I wrote this while all of the controversy over gay marriage in the media was at its peak.
I have friends and friends of friends who are openly gay and this song is for them.
It was just supposed to be a poem but I thought it might be fun to record it to a beat so this is the result.

Freedom

I knew a kid named K
He struggled everyday
As he didn't know how to tell his parents he's gay
He's walkin though life
With thoughts close to a knife
Nobody sees why his mind is surrounded by strife
He thinks about givin' up
Cuz he feels like he's stuck
He can't get over the pressure of his parents givin' him up
He's only got one true friend
And Craig doesn't seem to cringe
When he learns that K is thinkin' about puttin' his life to an end
K feared that his bud
Wouldn't hesitate to flood
K's mind with angry words that would only boil his blood
Since Craig's understanding
Of K's sexual branding
He feels so much better, he no longer feels stranded
Alone in his head
He zones in his bed
Contemplating his feelings but he's not ready to tread
Up into his own home
He feels small like a gnome
When he struggles to find the words of his own
Stands face to face with his dad
Fearing that his old man will be mad
They've had a great relationship and K doesn't want it to go bad
But he can't hide from himself
If his dad rejects him, he'll delve
Into his room and grab the four four (.44) on the shelf
And put and end to his life
To finally end all the strife
All because he wants a husband instead of a wife

Don't get this wrong, I ain't reppin' myself
I just got friends who want their freedom over anything else
They might be scared to speak
So I'm using my voice to reach
Out to you people who don't seem to agree 
That all these people want is just to be free

Why can't anyone see
Who he struggles to be
He fights himself everyday but there's just one way to be free
He's gotta tell his parents
He knows they won't be carin'
About him anymore and that's what's mostly scarin'
K back into darkness, deep in a shell
Why'd the devil cast upon him a spell
That'll bring his soul deep down even further to hell
K musters the spirit
And let's his father hear it
Then takes a step back, he doesn't wanna be near him
His dad sits in silence
K just wants an alliance
But his dads not accepting and takes the path of violence
He grabs onto a vase
Throws it into K's face
K hits the ground runnin' like he's winnin' a race
He runs far away to meet Craig
Runs till he can't feel his legs
They both run away on a bike, K on the seat with Craig on the pegs
They got no idea where they're goin'
Divin' into life, not tippin' they toe in
They've made a  plan to stay together and keep growin'
To this day, they farther
The distance from his father
They've never spoken since then, theres no reason to bother
With attempting to connect
Cuz his dad easily wrecked
K's innocent life that Craig has vowed to protect

Don't get this wrong, I ain't reppin' myself
I just got friends who want their freedom over anything else
They might be scared to speak
So I'm using my voice to reach
Out to you people who don't seem to agree 
That all these people want is just to be free

Craig is a best friend
And now he's started a trend
Don't judge those who seem to be just a tad bit different
Gays should be able to marry
It's against my belief but it's scary
When we got a war goin on and this is what we choose to carry
On into debates
We're spreading the hate
Homosexuals are still people, you can't ship em off in a crate
Stop worrying about this
Cuz there's a good chance you'll miss
An opportunity to pray for our soldiers in an abyss
Of firefights and danger
Here we're filled with this anger
Towards a group of people who've been fighting for their life's anchor
This has all got to end
Let's find means to an end
The cuts and scars of young teens who feel like they've sinned
For being gay and alone
Who don't feel safe in they home
I shouldn't even have to write this up in a poem
To make you see that you're wrong
I've been sayin' this all along
Let's let ourselves be a haven where we can all feel we belong

Freedom

My interpretation of a poem that was shown to me senior year of high school.
Unfortunately, I don't remember what it was titled, nor can I find it anywhere.
It was about risking your heart by taking the chance at love and how doing so is better than not even attempting and not knowing what would've happened.

Love Wounds

Please Lord, can you tell him why he's cursed now?
It seems like he's been knocked out in the first round
When that bell rings, it'll be the worst sound
As it shouts at him telling him that he'll be burst down
He doesn't stand a chance against this mighty opponent
The enemy in this war isn't just some tiny component
This battle between them will be his final atonement
If he defeats his foe, it'll be his shining moment
And this skirmish with love will be no longer imprisoning
So he'll fight for his life, God, I hope that you're listening
He calls for you now as his eyes begin glistening
If he ends this fight with a loss, it'll be his life finishing

Why do we feel so much pain?
When all we do goes unnoticed
Why do we feel so insane?
When it seems like all of our hope is gone
We're running though this maze
Till we feel like we'll be done soon
We catch their staring gaze
And we're set aflame by these Love Wounds

When the one that you love
Comes falling to earth from above
You gotta catch your falling angel
Use your soul as your glove
Do you tell them you're dying to be in their heart?
If you want them to know, you gotta make your mark
It's scary to feel you might scare them along
But I'm here in this hellhole, singing this song
Nothing is worse than to forever assume
You're not enough; just tell them you're doomed
Because you love them and would do anything to consume
The searing pain you feel from these burning Love Wounds

Why do we feel so much pain?
When all we do goes unnoticed
Why do we feel so insane?
When it seems like all of our hope is gone
We're running though this maze
Till we feel like we'll be done soon
We catch their staring gaze
And we're set aflame by these Love Wounds

When all you can do is lay in your bed
And feel like you're doomed. hear what I've said
Get up off the ground and tell them what you're feeling
Whether they accept you or not, at least they're done stealing
Your heart and your soul; move on to new things
I know it feels cold but love's warmth is so soothing
And as blissful as it gets
Love is stressful, that I'll admit
But you gotta press on, love will guide you
I've taught you this lesson, now use it to find you
Someone who will treat you just as you deserve
And you'll always remember just what you're worth

Why do we feel so much pain?
When all we do goes unnoticed
Why do we feel so insane?
When it seems like all of our hope is gone
We're running though this maze
Till we feel like we'll be done soon
We catch their staring gaze
And we're set aflame by these Love Wounds

Set aflame by these Love Wounds
We catch their staring gaze
And now we're set aflame by these Love Wounds

Love Wounds

I guess this is what happens when God uses me for his glory.

Savior

Why must y'all believe it's so cold on this globe
When will y'll see that's just bogus, there's hope
I'm spreadin' my strife with passion and love
Keep livin' ya life and you won't be crashin' above
Where I'll be, up high, with God on my side
You'll be burnin' in firepools, you better fight
For your life or end up where you don't wanna be
Quit hittin' ya wife and get up on ya feet
You're trippin' around; got a bottle o' liquor in hand
Get off of that stuff man, lose it quicker then stand
Up and get back on a path; the road not taken
People will bash on your past but frost is not mistaken
When the road that, as it should, comes up to a fork
Will you stay sober for good, or just pop the cork
No one on this earth can make the decision but you
There's no skips ahead and nothin' to cut to
Your friends that you have, they're no good for you
I'll wrap you in my arms and together we'll torch your
Life that you knew, kick it back behind you
If you fall back again, I'll light the path to find you

When you're down, you gotta make a choice
You can stay down or you can listen for a voice
It'll call to your psyche and tell you to get off the ground
Do it and feel the mercy that will from now on surround
You and your loved ones and it will keep you steady
Keep open your mind and let your heart be ready

Nobody's gonna think I'm valiant, when I'm reppin' his name
He's the one givin' me this talent, so I give him the fame
If I didn't have God behind me, I wouldn't be here
Think about that, get it stuck in your head and fear
His name like you should; he can do what he wants
I know for a fact, that he's saved my life more than once
Upon a time, I was in a bad place and right when my emotions
Wouldn't let me seek his face or give my life in devotion
I cried out to see who would hear me when I screamed
Wouldn't you know it, the whole time it seemed
Like he had never left me so cold and alone
He had been there and brought me back in the zone
Now I'm able to say with the straightest face
I can't be the only one who made it, so place
Your faith in him alone and see where you'll be
I guarantee you'll change and in there you'll see
You can put aside your vice and all your bad deeds
Take a chance, roll the dice, watch as your life proceeds
In glory and truth when you spark up the flame
I'm here for the youth who don't know who to blame
For their problems, and their sins, and their crimes
Just crack open a book to help you get through the times
When you don't know who to turn to, when there's nowhere to go
In the word there you'll learn too, your past is so long ago
You're becoming the person you've been lookin' to be
With God watching over you, your soul's bookin' a free
Ride to the gate of heaven itself
I can say it because I know for myself

Savior

Happy Mother's Day to my momma

Mother's Day
You'll always remember that April back in '92
When my life began, we saw the fight in you
From day one, after witnessing my arrival
You stressed and you worried for my survival
Through it all, I screamed and I cried
For three whole weeks, you dreamed and you vied
You and dad fought hard to see me make it
Now I stand here today, free and untainted
Those weeks went by; so many doctors and nurses
Few gleams of light kept you through the curses
Only a small chance of makin' it
You said, "I'll be takin him
Home for good, he'll make it through."
After it all you stood tried and true
See, God kept me alive to do something great
Miracle births have a pre-destined fate
Because of you, I've lived my life with joy
And I always promise to be your baby boy
It's hard to say what's molded me
Into who I am but I boldly see
That you've directed me where to go
And where you are is always home
I've made mistakes and I've made amends
But I can't stop for breaks 'cause my life depends
On where I go from here
My life's incomplete
But I won't disappear
Know that I'll never be
Too far away too call or reach
So make your stay, don't bawl or weep
I'm growin' up and now I'm prepared
Because of you, my life's repaired
Unfortunately, there's not much more to say
So I'll spread my wings and I'll fly away
But I'll always remember the second sunday of May
Because that day's important, Happy Mother's Day

Mother's Day

This track was inspired by my dad's message he gave on Father's Day as well as Casting Crowns' "American Dream"

Fatherhood

This isn't a new song
This is the tale of a life
About a man and his true love
What's the price of a wife?
You spend your heart and your time
And you get out a pledge
For her to be a part of your line
Your family's lineage
Once that bond between you
Brings you together
You buy that diamond ring too
That rock to last you forever
You pray that she'll stay with you always
'Cause you've abandoned your old ways
You've stepped down from your bold days
But what is it worth when your soul fades?
Love isn't emotion; it's payment
For your life's entertainment
From your kids' hands in a pavement
To having your own life taken
Life's good till you're fading
Into darkness, your lady
Is at home sitting and waiting
For you to get home, "Baby,
Why are you so late on a Monday?"
You tell her you're put on a runway
Towards partnership so you're workin' on Sunday
Late hours every night just so you'll make it one day

Fathers, listen to this track
It's your job as a dad to put it all on your back
Everyday you'll struggle to find
That in your mind it's hard but you gotta put in the time
To become "Dad Of The Year"
Don't leave em here on this world with it all to fear
You better step up your game
If you're looking for fame then you must be insane
To take on the job of a father
Press on harder; do it for your sons and your daughters
At times it's hard to see
The man you have to be, but you just gotta believe

Everyday you come home; your kids are asleep
You go straight to bed with your love in the sheets
You don't notice her now, 'cause your job is elite
Go 'head and stack paper but your draggin' you're feet
Your family's movin' on without you
They're beginnin' to doubt you
See, the money don't count, you
Put a gun in your mouth, fool
And show 'em what you amount to
You're nothing now, 'cause you've left them alone
What are they to do now, stuck in a home?
Your castle you built there in the sand
Instead of steppin' up and becomin' a man
You thought you had a life down lock
But you forgot to build your life on a rock
That safety net that's providin' you
With the opposite of what divided you
From what once was a love
That you forgot came from above
It wasn't just her that you needed
Not just the kids or the house
It's God that you treated
Like dirt, he gave you your spouse
And you promised when you met her
That she was your angel
And if God gave you your chance
That you would be grateful
And you swore you'd show it to him by praising his name everyday
But now you're stuck in a graveyard where no one remembers your name

Fathers, listen to this track
It's your job as a dad to put it all on your back
Everyday you'll struggle to find
That in your mind it's hard but you gotta put in the time
To become "Dad Of The Year"
Don't leave em here on this world with it all to fear
You better step up your game
If you're looking for fame then you must be insane
To take on the job of a father
Press on harder; do it for your sons and your daughters
At times it's hard to see
The man you have to be, but you just gotta believe

Mokocroweko

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