trust 
I just keep getting no love, and fuck
Knife in my back so I always run
From issues and problems
Can never just solve em, to tell you the truth in this madness
Pushing my mind off of the edge of my canvas
Feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders like atlas
I dial my plug, fill up on gas shit, cause he always gas me
when nobody else does, been stationed here stuck on my own, in my house
I want a home, but you ain’t about it and I now I keep doubting if I’ll be enough for somebody
You’ve broken my heart, and that shit was as tough like karate
Feeling ours chops, all through my body, the picture gets spotty
I only remember the good, and forget all the bad
But that’s where I’m wrong, cause both what we had 
I only remember the good, and forget all the bad
But that’s where I’m wrong, cause both what we had 
But that’s where I’m wrong, cause both what we had 

I took down my guard
And gave you my heart
Just to end up depressed
You tore me to pieces
And now that I’m bleeding
You still won’t confess? 
The way that you read me 
You played me so heavy
It’s like we were chess
The place that you hurt me
From being so thirsty
As deep as it gets, look

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Trust Issues

Dear Depression,

Lyrics:

Livin on the edge, dunno where to go
Surrounded by a crowd but I'm all alone
Veering off the path, on a different road
Is this where I belong, I will never know

I'm doing this for me because it's all I need
This moment that I live is all I'm guarunteed
I may never wake up when I go to sleep
So I'm living in the moment and I live for me

Drivin in the night, the therapy of the mind
Listening to music thinkin how to live a life
Where you were never living like you felt you were alive
So you going through the motions saying everything is fine

But deep within your heart you feel like something isn't right
And all that you are feeling isn't showing when you write
So now you feel like all you ever do is dissapear
Feel so fuckin numb you couldn't try to shed a tear

But, You feel your running in a circle
Everyday's an obstacle that you have got to hurdle
Pushin through the pain but the weight is growing heavy
Wake up in the morning never wanting to get ready

But the more you hide away the more you losing any purpose
Wonder if existence in this world is even worth it
Everyday is gray, Feel like you can't pray
Cuz you're scared that even God isn't hearing what you say
--
Times are getting tough and I slip into depression
A knife into the heart but I will never show expression
And now within my mind there is a permanent impression
That the only way to love is take your feelings and suppress em

So I been building walls so I can never love again
And now all that I think of is the music and a pen
This room that I have built is really all I know of home
And I wonder to myself why I'm feeling so alone

--There really isn't any question
All it really takes is just the truth and a confession
I'm scared of getting hurt so I would rather be alone
So when people are around I'm always hidden in my phone

Still I really wonder why I feel so fuckin broken
I don't why I hurt, but I know I'm sick of hopin
That I can make it better and that I can make it right
Been moving for a year but now I'm losing all my fight

Seems like anymore that all my words are losing weight
What's the point of speaking if you don't know what to say
What's the point of livin if you can't accept your fate
And all they ever say is that it's better if you wait

--Been waiting for a while now
Been faking my expression but only holds my smile down
Running from the pain hopin that it would be mild now
But it's all up in my head, now you're telling me to smile now

huh, now my mind is going weak
Another fucking burden and I'm falling to my feet
The pain that i been feeling isn't really new to me
But now everything I feel is out for everyone to see

And everything I know has started falling into pieces
Look into my soul, wonder where my inner peace is
But everything inside going cold and as it freezes
My mind is shutting down as a result of these diseases

Maybe I am weak, maybe all I am is dirt
And karma came around so all I ever feel is hurt
Addictions that I fight while I am weaker than you know
No matter what I say it feels I never seem to grow

I started making music as a way to vent the pain
Writing what I felt because I knew I'd never say
When I look in a mirror all I see is not enough
Never hated who I am but still I hate who I've become

Fuck, I guess I better face it
I wanna do what's right got me up at night n pacin
All I wanna see is just the glimmer of the light
It's not within myself but I can see it in your eyes

If I can make it better for a single fuckin person
Tell me what you're feeling now I swear you're not a burden
I know i'm broken down but I only wanna help
I  tear myself apart, conversations with myself

Conversations With Myself(Prod. Young Taylor)

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LYRICS

i'm always so alone
even when surrounded 
by people that i know

i'm always so astounded
by my ability to ruin everything
losing friends and starting fires
everyone thinks i'm a liar

i always stay at home
cause i'm not good in public
i sit here on my phone

i'm always disappointed 
i watch them live their lives
i wish that i were happy
victim of my generation
time machines can not erase it

who am i supposed to be?
when will i be complete?
when will they be proud of me?
it's getting harder to see

slit my wrists, bloody fists
questioning why i exist

pain persists, evil gifts
fucking up my life to shit

i'm worthless, i'm worthless
i'm worthless, slit my wrists until i bleed out

i try to stay strong
no matter what i do,
i'm always in the wrong

it never gets easier,
but maybe that's the point
it's part of growing up
messing up and learning from it
that's just life, it's necessary

clinging to hope
what else is there to live for?
got nowhere to go
what else is pain good for?

i am confident that your life has purpose
it's okay, you will get through it
don't give up cause someone needs you

please, don't give up
gotta stay strong, gotta move on
gotta know hope, when you feel low
please, you gotta know
that someone needs you

please, don't give up
gotta stay strong, gotta move on
gotta know hope, when you feel low
please, you gotta know
that i need you

worthless

So tired - Josh A

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lyrics:
jack and jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of water
his feet slipped up and then he fell but his heart was fallin' faster
tumbled down to the ground and she came runnin' after
the water rained from his eyes like a rollin' river

and he said
why do you love me, i'm such a fuckin' mess
why do you need me, my life is such a wreck
lovin' me ain't easy, i'm broken in the head
it's like nobody sees me, i'm better off just dead

but she said
i see you for you, you're perfect in my eyes
so wipe those tears away, can't stand to see you cry
i'm so in love with you, i need you in my life
you're not invisible, i'd lose it if you died

so why do i love you, it's 'cause you're my fucking man
and why do i need you, 'cause you're my lovely wreck
lovin' you is easy, you make me feel so blessed
and i love you baby, had to get that off my chest

when jack and jill went up the hill they didn't find the water
they found a love for themselves in the happy never after
so broken jack found love in jill, now his heart is full of laughter
yeah fairytales they do exist, sometimes they're found in disaster

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