Ecstasy of Fumbling - 6:29:18, 9.42 AM

breaking the kids in - 11:21:18, 1.52 PM

On the Fence
Ben Phelps 2018

Weakened your silence fills the void 
A wasted weekend, give the finger another whirl  
You want a real good time you want your mother in your bed
You’ll see starvation how can you tell when its done

The more you hesitate the more it builds i wanna see you bleed
 
I guess I can’t talk my way out of this then

On the fence
On the fence

Sinking all my limbs went numb on me  
I can’t stop thinking that my workers never work 
Don’t stop your digging put your back into it fool
You think it’s hard work let me get this through to you

Go make your bed then, i’ll divigate, i wanna hear you weep 
…..

Burned it lives inside insentient  
 immobilized  when on the fence 
Cursed we’ll count those gone denouncing god
can’t fake it full of dread its how i live up on the fence

on the fence - 11:21:18, 2.20 PM

truth behold - 11:22:18, 12.08 PM

Out of luck - 11:22:18, 12.36 PM

01 Bethany

Defective Machinery

04 Fly Away

Eating Your Own Tail (Ouroboros)
Artwork by Andrew Powers
Benjamin Phelps 2019


I’m coming back for you, it’s a promise,
And if i cannot find my way back then i will not yet relent
I’m coming back for you, this will not linger
They will not piss in your cup again, they will not  ask you now to move

Come on you know you felt it, when your daddy screwed the pooch
With a lust for your brother’s blood, what a fool chooses to do
I’ll return them now to dust, put quarters on their lids,
I’ve seen a thousand angels cry, but i will not yet relent 

I cannot seem to place it, one thing at a time
The kid bears no resemblance, change my mind

It’s on again, it’s on again, listen to me reaper,
We’ve been here before you’re a snake eating your own tail
 
I’ll send a message to you, another haunting flare
No point in limping onward, getting vitals everywhere
I see you try to manage, while cursing every god
Another broken family, another dogtag in the dust 

I cannot bear to face it, the venom is inside
I cannot bear the thought of it, defenses compromised

It’s on again, it’s on again, listen to me reaper,
We’ve been here before you’re a snake eating your own tail

unpurge your sacrament
they beseech you to conceive
Let the wolves back in your home
Confidence beckoning  

The shields are sure to fail
The wolves will soon prevail
The walls you build will never hold me back
Your a snake eating your own tail

Eating and eating and eating

Eating Your Own Tail (Ouroboros)

Lost My Substance
Benjamin Phelps 2019
Artwork by Andrew Powers


Setting boundaries in too deep
You’re a spinster married to cats
It’s a struggle now to place
Euphoria has left me
Wanting more than i can say 
Have you felt displacement
Have you ever seen the rain
Have you ever seen your child be taken away?  taken away….

Setting boundaries, in too deep

Cut off at the source let me watch it drain i’ve had it
I feel all my vitals slipping, i cannot even
Watch all that we had to try slip through all our digits
There’s no point in trying when you make a rash incision

Running but your stagnant your arms flailing while you’re spinning
I cant tell you where to run, but I can tell that you’re not dreaming
i’m too late i cannot place a face unto a new name, 
i can’t get my bearings but i’m still setting fucking boundaries

She’s too woke too woke but I ate that shit up man, my best friend has gone away
And I lost all my substance 
Pick your feet up I can’t tell you when to run to run
But you’ve got to get this behind us put that away

Lost my substance - 5:15:19, 11.26 PM

Beneath all the reasons why, you couldn't believe and you started to cry, that's where we first met you. You tried to shrug it, tried to hide, you wouldn't look back, but you wanted to die, What would freedom taste like. // What is this? Weakness in my knees. It wasn't the cross, and it sure wasn't a tree. Is weakness a disease? I am a faulty human being, I am defective machinery. // 6 feet beneath names on stones, broken machines and empty dreams, that's where he first met her. Secrets linger in the trees, they took their luck cuz they wanted to see, what flying might could feel like. // What is this? Weakness in my knees. It wasn't the cross, and it sure wasn't a tree. Is weakness a disease? I am a faulty human being, I am defective machinery.

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