Hope In Color

I hate being so cynical
I hate feeling so
Cautious and jaded and scared

What has made us this way?
Who has led us so far astray?
Surely this can’t be
All we can be

Can we undo it all?
Lay down the armor
Of smooth and easy insincerity

Oh, how good would that be?  

I hate being so hard
I hate going through motions
And feeling so dead inside

Sometimes this isolation is crushing me
And it’s hard to figure out how I should be
How I can be
Different

Can we undo it all
With openness, courage and love?
Can I reach out to you?
And you to me?

Oh, how good would that be?

Different

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California Afterdark

We're Unbreakable

Anterograde is the 12th and final song on the Phasedrift Album. Sweet melodies and lyrics interplay in this song, leading to a climactic conclusion to the collection of songs.

Phasedrift

Anterograde

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Liminal space (feat. Kipanga)

The song is a heartfelt reflection on love, time, and the fear of growing old alone. It captures the emotional depth of looking into a partner’s eyes and feeling as if time stands still—despite the reality of aging. Through poetic verses and a melancholic yet tender tone, the lyrics express disbelief that something so timeless could ever fade. The song explores the contrast between the enduring nature of deep emotional connection and the inevitable passage of time. It is a tribute to lasting love, shared memories, and the quiet hope that true intimacy can outlive even life's greatest changes.


Lyrics 

Title: "When I Look in Your Eyes"
(by MOBest)


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[Intro – piano only, soft arpeggio]
[slow build, strings entering at the end]
Just a breath, just a blink... and we're older...


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[Verse 1]
When I look in your eyes, the world disappears
The ticking clock fades, along with the years
You smile like the first time, you touch like a flame
And I can't believe time dares whisper your name


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[Verse 2]
The grey in our hair is a lie I won't hear
You're still every heartbeat, you're still every tear
We dance through the silence, we laugh through the lines
That time left behind on these faces of mine


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[Instrumental 1 – piano + cello]
[gentle, slow, melancholic progression]


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[Verse 3]
When I look in your eyes, I can’t understand
How we could grow old, with life slipping like sand
Will there come a morning I wake up alone?
Without your soft breathing, without your warm tone


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[Verse 4]
We've walked through the seasons, we've stumbled through pain
But nothing could change what still quietly remains
A touch in the dark, a laugh in the breeze
A kiss in the hallway, a lifetime with ease


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[Chorus]
When I look in your eyes
The world feels like new
I forget we're just dust
Passing through
And I can't believe
We grow old in disguise
'Cause you're always the same
When I look in your eyes


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[Instrumental 2 – full band swell with crescendo, then soft falloff]
[strings, piano, ambient reverb guitar]


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[Verse 5]
And if one day we're strangers to time and to place
If you can't recall my name or my face
I’ll sit by your side and I’ll hold on so tight
For your eyes will remember what words cannot write


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[Interlude – solo piano motif returns]
[faint echo of the chorus melody]


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[Bridge]
I see the days fall, like autumn leaves near
But I won't let go of the moments right here
We're more than the years that try pulling apart
We're stitched into time, sewn heart into heart


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[Instrumental 3 – ambient piano + soft synth pad]
[a quiet, warm soundscape moment]


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[Reprise – shorter version of chorus]
When I look in your eyes
I forget how time flies
You're forever to me
Like a truth with no lies


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[Instrumental 4 – ambient strings swell]
[gentle harmony lines playing the vocal melody]


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[Outro – stripped-down piano]
When I look in your eyes...
I still see the start...
Even at the end...
You're the beat of my heart.


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[Instrumental 5 – fade out with solo piano and one cello note sustained]



When I Look in Your Eyes

An anthem for self-growth and resilience. This track is about doing the hard work, believing in yourself, and climbing your own mountain. It’s a reminder that strength is born from what we overcome, and that the dreams we fight for shape who we become.

Ever Gazing Bravely

Dive into the haunting depths of "Lost in the Echo," where shadows play tricks and dreams slice deep. With every pulse of the beat, feel the rebellious spirit of a soul chasing flickering memories through darkened hallways, longing for a home that feels just out of reach. This is a sonic journey of tangled thoughts and restless nights—a call to embrace the chaos and find your heart amid the echoes.

Lost sailor

🔥 An anthem of resilience.
Born from fire, scarred but unbroken — this is my voice rising from the ashes.
Aya aya… you can’t get me down.

You Can’t Get Me Down

If you think you know what this song will be about, you are wrong. It is so misleading, and I couldn't be more proud.

DEBBIE DOES DALLAS (C)2025 Ggreg Snyder

[VERSE]
She doesn't have any money to give,
She doesn't live like the Ewings,
She knows the wealth isn't necessary,
For she can make her charity by doing.


[CHORUS]
She doesn't want any kind of glory,
Or praise and recognition from the crowd,
For Debbie does Dallas, Debbie does Dallas,
Debbie does Dallas so proud.

[VERSE]
There's a shelter in the other part of town,
Where she can provide a helping hand,
On Sundays she works with labradoodles,
on a rescue ranch in the hinterland

[CHORUS]
She's not afraid to go to a protest
Sometimes a woman must be loud
For Debbie does Dallas, Debbie does Dallas
Debbie does Dallas so proud

[BRIDGE]
It doesn't always matter if you win,
Sometimes noble efforts come up short,
Charity's nature lies within,
She stays true to the causes she supports.

[CHORUS]
She's not a candidate for any election,
Or sainthood when they wrap her in a shroud,
But Debbie does Dallas, Debbie does Dallas,
Debbie does Dallas so proud.

Debbie Does Dallas

Solo

Hush in the Rain

Summary

An intense art-pop ballad about losing a loved one, moving through grief, and finding the first steps toward renewal. The narrator inhabits rooms of memory and physical traces—photographs, coffee rings, footprints—while bargaining with time and shadow. The song transforms mourning into a quest: bargaining becomes movement, silence becomes a map, and the grief itself is reframed as a lantern to guide onward. Tension is structured through intimate verses, urgent pre-choruses, and an ascending, climactic chorus that shifts key and opens into communal resolve. By the final refrain the narrator accepts change, carries the lost presence like weather, and commits to climbing the hill toward a new day.

Lyrics

Title: I will climb that hill

Verse 1  
A thin light writes the lines where we lay  
Cold air holds your name between the day  
I pace the rooms where memory insists  
Shadows file their secrets on my wrists

Pre-Chorus 1  
If bargaining could borrow back a breath  
If trade could cut the margin of your death

Chorus  
I will run where the sky will fold and bend  
Pull the hours backward; make the ending mend  
Lift this heavy ledger, learn the language still  
I will cross the quiet country, I will climb that hill

Verse 2  
Photographs like smuggled islands in the dark  
Your laugh a lighthouse flashing one last spark  
I sift the small proofs that kept the world alive  
Cobwebbed mugs and midnight trains that used to drive

Pre-Chorus 2  
If I could swap my shadow for your light again  
If silence had a coin to spend

Chorus  
I will run where the sky will fold and bend  
Pull the hours backward; make the ending mend  
Lift this heavy ledger, learn the language still  
I will cross the quiet country, I will climb that hill

Verse 3  
Soft rain arranges footprints into songs  
Wind erases margins where our pages belong  
I learn the tiny freedoms you left unsealed  
Teach these trembling hands the prayers you never revealed

Bridge  
There is a river stitched across my sleep  
Stone by stone I carry what I keep  
The moon leans in and teaches me to yield  
Every closed door is also an unsealed field

Pre-Build  
I will trade the ache for a map of stars  
I will talk to the wreckage like to a scar

Breakdown  
Breathe in the hollow; breathe out your name  
Folded in ember, I learn from the flame  
The world rearranges; I remain the same  
Worn softer now, shaped by your refrain

Chorus — Climactic  
I will run where the sky will fold and bend  
Pull the hours backward; feel the past unbend  
Lift this heavy ledger, learn the language still  
I will cross the quiet country, I will climb that hill

Chorus — Call and Response  
I will run — you will walk with me in wind  
I will call — and hear your name beneath the din  
I will hold — the grief becomes a lantern bright  
I will move — and carry you into the light

Outro  
When morning breaks I will be newly made  
I keep you like the weather; fierce, then staid  
Though roads remember every step I still  
I will move, I will gather, I will climb that hill.

© 2025 Martin Oliver Beinersdorf. All rights reserved.  
Lyrics and concept by Martin Oliver Beinersdorf. Do not reproduce, distribute, or adapt without explicit permission.

I will climb that hill

Lunar Pack Waltz

Love On Every Side

This music is not meant to be just heard — it is meant to be felt, absorbed, and experienced. Built on sacred frequencies and deep spiritual intention, each sound wave is designed to calm the mind, awaken the soul, and realign inner energy.

These compositions flow between light and depth, between silence and vibration. The melodies act as energetic bridges, guiding the listener into states of inner stillness, emotional release, and higher awareness. Every tone carries purpose. Every frequency holds intention.

This is music for:

Healing

Meditation

Deep reflection

Spiritual awakening

Inner transformation

It does not belong to a single genre — it exists between sound therapy, ambient, spiritual rock, and sacred vibration. It speaks directly to the nervous system, the heart, and the unseen layers of consciousness.

This is not entertainment.
This is frequency medicine for the soul.

Portal Breather

Welcome to my little universe — stay as long as you need.        🩷🧡💛💚🩵💙💜🖤🩵🩷🤍🤎

Hush in the Rain

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