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bottoms up but the glass hit back
swallowed the shot like a panic attack
toast to the nights that I won’t get back
liquor talk loud when the voice goes flat
spinnin on lies got the room on tilt
truth don’t drip it spills like guilt
they say cheers but I see the trap
they raise their cups I raise the past

been drinkin regret like it’s ritual blood
every pour’s like a hit I ain’t givin up
slurred prayers in a stall with a cigarette
floor cold stall wall got silhouettes
told myself one sip no spiral
but I lost count like it’s viral
my reflection’s leanin off the title
can’t read hope in a broken Bible
mouth dry breath tastes like blame
call that healing nah just shame
I don’t toast I tally the names
of everyone gone who I couldn’t save
eyes on fire but the tears don’t drop
ain’t a buzz if the pain won’t stop
can’t walk straight through the things I lost
but I trace that edge til the beat goes off

I don’t drink to forget
I drink to remember right

here’s to the nights I begged for sleep
to the calls I dropped and the secrets I keep
here’s to the fights I staged in my chest
to the lies I told just to fake some rest
poured one out for the ghosts I see
every time that I sip and breathe
don’t tell me to quit
I already did
but the bottle don’t listen like you did

woke up numb with a bruise on my chin
mirror cracked but I blamed the wind
texts unread I pretend it’s spam
can’t face love when your gut says scam
I was clean for a minute felt fake
wearin a mask with a shattered face
tried NA but I lied at the gate
said I’m fine just to dodge the weight
every bar's like a courtroom bench
where I sentence myself with a reckless wrench
they clap for the comeback I flinch
cause the high’s just hidin the real trench
poured out songs like they’d fix the burn
but the sting in my throat said wait your turn
so I tip this drink to the ones who learn
too late when the tables turn

I ain’t chasin numb
I’m just tryna outpace the sun

raise a glass to the friends I ghosted
to the nights I vanished, the pain I posted
salute the bridges I set on fire
and the lies I told just to dodge desire
one for the silence, two for the mess
three for the nights I couldn’t confess
don’t ask me to heal
I already tried
but the bottle still thinks I survived

been meetin fate in motel sinks
puked out pride on a tear-stained brink
laughin alone with the guilt I ate
room full of ghosts I hallucinate
stalkin my death in a fake disguise
still see her stare through my bloodshot eyes
I fake the sober fine
til my words start spillin in 9 4 time
they call it art I call it scam
cause I sold my grief with a sleight of hand
I miss the me before the drink
but that kid drowned in a lobby sink
I toast to him with the same old shame
then I pass it off like it ain’t my name

don’t tell me it’s not too late
I been past that place

one last round for the ones who tried
to hold my wrists while I said goodbye
another pour for the almost gone
for the ones who stayed while I came undone
salute the scars I never showed
in the bars where I lost control
don’t say I’m strong
I’m barely here
but I’ll drink to that
if it drowns the fear

I don’t chase the high
I chase the hush
where the room don’t talk
and the guilt goes flush
it ain’t the drink
it’s the way it stays
when the rest of ‘em
just look away
don’t call it drowning
I live down here
where the burn still talks
and the glass stays near

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