this song has been apart of my routine for at least 4 days

youtube upload: https://youtu.be/wWnEVOy4yIc

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[Lyrics]
ah
we're doing this again
counting back down from 10
tie loose ends
do this every now and then

this is what it takes
next time i won't hesitate
scaling the ladder
like it matters

no
don't wanna play the game
no matter what i say
you'll complain
i don't wanna be "ok"

this is but a taste
i just wanna take a break
you'll just get madder
doesn't matter

blinding lights and burning lungs
look at me, speaking in tongues
talk to me in past tense
then you'll see what i become

shaking, foaming at the mouth
my little voice gets drowned out
oh, you'll only listen
when i kick and scream and shout

"you don't understand that
your health lays in honest hands"
vicious goring of my soul
take a bite, then eat me whole

seal my lips,
don't sink the ship,
oh i was born to bleed

let it out and tell me more
of what your abuse was for
keep the score
oh but i was simply born angry

mercury
taste of teeth is killing me
protecting the status quo
and it's all you have to show

spirits
tell me why i can't seem to see through your eyes

spirits
tell me why you so badly want me to die
why you can't seem to stomach the fact that i'm alive

thirsty instruments of steel
incisions refuse to heal
oh i'm so hopeless
tell me that this isn't real

is this all that will remain?
when did we get so estranged?
i'm just so scared that
you would never wanna change

want me to be in pain
every treatment's null and void
fog inside my brain my
brittle mind all but destroyed 

oh
my mind is on the loose
come up with an excuse
a safe truce
shield yourself from the abuse

say it once or twice
on those unbearable nights
scaling the ladder
barely matters

hey
at least give me a choice
i'm asking for a voice
i'd rejoice
if i could block out the noise

well this is a test
and i really tried my best
please don't get madder
...doesn't matter

pulling teeth, i feel so numb
where the sound is coming from
no but you can't listen
when i'm bleeding from my gums

i see i'm not worth your time
save a penny, save a dime
oh, you'll only listen
when the brat goes on to whine

you can't understand
the blood is coming from your hands

drowning in hysteria
inherent argyria
please don't speak,
to keep the peace,
oh you don't need your needs

let it out, it's gonna blow
i hate you, just so you know
overflow
oh but i was simply born dirty

iron bars
talking over all my scars
protecting the status quo
cuz it's all i've ever known

spirits
tell me why i don't feel like myself today

spirits
tell me why my body feels so far away
why i feel like i'm both the predator and the prey

thirsty instruments of steel
incisions refuse to heal
oh i'm so hopeless
tell me that this isn't real

is this all that will remain?
when did we get so estranged?
i'm just so scared that
you would never wanna change

it's all inside your head
every treatment's null and void
just wanna go to bed
i'm drowning in siliver colloid

spirits
little voices chattering inside my brain

spirits
just like me, on the verge of going insane

spirits
tell me they don't wanna be in so much pain

spirits
realizing we might be one in the same

thirsty instruments betray
incisions made me this way
oh i'm so desperate
tell me that we'll be okay

my wires all rearranged,
so close yet we're so estranged
i still feel scared, but,
you've shown you're open to change

i really tried my best
hope this is the lesson learned
just wanna take a rest
the one we feel that we have earned

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