state of solitude

altered state of consciousness

prod. Garr3tt

mixed by 2manyemoceans #2k24

#real life 

Lyrics:


I say hurtful things 
when I’m mad 
I’m sorry 
But you push me 
to this point 
I don’t wanna go back to that anymore 
Now I’m all alone 
I’m entering a k hole  
I don’t mean to get annoyed 
I’m just going thru a lot right now 

And it’s kinda taking a toll on me right now 
 Why you looking at me like that 
Walking past you in my Klein tools bag 
I’m not gonna lie I really miss you 
And I’m off ketamine 
 I wish you were next to me
This shit really hurts me
I just wanna wake up and see you next to me 

 I just wanna to know 
If still you still love me
Do you still love me

I can’t keep going on like this
Screaming to life can you stop it

Everyday I’m smoking exotic 
At city hall I have  everyone coughing   
do I have a demon in my life 
It’s been haunting me my whole life 

I’m permanently damaged …
I really wish I was acting 
Dis is nothing to play wit


Do u still love me

k333 prod garr3tt

prod kojo x sparr00w 

inssekt x 2manyemoceans

Lyrics

inssekt-

i dont want anyone
i dont need anything
ur not the only one
i turn nothing into something again
i just took a pill i feel it bang in my chest
u said that ur done i feel nothing but regret
i hate u more than u know
i got 100 reasons why i should have left u alone
and ik i need u
cant bring myself to pick up the phone


2manyemoceans-

(nDM)
you left me broken like shattered glass 
all these bits of glass in my hands 
there a lot of things that I regret 
its not losing you its that I didn’t listen to my friends 
you left me in a world of broken trust 
off like 30 lines of ketamine I be so fucked up 
im smoking big gas 
i love acid tabs 
i just wanna runaway 
in public I hide my face 
the drugs get me thru my days
i just wanna be okay 
i just wanna be okay..

2manyemoceans x inssekt - regret prod kojo x sparr00w

i dont give uh fuck what u think of me im off ketamine
im off ketamine
need duh nicotine
all my movements are coming to me
its like it was meant to be

ketamine prod AVGUST

prod. juvels 

Mixed by - 2manyemoceans & facadewitch￼

#ndm
#heartbrokenclub
#reallife
lyrics -



I’m slowly drifting away
Idk I really want to stay 
I hate that things had to be this way 
Shit got so ugly 
But we kept trying 
All for nothing 
I thought 
it would turn into something 

Molly mixed with ketamine 
Cuz im Cuz im so lonely 
no one knows the real me 
I’ve been skipping meals im not eating 
Off da MK my nose is burning 

Im seeing life from different perspectives 
You’re still on the same shit  

I know I’ve done wrong 
I’ve done plenty of it 
Don’t act like you want me 
when you’re still talking still talking to other men
I’m so conflicted 
I’m so broken 
(NDM)


facade-

i know I’ve done wrong bitch 
that doesn’t mean you have to fucking switch on me..
ur friends being ur biggest issue
 make my wrist bleed 
now im so lonely 
Perceiving , the meaning , 
but now my wrist are leaking 
What the fuck is in my cup 
Now holy water i am drinking 
You talk to all the other guys what the fuck am I thinking 
I look upon the mirror 
I’ll thank god if it’s breaking 
(Aye)
Now my wings are flying 
People look at me 
Now I think that im dying 
Take my ashes please
Wipe my tears when im crying 
I don’t think I need a bitch who’s always lying 
A bitch who’s always lying 
I don’t think I need a bitch who’s always lying 
(Yuh)
A bitch who’s lying 
 I don’t think I need a bitch who’s always lying

2manyemoceans x facadewitch - drifting away [prod. juvels]

prod. @aymib3at
mixaroonied by @2manyemoceans
#lifegoeson
#damaged
#broken
##ndm

lyrics - 

I’m so tired of the bullshit 
Ima snort another line i don’t want anything to do with it 
You intentionally try to hurt me 
It’s okay I forget bout it when im off Molly
My hearts beating so fast 
I knew we were never gonna last 
auuhhiuuuuuuuuhhhuuhhhhghj
Always fighting bout the past 

I know im not the best 
 I took the time to know you and now im taking the time  to understand you 

But life goes on 
I fell in love with a rave girl 
6 years of living in hell 

you fucked my life up
I fucked my life up
You Fucked my trust up 
I can’t trust nobody 
I’m think I’m going crazy 
Something please me
I can’t live the same 
I’m trying to figure out who I am 
Lying to my therapist 
telling her that I’m fine 
She know that I’m off the drugs
 she know that I’m lying 


I’m not gonna lie girl you really fucked me up
I’m dancing in my room to cutmeup 
Fuck everything I’m doing ketamine 
All my life i keep seeing broken families 
Off da ketamine i can feel everything
The more truth I find makes me just wanna runaway
Am I gonna be ok?

ik im not da best [aymi!]

I kinda like that i was forgotten 

I went mia cut off everybody

People only hit me up when they needed something 

But now they went quiet when i said i have nothing 

Close people in my life backstabbed me 

It’s so hard to trust someone it’s been so lonely 

Out the people why did it have to happen to me 

I hate that I couldn’t even trust my family 

Friends I had for years betrayed me 

Something please save me 

Off da k I see reality 

im so tired I don’t wanna feel anything 

Just to feel happy again I would do anything 

Bitch im switching switching gears I love vtec

6 speed manual and ima reject 

The worst that could happen I lived thru it

Since a child I’ve been going thru it

Moving from house to house cuz momma couldn’t afford it

Watching her get beat, now that’s why he’s dead 

Doing line after line thinking bout my life , I think I wanna be dead

I’m tryna strong 

Everyday I feel like im too far gone 

At times I wish no one cared cuz by now id be gone 

How tf you gon call me your brother , and then do what you did 

How the fuck is the world running off a 

fakeness

She wants to fuck but im off like 5 different drugs 

I’m so sorry girl but I have some problems 



I don’t like ur energy please stay from me

im off da k and I can feel all da frequencies 

I don’t have limit , im always overdosing 

Too many times I’ve woken up and I see Iv’s on me

In my sleep I can hear hospital monitors beeping 

Da government making me go to therapy 

such a waste of time i kep telling them its n ot gonna fix anything

since a child [scvrlet]

mixed by & cover art by  @yung_krypto

2manyemoceans - https://www.instagram.com/2manyemoceans?igsh=MXF4MXFnanQ0M2hqdQ==

luxuriess - https://www.instagram.com/lux4z_?igsh=bmo0N2U1M2cxbjY3

yung krypto - https://www.instagram.com/yung_krypto?igsh=OTVjc2N0bGtkcXBr

2manyemoceans x luxuriess x yung krypto - thinkin bout life [xtasane]

mixed by @2manyemoceans

cover art by @yung_krypto
lyrics : 


I Can’t fall back into the same hole 
I just wanna go back to living normal 
But it’s all up to me
I’m tryna get over the past it’s killing me
Why why did it happen to me
Yall ruined my trust for eternity 
I’m fucking up 
I’m tired of getting locked up in da county 
Next time it’s gonna be 2-7 years in tdc 
Why’d you have to cross those boundaries 
My eyes have seen the worst anyone could see
You humiliated me
You steady wanna hold something over my head , 
I don’t give a fuck bitch I wish I was dead 
The things I’m going thru not many people can relate 
It’s okay I hope no one ever has to feel this pain 
Im breaking 
Something please come save me
I couldn’t see life without the drugs 
I hate that over the last year everyone has seen me so fucked up
I’m chain smoking all these cigarettes 
Camel crush in an audi rs5 , dats da Brodie Jakob 
All da fake in da world got me so fucked up

its all up to me [xtasane+axry]

mixed by - @bloodl3ak x @2manyemoceans 
prod-  benjithemachine and shyburial

bloodl3ak-

Feel it loading up 
Can’t come back im stuck
Time was speeding up
It’s been getting rough 
Was I not enough?
I don’t wanna trust

And I only get stuck in your way
Find an escape 
Things can’t replace 
Promises that were made
They just break everyday 
Running away

Drowning my pain in the things that I take
It just won’t go away, and I suffer all day
All my mistakes, they just push you away
Finding my way, heart on display
I can’t explain why I pushed you away
My greatest mistake


2manyemoceans - 

My greatest mistake 
Was pushing you away
Cuz you ended up doing some fucked up shit to me 
You made people in my life betray me 

You get mad when I’m sad
 but you damaged me
And I know I hurt you 
But you did some things to me that’d I’d never to do you 

And im Walking round with all these bags of ketamine 
I know im a addict I’m just damaged mentally 
I’m always looking for something to sedate me
I hope this pain doesn’t last for eternity 
When you get mad at me you call me a druggie
But I’m still functioning 

What the fuck is up 
Bitch I’m off the drugs 
I don’t give a fuck 

I just wanna feel numb 
Why tf am I so dumb 
I jus want ur love 


bloodl3ak- 

Too high I can’t take it 
Drink so much I’m wasted 
Keep that smile faking 
I just wanna make it 
I’m running back to you..
Can’t find my solitude 

Feel it loading up 
Can’t come back im stuck
Time was speeding up
It’s been getting rough 
Was I not enough?
I don’t wanna trust

And I only get stuck in your way
Find an escape 
Things can’t replace 
Promises that were made
They just break everyday 
Running away

Drowning my pain in the things that I take
It just won’t go away, and I suffer all day
All my mistakes, they just push you away
Finding my way, heart on display
I can’t explain why I pushed you away
My greatest mistake

my greatest mistake w/ bloodl3ak [benjithemachine x shyburial]

wtf did u do to me w/ luxuriess [Blix]

Ketamine , you’ve been here for me 
You opened my eyes up to reality 
Thank u for giving me clarity 
The truth came out and now I see 

 Who was gonna tell me 
I looked like a fool in front everybody  
I hate that I was so naive
Why’d you have to cross those boundaries  

And im damn near dying
All the lies that were spread bout me 
All the manipulating 
I’m not the picture you portray me to be 
I’m by myself I’m going crazy 
You made the closest ones betray me 
You took the ones I loved the most away from me 


I’m by myself I’m going crazy 
Something save me 
Something save me you’ve done damage permanently 
Permanently now I must live with this for eternity 
You showed me that I can’t even trust my own family 
  
You’ve made me look like a fool in front of everybody
And u weren’t sorry 
I love doing drugs IM
I’m so sorry 
Ketamine

clarity (remix) [deadat18]

2manyemoceans



I see why I don’t get along with others 
Off da psychedelics, I love seeing different colors
Mentally in hell I just sit in my room and suffer 
Deep in a k hole I realize I’m different from others 
I’ve gone thru the worst anyone can go thru 
Where I’m from I’ve really made myself look like a fool
Ketamine and Molly , you been here for me 
Crazy how I stopped smoking weed and nobody wants to hang with me 
Thinking what’s wrong with me 
Off dmt I feel everything
Ion really give a fuck bout material things 
Fuck that shit mane 
I used that have all that shit before anyone did 
Now I’m looking at them like who you tryna impress man
I’m sad at the world 
Bc of what it’s become 
Do you know what it’s like to lose your loved ones 
I tend to only relate to people who been thru struggles 
That’s why hardly anyone understand me I’m always gonna be alone 
always gonna be alone 
they’ve never been thru the real struggle 
That’s why hardly anyone understands me I’m always gonna be alone

lacedgod

woadthiene
get a taste of myne
extravagante elegaince
4x
"
taken off all ye clothes
woadie i been waitin foreivre maane
make de nite turn to day
rainfall on my crakkeling glassedt faace
engineer autt de gaame
iym in my lair i plot & renounciate
ritualistik & kryptik
specifically servin de dream of my children
"

mentally in hell w/ lacedgod [whiteshinobi]

I Wish you told me what was on your mind 
I still think about that night 
I saw the pain in your face 
I wish you opened up to me
you can tell me anything 
Seeing you cry broke me
Cuz I could see your pain 

I hope I didn’t let you down 
I’m sorry that I’m not around 
I’m sorry that I couldn’t be the one you needed 
I’m sorry that I’m still not shit 
I never wanted you to go thru this 
You’re going thru what I did when I was a kid
I understand what you’re feeling
I miss when I would open the door and you would come running to me 
To have that again I would do anything
Everyday I open my wallet to look at the note you left me 

I think I’m dying 

Without you I feel like I’m nothing
You always reassured me that I was something 
To have you close to me
I would do anything

i can feel ur pain [floorish]

so cold w/ dieyowai [?]

Self inflicted problems 
I stop one thing then start another one 
I don’t feel the same when I’m not off the drugs  
Baby girl I’m living life so fucked up 

What do you want from me I’m trying my best 

I’m not gonna lie this life has me so depressed 
Hiding my emotions I’m tired of playing pretend 
I don’t know how much longer I can take this  
I’m at my wits end 
Withdrawals fucking me up I do not feel the same 
I cannot take this no more someone please help me

I can’t take this no
It’s hard dealing with all this alone
The days are going by so slow
Idk who’s real there so many clones

I try to do what I can for people they still envy me 
They’re tryna send me away for 2-7 years in tdc
My probation officer won’t even help me
The ones I love the most were taken away from me

Ketamine in my nose I’m so fucked up 

Locked in room I’m doing all these drugs 
Do you know what it’s like to blow your nose and all you see is blood 
Do you know what’s it’s like to live a real struggle 
Do you know what it’s like to get home and see bullet holes 
Do you know what’s it’s like to be a kid and be homeless 
Do you know what it’s like to be a disappointment 
Do you know what’s it’s like to lose it all

-2manyemoceans

wits end [GrimDior]

Constellations in da sky 
Constellations in my mind 
Ketamine has taken over my life 
Girl I need to get you out my mind 
Girl you really fucked up my life 
You Left me in a fucked up position
I wish I never met you 
I know u don’t believe in me 
U move on like we were never a thing 
U still text me when ur taken
I know u still think about me 
U treat me like I have no feelings 
U treat me like I never meant anything 
I know I was never the best
Thanks to u I have such a horrible image 
There’s so many false things bout what u said 
What about the things you’ve done u r not perfect 
U showed me I cannot trust nothing 
U showed me I cannot trust nobody 


Ketamine all on my desk 
We’re mixing drugs like experiments 
Ketamine coke and Molly 
We mix it all now we get to snorting 
We do fat lines that’s why our nose is always burning 
Ole girl heard I got coke that’s why she’s all up on me
I be so fucked up that’s why I’m barely talking 
She sat next to me when I was tripping lff the Molly 
This is not me this is the drugs talking 
I do not remember I be forgetting 
I have a drug problem I must admit 
I have a drug problem I’m addicted

get out of my mind [Dakota]

I don’t wanna go to sleep tonight 
All the bad dreams I’m having 
Is the universe tryna me something 
I wake up every morning feeling like I’m nothing 
I wish I was something 
I do not believe in coincidences 
Everything happens for a reason 
Self medication im searching for the truth 
No one really hits me up ive reach my state of solitude 
distancing myself cuz no one understands what im going thru 
 Off da dmt I saw the truth when I break thru 
I cannot believe what the fuck has happened to me I’ve made bad decisions that’s the true reality 
I refuse to walk around acting like I’m something cuz I know I’m Nothing

state of solitude [ang3lcry]

You changed my life 
I cannot deny 
What you did to me
You’re so deceiving
You act like you know everything but you don’t 
You want me to chase you but I don’t wanna chase a ghost
I did it for years and it got me nowhere 
I do miss you but it’s gonna get me nowhere 

It’s crazy how much of an impact you have on me
You left your mark on me now I’m damaged permanently
 I don’t think you want me to happy 
You show time after time misery loves company  You always try to paint a horrible image of me
You make me wanna run away from society
It makes it so much worse that I have so much anxiety 
Mental illness that is nothing new to me

I cannot spend my life like this no I can’t 
I’m getting tired of talking to people can no one can relate to me
The day I did 14 grams of shrooms I started my journey 
Idk how I’m still alive after all these drugs I’ve put in me 

Time after time I’ve tried taking my life 
Idk what’s out there but it won’t let die
I’m sorry for all the times I’ve made my family cry
Waking up from overdoses time after time
People wanna drug talk but they ain’t never live that life 
Nothing comes with it so don’t try to live this life 
I’m just tryna spread a message about life 
Over the last years I’ve seen the truth in this life

divine [threelane!]

reality [uguwap]

mk [1lour]

u still want me [7soryu]

alot on my plate [Qazers]

livin in regret [neverforever]

thats my life [Lil Biscuit]

snowflakes [gar3tt]

#SK3TCHEDOUTMIXXX @sketchv2
2many -

I can’t stop thinking , about you 
I can’t proceed, without you 
I just wanna know do you still think about me
I wake up every morning and it’s so hard to proceed 
I just want to forget everything you did to me it’s killing me

Are you still here
Or did you move on like always?
We always fight we always argue
 you made my look like a fool
How do you expect me to get over the past when you did what you did 

I wish,  I could just leave the past behind me
You’re like a sharpie you left a permanent mark on me 

I would do it again 
Don’t think that I wouldn’t 
I take a bump then I get to driving 
Man I’m really thinking bout dying 
Snort a couple lines and it keeps me going 
All you had to do was just tell me sorry 
And what did you do you kept lying 
You fuck me up mentally 
I’ve thrown my life away cuz of you 
Now what am I supposed to do

lux- 

Do you know what you want 
You’re confusing 
You use me 
I don’t know what I’m doing 
I can’t let you get to me 
And everytime you’re next to me 
I feel like I can’t breathe 

2many- 

I can’t stop thinking , about you 
I can’t proceed, without you 
I just wanna know do you still think about me
I wake up every morning and it’s so hard to proceed 
I just want to forget everything you did to me it’s killing me

do u know what u want w/ luxuriesss ##SK3TCHEDOUTMIXXX [twintails]

2manyemoceans -

I was fucked up off the drugs when you needed me to the most 
I couldn’t help it cuz you made me fall into this hole 

Where has the time gone 
Everything’s catching up to me
Procrastination and no motivation 
I can feel myself breaking
Deep in a hole can you still hear me 

Everytime I’m bout to let you go I get a text that you still miss me
Just let me let you go why do you do this to me
Why why 
Living on a dirt road 
Life’s been a lonely road 
I’m so tired of feeling alone 
Mushrooms ketamine Molly and weed
They’ve taken a toll on me

bloodl3ak-

Praying for tomorrow I don’t wake up
Got my clothes stained with your makeup
So much time passing, gotta shape up
Take another hit just to feel loved

Fast paced, I don’t wanna feel at all
Last place, I don’t ever win at all 
I’ll wait, so you can watch me fall
Translate, cause all I hear is walls

Fucking up, my time was lost 
Can’t forget the time we crossed 
I remember we was laid up
Bet he text you when you wake up

Praying for tomorrow I don’t wake up
Got my clothes stained with your makeup
So much time passing, gotta shape up
Take another hit just to feel loved

Praying for tomorrow I don’t wake up
Got my clothes stained with your makeup
So much time passing, gotta shape up
Take another hit just to feel loved

can u hear me w/ bloodl3ak [Arisu]

2manyemoceans-

I’m trying to figure out my life
All alone with no one by my side 
Baby girl I know you wanna have fun 
But I’m jus tryna lock in
I don’t have time for distractions
I don’t think I’m the one for you 

Walking around with Molly and ketamine thinking bout how life’s been doing me 
It’s been real lonely lately 
And I still have problems mentally 

I’m living on a different kind of frequency 
I’m living in a state of reality 
Kaleidoscopes when I’m off da dmt
My nose hurts from all these lines of ketamine 

Joge - 

fucked up in the morning 
At the air port 
Yeah baby I was on the pills 
Smoking new ports 
Yeah you know I was going crazy like a newborn 
And I can’t do anything now 
On the no fly list 
I’m getting to high 

Shawty hit me up like what’s the move tonight 

But I’m just tryna get my life together

tryna get my life together + Joge [monaco16]

I’m so sorry 
I’m off Molly ketamine 
I feel something connecting spiritually 
I want you 
I want you right next to me 
I just had a dream about you 
I’m seeing everything behind the scenes 
What is that supposed to mean 
Can something tell me
Please 
I’m taking signs from the universe 
I’m taking signs from the universe
Kaleidoscopes 
When I’m off the dmt 
Who do you need me to be
Please tell me

I’m thinking back it seems like everyday
I’m doing ketamine like everyday
I’m depressed cant you see
I know that you still want me
I don’t wanna keep wasting my time 
I’m doing anything to distract my mind
I just wanna forget bout u
Can you get out of my mind 
When I’m not with you I don’t feel alive 
We were supposed to be together for life
I know I pushed you away 
I know I pushed you away

signs [zeus_exxy]

I got some choices to make 
I got some choices to make 
I don’t wanna feel like this 
My teeth grinding uncontrollably 
I’m fucking rolling off of Molly
I’m doing hella bumps of ketamine
I’m off all 3
You don’t know me you only know me when I’m off the drugs 
Sometimes I think about it were we in love 
Idk 

You fucked me up you’d never let me go
I don’t know who I am anymore 
Bitch I’m walking around with ketamine it’s on me
Bump after bump I just wanna feel something 
You never fail at making me feel like Im nothing 
Im tryna stop the drugs but im struggling
I’m so used to being a disappointment 
Life , i don’t get what the point is

interstellar [suzu]

You don’t this side of me
It only comes out when we separate 
I’m crushing up my Molly, mix it with the ketamine 
2 am you can catch me at the rave 
I realize that I’m not okay 
My nose is bleeding 

I realize that we’re not getting back together after all
I’m feelin kinda tired so I take some adderall 
Poppin pills and snorting drugs is what I do 
Altered state of consciousness is nothing new 

The truth about you is something that I always knew 
And I couldn’t accept it
And I still miss you 
Do I move on idk what to do

Staying sober has been a problem for me 
They put me in therapy and it did nothing for me
I hope that one day I can be something 
It’s so hard to stop the drugs I’m addicted 
Mixing ketamine with opiates almost killed me
People fake their image that’s why I don’t trust nothing 
I’m chewing gum cuz I don’t wanna grind my teeth
I’m off hella uppers yeah they got me hella geeked
When I wanna come down I take lines of ketamine 
I down a gram and now I feel like I’m floating 
My eyes are dilated
Bitch I’m fucking faded
I’m going thru alot I ain’t been the same lately

this side of me [singleway!]

I need help 

Why did you cross those boundaries 
U should’ve done it with a stranger 
U weren’t sorry when u did what you did 
How could you expect me to forgive it 
You knew what you were doing when you did it


Should I get back with you should I risk it
You knew what you did when you did what you did

Do you know what did to me mentally 
You showed me who you can be
You showed me what you’re capable of doing 

I’m hurt 
I’m broken 
I resort to the drugs when I’m fucked up mentally 
I’m doing anything just forget bout everything 
I still don’t know why you had to cross those boundaries 
(Please tell me)

I hate who I’ve become 
I have a problem with the drugs 
I get so fucked up
Now I’m throwing up 
I’m trying so hard not to give up 
You’ve given me so many reasons
I’m off 5 different drugs 
I’m barely breathing

2manyemoceans

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