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Xpills + ulovely(p.neilyoung)

not home's cover of Arctic eyes from 9tails.

not home. - Arctic Eyes (cover)

out now on all platforms.

"away from here." - the album. January 27th.

if it means that much to you.

HYSTERIA

STFD

"I don't want to live in a hole anymore, and I'm going to do something about it."

produced by eeryskies

written and mixed by melmige

thank you


LYRICS:
i’ve been walking on eggshells talkin to clouds in the sky
praying for the rain to wash the dirt away from my eyes
not impossible to probably move on maybe it’s obvious
but habitual withholding of emotion is awful
this is a mutiny the seven seas that rage in my brain
has turned the crew against me cranium organ behaves
a little screwy loose i do good when i can
but soon i’ll lose it cause i catered to the popular demand of the stupid
misdirected modesty and half hearted apologizes
was hesitant in honesty to save what wasn’t mine it’s probably
left an impact more severe than i thought
that’s what i get for all these eggshells i walked

i tumbled gracefully through adolescence
pressed to best this omnipresent presence
in my life a force unseen but full of strife
that taught me many lessons
careful with association more so with entanglement of relationships
a people pleaser what they called me
occasional old soul
gifted in my own right now those talents are gone
cause when a child never took a second
to stand up shout out his message
growing to adulthood is the force he cannot reckon
cause the eggshell steppin whispered words
opinions never given sent the message shooting forward
past the ones he won’t forgive
and shit it catches up unlatch pandora’s box
embrace the wind and listen to the choir of relentless mental blocks

that’s a reality check
that’s an emotional debt
4 years too late on the payment and now they call to collect
what was owed i know it’s harsh but if they only knew back then
all the thoughts that were so hard to say and now it never ends

these unkept untidy undermined unending emotions
swirl and barrel straight through time ignored until they explode
and now it’s where is all this coming from why wasn’t this said sooner
we had no idea there was a problem you don’t speak up do you
we thought it was okay maybe you did seem over it
we won’t acknowledge what the trauma is when you seemed to shrugged right over it
and even when we asked potential issues with the situation
we never saw your mouth open or heard what you were thinking make a statement

make arrangements for it for the kids this pistol whip to censorship
to whip em into shape and since the end of this forgiveness
part of it will live forever love your neighbor blame the devil
shovin hate down wear the tie n smile files in the shredder
claim of evidence but they already knew it
truth to prude to maim emotion only time can make u lucid
to intention but when the time has passed and plots are changing moving
it feels wrong to backtrack and snap on past egregious movement
from the ones you love now or at least hope you don’t hate
that’s a tough pill the swallow but at least it sedates

eggshell theory [prod eeryskies]

Aries - Snake Eyes DEMO V2

Locked away getting ready a meltdown
It’s not the same when your locked up in my head now 

Feelings go away but baby I’m obsessed now 
I can’t do nothing right so fill my head with self doubt 

Anxiety just fills my brain until I decay 
Nothing seems the same when your locked in my brain

I ain’t ready for a lockdown 
Fill my my head with self doubt 
There’s nothing to be proud about 

Turn my fucking focus to the backroads 
Fill the empty promises with poison in itself love 

Hate the voice of reason 
I can’t wrap my brain around it 

Feel like I’m the one chased by the people that care about me

ERROR404 [+ michael harrison]

https://open.spotify.com/album/0PXTP3Hueks72EDBrBpVTF?si=wOYbt-PSQku5cB5Bwmwneg

prod micheal harrison
mix/master @vito2300 <3 

this ones a lil different, but hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:

you said i was different
i should have known
something was missing
but it felt like home
never wanted to change it
just got caught up in truth
now i think of it different

i wish i was you

move on in a minute
be done with you soon
but im just too stupid
to live without you

now ill scratch my skin
wherever you touched me
until im one big bruise
all tattered and blue
ill rip out of my eyes
ill feed them to birds
you can watch as i die
and my lungs fill with spurs

OuttATime

MRTY

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