Cold Wars

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This song is about my sister and brother and the abusive father we grew up with as siblings. How his destructive rage and anger created discourse for each of us in different ways in our lives. And the regrets I held on to for a long time growing up about leaving my family to do my own choices. Something I heavily punished myself for years and years. The regret of diving into my own anger from what happened with my dad and how life had dealt a terrible hand. That anger consumed me and I left to live in Portland away from my family because I felt like I was toxic everywhere I walked. 

This is the second half to this song being mainly about my sister, the half you haven't seen yet will be about my brother. When the second half is done I will update more about it, thank you for your patience. 


Intro verse

All these evil men
How can we learn to trust
Not just them, any others that bring the problems
On this wheel of life, devil's fuckin' signin' deals, we needed angels
So badly
Sis, you beat so much, fought cripplin' fears, you have so much courage believe it
We livin' bright futures, the hope you buildin' blocks smilin' even with ole' father time loomin' by you still healed-em.
Heart of family, 
Sis we need you,
You bring hope breakin' methods
No hold on us, got no marks, old days, angry lost trash, rippin' journals, thrown away
Police records show how he beat us
Pages of how I failed my sis and mother
I regret it , felt like I had to run or I'd explode from rage, leave ya both in cinders
Gone one week, he's so weak, my vacation left you bruised in tears.
Spring break away from fears
Came back, clutched knife, downstairs couch, ready to see him
But he never came back, the broken bastard didn't want a fair fight, rematch trained for years 
Knuckles white smashin' trees bloody crimson, for days I wasn't there to save ya

Chorus

I left you, I'm sorry
I left for selfish problems
I lost so much time....
I left because I wasn't (strong)...
I left you, I'm sorry
I left for selfish problems
I lost so much time....
I left because I wasn't (strong)...

Ending Verse

So happy to have ya back in life
Make up bein' angry, 
Those early days at you, at everything, choices all made
You were figurin' it out, fightin' pains and survivin' history.
I was so angry at myself that I failed you. 
How I left you there to deal with that demon. 
Never gonna leave ya behind, believe it
Sister for life  and you showed me how to heal it, what I held for so long, that bitter angry hole of retribution. 
Peas in a pod had each other.
Created my own bubble, you both swam in pond, I sat outside the odd one.
So angry at life, I couldn't show you how much you mattered...
When I left home all I could think was how it'd be better
To not have this boilin' ragin' ball of fire burn burn away your love of life you gave

This love of life you gave...
Aahhhooohhh....
This love of life you gave...
This love of life you gave...
Aahhhooohhh....
This love of life you gave...
This love of life you gave...
Aahhhooohhh....
This love of life you gave...
This love of life you gave...
Aahhhooohhh....
This love of life you gave...

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