PRODUCED BY kaonashi

HANDS

hook 1:

please hold on to me, falling
your hand in my hand
your hand in my hand 
your hand 

please hold on to me, falling
your hand in my hand
your hand in my hand 
your hand 

verse 1:

chasing your ember, puppet to weather  clawing for a past i cant remember 
embracing slaughter, wasting the water 
im sorry mom, leaving home didn’t make me stronger

i been gripping on to memories i cant recreate 
haunted by venom i can’t escape 
envious of cages that i left, 
toxygen replaces my breath, i been racing with death 

living in eclipse, can i outrun the sun?
nowhere else to hide, i got nowhere else to run
at times it feels like maybe i’m not loved by anyone 
man i wish that shit hurt, i wish i wasnt numb 

bury me in all my favorite colors
if my corpse is burnt, close the casket for my mother 
can you please stitch my broken skin
set me free of everything that i am holding in

hook 1:

please hold on to me, falling
your hand in my hand
your hand in my hand 
your hand 

please hold on to me, falling
your hand in my hand
your hand in my hand 
your hand 

verse 2:

what could lie beyond the brittle crystal bridge?
only what you take with you, but never what you give 
it’s an ordained passage, mummify my memory 
i wonder id look like if i was the man that i pretend to be 

i just harbor your echo 
the photos i wont let go
i just tend to our meadow, and cling to the moribund roots
i just wish that i could grow as fast as i run from the truth 

i been spilling blood for synthetic bliss 
wanna call home more than i am willing to admit 
but time passes, i learn but can i ever know enough?
im getting older but im never growing up 

apostate’s tribe the ashes, scattered in the wind
im hard to look at, the slashes tattered on my skin 
i just don’t belong here, i gotta phone home 
if you offered me your hand, i would never let it go

hook 1:

please hold on to me, falling
your hand in my hand
your hand in my hand 
your hand 

please hold on to me, falling
your hand in my hand
your hand in my hand 
your hand

HANDS

old track from like 8 months ago where mizu and juan had some fun and made a cool lil song

penmanship venomous, writing these sentences 
sending the messages 
letting this medicine, conquer my reverence 
rhetoric messages

attempt to abolish the temple or college
assemble the knowledge
topple hip hop with a tropical topic if we keeping it honest, i sleep with a goddess

i been breaking records, i been taking measures 
to make sure i shelter the feathers 
we’re tethered together 
the alpha-male, i’ll fuck the alphabet, sever the letters, the lesser the better 

you can only see me in 3D
i don’t really fuck with CD’s
i’m here to tell you what we need
fuck the PO’s like C3

i been with the demons, i been with the god 
i see a bit of both inside my squad 
i been the boss, who needs no applause
i cannot fold, so i’m bending the law 

i don’t wanna bleed like this like woo
offer new flows just to feed my kids like woo
suckers who need my dick like woo
can’t hear me then read my lips like woo

i don’t need you, need you, need you
but i see 3 boo’s, and my ghost see through 
and i see 3 twos so that makes you the one 
and i been a star so you can be the sun 

and i’m blowing through trees like i don’t care to breathe 
we’re chosen to be, the golden and free
a moment of peace, to those on the beats 
you saying that you hot, but you frozen to me

past (ft. JuannyOG)

this is version 2 of a song that has yet to come out. u will hear these verses again on a very different song

PORES

verse 1:

in the light, you can see all my pores 
in the light, my skin is torn
in the light, you can see all my pores 
in the light, my skin is torn
my skin is torn
my skin is torn
my skin is torn

if my imperfections are illuminated in the light
then i will seek refuge in the dark
hiding from the truth
disguise myself from you
if my pores and torn skin
my cuts, bruises, marks, and specks 
can only be seen when in the light
then i’ll forever hide in in the dark


verse 2:

i been looking at myself and all i really see is you
slicing skin, i’ll replace my face until it’s new 
a life accepting fate is better spent than life of running
but i find freedom in blindly running till i am nothing

obsessive thoughts, the habits that i caused
i try to cherish time we had and not resent the time we lost 
i left home, i miss my family when im gone
i wonder if without them, am i even strong?

i see your habits in my actions, the parallels im scared to tell 
and i don’t believe in me no more, im prepared to fail 
i didn’t do it for the playlists or the product placements 
i did it until i became my favorite 

now i wonder if this living’s even worth it 
if i can’t make a song that i consider perfect
i fear i live along the brim of saying too much
and saying not enough, do i deserve your trust?

i dread the moment our paths cross, a ghost i can’t escape 
she’s a fragment of my past that im scared to face 
saw her in my hometown bar, left without a trace 
she’s a phantom of the sins i can’t erase 

i know i need to make amends but i can’t find the strength 
can i live life with the guilt or can i live it safe
the warmth of sunlight became nothing more than an echo
as i hold on to all that i can’t let go

i been watching the parts of me i love most just fade away
i wish i had the strength break the blade 
i wanted to be heroes, fantasize to save the day 
but i’m tethered to the walls of the cage i made 

my brittle bones are weathered, i can’t hold together 
im falling apart so i can’t promise you forever 
paradise or paradigm, scared of life or scared of time 
parasitic paradox, im scared to live and scared to die 

i wish i had the talent that i fake
i wish i had the balance that i hate
perhaps my privilege permitted me to drown in the illusion 
i been so focused on fiction i forgot you’re human 

i wish i could rescind the resentment i hide in
the sweater that you gave me, that’s the same one i fly in
my brother wrote a message in blood, and sent the letter
he said make sure to sever ties that don’t hold you together

PORES

this is version 1 of the previously shared song. version 3 is the version of the song that will be released officially.


parasite

verse 1:

i been looking at myself and all i really see is you
slicing skin, i’ll replace my face until it’s new 
a life accepting fate is better spent than life of running
but i find freedom in blindly running till i am nothing

obsessive thoughts, the habits that i caused
i try to cherish time we had and not resent the time we lost 
i left home, i miss my family when im gone
i wonder if without them, am i even strong?

i see your habits in my actions, the parallels im scared to tell 
and i don’t believe in me no more, im prepared to fail 
i didn’t do it for the playlists or the product placements 
i did it until i became my favorite 

now i wonder if this living’s even worth it 
if i can’t make a song that i consider perfect
i fear i live along the brim of saying too much
and saying not enough, do i deserve your trust?

i dread the moment our paths cross, a ghost i can’t escape 
she’s a fragment of my past that im scared to face 
saw her in my hometown bar, left without a trace 
she’s a phantom of the sins i can’t erase 

i know i need to make amends but i can’t find the strength 
can i live life with the guilt or can i live it safe
the warmth of sunlight became nothing more than an echo
as i hold on to all that i can’t let go

verse 2:

i been watching the parts of me i love most just fade away
i wish i had the strength break the blade 
i wanted to be heroes, fantasize to save the day 
but i’m tethered to the walls of the cage i made 

my brittle bones are weathered, i can’t hold together 
im falling apart so i can’t promise you forever 
paradise or paradigm, scared of life or scared of time 
parasitic paradox, im scared to live and scared to die 

i wish i had the talent that i fake
i wish i had the balance that i hate
perhaps my privilege permitted me to drown in the illusion 
i been so focused on fiction i forgot you’re human 

i wish i could rescind the resentment i hide in
the sweater that you gave me, that’s the same one i fly in
my brother wrote a message in blood, and sent the letter
he said make sure to sever ties that don’t hold you together 

sometimes my faith misguided by my race 
sometimes my fate is blinded by this maze 
sometimes i cower in a tower, i’m afraid
sometimes i hesitate to leave without a trace

sometimes i wonder if this is forever 
if this bond can really stay together with no tether
sometimes i wonder if our blood defines our love
if i can love my friend more than a cousin i don’t trust 

sometimes i wonder if i made the right decisions 
if i gave up, i wouldn’t live life fighting prisons 
sometimes i’m petrified that they will clip my wings
if they will slice my tongue so i can never live to sing

sometimes i question insecurity 
i wonder if you feel better while you’re hurting me?
sometimes i bleed attempting to be perfect 
sometimes i breathe and question if it’s worth it

verse 3:

i been wondering if i’ve chased the wrong things 
i been wondering if i should let the song sing
i need to shut the fuck up

PARASITE

TRIED

something went wrong, and here we are

im better than your favorite rapper

scrap outro from 'THE SHIP IS SINKING'

WATER

prod. @kaonashibeats

how could you have left us broken?
how could you have left us broken?
broken
so broken
how could you have left us broken?
broken
broken

soulless soul
my shadow grows
they'll never know
they're letting go

i'm so alone
more than before
i cannot roam
i'm born at war

no matter all my efforts, i know it's not enough
i offer you my flesh cause our oath is wrote in blood
if you let go right now, perhaps i'll know freedom
before i'm down, killed by what's left of my love 

how could you have left us broken?
how could you have left us broken?
broken
so broken
how could you have left us broken?
broken
broken

don't let go
don't let go
ghost
can't escape
don't let go

spotify :)

broken vr. 2

prod. @kaonashibeats

how could you have left us broken?
how could you have left us broken?
broken
so broken
how could you have left us broken?
broken
broken

soulless soul
my shadow grows
they'll never know
they're letting go

i'm so alone
more than before
i cannot roam
i'm born at war

no matter all my efforts, i know it's not enough
i offer you my flesh cause our oath is wrote in blood
if you let go right now, perhaps i'll know freedom
before i'm down, killed by what's left of my love

how could you have left us broken?
how could you have left us broken?
broken
so broken

broken vr. 1

prod. kaonashi (@kaonashibeats)

the night whispers to me outside my window
as a child it was haunting, now it is my kinfolk
personify the dreams that's bleeding from my pillow
my eyes have grown as red and black as back of a black widow

my spirit flows away in midnight winds
demonic flowers blossom, as i write my sins 
i wrote a couple raps just to entice my friends
5 years later, burning portrait i ignite the blitz

voices are much scarier at night 
i fortify and build a barrier to fight
maybe the sun will rise before the demons get to me 
i wont even outlive these kids that bleeding hennessy

nocturnal living, all the dreams i wont get to see
wonder what i’d look like if i was the man that i pretend to be 
i’m not authentic, my dream is not perfected 
i just reflect desires, lost myself amongst the wreckage 

shit, he not coming back
no he not coming back

midnight whispers

prod. kaonashi (@kaonashibeats)

***

they ask me, why it’s held within
i wont be beautiful if i just wear my scars on skin
you’re not my enemy, but you are far from friend 
they ain’t hear me, can we start again?
woah woah
woah oh woah 
can we start again 
can we start 
can we start again?

(i’m not feeling alright 
don’t you say, don’t ever say goodbye)

a world of color erodes to monotone 
consumed by isolation in the sea that i will roam
in love with a ghost 
ever since that moment, my soul remaining closed 
scars on my skin, and i’m falling again
you’ve left my presence i mourn and repent 
forever trapped in one moment 
hard to run when you’re forever frozen 
gripping what’s left of your ghost with all my strength
we ran out of time, so many memories we had yet to create 
in the fields that i wander, the feeling is so somber 

they ask me, why it’s held within
i wont be beautiful if i just wear my scars on skin
you’re not my enemy, but you are far from friend 
they ain’t hear me, can we start again?
woah woah
woah oh woah 
can we start again 
can we start 
can we start again?

(in love with a ghost)

scars on skin [full demo]

reflections

[ reflections ]

part 1: prod. @sqorb verse. @jordanisdead
part 2: prod. @cyrusiszuuded verse. @juannyog
part 3: prod. @kaonashibeats verse. @jordanisdead
part 4: prod. @allblueraps / @nobodymakesbeats verse. @allblueraps

posse cut

call me kao [kay-oh]

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broken vr. 1

mizu yūrei

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