ouuuu i made an eeky song

written, produced, sang, pretty much everythng by me tehee ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა

lyrics ー

somebody be sure
to check on me
if i ghost
to make sure
i'm still
safe at home
to help me feel
less alone
to watch my tears
leak through my bones,
still so stubborn
that only i
can help myself
that it's exhausting to
everybody else
i see the sky
it gets more close
but i refuse help,
sink into a 
quicksand dream
breathe through my 
wide nose
try to stop strugglin
so it'd finally let
me go, 
another repeat nightmare
filler episode
turn the television off, 
i cry every time 
despite knowing how this
episode goes
i've talked enough
but not enough
considerin my mind's
plagued with stuff
i either can't remember
from repressing
or shit i worry
is too concerning, 
(i worry ×3) depressing
(who else is gon do it??) 

i'd stare over
my mirror until
the person in it
stared back vacantly,
wash my skin
until my body
shines clear
but i find, there's
still a dirty feeling
that lingers on me,
i pick at it
a little
with an itching feeling
but my mind
tells me
to not scratch
when my heart
tells me to
tear away this husk,
i thought i fixed it
i thought once
it was done
i wouldn't have to
relive it
so why, so why is it
in horror movies
that feature in
my sleep,
i'll eradicate it
before they find it
with luminol
and shame me
for that itching pain

i am the 
burning bridge
i am weightless
touch me so light
i am clean
i am calm
thin me out
like turpentine,
i am the soil
and i'm the ocean
i'm the shore
that pulls you
in between the midnight,
i am smooth
i am empty
i am nothing
if not something
for you to cleanse
of the life
i thought i knew
all i knew
means nothing
because of you,

i am only existing
for the sake
of you
is that what you
wanna hear?? will
singing your praises
manage to
quell my pain
cause you broke me
then took it
upon yourself
to console me, 
blaming somebody else
offer me a hug
but there's wire
n needles in
your sleeves
where's my love
you promised
you wouldn't let them
wound me
but you supply
hallucinogenics with a look
soft smile
to conceal the teeth, 
tearin flesh outta me
i thought that was
a lovin touch
and you told me
i meant so much, 
but i'm your
chalk outline
you cover it up
with charisma n 
a shrug
made me scared
of your love

mouve. ー luminol.

everythng written, produced, sang, made by me :)

lyrics ー

nobody's here for me
except me
latch a bear trap
around my foot
to remind me
i'm still here,
infestation of bugs chirping,
and i think their
song is a
warning sign, 
of my fears,
break my back
watch my spine
come out over
everything i've shouldered
tryna not complain,
'' i could cope on my own '' 
try to convince
myself again, 
but now i've annoyed
my friends again
i talk too much
i feel too much
i express too much
pressure myself so much
could i consider
it enough??
drag me underwater
by my hair
so i can hear the
ocean drown it out
and after distress
comes peace, oh,

readjust my brain
to your liking
i'd do it
for everybody i know
to avoid the biting
sting of the bear trap
i set on myself
for being
too much of myself
and never asking
for help,
not to demand too much
but could you
hit harder
so i can learn better
so i can stop this song
and so it'll
be over,
pain is how i'll learn
so do your worst,
the glow
of a soft peripheral light
follows me home
and warms my
naked bones,
dig a hole
into the earth
cause i don't need
the sun
only to be shadowed
by your light, 

( scared of my heart
have you seen her
talking shit bout me??
cause they turn on
me but my brain
tells me
to stop feeling
stop feeling EVERYTHING
so it isn't in
the way,
you made me forget
what i'm capable of
next time i see you
it'll be a punch
and not a hug,
i lock it up
in a forest
trap it in a
hollowed tree
and burn it,
keep the bear traps
as a reminder
scratch the wounds
to prove it happened
didn't know my
walk would have
a plus one
didn't know they
had a knife
so i blame myself
for not being
underneath the sun 
the walk home
becomes a run
 run..run..RUN!! )

mouve. ー bear trap.

raaagh

lvl 19 pan-polyam; enby/fluid; she/they; native latine (taíno) 🇵🇷🇨🇱🇲🇽

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mouve.

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